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danielle_ftv 01-18-2009 08:15 PM

Jan. 18, 2008
Good lord, I have been super busy lately. But finally I get a day "off"...so I plan on reading, taking baths, and eating junk food. I was taking a look at some of the other single girl sites out there and (not to be rude or anything) but I don't understand how girls think it's cute to act dumb. I saw several sites where the girl was acting super slutty and/or trashy and personally that does not turn me on at all...but FTV Rob says I'm used to "FTV ways"...in other words, the girls don't demean themselves. So maybe it's just me, but I love girls that are fun, and carefree, and have tons of personality...like Zeba :D Talking about Zeba, she actually returned for her second FTV "return" shoot. I got to pick her up and drop her off at the airport and do a little video of it (with out Rob helping me.) So we'll see what he thinks about my video skills when I don't have anyone guiding me. Anyhow, so assisting her shoot was an absolute blast. She is so full of energy (though we were all getting pretty tired, and our energy levels at the end were completely depleted.) I even got to "take advantage" of her a.k.a. fool around a bit. So I get to mark another thing off my kinky "to do list" (though I'm not telling you what we did ;) ).

So my sister finally had her child. His name is Carter, and he is super cute! He looks very similar to my sister (which I guess is a good thing since she is the cuter one out of the parents :p .) Rob told me not to do anymore birthday video logs, so to all of you who's birthdays are coming up, I apologize. I got to meet one of my members, for the first time. We ended up going out to dinenr at this really nice restaraunt. And he also got me a bottle of port wine. He was very much the gentleman, and was very courteous (and no we didn't do anything, for those of you who are having naughty thoughts.) Now maybe you guys will be less afraid to approach me in public ;) I start school on Tuesday. I'm pretty excited about it. My personal trainer is also pretty excited because two of the classes I am taking, he considers "cardio"....he has been bugging me to do more cardio. So now I will be working out about five times a week.

I'm thinking about doing a two week to a month long trip around the country, when school ends, in May. I would like to visit my different members around the US and go to some of the places I've always wanted to visit (like Washington DC.) I think it would be an awesome way to get some great updates, including candids. I guess my only problem would be that I would need Rob to go with me (so he could do film and photo) but getting him away from FTV will be incredibly difficult. So I may end up just having to hire a videographer/photographer to travel with me everywhere....maybe Zeba, since she does photo/video for other adult sites.

In a week I will be taking off for Maui. It's pretty exciting and I'm super thrilled about shooting, but it's definitely not a vacation. I will most likely be shooting with other photographers while I am there. Also if I have any members that live or are going to travel to Maui during the 26th to the 30th, I would love to meet you.

danielle_ftv 01-23-2009 11:54 PM

Jan. 23, 2008
So I've been pretty stressed lately (and it seems like most of the people in my life aren't making it any better.) I just started school this last week, which was great, but getting back into the swing of things is kind of difficult. I'm already making new friends in my classes, which is really exciting for me, considering how difficult it is for me to make friends.

I haven't checked my private messages in about five days but I already have over 35 P.M's. Now I love getting private messages from everyone, but I don't like getting five private messages from the same person....in two days. Please realize that I am super, super busy (and will be getting even busier since it seems like I will be taking over the website editing) and I don't have enough time to read and answer ten different messages from the same person. Sorry if that sounded rude at all.

My teachers and classes seem pretty fun. My self defense class is very difficult, mainly because I don't learn athletic/dance stuff very well when I am in a group setting (much better one on one.) So for awhile during the class I was getting very frustrated, and was thinking about dropping out. But I asked the instructor if they have tutors and he actually told me that he does private lessons. So I think that if I go that route, and hire him to instruct me, then the self defense class will go a lot easier for me. Same goes with the Italian class...it looks like I will probably end up having to get a tutor for that class also. I've realized that online classes are some of the hardest classes you can take. I don't think I'm very good at time management sometimes (though I'm working on it)....so trying to carve out time for online courses is really difficult.

So anyways I have a lot of errands to run, P.M.'s to check/answer, and homework to do. Got to go :D

danielle_ftv 01-28-2009 11:33 PM

Jan. 28, 2009
We are in Maui and the weather SUCKS! We were supposed to shoot the "volcano" shoot that both Lia and Alison did when they were here, but it won't stop raining. Yesterday it also rained so we ended up doing a rain shoot, which I think is going to turn out really well. I had a next door neighbor that actually walked out on his balcony (which is in perfect view of mine) while I was completely naked. I had to scurry back inside (not sure if he saw or not though...how embarassing.) Then as soon as I was ready to start shooting again, a hotel worker passed by me (while I was naked) on his little golf cart. At least we got the rest of the shoot done without anybody else spying me...or else if they did I didn't notice.

So the internet connection sucks here. Rob was complaining non-stop for awhile there about it, but I think he is kind of happy now since he doesn't have to check emails for about a week (kind of gives him a small break.) The food is so freaking expensive here...actually everything is incredibly expensive here. I ordered a smoothie last night ($8) thinking it was going to be fairly large....what a joke! The smoothie was about half the size of a normal glass and I didn't even get to drink it. For some reason it ended up bursting in my hand (no I didn't get cut.) But I'm still managing to eat all right, just not drinking as much as I normally do, since drinks are 4 times what they normally cost.

We've already done three updates/shoots. One here at the hotel (it was kind of a random shoot, not really planned.) Another was the rain one, and the other was at the beach. It was so funny though...when we got there we were scoping out the location and the people around us, and there was this couple who were completely naked, just laying around sunbathing and swimming. Talk about being comfortable with public nudity. I mean, it was not a nude beach! and there were people walking around everywhere. I guess it made me feel a little more comfortable being naked (but not much.) Funny thing is I think people would've stared more at a naked woman and man, but not really, everyone just kind of took it in stride. Now when I got naked, boy was I getting stares...and I think a few laughs (but that was from these two larger females.)

So tomorrow, we will most likely be doing the volcano shoot. I'm hoping to do four more shoots before we have to leave on Saturday (including the two volcano shoots.) I'm also hoping to do a few candid videos. I feel kind of stupid, because I was planning on editing a lot of the stuff while I was here, but I completely forgot my USB cables for the cameras. The birds here are very pretty, but kind of aggressive. They kept on stealing peoples food when the people would walk away from the table. Some of the birds would even steal food when there were people sitting right at the table. My sister should be arriving in Phoenix either before I get back or a few days after. It should be quiet interesting because she is driving down with my grandpa and grandma, so my mom's house is going to be super full for a week. But it should be nice having my grandma around. My mom wants me to take her on a "girls day out" type of thing, so I will probably take her to get manis/pedis and lunch.

I've realized why I don't like going someplace and paying for my nails to get done. I got my nails done on Saturday, and they are already chipping and looking like crap. I can't stand when people don't do a good job, and especially when you are paying good money for it. My first webcam session will be this week on Friday at noon (12 PM) Arizona time (which is actually 9 AM Maui time.) Hope this doesn't confuse anyone.

danielle_ftv 02-02-2009 06:11 AM

Feb. 01, 2009
So I just got back from Hawaii last night and just wanted to recount my trip there. Unfortunately we only managed to get four video updates and 5 photo updates due to many different reasons. Two days it rained (one of the days we took advantage of it and did a rain shoot...though I feel like I could've done a better job of it.) Wednesday we were supposed to go to the Haleakala crater, but that was one of the days it rained. Well we ended up going on Thursday, but when we actually got to the top we couldn't actually see the crater because of the intense amount of fog and clouds covering it. Another one of those shoots that I wished I would've done "better" on. Didn't get a masturbation scene at the very top like I wanted to because it was freezing cold and I was in short shorts and a t-shirt, plus there was WAY too many people walking around. So anyways the next day we were hoping to get in two more shoots (video and photo)....but the video camera was dead :eek: and neither one of us brought a charger with us. So we ended up doing a photo shoot, but yet again for some reason people started appearing left and right just as we started shooting. The photoshoot was still beautiful though and I'm very happy with it...I just wish we could've gotten more stuff. So anyways, I didn't get my malasadas unfortunately....and on the airplane ride home I was stuck next to a very rude lady who kept on elbowing me and "accidently" spilled her drink all over me. But anyways I'm going to quit complaining now...life is great (except for those Cardinals.)

danielle_ftv 02-08-2009 05:07 AM

Feb. 07, 2009
Not much going on lately. Just the same old routine...try to fit in the website, with school, and modeling. I've taken over the running of my site, and am editing all of my stuff. I'm almost done editing all the Hawaii stuff (thank Gawd.) My sister is finally here in AZ. She drove down with my grandma and grandpa, and the little baby. BTW, my nephew is the cutest kid on Earth. Plus he doesn't cry! Or at least I haven't really heard him cry. He actually kind of reminds me of me. He makes funny sounds, weird faces, and squirms around quiet a bit. I took my grandma out on Friday to the Desert Botanical Garden. They had a Chihuly exhibit, which my mom thought would be interesting for my grandma to see. They had Chihuly glass sculpture/bowl things in the gift shop that were selling for $6,100...who buys glass pieces for that much money? I can only imagine buying that, then accidently breaking it :eek:. I guess the most expensive nick-nack in my house would have to be my Gemini statue made by Royal Copenhagen...which I just found out I paid twice the price for. I ended up dropping my Italian class. I figure I'm going to do the Rosetta Stone program for whatever language I plan on taking next and then I will be completely proficient in the language and won't have to worry about failing the class. Either that or test out of the language completely (which would be a lot easier.) Tomorrow I have a photoshoot...my first ever pin-up shoot which I am super excited about. Plus there will be a make-up artist and a hairstylist there, which is awesome since I do not know how to do "pin-up" makeup or hair styles.

danielle_ftv 02-13-2009 02:36 AM

Feb. 12, 2009
Yes, yes, yes. I am so happy. I had two tests today in my geology lecture and geology lab. I just got the score back from my geology lab and I got a 92% (the average was 85%....so I got above average). I was completely freaking out about these tests (still kind of freaking out about the lecture test though, since I haven't gotten the score yet.) I ended up studying two days before the test, and also had my personal trainer help me study during our session yesterday night. I didn't study as much as I should've for the geology lecture test...thank gawd we are allowed to drop our lowest score for tests, because I'm thinking it is going to end up being my lowest. Most of the kids in my class said that the test was actually pretty hard. A lot of the questions on the test were about things that the teacher said we wouldn't need to memorize (trickster!) As long as I get above a 75% I will be happy (though I would prefer to get a 90% or above.) I have one more test next week for my math class. I'm actually doing pretty good in that class. It's so funny how you forget everything, then as soon as you start doing it again/learning it again....it all comes back to you. I'm sure I will end up getting a high score on that test. Tomorrow I will be doing my St Patricks and Easter shoot for my website...yes I know it's a little early...but I would prefer to get it done sooner. I'm pretty pysched about it because I bought special toys and special costumes for the shoots, so it should look pretty awesome. Yesterday I had my third webcam show. Surprisingly enough the audio was working! It was a little weird because I had my music playing on my laptop and all of a sudden I heard this peircing echo noise. So I guess I can't play music on my laptop when the webcam is rolling. It was also kind of weird that I couldn't hear myself speak. So I wasn't exactly sure if what I sounded like and if the audio was working correctly. It's a little awkward talking to myself/the computer....I wasn't sure (and still am not sure) if I should just answer questions on the computer or speak the answers. So we have a few more bugs to fix, and then we should be perfect on the webcam. Not sure when they are going to start archiving my shows (I've already done three...so they better get it done soon.) I still have yet to find a doctor that can do tattoo excision. That doesn't seem to be a common thing anymore since they've made the tattoo lasers. I'm hoping to find a doctor sometime in the beginning of next month so I can get it done during Spring Break.

