*** Danielle's Journal ***

[danielle_ftv]

May 13, 2009
So school is finally done...yippee! Now I can finally start making those appointments I've been putting off for the past few months (dentist, tattoo removal, eye check up, etc.) Lately I've gotten a few requests for personal videos. Unfortunately I'm not able to do personal videos/photosets because FTVRob (the photographer/videographer) is too busy to do shooting for anything other than the sites. Of course I can always use the small camera and shoot it myself but it won't be as high quality and won't have the angles that a professional shoot would have. Also I've been getting requests for autographed pictures which I would be perfectly happy to do. Just send me the photo you want autographed, what you want me to put on it, and a postmarked envelope with the address you want it sent to. I was looking on the Ritz Camera website and it looks like 8x12 pictures cost about $3.99 each. I'm assuming a photo envelope costs around $1.50 and I have no idea how much shipping is. Anyways I'm changing my mailing address because I never get the mail from the P.O. box. You can send things to:

Danielle FTV
7631 N 20th St
Phoenix, AZ 85020

that way I actually get them. I've had a few people sending me P.M.'s asking me if I am okay. Let me assure you I am perfectly fine...thank you for the concern . If anything were to happen to me Rob would tell you within a day. If I'm not answering P.M.'s or haven't been on the board in awhile it's probably just because I'm hanging out with my friends or my internet connection isn't working (which happens 90% of the time.) Need to remember to call Cox and have them fix it before I actually move out of my place. Yet again one of my profiles got deleted. Facebook decided to delete the FTV Facebook page and Danielle FTV Facebook page I created. I'm through with putting so much of my freaking time and energy into creating these darn profiles and having them be deleted just because of some conservative a-hole. So far my Model Mayhem profile and both Facebook profiles have been deleted. Now I will be super pi$$ed off if Myspace deletes my Myspace page (not that they have any reason to.)

My 21st birthday is 17 days away...so excited. Right now my sister and I are both 20 years old...thankfully she's matured a little and doesn't use that against me when I tell her to do something (though she still does try to boss me around.) I will probably be attending EDC in LA in late June. Most likely I will only be going to the Friday concert (it's two days...Friday and Saturday) so Saturday will be free. If any of you are in the LA area and would like to meet me on Saturday, June 27th please contact me through P.M. and hopefully I will be able to meet some of my members/fans.

[danielle_ftv]

