D228, 01-07-11: To neukgraag
"Hi new..kgraag … newk..graag
Ok, you’ve got to tell me if I pronounced that right or not and how to pronounce it if I didn’t pronounce it right.
I read your question on the question thread. Your question was: On one of my video logs you mention that it takes you – wait – on one … yeah: On one of the video logs you mention that it takes you much longer to come in front the camera than at home. Does that frustrate you?
Absolutely, it totally does. Especially since when I’m at home and masturbating a lot of the times I can come within two minutes. If I had three wishes one of my wishes would be to have the perfect body, and part of having the perfect body would – wait, where would I go with this? – I would want to be able to come within four minutes anywhere. I think that would be so cool.
Yah, you know, it’s definitely frustrating , especially when I’m out in public trying to do it, because then I want to finish off as quick as possible, so we don’t get caught, and there’s been quite a few times when I haven’t been able to come at all. And, like you guys know, or should know, I refuse to have a fake orgasm. So I’m sure it leaves you guys kind of frustrated, too, because I’m just like “Oh, sorry guys, you’re not going to see an orgasm today. Peace!” But I definitely wish it wasn’t so hard for me. I don’t know why it is, maybe because I’m de-sensitized down there from – no, that’s not really the case, because obviously if I was de-sensitized from the most powerful toys that I’m using, or the super powerful toys that I’ve been using, then I wouldn’t be able to come here, or it would take me a long time to come when I’m at home. I don’t know. I think it’s just nervousness. Honestly I never masturbated in front of anybody until I started shooting for FTV and my website, so I think … I think it’s something that I’ve gotten used to, but I think it’s something that I won’t ever be completely comfortable with. I mean I’m comfortable with it, but I think subconsciously there’s a little, tiny part of me that’s like “Oh my god, they’re seeing me masturbate! This is weird!”
I hope that answered your question, ok?
Bye!"
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