danielle_ftv 02-17-2009 11:53 PM

Feb. 17, 2009
I just got my test score back for my Geology lecture...I passed! I only got a 79%, but thankfully we can drop our lowest score at the end of the semester. The teacher was chewing us out because almost everyone got the "what is plate tectonics" question wrong. Actually half the class didn't pass the test, and the highest score was a 91%, so I guess I did pretty good all in all. I noticed that the questions I missed were of topics from the week of school I missed back in January (Maui trip/shoot.) But hopefully I won't be missing school anymore...actually I can't miss school anymore because I "will be dropped from classes if I have more than 3 absences." I ended up dropping my self defense class...it was just kicking my ***. Especially doing that, my belly dance class twice a week and working out with my personal trainer three times a week. Just couldn't do it. Plus a lot of the exercises/joint manipulations were killing my elbow. So now I'm taking about five classes (geo, geo lab, math, belly dancing, and forensic pathology.) The forensic pathology class is pretty fun....it's self paced so I could potentially finish the class next month if I wanted to. Some of the pictures the teacher shows us in the Powerpoint presentations are pretty gruesome...but it doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would. I have yet to do the autopsy. The teacher said he does it once a month, so hopefully I will get invited before school ends. Unfortunately the problem with going to school is that I rarely have time to hang out with my friends. I actually haven't hung out with my friends in over a month. I can tell that they think I'm neglecting them...but they are all older and have been through college, so they have to understand what I'm going through. At least I'm getting to hang out with my sister and family more. I just met my future step dad's mother and sister. They are pretty nice...not as stuffy as I thought they were going to be. I was pretty quiet around them (because I'm fairly shy around new people) so hopefully they don't think I was being rude. I've finally finished editing all of my stuff for the site. FTV Rob had a HUGE pile-up of stuff that had to be edited. All in all we have 11 professional videos, 11 professional photo sets, 1 candid photo set, and 15 contributing sets. I guess it's nice that everything is edited...but now I don't know what to do with myself. I was doing the editing in my free time (it's actually fairly relaxing and pretty fun as long as I didn't over write stuff or delete important pictures :D.)

danielle_ftv 02-21-2009 09:37 PM

Feb. 21, 2009
I am never drinking again...will go into details later when my stomach decides to stop giving me problems.

9:26 PM
Okay so my stomach is feeling a lot better. Thanks to all my understanding members who told me that they would understand about me missing my webcam show...but I promise I will always try to make it to the webcam shows. The only reason that I wouldn't be able to make it is if I'm in the hospital or if a family member is in the hospital (or if my laptop is stolen, knock on wood.) The webcam show went great...ended up lasting over two hours! The time totally flew (though Rob is a little upset about me "spoiling" members). It's understandable though...today was not normal at all (webcam shows generally last about half an hour.) I just had a lot to talk about.

Anyways, my friends want me to go out with them again tonight....don't think that's going to happen, and if it does I will definitely not be drinking. Yesterday was the first night in about two months that I actually got to go out to the clubs and party. Well, I've sworn off alcohol (at least until I can forget about this incident.) Ended up drinking way too many gin and tonics (especially since I haven't really drank any alcoholic beverages for a long while.) It was fun though. I needed a night to relax and forget about everything.

A couple days ago I came across a post on this adult forum I frequent. It was a weird post from someone commenting on anothe post that told people to "avoid site at all costs." I couldn't figure out where the original post was posted on (at one point I thought it was on my site, but it wasn't fortunately.) Anyhow, I finally found the post (POST) and boy was I freaking upset when I read it. All I can think is that it's either that FTV hater Eddie Coates or my ex-fiance or his skanky girlfriend. I mean why the hell would someone make a comment like "Danielle doesn't give a **** about her fans"? If anybody who had any brains actually came to this site (or even read my posts on the adult board) they would see how untrue these statements are. I'm still upset about it. I put so much of myself into this website. I try to be nice to everyone (and have apologized to people about things I've said) and to have someone lie about something that means so much to me makes me so freaking angry (and Rob to!) All I can figure is it's either a competitor or someone I personally know that doesn't like me. What also sucks is that the comment is written in my "website review comments" section. There is only one other comment on that board (thankfully it's a positive comment.) But what the heck is going to happen when somebody is thinking about joining my site and reads that post and notices that there is only one other positive comment? It definitely does not look good on me at all. Evil people!

I'm trying to figure out what to do about my "across the US" trip when school ends. I've been talking to Rob about it and unfortunately don't think he would be able to go with me for a month long trip across the US (plus I think we would kill each other after spending that much time together.) And now that I've finally been thinking about it, I'm not sure how I would be able to drive that much. I think I may end up flying to a few different states for about a week, hiring a photographer/videographer (though of course the content won't be as good as Rob's) and driving around the state (and to other states if they are close by.)

danielle_ftv 02-22-2009 06:36 AM

Feb. 22, 2009
BAH....NEED TO GET LAID!!!! I finally caved and bought a 3-day membership to a cartoon porn site and have been masturbating furiously for the past hour now. I've gone looking for other sites...realized that I love goth girls and goth porn. I found a hot gothic/horror porn site that has this amazing hot chick that I really want to fool around with.

danielle_ftv 02-25-2009 01:54 AM

Feb. 24, 2009
I refuse to go to school anymore (jk). Somebody (not sure who out of the dozens of kid in my classes) got me sick. Today everyone was coughing and sneezing (oh wait...that would be me :D) and making everyone else who isn't sick, sick. My friend called and told me she has been sick for the past five days now....blah, I guess I have at least another three days of being sick. I got invited to go bowling on Wenesday. I'm so pysched. That's going to be my second (or so) time hanging out with new friends from school. Plus I haven't bowled in forever. I'm sure they plan on drinking, but I will definitely not be drinking since I have school the next morning and that's always terrible having to do anything when you are hungover and sleep deprived. I'm going to Portland, Oregon next month for a photoshoot. That's my second ever out of state photoshoot (my first ever going by myself.) The photographer's really cool (he's the one that did Alison's Studio Colors, Total Hotness Sporty Style, Public Nudity in Portland 1 and 2, among several other.)

danielle_ftv 03-04-2009 07:13 PM

Mar. 4, 2009
So I finally caved and built a Facebook page. Personally I don't like either Myspace or Facebook but I guess it's a good way to "network"...though that would also require me to answer messages (which I don't.) You can find my Facebook by looking up Danielle FTV. I built two...one for FTVGirls and one just for me. And there is also a "Danielle Lover's" fan group on there. I need more friends, so request me people. Yesterday FTV Rob finally caved and let me borrow the GTR. It was so freaking cool! I got to pick up all my friends and they were super impressed (mission accomplished!). We ended up going to a movie and out to eat at The Yardhouse...sucks because I'm not 21 yet and so couldn't drink their awesome beer. We ended up seeing "He's Just Not That Into You" which was like really depressing since I am so like the character "Gigi" in that movie. When I fall for a guy I totally end up sitting around my phone, waiting for his phone call. I end up checking out their Facebook and Myspace profiles and read and look at everything that they put on it. I guess it's kind of stalkerish...but I've always had a "problem" of falling for guys way to quickly and really hard. It's nice though because that movie kind of made me feel a little more "normal"...like my whole Facebook stalking isn't so unusual. Anyhow I have my midterm exam for my forensic pathology class this weekend, my midterm for math next week, and midterm for my Geo lab tomorrow...boy am I freaking out right now. Also you should check out this interview with www.girlnextdoormag.com. I'm on the cover! Not sure why they didn't review my site though (they reviewed FTVGirls instead).

2:49 PM
Yeesssssssss....I just took my online forensic pathology midterm and got an A. So I am averaging an A- in the class right now...so happy.

danielle_ftv 03-07-2009 02:42 AM

Mar. 6, 2009
So just did my workout. I've been pretty good this week about working out...went all three days that I scheduled. Wednesday I ended up going bowling with friends from school. Wonder if that's going to become a weekly thing for me? Probably shouldn't have gone out bowling considering I had my mid-term in Geo lab, Thursday morning...but actually now that I think about it, it probably is a good thing, since I did not know at all that we had a test on Thursday. I really don't think I did as good as I should've....actually I think I probably failed the test. My teacher wasn't joking when she told us that the tests weren't going to be any easier than the first one...but she should've at least told us that they were going to be impossible :D. Most of the kids in my class also thought that the test was super hard. Looks like I will be taking the final (you can drop your lowest test grade and if you are okay with all your test grades then you don't have to do the final.) Anyways I should get the results back by Tuesday. Tonight my friends want me to hang out with them but honestly I really just want to stay in and read my book. I haven't really had any time to myself (and I have a butt load of P.M.'s to answer) and the last thing I want is to be hung over tomorrow. I finally caved and bought a television. It's a 37 inch Toshiba plasma tv. I also got a X-Box 360 and RockBand. Honestly though I'm kind of regretting buying all that...it cost over $1,200! I never knew tv's were so freaking expensive. I was tempted to take everything back, but I know at some point I will need to buy a tv...so I will probably end up keeping it. Now putting it all together is going to be a pain in the butt for sure.

