*** Danielle's Journal ***

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 29, 2008
I just realized how much I hate I-tunes. They have a DRM (digital rights management) which SUCKS. Especially since I've spent over $150 on music. Now I know why people say to put it on a cd. Not sure though if you can burn the Itune songs to a cd, then put it back on a different computer. Hopefully you can because there are a few songs that I burned to discs (before my disc drive fried.) What also sucks is that for some reason (maybe because of the DRM thing) I can't upload any of the new music onto my I-Pod. I-tunes is completely screwy and they are theives! Another thing I just noticed is that I cannot use the resoration program for my computer....because my disc drive is broken! Oh duh....that took me a while to figure out. I'm so paranoid about my new computer; I've been doing mulitple daily virus scans. And (you guys will be so proud of me)...I haven't been going to the sleazy porn sites So hopefully if I don't ever use the tube sites (YouTube) I won't get a virus. I'm hoping to get the other computer fixed up so I can have a computer for both my house and the FTV house (since I spend so much time there.) I'm going to be pretty busy this month. I have quite a few shoots set up...one being in Tucson (which I promised myself I wouldn't do again after the fiasco with the arrogant photog). I'm also hoping to hook up with a few of the FTV models that Rob is shooting this month. Lia and I are supposed to shoot tomorrow at her friends home. We need to convince Lia to hook up with me (on camera of course.) I've been fantasizing about her (seriously!) I hope she doesn't actually read this, because I'm sure she will find it creepy to the extreme. I guess there are quite a few members who have sent me Christmas presents...but I have still yet to get them due to the slow postal service. I've already done a Christmas present video log, but I will do another one when I get the rest of the presents.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 30, 2008
I'm determined to become a Fleshlight Girl...but I'm going to need some help from you guys. Go to this link and email the Fleshlight people about making me a Fleshlight Girl...it would be mucho appreciated.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 31, 2008
Happy New Years everyone. I just ate way too much and need to go to sleep because I have a really early photoshoot tomorrow. BTW, the photoshoot today was awesome. I'm trying to get the photographer to allow me to put the pictures on the contributing section.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 04, 2009
Rob just made fun of me because I said that I would lick a girl's butthole...but only if it is clean and shaven and if she gets off on that. So I finally got to log on and answer all my P.M.'s and post on the threads. I've been super busy lately...now I know what it's going to be like when I start school. I did two photoshoots...was supposed to do three but my alarm didn't go off. I'm sure you guys are going to really enjoy them. I also did another shoot for my site today. Rob was supposed to shoot these two sisters from Quebec, but they flaked out. Unfortunately I was also supposed to assist those shoots (behind the scenes) and if they were into girls we might have done a shoot for my site. How hot would that have been? A three girl update. I've never had a threesome with two girls. To bad they flaked too, because this oppurtunity just does not come around very often. But they probably partied to hard last night and decided not to go. Anyways it was super cold and cloudy today, so the shoot we did is probably going to look a little blah. Rob said that I looked like a little goth girl...which was not the look I was going for (I thought I looked sophisticated!)

My New Years was pretty tame. I could've gone to a party but decided not to because I was scared that I wouldn't get in (like what happened the other night.) Oh well...next New Years is going to be awesome! I'm pretty bummed because AVN Awards and Internext is this month, but I wasn't invited by anyone, and Rob doesn't like that type of stuff (I really don't want to go by myself). So instead of going and meeting my fellow workers, I'm going to be at home, planning for next year. Maybe next year I will pay a few hot girls to be my friends and go with me to the shows .

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 10, 2009
Okay I am really confused right now....I know it is somebody's birthday, but when I went to double check that it was their birthday I couldn't find any post about it. So is it anybody's birthday today?

Yesterday I got to assist an FTV shoot (behind the scenes). The girl was super tall, the second tallest FTV girl that I've assisted. She was cute too...so we also did some stuff for my site. I'm sure you guys are going to enjoy her. I also did video of the photoshoot (and took a few pictures) and Rob commented on how steady I was with the camera, and how I got all the right angles. Being told that by a pro like him, is an amazing compliment (though I'll try not to let it go to my head ). I was also supposed to do a photoshoot with this one photographer, but he was driving in from San Diego, and got pulled over doing 110 mph, while talking to me about the shoot. So he ended up being pretty late...and we didn't start shooting until 7:30 at night. His photography style is very interesting because he is very, very meticulous about the lighting (it took an hour alone to get the lights set up just right.) But I'm sure I'm going to get some great pictures out of it...definitely different from what I have already. I'm pretty excited because I get a break from shooting for a week (which I really need, because I have a bunch of appointments to go to.)

