*** Danielle's Journal ***

[danielle_ftv]

May 27, 2009
How exciting!!! Tate Hemlock (FTVGirls photographer/videographer in training) just put up a new website. You guys should check it out. There are even some pictures from the Phoenix Forum 2009.

www.tatehemlock.com

6:06 PM
Damn I guess I "let the cat out of the bag" (I think that's what you guys say.) So I recently found out that I can squirt. I was having a little fun one night (well actually a lot of fun...went on for 3 hours) and for some reason got it into my head that I was going to squirt that night. Well I've researched squirting quiet a bit and watched Geezer's video that he sent "Nina Hartley's Guide to Female Ejaculation"....so I did exactly what they said and ended up squirting. I was kind of freaked out to tell you the truth (but uber excited) so I went in my bathroom and grabbed my "helping hand" toy and this other purple penis dildo and tried to squirt again. Ended up doing it two more times that night. Two nights after I tried it again...though with a video camera so that I could see exactly what was going on down there. Ended up squirting three times....did a smell test, taste test and color test (squirted in the white bathtub for the color test) and came to the conclusion that it really was me squirting. Tried it again the night after and was able to do it again...but for some reason got super paranoid that it was urine not squirt so ended up researching for about five hours. I came to find out that you squirt out of your "pee hole"...it can be different colors (including clear and light yellow...I guess it depends on how much you've squirted)...it's similar to a peeing feeling, and it can have a "pungent" odor. I guess that nobody's squirt liquid is exactly the same. Somebody may squirt completely clear liquid that has a slight odor and that doesn't come out as forcefully and somebody may have yellowish liquid that has no odor that gushes out. I realized that I can't really squirt without something in me...unlike Leslie who can start squirting then take out whatever object she is using and still be squirting. I still have yet to learn about my "squirt timing". My "forcefullness" differs. Like if I've been masturbating a lot I think it's fairly forcefull....but it really kind of differs from one squirt to the next.

I'm still trying to get comfortable with this. In a way this is almost like peeing and personally that is something that is...intimate in a way and not something that I do in front of people. So it may take me a little while to get used to the idea that I can squirt and to do it on camera (in front of Rob...OMG how weird!).

[danielle_ftv]

June 5, 2009
Cancelled the webcam show today. Still sick from Vegas. Will be on here later to answer P.M.'s, threads, and write in my journal about the whole Vegas trip. Going to sleep a little now.

[danielle_ftv]

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I absolutely love that hotel and the service was awesome (and we weren't even staying there!) I definitely think I will be staying at the Wynn or Encore next time. We had way too many problems with the Bellagio's service. The DVD player didn't work correctly so we called someone to come fix it. Well two phone calls and 2 hours later it finally got fixed. Ashley also tried buying a Gatorade out of the vending machine on our floor but I guess it was all sold out. Well I guess there was a sign on the vending machine to call the front desk if there were any problems. Ashley called and they told her that they would send a Gatorade up. Well yet again, another 3 calls and 1 1/2 later she finally gets the Gatorade at double the price of what the vending machine cost. My friend ended up b!tching at the VIP front desk people and we were able to get a $150 food credit and another $200 off the room.

The club XS was amazing. They had super cute go-go dancers in sparkly dresses and the club was HUGE! It was open to the pool so we all laid on these beds that were in the actual pool. As we were walking around this random girl grabbed my hand and started steering me towards this VIP table. I guess her job is to "provide" or get cute girls for VIP tables so they look cooler or something. So that's where my friends and I spent the rest of the night. We ended up leaving around 1ish and went to a sex shop (I guess Dallas wanted a toy.) I suggested a Grrlztoy bullet vibe that I really like but was too drunk to actually locate it so she ended up buying a bullet vibe that she already owns.