My mom planned a get together tomorrow night for my sister and nephew. Unfortunately my mom also wants me to attend. There are two reasons why I don't really want to go A) it's near P.I.R. so an hour away from me and B) my sister and I aren't really on good terms right now. I ended up inviting my sister to eat with FTV Rob and a model he was shooting. Well anyways Rob started doing an interview with the model, asking the normal questions "when was your first orgasm", etc. Well for some reason my sister ended up flipping out and started ranting about "disrespect" and B.S. like that...in front of the model and my boss! I was so P.O.ed. I mean I understand that she wasn't comfortable, but that doesn't mean that she had to make a freaking scene in front of a bunch of people and make my boss and the model uncomfortable. Plus it's kind of disrespectful to me considering this is my job...getting naked in public, masturbation and talking about it. I thought she was okay with it....but not so much now. The funniest thing is she was talking about how they were "disrespecting" her child (my nephew was also there)...but hello he's 7 WEEKS OLD! As far as I know, no 7 week old child can understand English and when they see boobs they think "yummy...food." Plus I mean come on...it seems kind of hypocritical to me that she's 20 years old, got married to someone she knew for only a few months, and is now a mother. Not only that but she's definitely done some unsavory thing in the past that would make porn look like bible school (wonder if that made any sense.) I just absolutely hate people like that...that can do some of the worst things and then think porn and the people who are willing in it are disgusting. So yeah...that's why I really don't want to hang out with my sister. I'm sure we will make it up...but she really needs to A) become less socially retarded B) realize there are right times and wrong times to express your opinions and C) realize that people aren't always going to do stuff that you agree with...and you should be okay with that.

danielle_ftv 03-14-2009 09:33 PM

Mar. 14, 2009
So it seems like I'm finally getting into a semi-routine...though I still need to work on my time management. Wenesday I ended up going bowling again with my friends after my workout (though I didn't bowl, just ate some cheesy nachos!) I failed my Geology mid-term miserably. Ended up getting a 44% :eek: FREAKING TERRIBLE! I've never gotten a 44% on anything. The messed up thing is that the class average was a 53%. The teacher was P.O.ed and gave us the "smack down". She told us that, that was the lowest class average in the seven years she's been teaching. Good thing that we can at least drop our lowest test score. But I will be studying hardcore for the next two tests. I also ended up missing my belly dancing class on Wenesday because I was so freaking tired. Later found out that, that was the ONE class that I didn't want to miss since we were going over the mid-term dance material. So hopefully my friends will help me study what they went over that day. Mid-terms for my Geology lab is after Spring Break...which sucks because I'm pretty much going to veg out for the next week and studying during break is not my idea of fun. Talking about Spring Break it actually looks like I will be doing something. My friends and I are going on a trip to Rocky Point, Mexico. I'm pretty excited since this will be my first time ever going somewhere/doing something for Spring Break. My friends were kind of freaking out though because I guess parts of Mexico are having problems with drug cartels, kidnapping, etc. But what they didn't seem to realize is that the way the media is talking about it makes it seem like ALL of Mexico is having these issues which is not the case. So anyways I'm going to have fun, and hopefully the internet access will be fast enough so I can update the site. I ended up going out last night. Funny thing is, I can always tell when I'm going to have issues getting into a club...kind of like a sixth sense. Anyhow, so my friends and I ended up going to our usual club (the one I've been to at least eight times.) And for the first time at this club I got questioned hardcore about my I.D. What's your last name? How do you spell it? How old are you? When's you birthday? etc. I'm surprised I wasn't asked what my astrological symbol was (which I do know, along with the condo I "live in", and what's around the condo :D....talk about paranoia.) But anyways I was let in at the end (thank gawd.) Didn't really end up drinking, just had one gin and tonic. The music sucked, so a friend and I bailed out and ended up getting some greasy pizza at this pizza joint next door. They must make GREAT money with all the drunk kids coming in after hours. Honestly I just can't wait until I turn 21. Two more months. Nobody tells you that the last 2 months are complete hell! My friends and I are talking about going to Vegas the first week of June. So excited!

P.S. You know what I don't get??? Single site girls that have journals and always have to mention something sexual in their entries (ie "we were driving down to such and such and all of a sudden I got the urge to blow him in the car.") Like whatever foo girls. Is that how you talk to your friends? Puh-lease. I don't understand why these girls can't keep it real.

danielle_ftv 03-20-2009 08:24 PM

Mar. 20, 2009
So I'm back from Rocky Point. It was awesome...definitely a great place to go for your first Spring Break. There wasn't as many people vacationing there as I thought there was going to be. I was talking to a few people who regularly go there and they were commenting on that and saying it's really due to the media hype about Mexico being unsafe (which BTW is complete BS for Rocky Point...I actually felt quiet safe there.) Our hotel was super nice...especially for the price I was paying. The first night we didn't really do anything, just hung around the hotel and drank. We ended up going to this bar called Baja Cantina. I guess it was the "happening hot spot" there. I've never seen so many girls getting naked! I'm not going to lie...I was also right up there in the VIP with them flashing my boobs around. But I'm pretty used to nudity, so it's not unusual for me. What was funny was that later on I was talking to some of my male friends about me flashing myself. They were telling me that if their girlfriends were to do the same thing they would be upset. It definitely got me to thinking though, because I'm so used to nudity and have been even before I started in this industry. It always confuses me when people get upset by it...but then I have to realize that not everybody thinks the way I do. It was also funny thinking about how okay I am with nudity when it's on my own "terms" rather than when I'm shooting. I get really nervous sometimes when I'm doing public nudity shoots, but get me in front of a bunch of people and I will normally take off my clothes (and without any alcohol in me.) Gawd that probably made me sound really slutty (which I'm not) I just find it completely ridiculous how people can be all Godly and prude, but when they start drinking or go somewhere for vacation they "slut it up" and sleep with a dozen different people, and do other crazy things like that. I just don't get it. But anyways...didn't really do anything for St. Patty's day. Just hung out around the beach and drank beers all day (BTW I'm swearing off drinking again...or at least until this weekend.) The drive back to Arizona was complete hell. We ended up waiting for THREE HOURS at the border. And they really need to make a better system because what ended up happening was that the police split the one line into two lines (by this point we had been waiting for about 45 minutes while everyone else who was zooming by us for the second line had just got there.) Well anyways the line merges further down...so all those people who just got there were able to get through the border within 30 minutes to an hour while we were stuck behind them for three hours. I was so freaking p!ssed off...plus I almost ran out of gas and was just able to cross the border and get gas before my car died on me (thank gawd...that would have been embarassing.) But other than that it was a fun trip for sure. My friends and I are thinking about doing a Vegas trip right after my 21st birthday...that should be pretty exciting! I don't have that much longer to wait. Next month is the Phoenix Forum (April 2nd to the 4th)...I'm super pysched about it. Unfortunately Rob is supposed to be gone for his Bugatti trip at that same time so I won't be able to get any professional video/photo updates there. Next week I have two more mid-term tests...which by the way I think is completely screwed up. I mean why couldn't they schedule it for before Spring Break...who wants to study during their Spring Break? April is going to be a sucky month for me. Not only do I have taxes that are due, but my car insurance is due and I have to renew my car registration. I already did the car registration and got a personalized license plate!

danielle_ftv 03-25-2009 10:24 PM

Mar. 25, 2009
So I did it! I finally talked to my mom about what I do for a living. Funny thing is she already knew (found out about a week ago.) I guess she was just waiting for me to tell her about it. I guess that my step father to be was looking up Rob's cars and found out about the whole "219" thing, which lead to him finding out about FTV, where he found me. I'm pretty surprised that my sister didn't tell my mom (which I honestly thought she was going to do.) It's cool though because now I feel like me and my sis have more trust for each other. Anyways so the whole reason that the site was brought up was because my mom and I were talking about the "familial nudity fiasco" and I was explaining to my mom that I would be super uncomfortable if she ever saw nude pictures of me. Well she straight out told me that she already had and that got me to thinking...where? Because my modeling portfolio has an option that I always turn on that doesn't show the nude pictures (anything 18+) to non-members. Well I'm at least glad that it's out in the open now. I just wanted to wait until things calmed down a little. Especially since my brother in law got into town and is staying with my mom until April 5 or so and then my little brother is supposed to be coming down from DC at the beginning of April too. So I know my mom is pretty stressed out and the last thing I want is for her to get even more stressed out about this. My mom took everything pretty calmly. I explained to her how this job has changed me, and how for the first time in my life I am truly happy. I'm finally in control of my life...I'm going to school, have an amazing job, get to talk to people that really like me, am finally going to school and actually know what I want to do this time. And on top of that I actually have friends! And they invite me places! I'm not going to lie...my mom was upset. She ended up crying at the end of our conversation, but I don't think it was really the job that upset her I think it's just the fact that for the first time in both of our lives I'm starting to drift away from her. I'm going to make it a priority to call her at least twice a week just to chat and to visit her at least once a week for lunch or dinner. I never meant to drift away from her...I guess things just got in the way. I wonder what my mom's fiance thinks about my job? Now I'm going to be super uncomfortable around him...how freaking awkward!

I'm pretty happy about my grades so far. I thought I was going to be failing my Geology lecture course since I failed that one test miserably. But I guess I'm actually making a B- in it...which is awesome since I am planning on doing as much extra credit as possible which can raise my grade up by one letter. I am also making an A- in my Forensic Pathology class, math, and my Geology lab class. I'm not really sure what I'm making in my belly dancing class though. I'm probably not doing that well since I'm missed four classes which lowers my grade to like a C or something like that. But fortunately I can make up two of the classes which will raise up my score.

danielle_ftv 03-30-2009 08:15 PM

Mar. 30, 2009
I've realized that lately (actually for like the past two months) I haven't been on here as much as I used to. And I've definitely been slacking on answering private messages from everyone. I just wanted to apologize to you all for that. I'm still trying to figure out how to juggle school, work, friends, and family and it's pretty freaking difficult. I will try to do better about answering P.M.'s. So I didn't end up going to Portland. Thursday I started feeling under the weather and it just progressed, so I ended up having to cancel on Friday. I felt pretty bad because I know that a lot of photographers think that the girl is just flaking out on them when they cancel with such a short notice. So anyways I'm going to try to reschedule the shoot for next month. I'm pretty psyched because the Phoenix Forum is this week (Thursday to Saturday). This will be my first adult convention. Unfortunately Rob will only be able to go with me one day since he has to go to Germany for the Bugatti "253 drive". So looks like I will be latching myself onto Lia (which hopefully she doesn't mind :).) My lease for my apartment is going up in mid-May and I'm trying to figure out whether or not I want to move and get a bigger house or if I should just stay (I hate moving!). It looks like it will be a little more expensive to get a house...but it would be bigger. If I do end up moving I definitely want a place that is located close to my school and to Rob's house.

danielle_ftv 04-03-2009 07:51 PM

April 3, 2009
So this week has been the week of bad luck for me. First off I couldn't really do anything for my webcam show because of "womanly" issues. Then I started to get this weird vein "popping" issue on Tuesday night and could barely sleep because of it. I ended up telling my mom about it and she told me that I needed to go to the E.R. to get it checked out because it might be a blood clot. So I went there by myself (I hate being in hospitals by myself) and waited three hours to be told that I am perfectly healthy and there is nothing wrong with me. This is turn made me kind of upset because now I'm thinking "gawd I am such a hypochondriac." So the doctor ended up calling my mom to explain to her that everything is okay with me and that I am healthy...which was a huge relief to me because maybe now she will finally stop trying to get me to see all these doctors. So because of going to the E.R. I missed my first class of the day (belly dancing) and I've already gotten too many absences in that class. The next class was math...which we ended up having a test in, that I did not study for at all. So I'm sure I failed that. Yesterday the Phoenix Forum started. I was pretty excited until I actually got there and got a yellow wrist band which states that I am under 21. Somebody was able to get me a orange wrist band though...so that was pretty cool. The Phoenix Forum was fun until about 6 PM when I started getting a headache...which turned into a migraine at about 8ish. I went out to dinner with Lia and her friends but had to leave because I was feeling completely terrible. Well all last night was spent in a fever with a pounding migraine, and then I started "sicking up". I was hoping that with enough sleep it would go away but I guess not. As I'm writing this the headache is coming back and I'm still feverish. I hope I didn't get sun stroke or something. Wouldn't be surprised though since I barely get in the sun. So I'm supposed to do three days of this. I don't even want to go today to be honest. But not only am I "representing" for my site and FTV...Tate (our photographer/videographer in training) is supposed to be there doing practice shoots on me. I'm not sure what to do since I've been planning this with him for awhile now and the last thing I want is for him to think I'm flaking out on him. Plus I don't want him to have to shoot Lia because I'm sure Lia wants to have fun and plus I'm sure she won't be staying the whole time. Besides that the Phoenix Forum was fun...though not really my cup of tea. I don't do well in large crowds and especially large crowds where I don't really know anyone. I've realized I am not a social butterfly like Lia. I can't go up to random people and introduce myself and make conversation. Most of the time I don't know what to say...which get's me all flustered because then I think they think I'm being standoffish when in reality I'm just a shy person when I don't know somebody. So anyways I'm starting to feel even worse now and I need to contact Lia and Tate and tell them it's a big possibility I may not be showing up today (at least until I feel better.)