May 24, 2009
Five more days until my 21st birthday. It's so weird that I'm finally going to be legal....I mean I've been waiting for this for so freaking long. Now I can finally get rid of my friend's I.D. (though my friends still want me to use it until it get's taken away from me...for some reason they find that thought highly amusing). I think one of the biggest advantages to being 21 is that I can finally start to achieve those goals that I listed a few months back (winning awards, etc.) I've been thinking about it and really...I couldn't have done anything about those goals until now (or at least May 29th). You see to win any awards or become a Fleshlight Girl or get into magazines I need to get my name out there. But to do that I need to be able to attend the functions that everyone else is attending and my problem was (or is until my birthday) that all those functions normally include alcohol and so you have to be 21 to attend. I figure what I've been doing up until now has been good enough...but I am definitely going to kick up the self promotion and networking a few notches (well a lot of notches.) I've also been thinking about putting up 24/7 live cams in my apartment (maybe in the living room and my bedroom). I will probably end up doing a "test run" just to see how popular it is and what everyone's opinion of it is. BTW, my internet finally got fixed though it is still kind of screwy. I would like to do one of my webcam shows at my apartment but knowing my luck the internet would turn off on me right in the middle of me masturbating. I just bought a bunch of new toys...two of them were back ordered. Just got one of the back ordered toys yesterday and the other one should arrive sometime this week. I also bought my 4th of July shooting costume and a special toy for it. I also went a little overboard and bought my toys for my Thanksgiving shoot, Christmas shoot, and Easter shoot 2010. I need to do a candid video or video log showing you guys all my new toys. I also need to do a candid video showing you guys my new CHINCHILLAS! They are so freaking cute. I went all the way down past Tucson to a Chinchilla breeder to get them. They are brothers, named Gratch (from the Sword of Truth series) and Taquito (my sister came up with that one.) It's funny because my sister and mom always end up renaming my animals so I just ended up calling my sister to have her name them and she came up with Taquito for one of them (I guess she was eating Taquitos at the time) and a few other names for the other one (Rufus, Ottis, and other weird names that didn't strike me as "right".) Gratch is definitely the more adventurous of the two. I can't really tell them apart yet...I usually figure the first one that comes out to investigate has to be Gratch. Taquito is still getting used to me...he's kind of shy. I ended up doing a bunch of research on Chinchilla's and found out that the cage that the breeder made for them is way too small. So I ended up buying a 60 inch high cage (so 5 feet high). It's about 3 feet long and 2 1/2 feet "deep". So that should be plenty of jumping room for them. I also found out that everything in their cage should be non-plastic...so I'm having custom wooden shelving and houses built for them. I also have to buy them metal feeders for their pellets and hay. They seem to be doing okay right now but I really don't like them being in such a small cage. My family came over the other night after my birthday dinner (the first time they've ever seen my place...though I've lived here for over a year now.) My mom kept on bothering me to take the chinchilla's out but I read that you aren't supposed to take them out of the cage until they are completely tamed. Supposedly this is going to take a few weeks...but they both already take food out of my hands and Gratch has climbed onto my hand before (but I think he was just trying to get out of the cage.) This week is going to be pretty busy for me. I have to get my hair and nails done on Thursday (and I hate getting my nails done...they never do it exactly the way I want it done.) On Friday I'm getting waxed (yeah! what a great b-day present.) And either Thursday or Friday I need to go get Mystic tanned. Friday my friends are supposed to take me out...I guess they plan on getting me drunk, which honestly I'm not really looking foward to. Sunday we leave for Vegas. I'm so excited because I rented a limo to pick us up from the airport. They are supposed to have roses for all the ladies. I also got a two bedroom penthouse suite at the Bellagio with a connecting room (since there is supposed to be about 6 people going.) On Sunday we have a party bus (with stripper poles!) that's going to drive us around and drop us off at random bars/clubs. On Monday we are probably going to go see Anthony Cools, this hypnotist and I'm going to try to talk my friends into going up on stage with me to get hypnotised. I don't plan on gambling because personally I hate losing money and don't want to ruin my trip because we get kicked out of a casino for me throwing a hissy fit (though I'm sure my friends would find that highly amusing.)

BTW...I just want to apologize to everyone about not answering P.M.'s. I'm a procrastinator like crazy...and definitely need to fix that. I figure it would probably be easiest if I answer P.M.'s every other day and put it in my scheduler in my phone so it reminds me to do them. I really irritate myself sometimes when I put off stuff for so long. Not quiet sure why I do it, because in the end I always feel bad and lazy.

I'm taking these diet pills that are really...um...interesting. I've lost about 6 pounds in 10 days being on them. They do have some interesting side effects though. Like sometimes I feel slightly out of breath. You also lose your appetite like crazy and have to force yourself to eat. Your body temperature runs kind of high too. Also you get fairly jittery. My focus isn't spectular on it (though I can manage.) My mom kind of freaked out on me when I told her I was taking them. It's not like I plan on taking them for a super long time. I just want to lose 12-14 more pounds. I understand that I look great now...but I would really like to be at my goal weight. I just think I will feel a lot better about myself if I am. I figure by the end of 2009 I should be at my perfect body weight with great muscle tone, my tattoos should almost be completely faded and my teeth will be fixed. I would like to also get laser hair removal down there...but that would hurt like a biatch!

[danielle_ftv]

May 26, 2009
Hey guys...remember that whole e-Rotic Playboy tv show? Well I'm really interested in having them do a segment on my website but I need people to email and "suggest" it. I would be super appreciative if anyone could email Playboy TV and tell them about my site.

