D151, 11-08-09: To Raymond and CaptnJack
 

"Hey Raymond

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: What is the best present that I got from a fan or member and what is the creepiest or strangest present that I’ve gotten from a member?

Let’s see, strangest or creepiest: You know what, so far I haven’t gotten anything that I would consider strange or creepy. Even if I did, I probably wouldn’t make any negative comments about it. I mean I don’t want to embarrass anybody or offend anybody. As long as I’m not getting anything weird like used men’s underwear, then I’m perfectly fine.

The best gift I got from a fan or member would have to be the birthday video log that I got from actually a big group of members. That was really, really special to me. I very much appreciate it, all the time and effort and energy that all those members put into it into making it. Let’s see what else. I love the fairy statue that Texasdrake gave me. Anything fairy is great in my book. I love fairies. And then what else. The amethyst necklace that I got from Grande351, that was really beautiful. Purple is my favorite color and the amethyst is one of my favorite gems. That was very well thought of. But you know what, I love all the gifts that all of you guys send. They’re all special and meaningful to me. You guys take your time actually go out and get them. And even cards or little notes to me, it’s really appreciated and it makes me feel … I don’t know. I just appreciate it, I guess. It kind of shows that my efforts are not wasted, that people actually care about what I do and stuff.

Talking about presents, I actually got one in the mail from CaptnJack. It’s a personal massager which I think he just got this at like a Target or something. Now, he also got me batteries, too. That’s awesome. I need more batteries, also. I found this kind of amusing that they sell stuff like this in Targets and Wal-Marts and stuff. I wonder if the makers of these things actually know what they’re used for most of the time. But then, I’m also dirty, so I’m sure most people don’t use them for what I would be using it for. But well, whatever, I’m just more creative with things.

I hope that answered your question, ok?

Bye"

D152, 11-13-09: To Ashu
 

"Hey Ashu

I read your questions on the question thread. They were different to say the least. Anyways, you were asking me if … let’s see, I actually have to read this off: Have I ever done any of these things naked with my hair untied?

The first one was sprinting in the pouring rain during a lightning storm on a beach right after sunset. No, I can’t say that I’ve done that. I don’t actually think it’s very safe being outside during a lightning storm.

The next one was running, jumping and rolling on or in the sand while the sun was right above my head. No. I’ve never done that. I don’t think I’ve actually been to any desert sand places. I’m assuming you’re meaning dunes or whatever. Definitely need to do that, though, kind of like the Alison shoot. It’s really pretty, I liked that one.

The other one was, see, using an ice dildo under the falling snow right before sunrise. No, I can’t say I’ve done that either. I have done a snow bunny shoot, though. That was fun, but not quite what you’re asking.

And the last one was climbing a huge tree right in the middle of a jungle under the full moon. No. I’ve never been in a jungle, unless you consider Jamaica a jungle. I don’t really think it’s a jungle.

Interesting questions, I wonder where you came up with those. I can try to do that, I just need somebody that obviously take me to a jungle and make me an ice dildo and create a lightning storm.

Your last question was: Do I think foreplay is important. Well, for me, not really, no, for most women, yah. I know a lot of women have a hard time getting off unless they’re really, really turned on, I guess. Me, personally, I just like to go straight toward the sex and forget anything else. But I don’t think that’s quite normal for women. I’m not opposed to foreplay, by any means. I mean it’s just not exactly my thing.

I hope that answered your very interesting questions, alright?

Bye"

D153, 11-24-09: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: Do I have any shoots planned for the Great Outdoors away from the city once the temperature drops some?

So far I don’t really have any plans to do any shoots in the so called “Great Outdoors.” I definitely would love to shoot outside, maybe in Flagstaff or Sedona or something. But really, if you’re referring to shoots for my website it really just depends on what FTV Rob wants to do. I have to work around his schedule, also.

But let’s see what your next question is: Since nudity, masturbation etc. are generally considered private, how did you get comfortable with them?

How did I get comfortable with them? I’m not really sure. Nudity, like public nudity and stuff, I’ve never been super comfortable with that. I think just by doing it over and over again your comfort level rises a little bit. With sex and masturbation, I’ve always been fairly comfortable with it. As long as I’m not talking with my family about it, then it’s perfectly fine. I never really had a problem exploring my sexuality or even having sex in front of people. Actually, the funny thing is, I was a member of one of the sex clubs here in Arizona. I went there a couple of times and did my thing in front of other people and have other people join. It was a lot of fun. I haven’t gotten there two years or so. Maybe not that long, like a year and a half or something like that. I can’t remember. No, I’ve really never had a problem and if anything, you become more comfortable by just constantly doing something that you’re not comfortable with. So, masturbating in front of people, you just keep on doing it and then you get more comfortable. You have to kind of force yourself into being comfortable with it. But I’ve never had problems with that.

Your next question is: When was the first time you masturbated with another person watching?

I don’t know, maybe when I was 18. I actually really don’t know the answer to that question. The first time masturbating on camera was obviously with FTV Girls. But the first time with another person watching … probably when I was 18. You know, honestly, masturbation has always been kind of a private thing for me. Also, because I used to masturbate kind of weird, at least I thought it was weird until I talked to my friend Dallas and found out that she does it actually the same way I do it – or used to do it, I should say. But I would usually never do that in front of people until just recently.

And then, let’s see, the other question is: Do I have a middle name?

Yes, I do. It’s F and then my second middle name is T, and my last name V. Just kidding. You guys will have to find out.

I hope I answered your questions well.

Alright, bye"

D154, 11-29-09: To axel44
 

"Hey axel44

I read your question on the question thread. You actually had two questions for me. You were asking me: How common is it amongst girls my age to not wear underwear?

You know, I don’t think it’s that common. I know my friend Dallas always wears underwear, but she told me it’s because she’s scared of getting turned on and then getting wet and having her juices get all over her legs. I think that’s funny, although, that happened to me before, but I don’t really care. As long as I’m not wearing a dress then that is fine. So I think I’m kind of an anomaly. I have tons of underwear, but I don’t really wear it, unless sometimes I wear it for shoots. And then sometimes if my dress is too short, then I’ll wear underwear. Like now, see: My dress is very short, quite short, and no undies.

What’s your next question? When you say you don’t wear undies, do you mean just panties? Do you ever dress wearing a bra but no panties?

