*** Danielle's Journal ***

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 20, 2011
Lot's of things to write about. The girl/girl shoot yesterday with FTVGirls Anne was fantastic. I am in love with that girl. She is absolutely beautiful and incredibly sweet and a lot of fun to hang out with. I am amazed at how well we clicked. I feel like their was some intense chemistry between the two of us. She has fantastic oral skills. I think I got her off at least four times with my wonderful oral skills . We did some pretty extreme stuff. I fisted her (she even rode my fist). I was pretty surprised that she was able to take my fist into her because she's so tiny and my hands are pretty big (it's a family trait). She also fisted me (a deep fist according to FTVGirls Rob) a couple times. We also did a carrot and key lime stuffing competition. I am so excited for the shoot to come out. It's supposed to be the big New Years update so keep an eye out for it. None of the content will be on my website...it will all be up on FTVGirls.

Dearmouring ended on Sunday. It was an intense two weeks but I am incredibly happy that I stuck through it. I feel like it is going to be life changing (they said that we won't really start seeing results until 6 months to a year from now). People have been asking me what it's all about so I will explain it a bit but to be honest you really just have to experience it for yourself. Dearmouring is a process that helps you break away the armour that you have created around yourself for protection as you've gotten older. I think you start creating armour when you are about 2 or so and it just continues being built. You use your energy, breathing, visualizations, vibration, pressure points and many other things to get rid of it. The first day you start off with a purifying sweat lodge (and no it's not like the sweat lodges that have been in the news...it's completely safe and controlled). You also do a sweat lodge on the last day. There were times that I wish I never had heard about it. Sometimes I wanted to leave right in the middle of the teachings or sessions. Other times I never wanted it to end and was absolutely thrilled with myself for how well I was doing.

I'm really digging my pubic hair right now. I keep on playing with it trying to keep it in a perfect triangle shape. I like how porn actresses are starting to allow themselves to have hair down there. I think it's sexy and very womanly. Right now I only have a small triangle since some of my underwear is really small and when I would have a full triangle (all the way to the top of my pubic line) the hair would stick out of the underwear...looked a bit funny. I bought two 6 session laser hair removal packages so I plan on getting my bikini line and underarms lasered.

I also bought 3 more laser tattoo removal for my front belly tattoo. I need to schedule appointments for all these sessions I've bought.

I'm a bit worried about my Halloween costume. I'm going as a fairy princess. I ordered all my costume pieces a head of time so they would have plenty of time to make the pieces but the only thing that has arrived is my crown.

Fortunately my shoot got pushed back to October 30th otherwise I wouldn't have been able to do my Halloween shoot. I'm going to a haunted house on Sunday with my dad. We did that last year and I had a lot of fun so I'm hoping to make that a tradition.

I've already started Christmas shopping...well more like Christmas present research. I've found gifts for everyone except my mom. I'm giving my sister, brother and step brother money (the best gift for siblings in my opinion). I guess my dad wants a chainsaw so I will be getting him that. My nephew is getting a whole bunch of cool toys. My mom made an Amazon wish list for him recently. I told her I was planning on buying everything from it which I don't think she was too happy about. But I have a budget for everyone and I don't want to spend less on one person and all the items on the wish list come out to exactly the amount I want to spend so my mom is just going to have to be okay with me buying all the items on the wishlist. I found an awesome gift for FTVGirls Rob to which I think he will really like. I won't write what it is on here since I'm not sure if he reads these entries or not.

I have quite a bit of editing I need to get done today. I'm yet again late on an update so I need to get that up ASAP. I also have 3 videos that have not been edited yet. I really need to keep on top of these things.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 10, 2011
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[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 07, 2011
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Here is the kitty I mentioned in the video.



Love Bug in her pilgrim costume.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 16, 2011
Well I don't think the anal sex video is going to be up today. I went to make the screen shots for the video and found out that the video was completely screwed up (about 6 minutes of it is frozen video). I edited out all the frozen parts of the video but I'm not at all happy with it (there's only about 2-3 minutes of anal sex since I had to edit out all the frozen parts). I'm going to pick up the original files from my photographer so let's pray that it isn't corrupted too. The photographer thinks my computers may not be powerful enough to support editing the videos since we were using a super HD video camera (the first time we've ever used it). If that's the case then I will have to see if FTVRob will let me use his computer to edit the video.

Worse case scenario...if the original files are corrupted then I will put up the short, edited version anyways and will shoot a candid anal scene tonight or tomorrow and put it up ASAP. I'm just really iffy about that because I shot a BDSM fem dom scene on Monday and my back and butt are all bruised up (though it's mostly my butt). If I do shoot it I will have to cover the bruises up with Dermablend...hopefully that will work.