At about 11 AM Dallas wakes me up saying that our plane got cancelled. WTF!!! For whatever reason they decided to cancel our flight, so we had to change around our flight time (instead of 6 PM we did a 5 PM flight) and we had to change around our limo pickup. Thankfully there really wasn't any trouble changing everything around. My birthday Vegas trip was awesome. Everyone was commenting on how there was no way they would be able to top it (I definitely think I can.) I just realized that I have been rambling on and on. Not only that but I'm sure if I actually went through and read what I wrote half of it wouldn't make sense. I'm feeling a little funky right now....kind of foggy. Friday night was pretty sweet. My friends and I started off at this hole in the wall bar were I got to order my first cider being legal then we went to American Junkie (this preppy club/bar in old town Scottsdale.) It was fun, though not exactly my type of club, plus there was absolutely no room to sit down unless you had a table. Saturday night I went to the Persian Room and ate way too much like I normally do there.

This week is going to be crazy! My friends are all inviting me to stuff now. I'm supposed to go to Dave and Busters with the Dallas group on Monday, then Tuesday I'm going to dinner with friends. Wednesday I'm supposed to go to old town Scottsdale with another group of friends. Then Thursday the Dallas group and that other group are going to see Paul Van Dyk. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday haven't been planned out yet...but I've already been told either Myst, the W, and random day parties. I really don't think I'm going to be able to keep up with all my friends. Partying is hard and honestly I'm just not all that into it. My friends keep telling me that if I want to meet new people and make new friends that I need to stop holing myself off with my chinchillas and books. I will be putting up the pictures of my 21st bday celebration as soon as I can get them all from my friends...so maybe sometime next week.

[danielle_ftv]

June 7, 2009
So I finally feel up to doing computer stuff (P.M.'s, emails, etc.) I guess I must have caught something on the airplane ride back to Phoenix. Personally I think it's swine flu...jk. But it's definitely lasted a long enough time. Some of the people who came with me to Vegas also have it. Anyways, let me tell you guys about my birthday and Vegas. On my birthday I went to T. Cook's for dinner, then out with my friends to "The Vig" (a sassy restaraunt/bar next to my gym...they always steal my parking spots.) After that we went to Bourbon Street, a 21 and older strip club that my friends like to go to. We had to wait outside for about 20 minutes until they could find seats for us, while they let everyone else inside. We ended up sitting in the back of the club where you could barely see anything. The girls were so-so...way too fake for my taste. I think there was probably about 15 girls working there that night and I only thought 3 of them were attractive. I ended up getting 4 dances from 2 of the girls (my third time ever getting a lap dance.) There was a guy that got to go onstage and get dances from about 6 girls at once. I wanted to do that but my friends ended up talking me out of it saying that there would be a better club in Vegas with less rules where I could get a stage dance.

Anyways the next day (Saturday) I pretty much spent answering P.M.'s and fooling around. Ended up taking a nap at 8 PM (my friends thought this was highly amusing) then finally got packed and over at my friends house at 10 PM. The next day we woke up at 8...our flight leaving at 10. I don't know who's idea it was to head out at 9. Both Dallas and I wanted to stop for McDonalds on the way to the airport, but thankfully I suggested waiting until we got to the airport. Our friend also wanted to park in long term parking because of the cost (long term would only be $30 or so, short term was $75) but I told them that I would pay for the short term parking. It's a good thing that we parked in short term because we wouldn't have made our plane. We had bags to check in and only about 50 minutes before our flight took off and the South West line was LONG. We were able to check in the luggage 30 minutes till but were told that there was a possibility that it was too late and the baggage would be put on the next flight. I was pretty irritated by then from having waken up a lot earlier than what I'm used to and not having eaten anything, plus if our baggage was late then the limo service I hired would also have to be pushed back (if it were even possible.)