Well, obviously I’m not wearing panties now. I always try to wear bras because my boobs are big and it doesn’t look good or as good as it would if I wear a bra. Doesn’t make any sense, I don’t know. Occasionally I will go without a bra, but that’s generally before a photo shoot. I don’t like having the bra lines, so I usually just wear some of my halter top dresses and that doesn’t leave any lines.

I hope that answered your questions, alright?

Bye"

D155, 12-04-09: To Captn, T-Bone, Anoree
 

"Hey guys

I just wanted to show you all the presents that I’ve gotten recently.

From Anoree I got this four day wireless forecast station. I guess I can use it for photo shoots to see what the weather is going to be like.

And from CaptnJack I got this really cute card. It’s like a pop up card. I like that, it’s super cute. And also he got me a Borders certificate or Borders gift card. I like that, too: “Where the Wild Things Are” I haven’t seen the movie yet, but definitely should go see it.

And then from T-bone Thomas I got actually a Victoria’s Secret gift card and this really pretty bikini. I like that. Then I also got these panties and this bra. Although, this is a 36DD, I was laughing about that. I was like “I’m only a D.” I wish I was a DD, but it’s only a D. With that gift card I actually got this gorgeous purple nightie thing. I’m definitely planning on using it for a shoot. And then I got this really super comfortable blue t-shirt. I’ve already actually worn that, that’s why it is a little stretched out. And then – you guys can’t really see these – there’s some bee pants. Although you can … They’re more lounge pants. You can wear them pretty much anywhere. Sparkly, “Pink” on the back. I like those. And then he also gave me a little free Pink dog. It’s actually silver, but it says “Pink”. I thought that was cute.

Anyways, thank you Anoree, T-bone and CaptnJack, I really appreciate the gifts.

Bye"

D156, 12-09-09: To birdie
 

"Hey birdie

I read your questions on the question thread and your first question was: Do I like having my nipples played with?

Yah, I definitely like having my nipples played with during sex and stuff, I most of all like having them being bit, though. I have a very high pain tolerance, so I like them being bit really hard. Actually it’s funny, because there’s a shoot coming up here, maybe it’s next year, I’m not really sure when it is, where you can see how hard I like them being bit. You can actually see the teeth imprints from the girl on my nipple. It’s pretty hot.

The other question that you had for me was: Do you still plan on getting your hood pierced?

Probably not. Most people don’t really like piercings, so I think that having my nose piercing is probably more than enough for people to deal with. But I don’t know. I’m a spontaneous person, it may happen, it may not happen. It’s just kind of up to how I’m feeling. I don’t know.

I hope that answered your questions, alright?

Bye"

D157, 12-14-09: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: What is the length and width of the glass dildo that I used in the, what was it, the Jummy … – god, I can’t even remember the update titles, that’s kind of bad – the Jummy Glass Ball video?

Let’s see. I actually measured this last night, it’s is almost seven inches long and about one and a half inches wide at it’s widest point.

The other question that you had for me was: Do you enjoy sex / making love outdoors like with a lover, male or female, on a picnic next to a lake completely private, so you have all the time in the world?

I really don’t know. I mean I have had sex outdoors before, I think maybe three times. The last two times it was verry nerve-wracking for me because there was a definite possibility to have gotten caught. And personally, I just don’t get turned on, thinking that I might get caught. Some girls get turned on with that, but I’m not one of those girls at all. The first time I had sex outdoors we were actually camping and I wasn’t nervous at all about it. It was fun. You know, maybe if I get the chance to actually be able to take my time and know that nobody will interrupt us, then I’m sure I will enjoy it – as long as I’m lying on something comfortable. So far, I haven’t really had that chance, other than that time camping.

I hope that answered your questions.

Bye"

D158, 12-18-09: To dickere
 

"Hey dickere

I don’t know if I pronounced that right, dick-ear. I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Would I carry on doing porn if I were pregnant?

Well, maybe. I mean, honestly, I don’t plan on getting pregnant any time soon, hence I’m taking birth control. Hopefully I don’t get pregnant. That would really suck, really bad. If anything, I think I will start having children in 10 or 15 years. I definitely want to be done with school first. But anyways, yah, I probably would. Why not? I mean it’s kind of a kinky, fun thing, something I definitely haven’t tried yet. But I know my mom would absolutely murder me if I were to do porn when I were pregnant. But whatever, it’s my choice.

I hope that answered your question, ok?

Bye"

D159, 12-23-09: To captnjack
 

"Hey captnjack

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: When engaged in conversations with other guys, are they able to look me in the face or do they stare on my breasts, and is it annoying to catch guys staring at your breast?

You know, honestly, I’ve never really caught a guy blatantly staring at my boobs. They’re sneakier than that. I think that guys will generally stare when I’m not looking at them, but when I’m looking at them, they actually focus on my face. I’ve really never had that problem, but I’m sure I would be annoyed if I caught a guy just sitting there and starring at my boobs, not even listening to what I’m talking about or even looking up my face or anything. But generally guys have more manners than that, surprisingly enough. I’ve never really had to deal with that. You know, I’m kind of oblivious when it comes to stuff like that. A lot of the times I just don’t notice people looking at me at all, so I don’t know.

I hope that answered your questions.

Bye"

D160, 12-28-09: To everyone
 

"Hey guys

I just wanted to show you all what I got for Christmas this year. I got a lot of really cool stuff. Let’s start up with the cards, if I can find them in this big pile of Christmas presents.

See, from my grandparents I got a card, and I also got a check, so that’s great because that goes to my AVN dress for this year, which is actually coming up here really soon. So that needs to get on that.

From captnjack – yah, it’s from captnjack – I got a Christmas card and I also got a one year website anniversary card. And then he also sent me this Visa gift card, so that will also go towards my AVN dress.

From my sister I got a Christmas card and I also got pictures. My little nephew is growing up so much, it’s crazy. He’s huge now. So cute, I have the cutest nephew in the world.

I think this one is from Geolarson. I can kind of read the writing, but I couldn’t really read the writing on the envelope to see whom this is from. I could read that it was from Reno, Nevada, and I know Geolarson is from Reno, Nevada, so I put two and two together and I assume it’s from him.

And then, from Texasdrake I also got a card.