Here is the email address...

eRotic@PlayboyTV.com

[danielle_ftv]

May 27, 2009
How exciting!!! Tate Hemlock (FTVGirls photographer/videographer in training) just put up a new website. You guys should check it out. There are even some pictures from the Phoenix Forum 2009.

www.tatehemlock.com

6:06 PM
Damn I guess I "let the cat out of the bag" (I think that's what you guys say.) So I recently found out that I can squirt. I was having a little fun one night (well actually a lot of fun...went on for 3 hours) and for some reason got it into my head that I was going to squirt that night. Well I've researched squirting quiet a bit and watched Geezer's video that he sent "Nina Hartley's Guide to Female Ejaculation"....so I did exactly what they said and ended up squirting. I was kind of freaked out to tell you the truth (but uber excited) so I went in my bathroom and grabbed my "helping hand" toy and this other purple penis dildo and tried to squirt again. Ended up doing it two more times that night. Two nights after I tried it again...though with a video camera so that I could see exactly what was going on down there. Ended up squirting three times....did a smell test, taste test and color test (squirted in the white bathtub for the color test) and came to the conclusion that it really was me squirting. Tried it again the night after and was able to do it again...but for some reason got super paranoid that it was urine not squirt so ended up researching for about five hours. I came to find out that you squirt out of your "pee hole"...it can be different colors (including clear and light yellow...I guess it depends on how much you've squirted)...it's similar to a peeing feeling, and it can have a "pungent" odor. I guess that nobody's squirt liquid is exactly the same. Somebody may squirt completely clear liquid that has a slight odor and that doesn't come out as forcefully and somebody may have yellowish liquid that has no odor that gushes out. I realized that I can't really squirt without something in me...unlike Leslie who can start squirting then take out whatever object she is using and still be squirting. I still have yet to learn about my "squirt timing". My "forcefullness" differs. Like if I've been masturbating a lot I think it's fairly forcefull....but it really kind of differs from one squirt to the next.

I'm still trying to get comfortable with this. In a way this is almost like peeing and personally that is something that is...intimate in a way and not something that I do in front of people. So it may take me a little while to get used to the idea that I can squirt and to do it on camera (in front of Rob...OMG how weird!).

[danielle_ftv]

June 5, 2009
Cancelled the webcam show today. Still sick from Vegas. Will be on here later to answer P.M.'s, threads, and write in my journal about the whole Vegas trip. Going to sleep a little now.

[danielle_ftv]

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I absolutely love that hotel and the service was awesome (and we weren't even staying there!) I definitely think I will be staying at the Wynn or Encore next time. We had way too many problems with the Bellagio's service. The DVD player didn't work correctly so we called someone to come fix it. Well two phone calls and 2 hours later it finally got fixed. Ashley also tried buying a Gatorade out of the vending machine on our floor but I guess it was all sold out. Well I guess there was a sign on the vending machine to call the front desk if there were any problems. Ashley called and they told her that they would send a Gatorade up. Well yet again, another 3 calls and 1 1/2 later she finally gets the Gatorade at double the price of what the vending machine cost. My friend ended up b!tching at the VIP front desk people and we were able to get a $150 food credit and another $200 off the room.

The club XS was amazing. They had super cute go-go dancers in sparkly dresses and the club was HUGE! It was open to the pool so we all laid on these beds that were in the actual pool. As we were walking around this random girl grabbed my hand and started steering me towards this VIP table. I guess her job is to "provide" or get cute girls for VIP tables so they look cooler or something. So that's where my friends and I spent the rest of the night. We ended up leaving around 1ish and went to a sex shop (I guess Dallas wanted a toy.) I suggested a Grrlztoy bullet vibe that I really like but was too drunk to actually locate it so she ended up buying a bullet vibe that she already owns.

At about 11 AM Dallas wakes me up saying that our plane got cancelled. WTF!!! For whatever reason they decided to cancel our flight, so we had to change around our flight time (instead of 6 PM we did a 5 PM flight) and we had to change around our limo pickup. Thankfully there really wasn't any trouble changing everything around. My birthday Vegas trip was awesome. Everyone was commenting on how there was no way they would be able to top it (I definitely think I can.) I just realized that I have been rambling on and on. Not only that but I'm sure if I actually went through and read what I wrote half of it wouldn't make sense. I'm feeling a little funky right now....kind of foggy. Friday night was pretty sweet. My friends and I started off at this hole in the wall bar were I got to order my first cider being legal then we went to American Junkie (this preppy club/bar in old town Scottsdale.) It was fun, though not exactly my type of club, plus there was absolutely no room to sit down unless you had a table. Saturday night I went to the Persian Room and ate way too much like I normally do there.