P.S. I was hoping to answer the P.M.'s that have been stacking up for the past four days but I'm not sure I'm even up to that.

danielle_ftv 04-07-2009 11:32 PM

Apr. 07, 2009
So I think I'm getting sick again. It sucks because it seems like every journal posting for the past month and a half has been about me getting sick. Thankfully it's just a little sore throat...hopefully it won't turn into anything too bad. The Phoenix Forum actually turned out to be a lot of fun. I ended up going back Friday around 5ish and stayed until...well about 5 the next morning. I got to meet a lot of really cool people. I think I'm less shy during the nighttime for some reason. I came back on Saturday around 3. Tate and I were supposed to get some video/photo content at the Forum...but that ended up becoming kind of a nightmare. We did get the content...just not really everything that I wanted. The sun was going down, so we couldn't really continue to shoot. I ended up playing topless dodgeball where if you got hit by the ball you had to take off a piece of clothing...down to your underwear. The first time my team won and I only had to take off my skirt and shirt. The second time we ended up losing and I had to take off everything (I'm blaming it on the fact that we were facing the sun and couldn't see anything.) They had a "strip club" inside the hotel (really it was just a room that they had put a stripper pole in). I got a little crazy and ended up dancing on the pole two times. It was a lot of fun though. Most of the girls were doing that anyways. Most of Sunday was spent recuperating. My brother is in town this week (his school has a very late Spring Break)....need to visit him before he has to go back to DC.

BTW...I noticed that I missed Sundays webcam show. The only reason I figured that out is because my scheduler alarm went off on Monday telling me that I had a webcam show at 7. Well, I'm at school at 7 so I figured that I had accidently set the calendar for Monday not Sunday. Sorry about that you guys.

You can find pics of the Phoenix Forum on here and some of me on here. On the FUBAR site look under "The Forum", "Desert Splash, Poolside Bash", and "Webmaster Dodgeball (Day 2)" to find pictures of me.

danielle_ftv 04-18-2009 10:13 PM

Apr. 18, 2009
Wow it's been a LONG time since I've written on here. Not much has really happened though. I went to my first rave last Saturday. It was so freaking cool. Funny thing is it was right next to where Rob was racing the Bugatti. They had three different stages but my friends and I really only stayed at the first two. They definitely were playing a pretty eclectic mix of music considering raves generally only play electronica. BTW, I finally caved and signed up for Twitter. What's pretty cool about it is that I can update it from my cell phone...that makes things a million times easier. So if I don't post on here for awhile you guys can always see what I'm doing on Twitter. I already have five followers...yeah! My birthday weekend is going to be insane. I guess that Rob has something planned for me and I'm planning a trip to Vegas May 31st - June 2nd with one group of friends. I know that one of the other group of friends will want to go to Myst at some point (that's where they do all their birthday celebrations.) I never liked the fact that my birthday was at the end of the school year because nobody would ever show up to my birthday parties because they would be on vacation somewhere else. But now I think it's cool because I don't have to worry about being hungover/sleep deprived/etc. and having to going to school. It's so weird...I was going through a bunch of papers on my desk and found my electric bill. When I pay a bill online I always write the confirmation number on it so that I know I've paid it. Well the bill didn't have any conf. number on it and it was due 10 days ago! I'm surprised they haven't turned off my electricity. This is the first time I've ever done that so I'm kicking myself over it.

danielle_ftv 04-20-2009 02:59 AM

Apr. 19, 2009
I just took this really interesting quiz online. It said that I am a "negotiator" personality type with "explorer" being my secondary personality type. I thought it was very interesting because at the bottom they had words that "negotiators" unconsciously use to describe themselves including empathetic, reader, passionate, and real which are all words that I've used to describe myself. This is what it said about me relating to others:

"You dislike conflict. You seek "win-win" solutions. You are good at sharing power and ideas. And you are a master at the art of intimacy-building deep and exciting relationships with others. Nevertheless, you often enjoy solitude or intense interactions with just one individual or a few close friends. And you particularly enjoy people who like to play with abstract theories and ideas, provide insights, search for symbolic meanings in life and relationships and have a broad interest in the world."

I definitely do dislike conflict. And I am really good at sharing ideas and power. That is 100% me.

This is what they said about my personality type in general:

"You see the big picture. You easily take the broad, long view of almost any topic. You are comfortable juggling myriad facts. You tend to synthesize material easily and think in webs of factors, not straight lines. You are imaginative and enjoy ideas.

You are also socially savvy. You are good at both talking and listening. And you generally read people's faces, body postures and tone of voice accurately, so you often intuitively understand what people want and need.

You are also highly compassionate. You care deeply about others. So you are inclined to make personal sacrifices to be a supportive friend and colleague. And you are idealistic and altruistic; you like to work to improve the world.

And you have an adventurous side; you enjoy new ideas and novel experiences and you want to share these with an enthusiastic partner. But you are particularly fond of people who are direct, decisive, focused and tough-minded, people who complement your more flexible, agreeable and affable style."


I do think I am a pretty compassionate person (sometimes to the point where it gets me in trouble.) Not so sure about the "socially savvy" part. I'm a great listener but I don't think I'm all that great of a "talker".


10:05 PM
OMG...OMG...OMG. I just found a site that looks identical to mine...how funny. I guess people like my website design. And guess who's site it is......Renna of FTV. LOLOLOLOL. Freaking awesome!

danielle_ftv 04-23-2009 11:31 PM

Apr. 23, 2009
Freaking Model Mayhem! YOU SUCK! Freaking conformists (raging and ranting here). Somebody made a fuss about my portfolio on Model Mayhem (a modeling portfolio/networking site) and low and behold I get removed. What really gets me though is that they listed a bunch of things they wanted taken off my profile and it included.....the "Middle Men" movie that I was an extra in. Since when does a mainstream movie count as anything ADULT. Motherf@ckers. I am so freaking mad. I put so much effort into that darn profile and they didn't even give me the chance to take down what "offended" them. Stupid Puritans...you wouldn't have to deal with this crap anywhere else in the world.

Other than that I'm doing great. Celtic Woman tonight...whoo-hoo. Plus I have an event filled weekend (I think...my friends need to get back to me on that.) I guess my friends and I will be going to a rave on Friday night, then Saturday we will be having a bbq (that's if we get enough sleep.) Next week I have a test in Geology lab. I think I should do well enough on it.

danielle_ftv 05-01-2009 05:45 AM

Apr. 30, 2009
Hey everyone...I changed the webcam show from this Sunday to Monday at 3 PM and changed the webcam show on May 15th to 3 PM too because I'm supposed to go to a birthday dinner for my step dad to be.

So I finally put in my two months vacancy notice for my apartment. Now I just have to figure out exactly what it is that I'm going to do about my living situation. I would really like to have room mates since I've never really had room mates before. Today was my Geology lab final so now I am completely done with that class...yeah! I just checked my grades online and it looks like I made a B in that class. That's good but I would rather it have been an A (looks better for med school admission.) Last weekend was a lot of fun. I ended up going to my first desert rave. It was way out in the freaking desert (like 45 minutes away) and we ended up getting lost like three times. It was so funny too because at about two in the morning the rave ended up getting busted by the cops. Everybody was freaking out, running to their cars and driving like maniacs (not that it really would have helped at all since there was only one way out.) My friends threw a bbq on Saturday, which was nice...gave us some time to relax...though I ended up drinking way too much and passed out really early. Sunday we went to Lake Pleasant and rode around on a friend's boat. The guy who owned it ended up getting plastered and was throwing up the whole ride back. This weekend should be interesting too. My friends and I are all doing the lake thing again on Sunday. The rest of the weekend we will probably end up relaxing (I hope.)

danielle_ftv 05-13-2009 01:37 AM

May 13, 2009
So school is finally done...yippee! Now I can finally start making those appointments I've been putting off for the past few months (dentist, tattoo removal, eye check up, etc.) Lately I've gotten a few requests for personal videos. Unfortunately I'm not able to do personal videos/photosets because FTVRob (the photographer/videographer) is too busy to do shooting for anything other than the sites. Of course I can always use the small camera and shoot it myself but it won't be as high quality and won't have the angles that a professional shoot would have. Also I've been getting requests for autographed pictures which I would be perfectly happy to do. Just send me the photo you want autographed, what you want me to put on it, and a postmarked envelope with the address you want it sent to. I was looking on the Ritz Camera website and it looks like 8x12 pictures cost about $3.99 each. I'm assuming a photo envelope costs around $1.50 and I have no idea how much shipping is. Anyways I'm changing my mailing address because I never get the mail from the P.O. box. You can send things to:

Danielle FTV
7631 N 20th St
Phoenix, AZ 85020

that way I actually get them. I've had a few people sending me P.M.'s asking me if I am okay. Let me assure you I am perfectly fine...thank you for the concern :D. If anything were to happen to me Rob would tell you within a day. If I'm not answering P.M.'s or haven't been on the board in awhile it's probably just because I'm hanging out with my friends or my internet connection isn't working (which happens 90% of the time.) Need to remember to call Cox and have them fix it before I actually move out of my place. Yet again one of my profiles got deleted. Facebook decided to delete the FTV Facebook page and Danielle FTV Facebook page I created. I'm through with putting so much of my freaking time and energy into creating these darn profiles and having them be deleted just because of some conservative a-hole. So far my Model Mayhem profile and both Facebook profiles have been deleted. Now I will be super pi$$ed off if Myspace deletes my Myspace page (not that they have any reason to.)

