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Ok.....Thanks Doc.

Does it understand me as I'm writing ? I would like that you rejects me. Or something I thrown out. Just speaking my outlet.

Its life nice !! Like living always. Do you see what I outlet here? I would be dead here.

The computer or forum it useful something to fill our sadness or empty everyday out house or to the job.
I'm not fixed to the computer to be sad without having real people to the external world.
I love the life and the people. But I want only one that good for me: the woman that understands my love according to the correct rules of the good sense to live and to love seriously. With great mutual respect.

I'm trying to do something to fight myself in the real life. I'm fighting against the colleagues of the job. Against the sisters of my daily misfortune. Against who doesn't want to understand and to help me in the real world because nobody of my sweet doesn't like to live. But of my great respect. I have made unbelievable errors against my poor parents. Now at times also my aunt. But the sisters I have never understood thing they wanted to be for having made a misfortune to our family. Never!!!!!!

I'm working. I'm living. I'm smiling. I'm trying to win. To be someone to have a woman that understands only me for our way of living. Others nobody interests me.
I was badly yesterday for remembering wickedness to my aunt because she didn't understand me and she always became angry.
I have been badly today still because someone has made bump to my car while was at job. But everything this I'm looking for to be alive and with the smile on my mouth.
Because I'm strong!!!!!!!!!!!!! And nobody has succeeded in making to fall me on the abyss of the dead life.
But someone is keeping on still hurting me. Because they want that I still have to fall. I believe that our strength of way of living is to really have Faith. But also great love and forgiveness.

I wanted to outlet. But this time I dont writing alone the English. I hope for Doc understands my state away of my search on that as you already have in your life. But I am not dead only with the computer. Just to have someone which to listen here to the forum of good honest people.
The sadness useful to who someone wants to stop or to make some evil (as to me) the wings of the way of living to love that person that you wish to have soon her. And to have the joy to end happy.

I would like to do happy my parents and my aunt that are in other part of the sky that we don't see and to let my sisters understand they have had an almost dead life on their nervousness
But my personal battle has reached an unbelievable stress now. Very difficult.