This week is going to be crazy! My friends are all inviting me to stuff now. I'm supposed to go to Dave and Busters with the Dallas group on Monday, then Tuesday I'm going to dinner with friends. Wednesday I'm supposed to go to old town Scottsdale with another group of friends. Then Thursday the Dallas group and that other group are going to see Paul Van Dyk. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday haven't been planned out yet...but I've already been told either Myst, the W, and random day parties. I really don't think I'm going to be able to keep up with all my friends. Partying is hard and honestly I'm just not all that into it. My friends keep telling me that if I want to meet new people and make new friends that I need to stop holing myself off with my chinchillas and books. I will be putting up the pictures of my 21st bday celebration as soon as I can get them all from my friends...so maybe sometime next week.

[danielle_ftv]

June 7, 2009
So I finally feel up to doing computer stuff (P.M.'s, emails, etc.) I guess I must have caught something on the airplane ride back to Phoenix. Personally I think it's swine flu...jk. But it's definitely lasted a long enough time. Some of the people who came with me to Vegas also have it. Anyways, let me tell you guys about my birthday and Vegas. On my birthday I went to T. Cook's for dinner, then out with my friends to "The Vig" (a sassy restaraunt/bar next to my gym...they always steal my parking spots.) After that we went to Bourbon Street, a 21 and older strip club that my friends like to go to. We had to wait outside for about 20 minutes until they could find seats for us, while they let everyone else inside. We ended up sitting in the back of the club where you could barely see anything. The girls were so-so...way too fake for my taste. I think there was probably about 15 girls working there that night and I only thought 3 of them were attractive. I ended up getting 4 dances from 2 of the girls (my third time ever getting a lap dance.) There was a guy that got to go onstage and get dances from about 6 girls at once. I wanted to do that but my friends ended up talking me out of it saying that there would be a better club in Vegas with less rules where I could get a stage dance.

Anyways the next day (Saturday) I pretty much spent answering P.M.'s and fooling around. Ended up taking a nap at 8 PM (my friends thought this was highly amusing) then finally got packed and over at my friends house at 10 PM. The next day we woke up at 8...our flight leaving at 10. I don't know who's idea it was to head out at 9. Both Dallas and I wanted to stop for McDonalds on the way to the airport, but thankfully I suggested waiting until we got to the airport. Our friend also wanted to park in long term parking because of the cost (long term would only be $30 or so, short term was $75) but I told them that I would pay for the short term parking. It's a good thing that we parked in short term because we wouldn't have made our plane. We had bags to check in and only about 50 minutes before our flight took off and the South West line was LONG. We were able to check in the luggage 30 minutes till but were told that there was a possibility that it was too late and the baggage would be put on the next flight. I was pretty irritated by then from having waken up a lot earlier than what I'm used to and not having eaten anything, plus if our baggage was late then the limo service I hired would also have to be pushed back (if it were even possible.)

Anyways the luggage did arrive. I had hired a Cadillac Escalade limo and all the girls got a rose. They also had 2 bottles of champagne that we somehow ended up polishing off by the time we got to the Bellagio. We made a pit stop at a liquor store...my first time going into a liquor store I think. I was on a mission to get port wine but they didn't have any. I ended up doing some candid video during the flight and in the limo and liquor store. I was planning on doing more but the camera charge went out. We arrived at the Bellagio at noonish and got to check in at the VIP check in room. Only one of the rooms was ready (the connecting room to the penthouse 2 bedroom suite.) We were told that the penthouse would be ready at 3 so we decided to go eat and gamble a little. Since we were "VIP" we also got a pass to get in the front of the line for the buffet and cafe (who knew that you would need a front line pass for a buffet?) I think people were definitely irritated that we got to go up to the front of the line so easy...some guys behind us made a comment about it. The buffet was freaking awesome! I tried California sushi rolls (I think that's what they are called) and boy were they yummy. I don't really like sushi or fish but for some reason I was feeling really adventurous. I also tried smoked salmon and that was also freaking delicious. Enough with the food talk...it's making me hungry. I did gamble a little bit...ended up playing roulette with $30 and when I lost that I was done. Gambling is definitely not for me. I cannot stand losing money, I would much rather spend it on something I can keep or on an experience (though I guess gambling is an experience in a way.) Dallas ended up spending $300 on gambling, and she didn't win anything....but she love gambling, mostly playing roulette though. We all ended up crashing out in the smaller room until about 5 PM. By this time we were all p!ssed that the penthouse wasn't ready for us (I mean they had said 3 originally). It was so funny though we called them and they told us the room was ready, but when we looked in the hallway we could see the housecleaners still cleaning the room. Finally we were able to get into the room...it was definitely worth the money. The view was awesome...though honestly I think it would have been totally cool to have a view of the fountains, but that's okay.