My 21st birthday is 17 days away...so excited. Right now my sister and I are both 20 years old...thankfully she's matured a little and doesn't use that against me when I tell her to do something (though she still does try to boss me around.) I will probably be attending EDC in LA in late June. Most likely I will only be going to the Friday concert (it's two days...Friday and Saturday) so Saturday will be free. If any of you are in the LA area and would like to meet me on Saturday, June 27th please contact me through P.M. and hopefully I will be able to meet some of my members/fans.

danielle_ftv 05-24-2009 08:41 PM

May 24, 2009
Five more days until my 21st birthday. It's so weird that I'm finally going to be legal....I mean I've been waiting for this for so freaking long. Now I can finally get rid of my friend's I.D. (though my friends still want me to use it until it get's taken away from me...for some reason they find that thought highly amusing). I think one of the biggest advantages to being 21 is that I can finally start to achieve those goals that I listed a few months back (winning awards, etc.) I've been thinking about it and really...I couldn't have done anything about those goals until now (or at least May 29th). You see to win any awards or become a Fleshlight Girl or get into magazines I need to get my name out there. But to do that I need to be able to attend the functions that everyone else is attending and my problem was (or is until my birthday) that all those functions normally include alcohol and so you have to be 21 to attend. I figure what I've been doing up until now has been good enough...but I am definitely going to kick up the self promotion and networking a few notches (well a lot of notches.) I've also been thinking about putting up 24/7 live cams in my apartment (maybe in the living room and my bedroom). I will probably end up doing a "test run" just to see how popular it is and what everyone's opinion of it is. BTW, my internet finally got fixed though it is still kind of screwy. I would like to do one of my webcam shows at my apartment but knowing my luck the internet would turn off on me right in the middle of me masturbating. I just bought a bunch of new toys...two of them were back ordered. Just got one of the back ordered toys yesterday and the other one should arrive sometime this week. I also bought my 4th of July shooting costume and a special toy for it. I also went a little overboard and bought my toys for my Thanksgiving shoot, Christmas shoot, and Easter shoot 2010. I need to do a candid video or video log showing you guys all my new toys. I also need to do a candid video showing you guys my new CHINCHILLAS! They are so freaking cute. I went all the way down past Tucson to a Chinchilla breeder to get them. They are brothers, named Gratch (from the Sword of Truth series) and Taquito (my sister came up with that one.) It's funny because my sister and mom always end up renaming my animals so I just ended up calling my sister to have her name them and she came up with Taquito for one of them (I guess she was eating Taquitos at the time) and a few other names for the other one (Rufus, Ottis, and other weird names that didn't strike me as "right".) Gratch is definitely the more adventurous of the two. I can't really tell them apart yet...I usually figure the first one that comes out to investigate has to be Gratch. Taquito is still getting used to me...he's kind of shy. I ended up doing a bunch of research on Chinchilla's and found out that the cage that the breeder made for them is way too small. So I ended up buying a 60 inch high cage (so 5 feet high). It's about 3 feet long and 2 1/2 feet "deep". So that should be plenty of jumping room for them. I also found out that everything in their cage should be non-plastic...so I'm having custom wooden shelving and houses built for them. I also have to buy them metal feeders for their pellets and hay. They seem to be doing okay right now but I really don't like them being in such a small cage. My family came over the other night after my birthday dinner (the first time they've ever seen my place...though I've lived here for over a year now.) My mom kept on bothering me to take the chinchilla's out but I read that you aren't supposed to take them out of the cage until they are completely tamed. Supposedly this is going to take a few weeks...but they both already take food out of my hands and Gratch has climbed onto my hand before (but I think he was just trying to get out of the cage.) This week is going to be pretty busy for me. I have to get my hair and nails done on Thursday (and I hate getting my nails done...they never do it exactly the way I want it done.) On Friday I'm getting waxed (yeah! what a great b-day present.) And either Thursday or Friday I need to go get Mystic tanned. Friday my friends are supposed to take me out...I guess they plan on getting me drunk, which honestly I'm not really looking foward to. Sunday we leave for Vegas. I'm so excited because I rented a limo to pick us up from the airport. They are supposed to have roses for all the ladies. I also got a two bedroom penthouse suite at the Bellagio with a connecting room (since there is supposed to be about 6 people going.) On Sunday we have a party bus (with stripper poles!) that's going to drive us around and drop us off at random bars/clubs. On Monday we are probably going to go see Anthony Cools, this hypnotist and I'm going to try to talk my friends into going up on stage with me to get hypnotised. I don't plan on gambling because personally I hate losing money and don't want to ruin my trip because we get kicked out of a casino for me throwing a hissy fit (though I'm sure my friends would find that highly amusing.)

BTW...I just want to apologize to everyone about not answering P.M.'s. I'm a procrastinator like crazy...and definitely need to fix that. I figure it would probably be easiest if I answer P.M.'s every other day and put it in my scheduler in my phone so it reminds me to do them. I really irritate myself sometimes when I put off stuff for so long. Not quiet sure why I do it, because in the end I always feel bad and lazy.

I'm taking these diet pills that are really...um...interesting. I've lost about 6 pounds in 10 days being on them. They do have some interesting side effects though. Like sometimes I feel slightly out of breath. You also lose your appetite like crazy and have to force yourself to eat. Your body temperature runs kind of high too. Also you get fairly jittery. My focus isn't spectular on it (though I can manage.) My mom kind of freaked out on me when I told her I was taking them. It's not like I plan on taking them for a super long time. I just want to lose 12-14 more pounds. I understand that I look great now...but I would really like to be at my goal weight. I just think I will feel a lot better about myself if I am. I figure by the end of 2009 I should be at my perfect body weight with great muscle tone, my tattoos should almost be completely faded and my teeth will be fixed. I would like to also get laser hair removal down there...but that would hurt like a biatch!

danielle_ftv 05-27-2009 03:40 AM

May 26, 2009
Hey guys...remember that whole e-Rotic Playboy tv show? Well I'm really interested in having them do a segment on my website but I need people to email and "suggest" it. I would be super appreciative if anyone could email Playboy TV and tell them about my site.

Here is the email address...

eRotic@PlayboyTV.com

danielle_ftv 05-27-2009 11:29 PM

May 27, 2009
How exciting!!! Tate Hemlock (FTVGirls photographer/videographer in training) just put up a new website. You guys should check it out. There are even some pictures from the Phoenix Forum 2009.

www.tatehemlock.com

6:06 PM
Damn I guess I "let the cat out of the bag" (I think that's what you guys say.) So I recently found out that I can squirt. I was having a little fun one night (well actually a lot of fun...went on for 3 hours) and for some reason got it into my head that I was going to squirt that night. Well I've researched squirting quiet a bit and watched Geezer's video that he sent "Nina Hartley's Guide to Female Ejaculation"....so I did exactly what they said and ended up squirting. I was kind of freaked out to tell you the truth (but uber excited) so I went in my bathroom and grabbed my "helping hand" toy and this other purple penis dildo and tried to squirt again. Ended up doing it two more times that night. Two nights after I tried it again...though with a video camera so that I could see exactly what was going on down there. Ended up squirting three times....did a smell test, taste test and color test (squirted in the white bathtub for the color test) and came to the conclusion that it really was me squirting. Tried it again the night after and was able to do it again...but for some reason got super paranoid that it was urine not squirt so ended up researching for about five hours. I came to find out that you squirt out of your "pee hole"...it can be different colors (including clear and light yellow...I guess it depends on how much you've squirted)...it's similar to a peeing feeling, and it can have a "pungent" odor. I guess that nobody's squirt liquid is exactly the same. Somebody may squirt completely clear liquid that has a slight odor and that doesn't come out as forcefully and somebody may have yellowish liquid that has no odor that gushes out. I realized that I can't really squirt without something in me...unlike Leslie who can start squirting then take out whatever object she is using and still be squirting. I still have yet to learn about my "squirt timing". My "forcefullness" differs. Like if I've been masturbating a lot I think it's fairly forcefull....but it really kind of differs from one squirt to the next.

I'm still trying to get comfortable with this. In a way this is almost like peeing and personally that is something that is...intimate in a way and not something that I do in front of people. So it may take me a little while to get used to the idea that I can squirt and to do it on camera (in front of Rob...OMG how weird!).

danielle_ftv 06-05-2009 11:14 PM

June 5, 2009
Cancelled the webcam show today. Still sick from Vegas. Will be on here later to answer P.M.'s, threads, and write in my journal about the whole Vegas trip. Going to sleep a little now.

danielle_ftv 06-08-2009 04:02 AM

CONTINUATION

I absolutely love that hotel and the service was awesome (and we weren't even staying there!) I definitely think I will be staying at the Wynn or Encore next time. We had way too many problems with the Bellagio's service. The DVD player didn't work correctly so we called someone to come fix it. Well two phone calls and 2 hours later it finally got fixed. Ashley also tried buying a Gatorade out of the vending machine on our floor but I guess it was all sold out. Well I guess there was a sign on the vending machine to call the front desk if there were any problems. Ashley called and they told her that they would send a Gatorade up. Well yet again, another 3 calls and 1 1/2 later she finally gets the Gatorade at double the price of what the vending machine cost. My friend ended up b!tching at the VIP front desk people and we were able to get a $150 food credit and another $200 off the room.

The club XS was amazing. They had super cute go-go dancers in sparkly dresses and the club was HUGE! It was open to the pool so we all laid on these beds that were in the actual pool. As we were walking around this random girl grabbed my hand and started steering me towards this VIP table. I guess her job is to "provide" or get cute girls for VIP tables so they look cooler or something. So that's where my friends and I spent the rest of the night. We ended up leaving around 1ish and went to a sex shop (I guess Dallas wanted a toy.) I suggested a Grrlztoy bullet vibe that I really like but was too drunk to actually locate it so she ended up buying a bullet vibe that she already owns.

At about 11 AM Dallas wakes me up saying that our plane got cancelled. WTF!!! For whatever reason they decided to cancel our flight, so we had to change around our flight time (instead of 6 PM we did a 5 PM flight) and we had to change around our limo pickup. Thankfully there really wasn't any trouble changing everything around. My birthday Vegas trip was awesome. Everyone was commenting on how there was no way they would be able to top it (I definitely think I can.) I just realized that I have been rambling on and on. Not only that but I'm sure if I actually went through and read what I wrote half of it wouldn't make sense. I'm feeling a little funky right now....kind of foggy. Friday night was pretty sweet. My friends and I started off at this hole in the wall bar were I got to order my first cider being legal then we went to American Junkie (this preppy club/bar in old town Scottsdale.) It was fun, though not exactly my type of club, plus there was absolutely no room to sit down unless you had a table. Saturday night I went to the Persian Room and ate way too much like I normally do there.