Anyways the luggage did arrive. I had hired a Cadillac Escalade limo and all the girls got a rose. They also had 2 bottles of champagne that we somehow ended up polishing off by the time we got to the Bellagio. We made a pit stop at a liquor store...my first time going into a liquor store I think. I was on a mission to get port wine but they didn't have any. I ended up doing some candid video during the flight and in the limo and liquor store. I was planning on doing more but the camera charge went out. We arrived at the Bellagio at noonish and got to check in at the VIP check in room. Only one of the rooms was ready (the connecting room to the penthouse 2 bedroom suite.) We were told that the penthouse would be ready at 3 so we decided to go eat and gamble a little. Since we were "VIP" we also got a pass to get in the front of the line for the buffet and cafe (who knew that you would need a front line pass for a buffet?) I think people were definitely irritated that we got to go up to the front of the line so easy...some guys behind us made a comment about it. The buffet was freaking awesome! I tried California sushi rolls (I think that's what they are called) and boy were they yummy. I don't really like sushi or fish but for some reason I was feeling really adventurous. I also tried smoked salmon and that was also freaking delicious. Enough with the food talk...it's making me hungry. I did gamble a little bit...ended up playing roulette with $30 and when I lost that I was done. Gambling is definitely not for me. I cannot stand losing money, I would much rather spend it on something I can keep or on an experience (though I guess gambling is an experience in a way.) Dallas ended up spending $300 on gambling, and she didn't win anything....but she love gambling, mostly playing roulette though. We all ended up crashing out in the smaller room until about 5 PM. By this time we were all p!ssed that the penthouse wasn't ready for us (I mean they had said 3 originally). It was so funny though we called them and they told us the room was ready, but when we looked in the hallway we could see the housecleaners still cleaning the room. Finally we were able to get into the room...it was definitely worth the money. The view was awesome...though honestly I think it would have been totally cool to have a view of the fountains, but that's okay.

Dallas and I went to the MAC store to get our makeup done and I ended spending the gift card she gave me and $50 extra on makeup I really didn't need. My makeup looked AWESOME! Definitely completely different from what I normally do. They did a smoky purple eye on me with super long fake eyelashes. We had to hurry back to the hotel to get ready for the party bus that was going to pick us up at 9. Of course girls being girls...Dallas and Keley were both a tad bit late. The party bus was so cool. It had all sorts of different lights, 2 stripper poles, and a fog machine in it. The windows were pretty darkly tinted so you could barely see inside. It was funny watching people's expression as they would see these girls dancing around. Our first stop was Margaritaville. They gave me a tequila birthday shot. We got an awesome picture of me doing it....I look like I'm going to puke but it definitely did not taste good at all. After that we went to Coyote Ugly were I ended up going onstage and got another birthday shot. I'm a light weight for sure...so by the time we left Coyote Ugly I was kind of slurring my words and stumbling around. My friend bought a pretzel and I've got to say that was the best freaking pretzel I have ever tasted.

We drove around some more since we really didn't know where we wanted to go. The driver ended up stopping at the famous "welcome to Vegas" sign which I thought was an absolute brilliant idea. We then went to "old town" Vegas...or maybe it was "downtown" Vegas...by this time I really wasn't paying attention to anything other than Dallas/Keley/Ashley's boobs and the stripper pole. We stopped by this hole in the wall bar then walked around for a bit. I found this awesome magazine showing women that you can hire. I was totally down for it, but somehow changed my mind and decided that I wanted to go to a very lenient strip club. I'm very indecisive when I'm drinking so sometime on the way to the strip club I decided that we needed to go back to the hotel to drop off the alcohol we had brought with us. Only half of the group went up to the room so Dallas, Ashley and I were left in the bus. I remember dancing around while replaying the song "Poker Face" over and over again. People kept on peering into the bus as they would walk by. I invited them all in, but I guess they weren't interested.

The last stop of the night was Drei's (supposedly the best after hours club in Vegas). We got there at about 1ish in the morning but I guess it wasn't open until 1:30 or something. We ended up walking around a bit until 1:30 then went back to Drei's...well it wasn't opening until 2. Drei's didn't end up opening until 2:15ish I think. The owner was nice enough to give us free shots and....bottled water! I guess that bottled water there costs like $8 a bottle. I met a guy who works at Cirque Du Soleil Mystique. I could just tell by looking at him that he was a Cirque guy. There was also this funny guy that kept putting a glass in the middle of the dance floor and would proceed to dance around it in a little Greek/Russian dance. Then another girl started dancing around it too and would sit there and shake her finger "no" at it. It was by far one of the weirdest things I've ever seen. We didn't get back to the hotel until about 5 in the morning.