I don't know why I didn't completely edit the video (make the screen shots and the coverpage) until the day it was due. I've never had to deal with something like this before and it really sucks that it had to happen to my big update of the year. I feel like an a$$ too because I've been promoting this update for a while now. I knew we shouldn't have used that camera too. The photographer asked me if I wanted to use the one we had been using or the new HD one that FTVRob uses.

Continued 5:32 PM

I think it's my computer that is the issue. It is playing the files I got from my photographer perfectly fine. It's only when I'm editing it or when the video is processed that I start having problems. Well that sucks. Hopefully he can resend me the videos in something other than super HD.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 24th, 2011
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I'm getting two kitties now. The breeder offered to give me the girl kitty (she has hair) for free. I'm so excited about getting them in February. I'm really, really hoping that Love Bug and them will get along very well.





The webcam is being updated right now. When it is done the show should be in a higher resolution and the chat room will look a little different. I'm not sure when the work on it will be completed.

I will be shooting a late Christmas update on the 7th of January. Santa visited me and brought me a lot of naughty things to play with.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 27th, 2011
I've been thinking of names for the kitties. So far I have Titania and Oberon, Isis and Osiris, and Beauty and Beast.

Tomorrow it's off to Flagstaff with the family. I haven't even packed yet so I should probably get on that. I'm going to try to get some candid video of me playing around in the snow and maybe doing some snowboarding.

One of my fans is in the process of finding a horse for me to shoot with. I'm very excited about it. I think it would definitely be worth the extra expense to do a nude shoot on a horse. Obviously it would be outdoors. I will have to start looking at places to shoot. Not sure when we will actually be able to shoot it too since it's pretty cold right now. I might be going down to Tucson to check out the horse in a couple weeks. Let's hope this works out.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 23, 2012
I need some help from you guys. I recently took a look at my review on Rabbit's Reviews. I'm pretty surprised at how low my score (72/100) was...especially comparing my site to the other solo models websites that were rated higher than mine. What's even more surprising is that FTVGirls got rated 75/100. I think that's the lowest rating I've seen for them in any review site. Anyways I'm not concerned about the score I got. What I am concerned about is the absolutely horrible, mean user comments "six" people wrote about me. I truly have never read such hateful comments about me before. I'm fairly positive that the Dave guy has written the same comments about me on Freeones...but Freeones was kind enough to have the comments taken down.

When you fill out the user comments it says to "please include a pro and con about the site". Not one of the users followed that.

I contacted the Rabbit's Review people asking them to take down the comments since they are not productive at all (no pro and con) and instead are just incredibly derogatory. Here's the reply I got:

"This is MIke from Rabbit's Reviews, replying to your email. First, I want to apologize for anything you read on our site that caused you to become upset. While the nature of the business is to put yourself out there, no one likes to see negative feedback that isn't constructive in any way.

While I understand your frustration and disappointment at some of the comments left by readers, our policy is not to delete a comment unless it's spam, racist, or attcks of a personal nature (example: "We live down the road from (model name) and we know she beats her kids..." ).

While the comments left are negative, it is ultimately their opinion. The "pro/con" section is a suggestion to readers, but it isn't mandatory for their comments to be posted.

I would to suggest the best way to counteract that is to get some of your fans to leave comments to drown out those negattive ones left behind. There are also many sponsors and performers that we work with who take to the comments section to defend any accusations made against their site or just to thank those who left more positive comments.

The comments section is for readers and site producers to come together and have a conversation about the site and the review. The intention behind it is to be positive and strengthen our community. Sometimes, those conversations aren't helpful, insigtful or productive. It is unfortunate, but it is an byproduct of the system."

So I will take Mike's advice and ask for you guys to leave some positive comments (pros and cons included) to flood out the negative comments that are currently on there.

BTW...I'm pretty sure I didn't tell people to f@ck off if they didn't like the fact that I was going to do hardcore. If I did I would really appreciate it if someone could tell me so.

I'm not going to lie and say it didn't affect me. It did. I bawled my eyes out when I read the comments. Congrats to the a$$holes who wrote them. I hope they feel some measure of happiness degrading me. I'm sure that their lives are absolutely amazing now that they've told the world how they feel about my site and me.

But then again I have at least six hundred members who say that they like me well enough to be a member of my website. I'm sure that AVN nominated me for an AVN award because they felt bad for my "butter face" or the fact that I look like I have Down's Sydrome (btw I highly doubt the guy who wrote that has Down Sydrome...I've never heard of someone having D.S. being spiteful like that). TheBestPorn must have rated me in their top twenty-five out of 3,098 individual model sites because they felt sorry about my "crap videos".