This week is going to be crazy! My friends are all inviting me to stuff now. I'm supposed to go to Dave and Busters with the Dallas group on Monday, then Tuesday I'm going to dinner with friends. Wednesday I'm supposed to go to old town Scottsdale with another group of friends. Then Thursday the Dallas group and that other group are going to see Paul Van Dyk. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday haven't been planned out yet...but I've already been told either Myst, the W, and random day parties. I really don't think I'm going to be able to keep up with all my friends. Partying is hard and honestly I'm just not all that into it. My friends keep telling me that if I want to meet new people and make new friends that I need to stop holing myself off with my chinchillas and books. I will be putting up the pictures of my 21st bday celebration as soon as I can get them all from my friends...so maybe sometime next week.

danielle_ftv 06-08-2009 04:03 AM

June 7, 2009
So I finally feel up to doing computer stuff (P.M.'s, emails, etc.) I guess I must have caught something on the airplane ride back to Phoenix. Personally I think it's swine flu...jk. But it's definitely lasted a long enough time. Some of the people who came with me to Vegas also have it. Anyways, let me tell you guys about my birthday and Vegas. On my birthday I went to T. Cook's for dinner, then out with my friends to "The Vig" (a sassy restaraunt/bar next to my gym...they always steal my parking spots.) After that we went to Bourbon Street, a 21 and older strip club that my friends like to go to. We had to wait outside for about 20 minutes until they could find seats for us, while they let everyone else inside. We ended up sitting in the back of the club where you could barely see anything. The girls were so-so...way too fake for my taste. I think there was probably about 15 girls working there that night and I only thought 3 of them were attractive. I ended up getting 4 dances from 2 of the girls (my third time ever getting a lap dance.) There was a guy that got to go onstage and get dances from about 6 girls at once. I wanted to do that but my friends ended up talking me out of it saying that there would be a better club in Vegas with less rules where I could get a stage dance.

Anyways the next day (Saturday) I pretty much spent answering P.M.'s and fooling around. Ended up taking a nap at 8 PM (my friends thought this was highly amusing) then finally got packed and over at my friends house at 10 PM. The next day we woke up at 8...our flight leaving at 10. I don't know who's idea it was to head out at 9. Both Dallas and I wanted to stop for McDonalds on the way to the airport, but thankfully I suggested waiting until we got to the airport. Our friend also wanted to park in long term parking because of the cost (long term would only be $30 or so, short term was $75) but I told them that I would pay for the short term parking. It's a good thing that we parked in short term because we wouldn't have made our plane. We had bags to check in and only about 50 minutes before our flight took off and the South West line was LONG. We were able to check in the luggage 30 minutes till but were told that there was a possibility that it was too late and the baggage would be put on the next flight. I was pretty irritated by then from having waken up a lot earlier than what I'm used to and not having eaten anything, plus if our baggage was late then the limo service I hired would also have to be pushed back (if it were even possible.)

Anyways the luggage did arrive. I had hired a Cadillac Escalade limo and all the girls got a rose. They also had 2 bottles of champagne that we somehow ended up polishing off by the time we got to the Bellagio. We made a pit stop at a liquor store...my first time going into a liquor store I think. I was on a mission to get port wine but they didn't have any. I ended up doing some candid video during the flight and in the limo and liquor store. I was planning on doing more but the camera charge went out. We arrived at the Bellagio at noonish and got to check in at the VIP check in room. Only one of the rooms was ready (the connecting room to the penthouse 2 bedroom suite.) We were told that the penthouse would be ready at 3 so we decided to go eat and gamble a little. Since we were "VIP" we also got a pass to get in the front of the line for the buffet and cafe (who knew that you would need a front line pass for a buffet?) I think people were definitely irritated that we got to go up to the front of the line so easy...some guys behind us made a comment about it. The buffet was freaking awesome! I tried California sushi rolls (I think that's what they are called) and boy were they yummy. I don't really like sushi or fish but for some reason I was feeling really adventurous. I also tried smoked salmon and that was also freaking delicious. Enough with the food talk...it's making me hungry. I did gamble a little bit...ended up playing roulette with $30 and when I lost that I was done. Gambling is definitely not for me. I cannot stand losing money, I would much rather spend it on something I can keep or on an experience (though I guess gambling is an experience in a way.) Dallas ended up spending $300 on gambling, and she didn't win anything....but she love gambling, mostly playing roulette though. We all ended up crashing out in the smaller room until about 5 PM. By this time we were all p!ssed that the penthouse wasn't ready for us (I mean they had said 3 originally). It was so funny though we called them and they told us the room was ready, but when we looked in the hallway we could see the housecleaners still cleaning the room. Finally we were able to get into the room...it was definitely worth the money. The view was awesome...though honestly I think it would have been totally cool to have a view of the fountains, but that's okay.

Dallas and I went to the MAC store to get our makeup done and I ended spending the gift card she gave me and $50 extra on makeup I really didn't need. My makeup looked AWESOME! Definitely completely different from what I normally do. They did a smoky purple eye on me with super long fake eyelashes. We had to hurry back to the hotel to get ready for the party bus that was going to pick us up at 9. Of course girls being girls...Dallas and Keley were both a tad bit late. The party bus was so cool. It had all sorts of different lights, 2 stripper poles, and a fog machine in it. The windows were pretty darkly tinted so you could barely see inside. It was funny watching people's expression as they would see these girls dancing around. Our first stop was Margaritaville. They gave me a tequila birthday shot. We got an awesome picture of me doing it....I look like I'm going to puke :D but it definitely did not taste good at all. After that we went to Coyote Ugly were I ended up going onstage and got another birthday shot. I'm a light weight for sure...so by the time we left Coyote Ugly I was kind of slurring my words and stumbling around. My friend bought a pretzel and I've got to say that was the best freaking pretzel I have ever tasted.

We drove around some more since we really didn't know where we wanted to go. The driver ended up stopping at the famous "welcome to Vegas" sign which I thought was an absolute brilliant idea. We then went to "old town" Vegas...or maybe it was "downtown" Vegas...by this time I really wasn't paying attention to anything other than Dallas/Keley/Ashley's boobs and the stripper pole. We stopped by this hole in the wall bar then walked around for a bit. I found this awesome magazine showing women that you can hire. I was totally down for it, but somehow changed my mind and decided that I wanted to go to a very lenient strip club. I'm very indecisive when I'm drinking so sometime on the way to the strip club I decided that we needed to go back to the hotel to drop off the alcohol we had brought with us. Only half of the group went up to the room so Dallas, Ashley and I were left in the bus. I remember dancing around while replaying the song "Poker Face" over and over again. People kept on peering into the bus as they would walk by. I invited them all in, but I guess they weren't interested.

The last stop of the night was Drei's (supposedly the best after hours club in Vegas). We got there at about 1ish in the morning but I guess it wasn't open until 1:30 or something. We ended up walking around a bit until 1:30 then went back to Drei's...well it wasn't opening until 2. Drei's didn't end up opening until 2:15ish I think. The owner was nice enough to give us free shots and....bottled water! I guess that bottled water there costs like $8 a bottle. I met a guy who works at Cirque Du Soleil Mystique. I could just tell by looking at him that he was a Cirque guy. There was also this funny guy that kept putting a glass in the middle of the dance floor and would proceed to dance around it in a little Greek/Russian dance. Then another girl started dancing around it too and would sit there and shake her finger "no" at it. It was by far one of the weirdest things I've ever seen. We didn't get back to the hotel until about 5 in the morning.

The next day I don't think any of us were really up for anything but we ended up waking up fairly early (at least for me it was early). Everyone decided that we needed to venture out to find breakfest...personally I would've much rather ordered in. We went to this Denny's like diner that ended up costing more than what it would've cost to do in room dining...plus the food wasn't all that great. I ended up crashing out again before my friends finally pulled me out of my bed at about 1 PM I think (I honestly don't remember the times very well). We went to a cute little cafe in the Bellagio were I got a antipasto plate for $20. Ashley and her boyfriend had to leave that day because they had to work on Tuesday. We all ended up going back to the room and crashed out for another few hours. I had wanted to go see this hypnotist Anthony Cools, but somehow we ended up getting sidetracked and missed his show (I think we might have slept through it.) That night we went to XS at the Encore.

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danielle_ftv 06-23-2009 12:40 AM

June 22, 2009
I really think I may have some sort of immuno-deficiency disorder. Ever since my Vegas trip I have been sick. First it was some sort of nasal infection that caused me to caugh up my lungs for a couple weeks. Then last Thursday I got really sick...throwing up, not able to sit up without feeling nauseous. I even started throwing up blood! I ended up sleeping through my webcam show and woke up at about 8ish on Friday and was finally able to get something in my stomach and keep it down. Next week I have several doctor's appointments so hopefully we can figure out exactly what's going on with me. I just don't want to have my blood drawn, which I know is going to end up happening. But I guess I'm not the only one sick...my nephew recently was admitted to the hospital. My sister was in Texas for a couple weeks and on the day she was supposed to head home my nephew started getting sick and had a fever. My sis took him to the hospital and they ended up admitting him to PICU (pediatric intensive care unit.) I guess they were monitoring his heart and he also ended up having some sort of infection. I hope to God that I didn't end up passing anything to him. Not sure what is happening now since I can't seem to get a hold of my sister or mom. I'm a little freaked out right now because I've been trying to get ahold of my mom for more than a day now and haven't been able to reach her on either her cell phone or work phone. I guess I'll give it till the end of today before I go over to her house and see if she's okay.

I tried extending my lease on my current apartment a couple weeks ago, but I guess after I put in my two months notice to vacate that somebody snatched my apartment up. Luckily I was able to make a deal with the apartment people....I will be moving into a two bedroom apartment for the price of a one bedroom. The only problem is that A)it's on the first floor and I can't stand noisy neighbors/loud stompers and B)that I actually have to move all of my crap into the new apartment. I still have yet to book the movers....I've called them and emailed them but we seem to be playing phone tag. The 25th is going to be super hectic. I have the movers coming to move, cable/electric/gas people coming to turn things on, and carpet cleaners coming hopefully after the movers. Trying to organize all of this is pretty difficult. And unfortunately it all has to be done on the 25th since the 26th to the 28th is EDC.

EDC (Electric Daisy Carnival) should be a lot of fun...though it's going to be a long weekend. I guess it starts at 4 PM and ends at 2 AM on Friday and on Saturday it goes from 4 PM to 4 AM. My friend is talking about going at 4 PM on Friday but unforunately there is no reentry when you enter and personally it doesn't sound like fun to stay there for 10 hours straight. The girls are all planning on dressing up. I bought a fairy costume for Friday night (Dallas is going to wear a Mardi Gras outfit) and on Saturday night I'm wearing a 20's flapper costume while Dallas is going as a sexy mobster. I guess the only thing that is going to suck about going to EDC will be the drive. One of my friends didn't have enough money to pay for a plane ticket so instead of letting her be bored driving by herself I told her that I would drive with her. It's a fairly long drive...about 6 hours I think, so we will probably have to wake up fairly early (or at least early for me.)

One of my members was supposed to visit me from out of the country. He had the flight booked, hotel booked and everything set up. He made it fine into the country...but unfortunately was stopped by US customs. I guess that they were suspicious of him coming to America to visit me....they ended up sending him back! I understand that we are just trying to keep bad people out, but personally I find some of the security measures we put in place completely idiotic. Hopefully I don't get in trouble in writing this. I just think it's funny that we are kicking people out that are going to end up spending well needed money here...I mean hello, aren't we in a serious financial deficit?