From nomad13 I got this book, Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell. I’ve already started reading it, because I ran out of books yesterday. I go crazy if I don’t have anything to read, I really do.

From my grandma I got Celtic Ladies’ Christmas, it’s music. I already listened to it on Christmas day. It was very, very pretty. I love it.

Let’s see, what else. I try to go through everybody other than my parents’.

Dallas got me a bunch of Tinkerbelle stuff, it’s awesome. Actually she got me a Tinkerbelle plate and a Tinkerbelle Sippy cup, but those are in the kitchen right now. This is bubble bath, Tinkerbelle bubble bath. I think this thing is just … the jar is so cute. I’ll have to keep that once I used it all. She got me a Tinkerbelle PEZ dispenser, but she ate all the PEZ. I was laughing at her. That was awesome. That’s a total Dallas move right there. And then more Tinkerbelle body bubble bath stuff. I’m going to take baths for a long time. She got me cute ear rings and some pretty little bracelets, and then she got me a Big Top cupcake. It makes a cupcake that is – what does it say – twenty-five times bigger than your average cupcake. It’s a huge, huge cupcake. I think we actually saw this in Skymom Magazine and I flipped out. I went “I want that!” and so she got it for me. So we have to make one of those pretty soon. That’s awesome, I love it.

From my parents I got – aw, it’s all tangled – got earrings. These are Amethyst earrings, they’re really, really pretty. I don’t know if you guys can see it very well. Here you go, can kind of see it. But I will definitely be wearing those to New Years, since all of my stuff is purple, even my nails are purple, well, part of them are purple, too. They got me socks that apparently have aloe – oh, wait – it has Sheabutter in it. That’s kind of interesting. And they are purple, too. My mom knows that I love purple. They got me – I wonder what these things are called, they cover the lights, light outlet cover? It’s a fairy! It’s perfect. So that’s going to go on – right over there, actually – my closet lights.

Lay there, thing! God, everything keeps on falling over.

As one of my stocking stuffers, she got me – you guys are going to laugh – cocktail onions, because I love cocktail onions. She likes getting me goofy gifts like that, but I love them. It’s always the best part is opening up your stocking and it’s just so random, it’s really random stuff. Actually, talking about random, she also got me scented gel beads. It smells like plum, and it’s in purple, too, of course. And then she got me wine charms, so wine glass charms. They’re Christmas ones, too, which is good, because I need more Christmas stuff. They got me Moscato. I think I might have had this one time before, but it’s good. It’s sweet wine and I like sweet wine. And then they got me – hell, this is hilarious – Pets Who Want to Kill Themselves. People dress up their animals in different clothes and take pictures of them. I guess she probably got that for me, because I’m one of those people. I used to do that with my dogs and one of my cats. They just look so cute when they’re all dressed up, just like little babies. I’m much rather be able to dress up my little dog or a cat than a child. Children – way in the future, way, way, way in the future. One of stopping – stepping – stopping step… oh, my god, whatever – little tissues, which are much needed right now, since I seem to be getting sick, always happens, right before anything exciting I get sick. Then she got me a wine bottle stopper for like wine glasses. It’s in the shape of a snow man. I’ve got to get up so you guys can see it. You can barely see it. It’s really pretty, though. It’s crystal, I love it. They got me a mouse cheese grater, which I was like “What the hell? That’s awesome!” That’s so random. It’s so cute, though. I love it. They got me … My mom gets ornaments for everybody every year, so you can always expect to receive an ornament. This year I got a chinchilla one. It says “Hand over the apple twigs or else” That’s a picture of a chinchilla, like my little babies, Gratch and Taquito. They’re mad at me right now, because I’m paying attention to you guys and the camera and not them. So they’re making a lot of noise, but they’ll get played with later on.

They also got me these flip-flops. They’re super cute. They have little crosses on them. It’s funny. I hate actually looking at shoes that are my size, because my god, my feet are really that big? But yeah, I’ve got big feet. Then she got me these ones, too. What do these say? “If I click my heels three times, can I go back to paradise?” That’s cute. Now I wonder where paradise is, though. Probably Germany. That was paradise for me.

What else? What else I try to figure out. Oh, yeah. She got me, or they got me, I should say … these are napkin holders. Apparently they are made from one of the best silver smiths in the world? I’m not sure. They’re made by this company called Reed&Barton, but she said that it’s like heirloom quality and that you can pass it down to future generations. And it’s in shape of a fairy, ha! It’s perfect. I was like “That’s so awesome!” And it has a little snail on it, too. It’s so cute. My mom got me … My parents … I still have to get used to having a dad. It’s still weird. I love it, though. He’s awesome. They got me drinking glass sets? My mom was laughing, she was like … If you didn’t notice, it’s like at an angle, so she’s like “Yah, when all of your friends get drunk, you can come over and drink out of these glasses, it will be fun watching them try to drink out of the wrong end.” I was like “It’s great, mom, really,” laughing. She also got me napkins and placemats, really pretty. It’s kind of sparkly colored, I like it. Then she got me this gorgeous, gorgeous, I love this thing, it’s a candle holder. It’s really pretty. It’s in shape of a flower. It’s like a lotus flower or something like that, this sparkly purple candle, not quite sure where I’m going to put this yet, but it’s going to be in a prominent place where everybody can see it. And then, last but not least, my favorite gift so far, it’s going to be so silly, you guys are going to laugh, it’s Raymond. I love this thing. It’s from The Princess and the Frog, the Disney movie that just came out. And it’s so cute; he speaks with a Cajun accent in the movie. I totally fell in love with him. I love it. He’s my favorite gift so far. I’ve been cuddling with him at night and I never cuddle with stuffed animals. That’s kind of weird, but it’s still kind of cute in a way.
So anyways, these are all of my gifts, and then Rob got me something, too. He is getting me a computer, so that I can use it for editing and stuff, pretty exciting. Especially since my laptop is kind of getting bombed down with all the editing stuff and all my videos and that. So it will be nice to have a computer that is really quick and that can process the videos even quicker, a very, very, very practical gift on his part.

Anyways, so, yeah, I love my gifts and merry belated Christmas to all of you guys that I didn’t say merry Christmas to. And since it’s closer to New Year, Happy New Years, actually Happy Early New Years! Alright?