The next day I don't think any of us were really up for anything but we ended up waking up fairly early (at least for me it was early). Everyone decided that we needed to venture out to find breakfest...personally I would've much rather ordered in. We went to this Denny's like diner that ended up costing more than what it would've cost to do in room dining...plus the food wasn't all that great. I ended up crashing out again before my friends finally pulled me out of my bed at about 1 PM I think (I honestly don't remember the times very well). We went to a cute little cafe in the Bellagio were I got a antipasto plate for $20. Ashley and her boyfriend had to leave that day because they had to work on Tuesday. We all ended up going back to the room and crashed out for another few hours. I had wanted to go see this hypnotist Anthony Cools, but somehow we ended up getting sidetracked and missed his show (I think we might have slept through it.) That night we went to XS at the Encore.

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[danielle_ftv]

June 22, 2009
I really think I may have some sort of immuno-deficiency disorder. Ever since my Vegas trip I have been sick. First it was some sort of nasal infection that caused me to caugh up my lungs for a couple weeks. Then last Thursday I got really sick...throwing up, not able to sit up without feeling nauseous. I even started throwing up blood! I ended up sleeping through my webcam show and woke up at about 8ish on Friday and was finally able to get something in my stomach and keep it down. Next week I have several doctor's appointments so hopefully we can figure out exactly what's going on with me. I just don't want to have my blood drawn, which I know is going to end up happening. But I guess I'm not the only one sick...my nephew recently was admitted to the hospital. My sister was in Texas for a couple weeks and on the day she was supposed to head home my nephew started getting sick and had a fever. My sis took him to the hospital and they ended up admitting him to PICU (pediatric intensive care unit.) I guess they were monitoring his heart and he also ended up having some sort of infection. I hope to God that I didn't end up passing anything to him. Not sure what is happening now since I can't seem to get a hold of my sister or mom. I'm a little freaked out right now because I've been trying to get ahold of my mom for more than a day now and haven't been able to reach her on either her cell phone or work phone. I guess I'll give it till the end of today before I go over to her house and see if she's okay.

I tried extending my lease on my current apartment a couple weeks ago, but I guess after I put in my two months notice to vacate that somebody snatched my apartment up. Luckily I was able to make a deal with the apartment people....I will be moving into a two bedroom apartment for the price of a one bedroom. The only problem is that A)it's on the first floor and I can't stand noisy neighbors/loud stompers and B)that I actually have to move all of my crap into the new apartment. I still have yet to book the movers....I've called them and emailed them but we seem to be playing phone tag. The 25th is going to be super hectic. I have the movers coming to move, cable/electric/gas people coming to turn things on, and carpet cleaners coming hopefully after the movers. Trying to organize all of this is pretty difficult. And unfortunately it all has to be done on the 25th since the 26th to the 28th is EDC.

EDC (Electric Daisy Carnival) should be a lot of fun...though it's going to be a long weekend. I guess it starts at 4 PM and ends at 2 AM on Friday and on Saturday it goes from 4 PM to 4 AM. My friend is talking about going at 4 PM on Friday but unforunately there is no reentry when you enter and personally it doesn't sound like fun to stay there for 10 hours straight. The girls are all planning on dressing up. I bought a fairy costume for Friday night (Dallas is going to wear a Mardi Gras outfit) and on Saturday night I'm wearing a 20's flapper costume while Dallas is going as a sexy mobster. I guess the only thing that is going to suck about going to EDC will be the drive. One of my friends didn't have enough money to pay for a plane ticket so instead of letting her be bored driving by herself I told her that I would drive with her. It's a fairly long drive...about 6 hours I think, so we will probably have to wake up fairly early (or at least early for me.)

One of my members was supposed to visit me from out of the country. He had the flight booked, hotel booked and everything set up. He made it fine into the country...but unfortunately was stopped by US customs. I guess that they were suspicious of him coming to America to visit me....they ended up sending him back! I understand that we are just trying to keep bad people out, but personally I find some of the security measures we put in place completely idiotic. Hopefully I don't get in trouble in writing this. I just think it's funny that we are kicking people out that are going to end up spending well needed money here...I mean hello, aren't we in a serious financial deficit?

Oh yeah...I forgot to tell everyone what Rob is giving me for a birthday/Christmas gift...he's going to pay to get my teeth fixed! I'm so excited about it. Unfortunately it will be kind of expensive (that's why I never really was able to have it done.) I'm going to get implants (and no, not the boob ones), my teeth shaped and my teeth whitened. I really cannot wait to see the final product.