Oh yeah...I forgot to tell everyone what Rob is giving me for a birthday/Christmas gift...he's going to pay to get my teeth fixed! I'm so excited about it. Unfortunately it will be kind of expensive (that's why I never really was able to have it done.) I'm going to get implants (and no, not the boob ones), my teeth shaped and my teeth whitened. I really cannot wait to see the final product.

Also one of my birthday gifts was a BIRTHDAY VIDEO LOG made by Grande351, Geolarson 2, Lia, Geezer, Missy and Tigger, Anoree, and Rob. I wanted to wait to put it up until I got permission from everyone on it that it was okay to post it. It is by far one of the best birthday gifts I could have ever gotten...I totally started tearing up when I watched it. Thank you guys....you are the best fans/members/friends a girl could ever have.

danielle_ftv 06-23-2009 08:47 PM

June 23, 2009
So my mom is okay and wasn't abducted by aliens or anything. I finally got ahold of her yesterday night. My nephew is out of the hospital now. I guess he had RSV and some other virus but is doing fine now. My sister and him should be coming back from Texas sometime this week. My brother is coming in on Saturday from DC for a few weeks. Should be nice to see him again. Today I need to get my nails done, get boxes for packing, call the moving people and set up a time with them, and get my costumes/packages for EDC from the apartment office. Freaking out a little bit right now. I hate moving and personally I feel like it is way too stressfull.

danielle_ftv 07-01-2009 07:28 AM

June 30, 2009
Um...yeah. I think I just saw my chinchillas humping each other. I hope to gawd that crazy chinchilla lady didn't give me a female and male. I've been listening to the same song over and over again (about 13 times so far.) I tend to do that a lot when I'm on the computer.

So EDC was awesome! The drive was horrible. People are seriously scary on the road. Supposedly I also tail gate (I think that's complete b.s. though.) I know I'm a pretty aggressive driver but at least I don't flip people off or anything...I just honk a lot and yell (but with the window up.) I would fit in with New York drivers pretty well I think, if only I wasn't completely freaked out about their driving style. We ended up leaving at about 10:30 Friday morning and got to the Standard hotel in downtown L.A. at 6ish. We had to make quiet a few stops because one of my friends had a dog. Driving around L.A. was a complete nightmare. I had my friend who used to live in L.A. switch off with me and drive us to the hotel and even then I swore I was going to have a heart attack.

We got to EDC at the L.A. colliseum at 8ish. There was a butt load of people there and a bunch of them were dressed up in crazy costumes. Dallas and I went as mobster chicks the first night. I was supposed to wear a 20's flapster outfit...but unfortunately I ordered the costume online and it didn't fit at all and a string ended up breaking off anyways. So another $140 later and I got the mobster costume. Our other friend Kelly went as a sexy school girl. I tried telling my friends that went with me that it was supposed to get down to 64 degrees at night but I don't think they really understood how cold 64 degrees is (especially Dallas who didn't bring anything other than shorts and skirts) so of course they were freezing cold all night long. We had all bought VIP tickets so we got to stay in the seperate VIP section. They had two free photo booths there. Free alcohol and water. Free hooka. Free airbrush tattoos. Free massages and free candy.

Outside the VIP area they had a bunch of free rides (I didn't go on any though...maybe next year.) A few of us got lost from each other and didn't end up back with the group until two hours later. I guess that the cell phone service there was all screwy. Fortunately I had pretty good service but one of my friends didn't get a text message that was sent at 11 PM until 6 AM the next day. We ended up taking off at 1:30 AM. It actually wasn't too difficult to find a cab (a lot easier than I thought it was going to be.) Only problem was traffic was horrible and I was super nauseous. I so didn't want to throw up in the cab and plus I was sitting between two people. We almost made it to the hotel before I ended up puking in my fedora. The next day I found out that I wasn't the only one who ended up getting sick.

The next day I ended up only getting about 6 hours of sleep...if that. Most of my friends didn't get any sleep at all! Everyone hung out by the pool while I stayed in my room and read a little. Kelly and a few others weren't going the second night of EDC so it was only Dallas, me, and two of our friends. Dallas and I took an hour and a half getting ready (so not my style at all.) I wore this goth fairy costume but ended up leaving off the wings because they would've gotten in the way in the taxi. Dallas was supposed to wear this super skimpy Mardi Gras queen bikini costume but since it was going to get down to 64 degrees again she decided to wear a skimpy pair of shorts and crop top. We got to EDC around 10 PM since traffic was so freaking bad. Our taxi driver scared the hell out of me. My friends were getting irritated because everytime the taxi driver made an illegal move I would comment about it....I would make a total Nazi cop. Supposedly there was over 70,000 people on Saturday night at EDC. I call b.s. and say it was more like 50,000...but it's still a lot.

We meet some more of our friends there and ended up wandering about for an hour before finally getting into VIP. EDC was supposed to go until 4 AM but there was no way I would be able to function for the drive later on that day if I stayed up that late. We had lost one of our friends and could not get a hold of him at all. A few of us ended up leaving around 3ish anyways and I finally got to bed around 4. For whatever reason I ended up waking up at 9 and since checkout was at noon stayed up, read, and got ready. The friend that we couldn't get ahold of did end up making back to the hotel okay. I guess that he also got super sick and ended up throwing up all over some cop's shoes.

I would hate to have been a cop for EDC...actually I feel super bad for the cleaners that have to clean up afterwards. I swear I ended up seeing twenty people puking. One girl ended up passing out in VIP for over an hour and had to have the paramedics get her. I guess the only good thing about being a cleaner is all the crap you find. My friend found a $600 phone on the ground (but he did end up returning it to it's owner.) I know at one point about $50 dropped out of my top but luckily my friends saw it.

The friend that we lost also had a girl with him. I guess that they knew each other and he found her bawling her eyes out somewhere. Her friends had left her at EDC and she had no money and no phone charge left to get a hold of them. The next day she was finally able to get a hold of them...but they had left L.A. for Phoenix! That seriously upset me because she was only 19 years old and had absolutely no way of getting home. I ended up offering her a ride back with us. I'm just thankful that we found her and not some pervert. Kelly was supposed to meet us at the hotel before noon so that we could take off in time. I ended up calling her around 11:30 just to have her tell me that she was with her family about to have lunch and that she would be back at the hotel around 3. My friends were definitely a little irritated. I offered to pick her up but I guess that she was an hour out of the way and it would've added two hours onto our already long a$$ drive. Luckily she was able to have her mom buy her a plane ticket home. I was super tired and the last thing I wanted (or could even manage) to do was drive home. One of our friends ended up driving the whole way back which I thought was really cool...but then again they were the most sober/awake out of all of us. We ended up having to go back to the hotel because the girl forgot her phone in my friends room. We got back to Phoenix at 7:30ish. We had to stop a few times because one of our friends had to be sick.

It took me until today to recover from EDC. It's funny too because Dallas and that whole group are already talking about going to the Scottsdale clubs on Wednesday...then partying in Scottsdale on Saturday for 4th of July. Plus I know they are going to want to party on Friday night. It's way too expensive to party like they do (and I make way more money then any of them.) Plus I feel like I'm going to ruin my body and looks with all the partying and staying up late (though I always make sure I get enough sleep.)

I'm almost finished unpacking. I need to get a bookcase, a nightstand, two lamps, and a full or queen size bed at some point. It'll be nice to have an extra room for guests to stay in. I thought the kitchen looked pretty small and that all my dishes wouldn't fit in it, but surprisingly they all do and I have a little room left over. My chinchilla's seem to really like the new place...at least they aren't really peeing all over the wall like they used to. Some of the houses and shelves that are supposed to go into their new cage is ready to be shipped. I just have to pay the chinchilla supply cage through PayPal and PayPal is giving me trouble right now. I guess that my credit card that I use is not through the right account or something like that. What a headache! I will probably end up just writing a check...but I have to order checks first. I can't really tell if the internet here is better or not. It was going kind wacky earlier today. I'm going to have Cox come out and check to make sure it's okay. The last thing I need is a repeat of last week's webcam show and unfortunately I can't use the FTV houses because Rob is in Hawaii. I got an upgrade in internet service so hopefully that will help out. I also have cable now. I have something called On Demand where you can order porn! It's amazing.

I need to get a hold of that tattoo removal place. I'm probably out of sessions by now. I've called them before but they were supposed to call back and never did. I also need to get my car checked out to make sure that long trip didn't do any damage. I'm kind of a hypochondriac when it comes to my car.

danielle_ftv 07-07-2009 03:22 AM

July 6, 2009
I'm not going to lie...4th of July kind of sucked for me this year. Dallas and some of her work buddies were hanging out at the Mondrion pool all day and invited me to join them. Personally not exactly my idea of fun. Plus I knew that if I was out drinking from noon till 8 PM I would be completely sick and probably have a sun stroke (which tends to happen if I spend more than 5 minutes in the sun.) So I declined and planned on meeting up with them for dinner at 8. Couldn't get ahold of Dallas until 7:30 PM and finally got to the hotel at 8:15ish. Couldn't find the room (The lobby/valet parking is in a complete seperate area from the hotel rooms) and Dallas couldn't seem to give me a straight answer on where she was located. Finally got to Dallas's room where we waited for 20 minutes while everyone tried to figure out what where stuff was, where we were going to go, etc. I was a little irritated because everyone was telling me that they wanted to go to the Pussycat Lounge...I guess they got a table and bottle service at a discount...but Dallas and I had already made plans to go to Saddle Ranch for dinner a few days before.

So anyways I hop into a with two of my friends that I had brought and just head over to Saddle Ranch since I was being told that nobody wanted to go there, blah blah blah. Luckily Dallas didn't ditch me and did end up showing up with three of her friends while the rest of the group went to PCL (where I guess they thought we were heading.) Saddle Ranch has the best dessert menu ever (well after Cheesecake Factory that is.) They have a $20 cotton candy, chocolate chip cookie and sundae dessert (and no I didn't get that.) Dallas's date/friend ended up riding the mechanical bull (the same one I rode in my short black cocktail dress last year) like 20 times and ended up tearing his thumb open. Everywhere in Scottsdale was pretty dead...I guess that everyone was too tired from day partying to venture out to old town. I got a chocolate chip cookie in one of those griddle pan things with vanilla ice cream on top (good gawd I'm getting hungry.) For whatever reason they ended up bringing out a three foot high cotton candy for us too. Dallas's date was so sh!t faced that we played a joke on him and told him that it was my 21st birthday that day (probably a mistake since he started telling everyone it was my birthday and kept trying to get me free drinks.)