Bye"

D161, 01-02-10: To dickere
 

"Hey dickere

I read your question on the question thread. You actually had two for me. The first one was: Would you consider having your nipples or clit pierced?

I have considered that, but decided against it. Good for me, restrained myself, willpower. Generally I’ve noticed that guys are ok with the nose piercing and maybe navel piercing, but anything more than that is a little bit too much. Especially with my tattoos it would be way too much going on on my body. If anything, I may do a shoot with fake nipple jewelry, little hoops right there. That would be kind of cute, something different and would be very punk-rock. I love it.

The other question you had for me was: How many signed up paying members do I have?

I have more than five hundred but less than a thousand. I won’t give you guys the exact number, but it changes all the time. Generally, that question isn’t really asked. It’s kind of like asking somebody how much they make a year. I got in a lot of trouble one time asking one of my friends that. I just not really answered that, but I gave you a general answer, hope that’s enough.

I hope that answered your question.

Bye"

D162, 01-07-10: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread. You had some very thought provoking questions, if that’s the right words. Your first question was: Looking back six years later after losing your virginity, was that the right time and the right person?

Honestly, I don’t really think there was a right person. The right time, yah, yah, I think so. And especially considering kids are losing your virginity earlier and earlier nowadays, I think 15 was just perfect. Plus, see now, honestly, I was really way too sexual to have held out any longer.

The other question you had was: Now, would you have done it earlier or waited longer?

No, I think, I honestly think that 15 was the perfect age, at least for me. It may be different for other people. But I’m not the type of person that … I never was the kind of person that would have held out for my true love or the guy that I marry or whatever. Actually, comes to think about it, I actually did think that the guy I lost my virginity to was my true love. That’s my problem: I fall in love too easy, but I fall out of love even quicker. I’m in love with the thought of being in love.

Your other question was: If in the future you have a daughter, what would you tell her about your first time? Or about her first time, I’m sorry.

What would I tell her? Well, as soon as she starts having sex, “Tell me,” so I can get her on birth control, and “Just don’t do it with somebody that you’re going to completely regret doing it with” I guess. And maybe “At least put a little bit of thought into it, like don’t do it all of a sudden when you’re drunk in a party, because that’s a lame way to lose your virginity. At least make it a little bit memorable. You see, mine was on my 15th birthday, that’s kind of memorable.”

What was the other question: And would you tell her about your first time?

Oh, absolutely, yah. I’m not ashamed about it. I mean it’s nothing to hide and plus, if anything they can maybe learn of a bit, hopefully.

I hope that answered your questions.

Bye"

D163, 01-23-10: To Mart
 

"Hey mart

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Who came up with the idea for the video logs?

Actually, Rob came up with that idea. I wanted to do something a little different with my website, so he came up with that for me. Congrats, Rob, good job.

Your other question was: Do I set aside time to do my next video log or are they just done at the spur of the moment?

I used to set aside time and I would wait until there were six or seven questions to answer and then take an hour or two to do that, but now I just kind of do it at the spur of the moment, like this video. But I definitely should probably start doing them all again at the same time. That way I have the video logs actually done and ready to be put up right on time. I’m kind of bad about that.

I hope that answered your questions, right?

Bye"

D164, 01-29-10: To Danny
 

"Hey Danny

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: What age is the oldest that I’ve had sex with?

Oldest… Actually 50. He was also one of my longest boyfriends, too. We were together for over a year. That was actually right before I started doing FTV and all that. Was definitely one of my best boyfriends, too. I’ve always gone for older guys, though. I generally don’t date guys younger than 30, generally they’re in their mid-30s. I’ve been that way since I was 15. When I was 15, I was dating somebody who was 21, and then when I was 17, I was dating someone who was 34, 35, I think.

The other question you had for me was: Is it true that older men are better lovers?

Yah, I definitely think so. They have more experience, you know, how to please a woman more. But then, I think it also has to do with the chemistry and stuff. You can be a great lay in bed, but have no chemistry with the other person, and it just sucks. Not that I really had to go through that ever. I guess that’s what I would imagine what it would be like.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D165, 02-03-10: To Anoree
 

"Hey Anoree

I read your questions on the question thread. You actually had a few of them for me. Your first one was: What does my daily schedule look like now, has anything changed since I started college again?

Nothing has really changed since I started college again, other than the fact that I have to be someplace four days a week. I have school Mondays and Wednesdays at night and Tuesdays and Thursdays during the afternoon. It kind of sucks about my Tuesdays and Thursdays classes that it ends right when rush-hour starts, so it takes me about 30 minutes to get home, rather than the 15 minutes that it normally takes. Definitely kind of have to work on that next semester. No more rush-hour classes like that, it sucks. I hate traffic. Other than that, I usually go out with my friends Wednesday nights. We go to one of the Scottsdale clubs. I don’t really drink on Wednesday nights. I just go there to hang out with my friends. They all drink, though, but I’m like “No”, but rather not be hung over for school tomorrow. That would suck. And then Fridays and Saturdays if I’m not traveling, I generally will go out with my friends to Scottsdale or whatever. And Sundays I usually spend by myself in bed, reading my books. But that’s actually most of the week: When I have free time, I spend it reading my books. That’s me, kind of a loner, but whatever.

Your other question was: Now, a year after your site started, did the site develop the way you thought?

Yah, it definitely did. It kind of had it all played out from the beginning. The only thing that I was kind of surprised about how much fetish stuff I ended up having on my website. I thought it would be a lot more masturbation stuff, but I have a ton of fetish stuff.

What was your other question: Are the membership counts halfway satisfying?

They are. For this industry, this economy and the way the industry is going, with theft, content theft and the password sharing sites and stuff like that, it definitely is. I definitely have way more memberships than pretty much any single site girl out there, which is awesome. But of course, anybody can want more, more memberships. It’s kind of hard to get that. But whatever, I’m happy with what I have now. I’m happy for all the great and fabulous and very supportive members and fans that I have now. I definitely have a very, very good bunch of members, if I may say so myself.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D166, 02-08-10: To boywonder
 

"Hey boywonder

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Do you feel embarrassed when you’re sweating? Did you know that men like it?