Dallas and I went to the MAC store to get our makeup done and I ended spending the gift card she gave me and $50 extra on makeup I really didn't need. My makeup looked AWESOME! Definitely completely different from what I normally do. They did a smoky purple eye on me with super long fake eyelashes. We had to hurry back to the hotel to get ready for the party bus that was going to pick us up at 9. Of course girls being girls...Dallas and Keley were both a tad bit late. The party bus was so cool. It had all sorts of different lights, 2 stripper poles, and a fog machine in it. The windows were pretty darkly tinted so you could barely see inside. It was funny watching people's expression as they would see these girls dancing around. Our first stop was Margaritaville. They gave me a tequila birthday shot. We got an awesome picture of me doing it....I look like I'm going to puke but it definitely did not taste good at all. After that we went to Coyote Ugly were I ended up going onstage and got another birthday shot. I'm a light weight for sure...so by the time we left Coyote Ugly I was kind of slurring my words and stumbling around. My friend bought a pretzel and I've got to say that was the best freaking pretzel I have ever tasted.

We drove around some more since we really didn't know where we wanted to go. The driver ended up stopping at the famous "welcome to Vegas" sign which I thought was an absolute brilliant idea. We then went to "old town" Vegas...or maybe it was "downtown" Vegas...by this time I really wasn't paying attention to anything other than Dallas/Keley/Ashley's boobs and the stripper pole. We stopped by this hole in the wall bar then walked around for a bit. I found this awesome magazine showing women that you can hire. I was totally down for it, but somehow changed my mind and decided that I wanted to go to a very lenient strip club. I'm very indecisive when I'm drinking so sometime on the way to the strip club I decided that we needed to go back to the hotel to drop off the alcohol we had brought with us. Only half of the group went up to the room so Dallas, Ashley and I were left in the bus. I remember dancing around while replaying the song "Poker Face" over and over again. People kept on peering into the bus as they would walk by. I invited them all in, but I guess they weren't interested.

The last stop of the night was Drei's (supposedly the best after hours club in Vegas). We got there at about 1ish in the morning but I guess it wasn't open until 1:30 or something. We ended up walking around a bit until 1:30 then went back to Drei's...well it wasn't opening until 2. Drei's didn't end up opening until 2:15ish I think. The owner was nice enough to give us free shots and....bottled water! I guess that bottled water there costs like $8 a bottle. I met a guy who works at Cirque Du Soleil Mystique. I could just tell by looking at him that he was a Cirque guy. There was also this funny guy that kept putting a glass in the middle of the dance floor and would proceed to dance around it in a little Greek/Russian dance. Then another girl started dancing around it too and would sit there and shake her finger "no" at it. It was by far one of the weirdest things I've ever seen. We didn't get back to the hotel until about 5 in the morning.

The next day I don't think any of us were really up for anything but we ended up waking up fairly early (at least for me it was early). Everyone decided that we needed to venture out to find breakfest...personally I would've much rather ordered in. We went to this Denny's like diner that ended up costing more than what it would've cost to do in room dining...plus the food wasn't all that great. I ended up crashing out again before my friends finally pulled me out of my bed at about 1 PM I think (I honestly don't remember the times very well). We went to a cute little cafe in the Bellagio were I got a antipasto plate for $20. Ashley and her boyfriend had to leave that day because they had to work on Tuesday. We all ended up going back to the room and crashed out for another few hours. I had wanted to go see this hypnotist Anthony Cools, but somehow we ended up getting sidetracked and missed his show (I think we might have slept through it.) That night we went to XS at the Encore.

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