Also one of my birthday gifts was a BIRTHDAY VIDEO LOG made by Grande351, Geolarson 2, Lia, Geezer, Missy and Tigger, Anoree, and Rob. I wanted to wait to put it up until I got permission from everyone on it that it was okay to post it. It is by far one of the best birthday gifts I could have ever gotten...I totally started tearing up when I watched it. Thank you guys....you are the best fans/members/friends a girl could ever have.

[danielle_ftv]

June 23, 2009
So my mom is okay and wasn't abducted by aliens or anything. I finally got ahold of her yesterday night. My nephew is out of the hospital now. I guess he had RSV and some other virus but is doing fine now. My sister and him should be coming back from Texas sometime this week. My brother is coming in on Saturday from DC for a few weeks. Should be nice to see him again. Today I need to get my nails done, get boxes for packing, call the moving people and set up a time with them, and get my costumes/packages for EDC from the apartment office. Freaking out a little bit right now. I hate moving and personally I feel like it is way too stressfull.

[danielle_ftv]

June 30, 2009
Um...yeah. I think I just saw my chinchillas humping each other. I hope to gawd that crazy chinchilla lady didn't give me a female and male. I've been listening to the same song over and over again (about 13 times so far.) I tend to do that a lot when I'm on the computer.

So EDC was awesome! The drive was horrible. People are seriously scary on the road. Supposedly I also tail gate (I think that's complete b.s. though.) I know I'm a pretty aggressive driver but at least I don't flip people off or anything...I just honk a lot and yell (but with the window up.) I would fit in with New York drivers pretty well I think, if only I wasn't completely freaked out about their driving style. We ended up leaving at about 10:30 Friday morning and got to the Standard hotel in downtown L.A. at 6ish. We had to make quiet a few stops because one of my friends had a dog. Driving around L.A. was a complete nightmare. I had my friend who used to live in L.A. switch off with me and drive us to the hotel and even then I swore I was going to have a heart attack.

We got to EDC at the L.A. colliseum at 8ish. There was a butt load of people there and a bunch of them were dressed up in crazy costumes. Dallas and I went as mobster chicks the first night. I was supposed to wear a 20's flapster outfit...but unfortunately I ordered the costume online and it didn't fit at all and a string ended up breaking off anyways. So another $140 later and I got the mobster costume. Our other friend Kelly went as a sexy school girl. I tried telling my friends that went with me that it was supposed to get down to 64 degrees at night but I don't think they really understood how cold 64 degrees is (especially Dallas who didn't bring anything other than shorts and skirts) so of course they were freezing cold all night long. We had all bought VIP tickets so we got to stay in the seperate VIP section. They had two free photo booths there. Free alcohol and water. Free hooka. Free airbrush tattoos. Free massages and free candy.

Outside the VIP area they had a bunch of free rides (I didn't go on any though...maybe next year.) A few of us got lost from each other and didn't end up back with the group until two hours later. I guess that the cell phone service there was all screwy. Fortunately I had pretty good service but one of my friends didn't get a text message that was sent at 11 PM until 6 AM the next day. We ended up taking off at 1:30 AM. It actually wasn't too difficult to find a cab (a lot easier than I thought it was going to be.) Only problem was traffic was horrible and I was super nauseous. I so didn't want to throw up in the cab and plus I was sitting between two people. We almost made it to the hotel before I ended up puking in my fedora. The next day I found out that I wasn't the only one who ended up getting sick.

The next day I ended up only getting about 6 hours of sleep...if that. Most of my friends didn't get any sleep at all! Everyone hung out by the pool while I stayed in my room and read a little. Kelly and a few others weren't going the second night of EDC so it was only Dallas, me, and two of our friends. Dallas and I took an hour and a half getting ready (so not my style at all.) I wore this goth fairy costume but ended up leaving off the wings because they would've gotten in the way in the taxi. Dallas was supposed to wear this super skimpy Mardi Gras queen bikini costume but since it was going to get down to 64 degrees again she decided to wear a skimpy pair of shorts and crop top. We got to EDC around 10 PM since traffic was so freaking bad. Our taxi driver scared the hell out of me. My friends were getting irritated because everytime the taxi driver made an illegal move I would comment about it....I would make a total Nazi cop. Supposedly there was over 70,000 people on Saturday night at EDC. I call b.s. and say it was more like 50,000...but it's still a lot.