I am not surprised if that’s a fetish, considering there is a fetish for pretty much everything out there. Personally, that’s not really my fetish, but hey, everybody likes their own thing, so I’m not going to judge. Do I feel embarrassed when I’m sweating? I used to feel really embarrassed about it, especially when I would go out dancing, because I’m a pretty hard dancer. I should say pretty crazy dancer, so I would end up sweating quite a bit. But I don’t really care anymore. I’m not really trying to impress anybody and if somebody is going to be like “Uh, she’s sweating a lot” than I don’t think I really want to have anything to do with them. Besides, my one friend Andrew, he sweats way more than I do when he’s dancing, so I have a sweaty partner. It doesn’t really bother me. It shows obviously that I’m having fun and enjoy myself.

I hope that answered your questions.

Bye"

D167, 02-13-10: To Max
 

"Hey Max

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: What is your record for how many times you have masturbated in one day?

I really don’t know, honestly. I never really counted that or recorded that. I would say it’s probably been about 8 or 9 times, if you’re talking about orgasms, of course. Now hours, god, I would say I’ve masturbated for like three hours at once. I’m trying to remember like the last time that I masturbated for more than one hour or two. Oh, it was a couple of weeks ago. I was actually kind of sick and my nose was completely stuffed up and for whatever reason I realized that by masturbating my nose would get unclogged up or unstuffed. So, to help me get to sleep I was masturbating a lot. But every time I stopped masturbating, my nose would get stuffed up again, so I’d have to continue doing it. Finally I had to stop because I was exhausted. But, yeah, I still have those times where I just go absolutely insane and won’t stop masturbating, but generally I’m good with one or two orgasms and I’m done.

I hope that answered your question.

Bye"

D168, 02-18-10: To Anoree & CaptnJack
 

"Hey guys

I just wanted to show you what I got for Valentine’s Day this year.

From Anoree I got these beautiful flowers, really, really pretty. I love the vase, too, pretty pink color. They’re in a prime spot in my house. Everybody can see them.

And from captnjack I got two cards, very cute. This one is a cow and a donkey, and it says – I thought this was pretty funny – “Thought you’d like to see some teats and As on Valentine’s Day” Cute little play on words. And then he also sent me these purple heart-shaped candies. They smell really good, too. I haven’t eaten any yet, though. I’ll probably munch on those later today.

Anyways, thank you Anoree and captnjack for my gifts. I really, really appreciate them.

Bye"

D169, 02-23-10: To birdie
 

"Hey birdie

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Are your nipples extra sensitive? If so, can you have an orgasm from having them sucked on?

They are sensitive, but not so sensitive that I can have an orgasm from them being sucked on or bitten or anything like that. They’re actually not really all sensitive to the cold, unless it’s really, really, really cold inside – like right now. They’re kind of hard right now. It’s freezing cold in my house.

Your other question was: Do you like getting a massage?

I love getting a massage. I don’t know anybody that doesn’t like getting massages – massag… massages. I can’t say that word today for some reason. Actually, I’m trying to think, last time I got a massage was actually last weekend. I got a body scrub and they also did a massage, too. It was really nice, I liked it. But I don’t really get massages very much, unless it’s just my girlfriends, just doing it for the hell of it.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D170, 02-28-10: To TheDoctor
 

"Hey TheDoctor

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Are you into crazy, funny, cocky short guys, like 5’6” or below?

I don’t think I’ve actually ever dated a guy that’s been my height or shorter. I think I’ve dated somebody like 5’7”, but generally they’re taller. But then, I don’t really have a type that I go for look wise. As long as they’re nice to me and have a great personality, then I don’t really care what they look like. But then again, I have to be kind of attracted to them, just a little bit. Cocky guys, I’m ok with a little bit of cockiness, but if it’s arrogant cockiness, then I’m not really ok with that. That’s kind of a turn-off after a while. But craziness and funniness I’m definitely ok with, because I think I’m pretty crazy and I consider myself very amusing. I make myself laugh all the time. Not so much other people, but that’s ok.

I hope that answered your question, ok?

Bye"

D171, 03-06-10: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: When I do engage in foreplay, what activity turns me on the most when I’m doing it to my partner?

Well, probably going to give you the most typical answer that every girl gives: Blowjobs. When I give a really, really good blowjob to a guy and I can tell that he’s really enjoying it, then that gets me off. I’ve had times, though, were I couldn’t tell if the guy was enjoying it, though I know I was giving a good blowjob, and they were just like “Ew, this is kind of lame. I don’t really feel like doing this right now.” I definitely have to see a look of pure pleasure on the man’s face.

Your other question was: Quite a variety of objects have been enjoyed being inside of me. – That’s very true. – Have I ever had a problem with UTIs? And for those people who don’t know what a UTI is, it is a Urinary Tract Infection.

You know what, I’ve been very lucky. I never had to do with that so far. Very, very lucky, considering all the random non-adult toys that I’ve stuck in me. I try to clean everything before I stick them inside of me, but you’ve got stuff like bananas or clementine oranges that you can’t really clean all too well. That’s a risk I take for you guys. But yah, no, so far I never had to deal with that, and hopefully I’ll never have to deal with that, because that’s no fun.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D172, 03-11-10: To cuteteacher_75
 

"Hey cuteteacher_75

I read your questions on the question thread and your first question was: Have you ever done a threesome? If so, was it MMF, MFF or FFF? Any of the later ones, FFF, on your site?

Well, that’s a tough question there. You know what? I’ve only done girl/girl, no FFF on my website, though hopefully that will change soon. Let’s see, MMF, I’ve done that at least three times, but no more than six times. I can’t remember the exact number right now. MFF, I’ve done that a lot. I would say at least 10 times, and less than 20. – I’m not very good at this. – And FFF, I actually have never done that before. I have done four … wait, maybe I have. Oh, my. God, I really can’t remember. God, that’s a little sad. I have done MFFF, and that was fun. Oh my god, my sex life is just a blur. But it’s a great sex life.

Your other question was: What do I think of nude models who get out of the business and claim they didn’t know what they were doing was porn? Do I honestly think that some people are that clueless about what they’re doing?