My post on Alexa Loren's thread seems to have stirred up some trouble. Here's the thing...I'm not archenemies with her. We weren't fighting over some guy and there was no professional jealousy. I offered my friendship to her and she rudely (very rudely) turned it down. Despite what everyone thinks, I have a really hard time making friends. I have two female friends...one of them who I think is completely using me, the other...well we never hang out or do the things "friends" do together. So when I make myself vulnerable and offer my friendship to someone just to have them throw it back in my face, and laugh at me...it really hurts me. I think it was completely rude of Rob to make that post. He was there, he saw what happened, he knows about my "lack of female friends"....and then he makes a post like that.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 13, 2009
I'm not feeling very well right now, and actually had to cancel my workout session because of it . There are a bunch of evil mosquitos in my house and I can't figure out how there are getting in, for the life of me. I have probably about 12 mosquito bites on me (it's making me wonder if I have West Nile virus, and that's why I don't feel good.) I've realized that this forum is really wacky. Everytime I go onto the forum it doesn't show the new "unread" threads (the title is normally bold when it is unread), so I'm stuck going through every post to see if there is something new on it.

On a happier note, my sister is supposed to be going to the doctor's tomorrow and my mom thinks that they are probably going to induce her. She is due this Friday, but will probably give birth earlier. Her husband, unfortunately, has already been deployed back to Iraq...though he wasn't supposed to leave until after my sister gave birth.

I start school in a week. I'm pretty psyched. I've already contacted all of my teachers and introduced myself. It finally seems like my life is "falling into place."

One of my fantasies came true yesterday....I got to fool around with an Angelina Jolie look-a-like. I was in absolute heaven! She is an FTV girl, so you guys will be able to see her (by herself) pretty soon here. I'm sure you guys are going to love her, just as much as I did .

I got my hair cut and dyed today (trying to get it lighter...more towards my natural hair color.) It looks pretty good...but then it always looks good after you have them style it. Friday I have another photoshoot. Not sure what time it is, but hopefully it isn't too early, seeing as though I don't function well when I wake up early (case in point...today.) I had to go to my orthodontist (got chastised for not wearing my retainer.) For some reason, I decided it was a good idea to schedule the appointment for 8 in the morning. Now I know to a lot of people that this is a "normal" time to be awake, but for me...well it really isn't. I tried leaving voicemails and couldn't form sentences together. I almost feel asleep at the hair dryer when getting my hair done. And I almost got into an accident (though not by my fault...obviously the other person had to wake up early also .) Luckily for me, I really don't have to get up that early that often....though (yet again another smart move on my part) I've scheduled more appointments in the early morning. One of them I think I will have to get my blood drawn, so it should be pretty interesting seeing me driving around, sleep deprived with blood lose.

I decided that for the birthday video logs, I will start saying the actual birth dates (like May 29), that way if someone decides to lie about their birthday, then it won't be a "correct" birthday video log and will totally mess up people's diabolical plans. Personally I don't like liars and I don't really care for impatient people (though I do get impatient sometimes). It just amuses me that as soon as people see the birthday video logs, they decide that they need one immediately, so they have to lie to me about their birthdate. So not necessary people.

Tomorrow I am meeting one of my members.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 18, 2008
Good lord, I have been super busy lately. But finally I get a day "off"...so I plan on reading, taking baths, and eating junk food. I was taking a look at some of the other single girl sites out there and (not to be rude or anything) but I don't understand how girls think it's cute to act dumb. I saw several sites where the girl was acting super slutty and/or trashy and personally that does not turn me on at all...but FTV Rob says I'm used to "FTV ways"...in other words, the girls don't demean themselves. So maybe it's just me, but I love girls that are fun, and carefree, and have tons of personality...like Zeba Talking about Zeba, she actually returned for her second FTV "return" shoot. I got to pick her up and drop her off at the airport and do a little video of it (with out Rob helping me.) So we'll see what he thinks about my video skills when I don't have anyone guiding me. Anyhow, so assisting her shoot was an absolute blast. She is so full of energy (though we were all getting pretty tired, and our energy levels at the end were completely depleted.) I even got to "take advantage" of her a.k.a. fool around a bit. So I get to mark another thing off my kinky "to do list" (though I'm not telling you what we did ).

So my sister finally had her child. His name is Carter, and he is super cute! He looks very similar to my sister (which I guess is a good thing since she is the cuter one out of the parents .) Rob told me not to do anymore birthday video logs, so to all of you who's birthdays are coming up, I apologize. I got to meet one of my members, for the first time. We ended up going out to dinenr at this really nice restaraunt. And he also got me a bottle of port wine. He was very much the gentleman, and was very courteous (and no we didn't do anything, for those of you who are having naughty thoughts.) Now maybe you guys will be less afraid to approach me in public I start school on Tuesday. I'm pretty excited about it. My personal trainer is also pretty excited because two of the classes I am taking, he considers "cardio"....he has been bugging me to do more cardio. So now I will be working out about five times a week.

I'm thinking about doing a two week to a month long trip around the country, when school ends, in May. I would like to visit my different members around the US and go to some of the places I've always wanted to visit (like Washington DC.) I think it would be an awesome way to get some great updates, including candids. I guess my only problem would be that I would need Rob to go with me (so he could do film and photo) but getting him away from FTV will be incredibly difficult. So I may end up just having to hire a videographer/photographer to travel with me everywhere....maybe Zeba, since she does photo/video for other adult sites.

In a week I will be taking off for Maui. It's pretty exciting and I'm super thrilled about shooting, but it's definitely not a vacation. I will most likely be shooting with other photographers while I am there. Also if I have any members that live or are going to travel to Maui during the 26th to the 30th, I would love to meet you.