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Old 09-16-2010, 09:00 AM   #128
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Sept. 17, 2010
I wonder if I should start adding the journal entries as an update. I know of a few solo site girls who do that. It might also bring more attention to my journal updates since I am sure there are some members who only go on the forum to just look at the updates listing thread.

Sometimes I hate reading other people's blogs (well hate might be a little too strong of a word.) I went onto a blog today of a very well known porn star. She writes very eloquently...to a point that I almost felt...well dumbed down in a sense. I know I'm a smart girl, no doubt about that. But it's times like that when I realize that there are so many other people who are way smarter than me and for whatever reason that makes me feel incredibly dumb. It not only makes me feel dumb it makes me feel like I couldn't be an author (my back up job to being a doctor.) That especially happens when reading some books. I just think about how unlikely it is that I will ever be able to write as well as they do. I have a hard time expressing myself also. The words and thoughts are in my brain but trying to get them out...well it's incredibly difficult.

I watched some of the dirty cartoon porn that CaptnJack sent me. It's pretty hot stuff (though quite old...it is vintage cartoon porn though.) I also ended up watching a gay sex dvd which I also very much love. Being in a relationship with two very hot bisexual men who only have eyes for me (and of course each other) is my ultimate fantasy. I think that became my fantasy after reading the Anita Blake series by Laurell K Hamilton. I also just read book called Fairyville which was super, super hot. It's the first book I've ever read that had a full on gay sex scene in it with the most delicious descriptions about it. BTW delicious is one of the words that I actually really don't like saying. It kind of creeps me out for some reason.

I hate my upstairs neighbors. I think it's only a couple with their dog. They are just incredibly noisy. For about two days I had to listen to them having the world's loudest sex. The walls in my apartment are pretty thick. I've really never been able to hear my past neighbors, so the fact that I can hear the female screaming her head off during sex definitely shows she is being way too loud. I haven't heard anything tonight thank gawd. I hope that their next door neighbors complained about the noise. The sex noise wouldn't be so bad if they weren't going at it like bunnies. I mean all freaking day and night. Not to mention that they let their stupid dog bark incessantly when I know they are home, they walk around like they weigh a ton, and they play their awful music almost as loud as her bed voice (though to be fair I've only had to listen to their music once.) I figured I would wait it out and see if we have another noisy night before complaining to the apartment managers. Plus to be perfectly honest, it's incredibly uncomfortable hearing someone have sex when you haven't gotten laid in a long time .
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