First off, I think there’s a difference between nude modeling and porn. I don’t think nude modeling is porn. Unless you’re sticking your fingers or a toy inside of you, then I don’t think it’s porn at all. I think doing spreads is actually pushing kind of far, but I don’t really think that would be considered porn either. What I’m doing is definitely porn. But what I used to do when I first got into modeling industry, that wasn’t porn. That was fine art nudes. But for these people that actually do porn and then say “Oh, no! I didn’t know it was porn!” They’re full of crap. That’s the easiest excuse to give, that, or “I was taken advantage of” or whatever. People just need to take responsibility for their actions. A lot of the girls that get into this business do it because it’s easy money and it’s very quick money, but they never think about the consequences afterwards. Those are the people that end up giving this industry a bad name. I don’t know. It sucks, but there’s really nothing that you can do about it. It’s an excuse, a stupid, stupid excuse.

I hope that answered your questions.

Bye"

D173, 03-16-10: To Dasho
 

"Hey Dasho

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: Have I ever been to Mexico and if I have, where did I go?

Yes, I have been to Mexico, two times so far. I went to Nogales the first time. I was actually under age, 15 or 16 and … I was 16. And I borrowed one of my friends’ ids. It said that I was 18, so we could go drink over there. It was awesome. It was so much fun. That was actually the first time that I went to a strip club, too. At that point I was very drunk and tried to get up on the stage myself. But thankfully my friends pulled me down. Actually it’s funny, because I still have a shot glass from the first bar that I went to. Where else did I go to? I went to Rocky Point last year for Spring Break. That was a lot of fun, too. But other than that I haven’t really traveled elsewhere in Mexico. Dallas actually wanted to go there for Spring Break this weekend, but I’ve been doing way too much traveling, so I said “Yah, no, that’s ok” I need at least one week here in Arizona just to relax, not travel.

The other question you had was: Do I know anything in Spanish? And you said to say “soy tuya dasho” I’m not sure if I pronounced that right.

No, I don’t really know how to say anything in Spanish. Maybe one to five, but that’s about it. I took Spanish class when I was 12 or 13, but obviously if you don’t use it, you lose it. Pretty much the same thing happened when I moved back from Germany. I knew how to speak German very well, but I forgot it all, living here. I did never have a chance to practice.

The last question you had for me was: What is the best photoshops that fans have done for me?

Well, all of them. I love all of them. I’m not going to choose anyone of them, because I don’t like favoritism. But I know that you’ve done a lot of photoshops for me, so I say thank you for that. I love them, they’re beautiful. I love all of them, they’re all my favorites.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D174, 03-21-10: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread. You had quite a few of them for me. Your first one was: Do you happen to remember the least amount of time it took you to climax and the circumstances surrounding the occasion?

Let’s see. Like a minute, actually, but I had been masturbating like crazy beforehand, so it was kind of easier for me to orgasm really quick if I had orgasms beforehand. But it was actually pretty funny, because I do remember timing myself. I got a kick out of that. But, yah, it was under a minute and 30 seconds, for sure. Generally, when I’m by myself, masturbating, like how I’m normally masturbating, not like how I’m masturbating on camera, I can get off within four minutes. And four minutes is generally a long time, it’s usually within two minutes. When I am shooting, unfortunately I have to be in a different position, than I normally like to be in to masturbate, so it’s harder for me to orgasm, and so that takes a longer time, obviously, and it can go anywhere up to ten minutes.

Your other question was: What was your very first sex toy and who bought it for you?

Honestly, I really don’t remember what my very first sex toy was. I do remember one of my very first times going into a sex shop, and I seriously spent so much money. I spent like 800$ on random sex toys, lubes and stuff like that. It was awesome. And then I had to show it off to all my friends and they were like “Oh my god, you’re crazy!” And it’s been even crazier ever since. I think I have spent at least 3 Grand on sex toys.

Your other question was: Have you considered putting together a blooper segment?

Honestly, that wouldn’t really be possible, for videos or even for photos, too. The thing is that the videos are pretty much edited. If the videographer sees that there’s any type of mistake, he’ll actually rewind while he’s filming at that time and film over it. Plus, there’s really no bloopers or anything like that. If there’s anything weird that I do, or funny that I do, he’ll probably keep it on the video and not edit it out. What you see is what you get. Everything on the videos is pretty much not edited.

The other question was: Do you have a particular sexual experience that comes to mind where you’re extremely aroused but did not climax?

I can’t really remember anything in particular. For the website, the one that comes to mind was the Princess in Purple video. The problem was, that at that time I was on that stupid diet pills and it took like forever to get off. It took so long. You can see that on the Sybian video, too. But now I definitely … these pills were no fun at all. But, but I figured out how to squirt when I was on those pills. So at least there’s a plus side to it. But that’s really the only time that I can remember.

I hope that answered your questions, yep?

Bye"

D175, 03-26-10: To Viskajnu
 

"Hey Viskajnu

I hope that’s how you pronounce your name. I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: Do I have any other business plans for the future? At least I think that’s what you’re trying to ask me.

Business plans, well, I’m going to school right now, for pre-med, so when I get out of medical school and do residency, I hope to become a forensic pathologist. So I guess that’s kind of a business plan. If you’re asking about if I plan on doing anything else besides the site, not really. I like shooting for my own website, or FTV Girls, too. I don’t think that I … I don’t know, maybe in the future, like 5, 6 years from now, I’ll move on, but I highly doubt that. I’m definitely going to try to stay with the website for as long as you guys will have me. Business plans, business plans which I think … Well, I wouldn’t mind getting a part time job or even I’ve been thinking about volunteering and stuff. I think that would be awesome. I don’t know, maybe something with animals, of course. I was thinking about doing, I don’t know, like a mentoring program for kids, like big brothers or big sisters. But then, it wouldn’t be very great if they find out about my whole … this whole website. They do not look kindly on that at all. But I know I definitely need to kind of do something with my time besides just school. I’ve got way too much time on my hands.

Your other question was: Do you like your job?

I love my job. It’s honestly the best job ever. It’s by far the best job that I ever had. With this I have complete creative freedom. I can do whatever I want with my site. And I love it, I’m my whole boss. I can work at 2 o’clock in the morning like I do a lot of the times. I don’t have to really – what is the word? – Like I said, I don’t have a boss, really, so I can do my own thing. And, plus, it’s made a lot of positive changes in my life, it had a lot positive effects. I love my job and I love you guys and I can’t imagine doing anything different. I’m happy right now.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D176, 03-31-10: To Lovely
 

"Hey Lovely

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Have I ever cried of joy? If yes, what made me that happy in that moment?