We ended up at American Junkie (a "hip" Scottsdale bar/club where all the preppies/guppies seem to congregate.) The only thing I really like about the place is that they actually have food and they actually have a drink menu (I never know what to order since I just turned 21, so I always rely on my friends to suggest drinks.) I ended up ordering a mojito which was pretty tasty I must admit. Honestly it was pretty lame. On one side we have Dallas being thoroughly embarassed my her date and on the other side we have one of my guy friends and his current fling having relationship "issues". She's completely hammered and is what my guy friend calls a "sloppy drunk" (which pretty much means she's going around kissing everyone, flirting with random guys, confessing her undying love to my guy friend, and crap like that.) He's irritated because this is the second time that she's pulled this on him. So he goes off and starts flirting with Dallas's friends that she brought one of whom is a "95.5%" (in her words) lesbian. I told him this but supposedly he thinks he can "turn" any girl. Mmmmk then.

Dallas ended up leaving at some point without informing any of us (which definitely freaked me out since I had assumed babysitter status.) I guess she was so embarassed by her date that she just left with him to go back to the hotel. The guy friend ended up also leaving with his date and Dallas's friends also without telling me. All in all it just wasn't that much fun. I would've much rather have hung out with my mom and brother (we always do 4th of July at my mom's friends house who lives out near Phoenix International Raceway...they have an awesome view of the fireworks.) I really only got to see one firework and that was while walking to Dallas's hotel room. I guess they were shooting off the fireworks almost directly over the hotel. Kind of freaked everyone out...almost everyone thought someone was shooting a gun outside (pretty laughable in old town Scottsdale.) But it was pretty loud though...the valet guy freaked out and almost hit the floor when one of the fireworks went off :D.

I'm supposed to do dinner with the family on Thursday. Still not sure when my sister is supposed to come back from Texas. Hopefully soon because I actually kind of miss her. Probably not going to do anything this weekend. I really need a weekend to relax and just have some "me" time.

BTW...I finally fixed the 4th of July zip file. Not exactly sure what happened. Ended up having to completely redo the zip file and upload it (which didn't take as long as I thought it was going to.) Need to call Cox and have them help me do/fix the wireless router. I followed all the directions they gave me but it still screwed up on me (and honestly I would really like to be able to move my laptop around my place.)

danielle_ftv 07-08-2009 12:51 AM

July 7, 2009
Just got back from the new Wet N' Wild water park. It was pretty fun and I even got a slight tan! Probably going to take my brother there sometime while he's in town. I had to move the webcam show on Thursday to Friday because I have to take my brother to a doctor's appointment. For whatever reason my mom loves to schedule all my brothers doctors appointments while he is in town instead of letting his dad do it.

danielle_ftv 07-10-2009 07:48 PM

July 13, 2009
Yet again I have to move the webcam show. It's now on Monday July 13th at 4:00 PM. I just feel like complete crap and I'm starting to wonder if maybe I might be allergic to my chinchilla's and that's why I've been constatly sick for the past two months. Honestly I really don't know. I read that you are more likely to be allergic to the dust and hay that the chinchilla's need. Of course it could also be that weird nasal infection that I got after my birthday that I someone contracted again. I guess I really will have to go to the doctor's and figure out what the heck is wrong with me. And I might as well get an allergy panel done like I also said I would.

My mom and brother decided to take an impromptu trip to Texas today. It's weird because that is totally unlike my mom to up and leave like that with no planning.

danielle_ftv 07-15-2009 08:58 PM

July 15, 2009
So I guess I have bronchitis. The doctor gave me a prescription for an inhaler, antibiotics, and cough syrup with Codeine in it for when I need to sleep. Hopefully I can get better soon. Other than that nothing much is happening. Dallas invited me out tonight to a invite only party in old town Scottsdale. Don't really want to go but I haven't seen Dallas in a while so I probably should go.

danielle_ftv 07-22-2009 04:53 AM

July 21, 2009
Stupid computer completely deleted my first journal entry I wrote when I was trying to do a spell check. Anyways...so my internet should be completely fixed now. The internet guy did some computer magic and made my wireless router work...I am now typing this as I'm laying in bed...naked!:D...that's hardly unusual considering I'm almost always naked. I'm listening to some awesome Renaissance music while my eyes keep going cross eyed. I've realized that I'm probably going blind (and damn quick at that.) If it's not one problem it's another. I can't figure out if my glasses are helping me or making it worse. Looks like I will have to schedule my annual eye exam for next week. My step-father-to-be is back in town from England...and he even brought my little step-brother-to-be. I will probably take him and my brother to Dave and Buster's or maybe even the new Wet n' Wild here.

My mom wants to do a whole family dinner together this week. It will be nice to see my sister and little nephew after so long. I've realized that reading is a seriously expensive hobby (unless you have awesome fans that send you book store gift cards ;).) I got my library card renewed about two months back but borrowed books from the library once. For whatever reason I just like owning the books even though I don't read a book more than once and usually tend to donate them to the library after I've collected too many. Reading my journal posts I've realized that I am seriously random sometimes. I'm sure it's kind of confusing sometimes when I start talking about one thing then just jump to another topic all of a sudden...but you guys have probably gotten used to it by now.

I really need to remember to ask my mom about the family reunion at dinner this week (I should really probably just call her since I probably won't remember to ask until Thursday night.) I got a folder envelope from a family member in Texas and I thought it was about the reunion but it was only a huge list of everyone's information. Not sure what I'm going to do about the adult conventions. I really would like for one of my friends to come with me (I hate flying by myself) but every seems to be broke! My friend Dallas is getting her boobs done (for whatever reason she is insecure about them even though I think she is freaking hot and doesn't need them). She's telling me that she needs to save up $14,000...$8,000 for the boobs and the rest for spending money...for a month! I was like what!!! $6,000 spending money for a month....really? She lives rent free! She's too funny.

I bought a bunch of new cute bra and undie sets. I've realized that almost every bra that I own has been worn for a shoot so I needed to change things up a bit. Also there is a very big chance that I will be going to New York in the next few months. One of my friends has an apartment there and I have another friend that travels there like once a month, so I will probably go with her on her next trip. Cool, my spell check works now. It just told me that I spelled the word "undie" wrong...uh whatever.

danielle_ftv 08-01-2009 04:25 AM

July 31, 2009
So I had a shoot today for my website. Only got one candid video, one pro video, and two pro photosets (definitely not as much as I would have liked to have gotten.) A photographer/videographer who has shot content for FTVGirls "assisted" the shoot today. He was pretty cool and took some great photos of me. It's 9 PM and I'm not sure if I'm going out or not. Dallas hasn't called me yet so I'm assuming it will probably be a no. Wenesday night we did a girls night out. Ended up going to Pearl for sushi. That was kind of my first time eating sushi and my first time ever drinking sake bombs. I don't really care for sake...tastes a little too funny to me. And I definitely do not care for it being warm (which Dallas and the rest of them prefer.) I ended up drinking way too much that night (four sake bombs, a "porn star" martini, and two and a half red bull/vodkas.) Both Dallas and I spent all night when we got home being sick though I don't think it was from drinking too much...it was probably from the sushi.

Last Friday I went to Axis/Radius with the whole Dallas group. Dallas's room mate Mike had friends in town from California, so we ended up partying all night long. I didn't get any sleep that night (neither did Dallas.) Saturday we had to go to the Mondrian hotel for a pool party. It was pretty fun considering how tired I was and how much I dislike being in the sun. Didn't end up drinking at all that day because I knew I would be seriously sick if I was drinking and in the sun. Saturday night we had to go to Axis/Radius again for our friend Kelley's birthday party. I was completely exhausted by this point but didn't want to not attend her birthday since she had attended mine. We lost both Dallas and Kelley for like an hour. The rest of the group wanted to leave without them but I told them we couldn't because I had their purses which had their cell phones and money in it. We finally found them after awhile...I guess that some pervy old guy dragged them up to the VIP and wouldn't let Kelley go. So I finally ended up getting to sleep around 2ish in the morning. I got a call around 3:30 from Dallas telling me to come to some club for afterhours. Yeah right!

Sunday I'm supposed to go to the Salt River for tubing with the Dallas group. The last time I did that was when I was 18 and I ended up coming home completely sick from the sun and heat and with terrible sunburns all over my body. I definitely need to buy water shoes because last time my flip flops fell off and got lost so I had to have a guy carry me around so I wouldn't burn my feet on the 200 degree rocks. I'm already stocking up on 70 SPF sunscreen so hopefully I won't get sunburned. School starts pretty soon here. I'm excited but not at the same time. I'm going to miss not really having any responsibilities but then it will be nice to actually keep busy during the week. I'm planning a trip out to LA for Nocturnal festival in late September and for Monster Madness in late October. Should be pretty exciting. I'm also thinking about taking a trip to San Diego sometime this month. I told Dallas that's what I would do for her birthday present. It will be nice just to get away from this damn heat.

danielle_ftv 08-08-2009 08:38 AM

Aug. 8, 2009
So I am doing a vote/poll on hiring Sarah Blake for the girl/girl shoot with me. I figure this is probably the only way to get Rob to hire her back. I have a busy couple months ahead of me. I'm going to San Diego next week the 13th to the 16th (my present for Dallas's birthday.) We are staying at the Hardrock hotel. I've never stayed at a Hardrock before so hopefully it's nice. The only sucky thing is that we have to leave super early on Sunday since Dallas has some spa thing with her mom at 11 AM.

The 4th to 7th of September we are going to LA for our friend's birthday. It's a long weekend for us since Labor Day is on Monday. I guess we are staying at the Roosevelt Hotel there (the one that is haunted.) Our friend said that there is always a celebrity or two there so maybe I will end up seeing Stuart Townsend or somebody equally hot. The 25th to 27th of September we are all going to San Bernadino for Nocturnal Festival. I think we are staying at this super cute resort called the Mission Inn. Dallas wants to dress up so I think we are going to do some type of "nocturnal/dream" theme. Probably something like fairy tale princesses or fairies.

The 2nd to the 4th of October we are going to Big Bear, CA for Oktoberfest. I suggested that all the girls dress up in beer garden girl costumes. The 30th of October to 1st of November we are going to LA for Monster Massive. I think we are staying at the Roosevelt again (that is if we like it when we go in September.) Dallas's birthday is this week. Tomorrow I guess we are either going to Creme or American Junkie and then she wants to do some pool party on Sunday. I do not plan on drinking at all on Sunday since I tend to get sick when I'm in the heat/sun and drinking. Monday we have to go shopping for clothes for San Diego. I need to get new dresses since I've worn pretty much every dress out several times. Wednesday I'm probably going to get my hair done since it's been a few months now. I have about three inches of roots showing (not that it looks bad.)

danielle_ftv 08-12-2009 08:17 PM

Aug. 12, 2009
Dangit...I was looking foward to testing out the 24 hour webcam show (though in reality it was only going to be 16 hours this time.) I asked Chris (Lagwagon) if everything would be okay if I did it and he told me that the servers would "tank". I was pretty excited about doing this....hopefully I can figure out a way to make it work. I guess the good thing about this is that now I can try to find wireless cameras to put around my home for when I can do the 24 hour webcam show. That way I won't have to carry my computer around with me everywhere. So the webcam show is switched to noon tomorrow.


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