We meet some more of our friends there and ended up wandering about for an hour before finally getting into VIP. EDC was supposed to go until 4 AM but there was no way I would be able to function for the drive later on that day if I stayed up that late. We had lost one of our friends and could not get a hold of him at all. A few of us ended up leaving around 3ish anyways and I finally got to bed around 4. For whatever reason I ended up waking up at 9 and since checkout was at noon stayed up, read, and got ready. The friend that we couldn't get ahold of did end up making back to the hotel okay. I guess that he also got super sick and ended up throwing up all over some cop's shoes.

I would hate to have been a cop for EDC...actually I feel super bad for the cleaners that have to clean up afterwards. I swear I ended up seeing twenty people puking. One girl ended up passing out in VIP for over an hour and had to have the paramedics get her. I guess the only good thing about being a cleaner is all the crap you find. My friend found a $600 phone on the ground (but he did end up returning it to it's owner.) I know at one point about $50 dropped out of my top but luckily my friends saw it.

The friend that we lost also had a girl with him. I guess that they knew each other and he found her bawling her eyes out somewhere. Her friends had left her at EDC and she had no money and no phone charge left to get a hold of them. The next day she was finally able to get a hold of them...but they had left L.A. for Phoenix! That seriously upset me because she was only 19 years old and had absolutely no way of getting home. I ended up offering her a ride back with us. I'm just thankful that we found her and not some pervert. Kelly was supposed to meet us at the hotel before noon so that we could take off in time. I ended up calling her around 11:30 just to have her tell me that she was with her family about to have lunch and that she would be back at the hotel around 3. My friends were definitely a little irritated. I offered to pick her up but I guess that she was an hour out of the way and it would've added two hours onto our already long a$$ drive. Luckily she was able to have her mom buy her a plane ticket home. I was super tired and the last thing I wanted (or could even manage) to do was drive home. One of our friends ended up driving the whole way back which I thought was really cool...but then again they were the most sober/awake out of all of us. We ended up having to go back to the hotel because the girl forgot her phone in my friends room. We got back to Phoenix at 7:30ish. We had to stop a few times because one of our friends had to be sick.

It took me until today to recover from EDC. It's funny too because Dallas and that whole group are already talking about going to the Scottsdale clubs on Wednesday...then partying in Scottsdale on Saturday for 4th of July. Plus I know they are going to want to party on Friday night. It's way too expensive to party like they do (and I make way more money then any of them.) Plus I feel like I'm going to ruin my body and looks with all the partying and staying up late (though I always make sure I get enough sleep.)

I'm almost finished unpacking. I need to get a bookcase, a nightstand, two lamps, and a full or queen size bed at some point. It'll be nice to have an extra room for guests to stay in. I thought the kitchen looked pretty small and that all my dishes wouldn't fit in it, but surprisingly they all do and I have a little room left over. My chinchilla's seem to really like the new place...at least they aren't really peeing all over the wall like they used to. Some of the houses and shelves that are supposed to go into their new cage is ready to be shipped. I just have to pay the chinchilla supply cage through PayPal and PayPal is giving me trouble right now. I guess that my credit card that I use is not through the right account or something like that. What a headache! I will probably end up just writing a check...but I have to order checks first. I can't really tell if the internet here is better or not. It was going kind wacky earlier today. I'm going to have Cox come out and check to make sure it's okay. The last thing I need is a repeat of last week's webcam show and unfortunately I can't use the FTV houses because Rob is in Hawaii. I got an upgrade in internet service so hopefully that will help out. I also have cable now. I have something called On Demand where you can order porn! It's amazing.

I need to get a hold of that tattoo removal place. I'm probably out of sessions by now. I've called them before but they were supposed to call back and never did. I also need to get my car checked out to make sure that long trip didn't do any damage. I'm kind of a hypochondriac when it comes to my car.