I never really cried of joy in my personal life, like just in my life, but reading, a lot of times during books or watching movies I definitely cry of joy. Definitely I would say I’m an emotional person. I cry at really random times. Here in the movie theaters, they have armed forces commercials right before the movie starts, and every single time I see any commercial about the Navy or the Army or anything like that, I get totally teary-eyed. That definitely has a huge impact on me. But other than that, I mean I’m trying to think of the last time that I got all teary-eyed reading a book. Actually I think it was last night. I was reading my Kushiel’s Legacy book, so that definitely makes me teary-eyed, for good and bad reasons.

I hope that answered your question.

Bye"

D177, 04-05-10: To Geezer
 

"Hey Geezer

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: Is there something you keep hoping a person will ask that they haven’t?

Actually, I just got asked. Well, two of the questions got asked. One of them was by Danny, I think, and it was who is oldest person or guy I had sex with. The other question was asked by Max and that was the record time or amount of time that I had masturbated in a day.

Your other question was: Is there anything I’m dying to tell you guys but no one thinks to ask?

No, not really. I mean I’m not dying to tell you guys anything, but there is some stuff that you guys haven’t asked yet. Well, one of the things I‘ll tell you guys: I have been a part or a member of a sex club here in Arizona. It’s called Discretions. I lingered there a couple of times. It was awesome, a lot of fun. It’s definitely my type of thing, for sure. I’ve realized that I kind of get off when people watch me have sex. It’s kind of a turn on. Not public sex, but when I’m in private and have just random people around me. It’s cool, I like it.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D178, 04-10-10: To Ugo
 

"Hey Ugo

I read your question on the question thread. It was kind of a time sensitive question. The answer is coming a little late. You were asking: What do I desire for Christmas or from the New Year?

You know what, I got pretty much everything that I wanted for Christmas. I never really have anything specific in mind when my birthday or Christmas comes around for presents. I’m always happy with what I get. If anything, if I don’t get something, I just generally tend to buy it.

The other question: What do I desire for the New Year?

I guess New Year’s resolutions? I’m not sure. What would I do for this year? I haven’t really thought about that. Oh, get in shape, get to my gold weight, start volunteering more and that’s pretty much it. I can’t really think of any other goals or desires for this New Year. Maybe get a boyfriend or a girlfriend, preferably a girlfriend. I’m lending towards women right now. It may change tomorrow, though.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D179, 04-15-10: To Aahu
 

"Hey Ashu

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: Have I ever swum without panties in a public pool?

I don’t think so. I’m sure at some point I have skinny dipped, but I can’t remember right now. I would probably say no to that question, because I’m not all that into public stuff, public nudity. I mean I do it for shoots and stuff, but in real life I skinny dip, but only if it’s at my friends’ pool or whatever, so I know I won’t be caught by the police or mean, angry neighbors.

Your other question was: Have I ever gotten topless on a mountain trail?

Nope, not yet. It’s definitely something that I would like to do for a shoot, though, climb Camelback and that would be a fun shoot for sure. And it’s the perfect weather right now to do it. In summertime it gets way too hot, although I guess there’s less people during summertime, because it’s way too hot.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D180, 04-21-10: To Anoree & CaptnJack
 

"Hey everyone

I just wanted to show you guys what I got recently from some fans.

Captnjack got me this card for Easter. It’s very cute, very sparkly. I like sparkly stuff, or Chinese stuff.

And then Anoree got me two necklaces. One of them is this one. It’s very pretty, I don’t know if you can see that very well. Very sparkly, I like that. And then he got me this one. I love this one. It’s very pretty. Actually, I just wore this for a shoot a couple of weeks ago. So you guys will get to see that very soon here, and me wearing the fabulous necklace.

Thank you Anoree and captnjack, I really appreciate the gifts and the card. Thank you.

Bye"

D181, 04-26-10: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread and you were asking me: Do I ever masturbate when driving on long trips?

No, no. That’s not something that I have done before, although I have masturbated in a car before, but mostly just to mess around with the people that I’m driving with. I get a kick out of random stuff like that. It kind of keeps people off guard. It’s easy to do that stuff in front of my friends, because they’re all insane and weirdly sexual like I am.

Your other question was: Before I started with FTV, had I ever been caught masturbating by friends or family?

Ok. Well, I do remember when I was younger I used to sleep in a bunk bed with my sister. I was on the top and she was on the bottom. I started masturbating really, really early, I was 6 or 7 or something. And apparently it would move the bed when I would masturbate, so my sister would get pretty irritated and she would go tell my mom and dad, which was quite embarrassing to me, even then. The other time that I got caught was by a babysitter, and that was humiliating. I don’t think she ever told my parents, at least I hope not. But that’s pretty much the only times I got caught by friends or family. That’s an embarrassing situation for me. I don’t even like thinking about that.

Your other question was: Does anything come to mind for your first kiss, the first time your breasts were fondled, the first time you’re fondled down there, etc. etc.?

Let’s see. My first kiss actually comes to mind. Like my first I guess peck. Not really a peck, but a romantic kiss. I was at least 6 or 7 and there was this boy, Michael. I had a huge crush on him, and I remember he grabbed me and took me behind the basketball courts. There was a wall there, that we hid behind and he gave me my first kiss – and then he ran off. That was really sweet and nice to think about. My other firsts, let’s see what else I think about: My first girl/girl experience or lesbian experience. I was living with my grandparents at the time and I had my friend Susie spending the night with me, and we girls sleep in the same bed when we’re spending the night. I’m not sure about guys, but for girls, that’s the way we do. And we were going to sleep and all of a sudden I feel her just kind of fondling me and it kind of escalated from there. We ended up going down on each other and fingering each other and all that. It was crazy, so hot, wow. That was great. And then my other first that I can remember – oh my god – my first time making out, my first “French kiss”. That was bad. That was really bad. First off, I never practiced with my hand or anything like that, so I didn’t know how to make out, and this is before my first lesbian experience, so I was never able to practice with a girl or anything. It was very humiliating. There was this guy I was “going out” with at the time, and I remember we were sitting on the steps next to my home and we just started going at it. I remember opening my mouth really, really wide, because I thought that was what you’re supposed to do. That’s what I had always seen in the movies. It was kind of a disaster. He ended up telling everybody at school that I make out like a dog. That was really traumatizing to me. Oh god, I don’t even like thinking about it. He’s an A-hole, and if he could see me now, I wonder what he would think now.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D182, 05-01-10: To dave
 

"Hey dave

I read your question on the question thread and you were asking me: Do I have a steady boyfriend?

