I am always coming up with questions in regards to things I would like to do and how you guys would respond to them so I am going to start posting them here. Please feel free to let me know your honest opinion... polite but honest
And yes this will probably be a very vain thread, sorry but most are the question are about decisions I want to make but need a little help with.
1. I was reading in the FTVGirls portion of the forum about implants. That is something I have really struggled with and wanted your opinion. I have always wanted implants but figured that would be something I would do after porn because I don't want to have that "porn star" look. But if you look are my FTV photos compared to photos of me now you will definately see a difference (yes I was pregnant and everything when back to normal except my boobs) so now I really want to have them done one day. I found a wonderful doctor about a year ago, the best of the best. He said he would only put a large enough implant in so that my breast would be more perky so they would go from their current B cup size to a middle C. For a year now I have been debating and because of my merging with FTV and wanting to get in the best shape ever and look as natural as possible... now I am really struggling with the decision. Not because I don't want them because I really do but because I want you guys to still enjoy me and not look at me as fake. Let me know your thoughts on that
2. This is a silly rather self absorbed topic but I miss looking like me.. if this makes sense. Years of modeling and life in general has made me really busy. I do things that I think make me look better on video, like the fake nails and highlights in my hair, etc. Truth be told when I am not shooting my nails are natural, I never wear make up, and sweat pants are my best friend. But when I look in the mirror, I don't see what I feel like is me. I don't tan anymore because people said I looked too orange (I love being tan!) and I put so many highlights in my hair that I now almost look blonde (I miss my brown hair). I am spending the next couple months being a little selfish and working out, yoga classes, tanning, etc and was wondering what you think about me returning to my natural hair color. I know guys love blondes but its not me, I look kinda bland in photos as a brunette but that is me being natural. How do you guys prefer to see me? I ask this because I love Danielle as a blonde but when she put up her recent update from a while ago with her natural hair color, it was breathtaking. She looks so.. well graceful (even though she was having sex time lol) but it made me start thinking. Thanks for your opinons!
Love
R