No, I do not have a steady boyfriend, nor do I have a steady girlfriend. If I did, I would tell you guys, or maybe I wouldn’t. I do dates occasionally, but it’s never gotten super serious. And of course I do have … one night stands? I hate calling it that. I hate one night stands. But so far, no, no steady boyfriend.

I hope that answered your question, ok?

Bye"

D183, 05-11-10: To everyone
 

"Hi everybody

I just wanted to show you my new puppy. Isn’t she cute? Her name is Love Bug. She is almost four months old. - Oh, thank you for the kisses. - She was born January 18th 2010, so that makes her a Capricorn doggy. I got her March 21st I think, so I have her for almost a month now. She’s actually been very good. She knows the command “sit”, well she usually can sit, but when I have food in my hands she kind of freaks out. But she’s doing really good. I’m probably going to put her into a residential doggy boot camp, so that they can train her, because I’ve realized that I am not very good at training dogs. I’m way too much of a push-over, especially with her. She’s so cute. She’s a Papillon, which means butterfly-ear, and I think she weights like 3.6 pounds right now, so she’s really small. I think at most she’ll probably weight 7 pounds, if that.

Say hello. Say hello to all my fans. Come on, you’re so cute, almost as cute as your mommy on camera. Say bye bye, bye everybody. Give everybody a kiss.

Bye you guys."

D184, 05-16-10: To captnjack
 

"Hi captnjack

I read your questions on the question thread. I’m answering them quite a bit late. You were actually asking me about my one year anniversary, so that’s like five months late. But at least I’m answering them. Like you said, I have a huge backlog of video logs I have to answer. It will take me about four months to answer all of them. I’m getting to yours now.

Your first question was: Are there any highlights you care to share with us?

Let’s see. My first webcam show, which was February 6th, I think, and I think that was in Hawaii. That was pretty exciting. My first time meeting a member, that was Longhornbill. That was fantastic, tons of fun. And my first time having a member assist my shoot, that was Raymond. That was really cool. But overall, everything has been really exciting.

Your other question was: Are there any regrets or anything I wish I would or could have done differently?

Let’s see. I wish that I would have had the video updates like I have them now, with the standard definition and the high definition. I wish I had that the very beginning. But other than that I don’t really have any regrets. I think that everything has turned out pretty well.

Your last question was: Has there been any surprises or has everything mostly what I expected?

It’s been mostly what I expected. I’ve been very pleased with how the site has gone and how it’s been growing. I’m really happy with my website, my fans and stuff. You know, the one surprise that I did have was the fact that I was very surprised how respectful and awesome my members and fans were. I was thinking that I would have – sorry, my dog is chewing on the camera stand, so I’m trying to get her away from that – What was I saying? I don’t remember what I wanted to say.

Anyways, so I hope that answered your questions, right?

Bye"

D185, 05-26-10: To Geezer & T-Bone Thomas
 

"Hey guys

I just wanted to show you my gifts that I got from T-bone Thomas and Geezer when they visited for my shoot. Last Friday it was, about a week ago.

T-bone Thomas got me a Victoria Secret gift card and this super cute holder thing. I think it’s supposed to look like a rose. I love it, pretty cute. I haven’t taken the card out yet.

And then Geezer got me a gift card to Victoria Secret and to Bath & Body Works. I’m very excited about using these. Oh, before I forget, he also gave me this card. It’s really funny. It says “in chinese characters, it says: ‘wipe from front to back’” and then it’s a picture of a girl sitting down with a thong and she has like Chinese writing or some further camp stamp on her back. At least I don’t have writing on my back. The tattoo is not fabulous, but at least it’s not writing.

Anyways, I just wanted to show you guys that and say thank you to Geezer and T-bone Thomas for the gifts and for assisting my shoot. And I want to show off my new glasses, too, my new Dior glasses. I don’t know if you can see the Dior, someplace … Ah, right there. So cute, I like them. My mom picked them up for me, because I was getting super frustrated, trying to decide which glasses I wanted to pick out, just so many choices.

Bye you guys"

D186, 05-31-10: To everyone
 

"Hey guys
hey everybody

I just wanted to show all of you stuff that I’ve gotten recently from fans and members, and friends, too, and family. So, let’s see, let’s start off with … family stuff.

For my birthday my dad got me this card. It’s pretty cute. He’s into fish, so he got me a fish card, obviously. Then he also got me these awesome boots. They go with my Final Fantasy costume, I think it’s Yuna, it’s really cute, I love it. Look at how tall these boots are. It’s amazing. But they’re super comfortable. I shall be wearing that for Nocturnal in September. It’s really cute. I’m excited about it.

And then, let’s see, my little nephew made me this. I think it’s so cute. It’s for this little card to me.

And then my mom’s card, and she got me … She got me the Final Fantasy costume, but it’s too hard to show you guys, so it’s in the closet right now. And then she got me this costume. That’s what I’ll be wearing to EDC. It’s actually super-hot. Not temperature hot, but … yeah. Wow, I’m kind of uh today.
And then she also got me this. She has one of them in her home, so that was really pretty, and I was like “I want mine!” so she got me this. Very nice. I have the perfect place to put it, too, get purple sparkly candles for that and it will be super cute. And then this is what she got me for babysitting carter one time. I love this. I thought it was hilarious. It says… this picture showing a shark and it says “man-eater”. It’s a beach towel, if you guys didn’t figure that out. That will be good to use this summer, while I haven’t really gone to the beach once. Actually, I have.

And then, let’s see … I’m really spacey today, guys, I’m sorry about that.

Captnjack got me this card, very cute. Then he also got me this one. It opens up. There’s a Borders gift card in there. That will be good, since I ran out of books. I’m currently re-reading books, which I hate to do.
My friend Ryan got me this one, this card, very cute. He gets me my birthday dinner that will be Cheo, Gello.

And then my friend Hank got me this card. It says: “If the shoe fits, buy a pair in every color” – very true.

And then, who got me this one? – ah, my friend Mike got me this card, it’s kind of funny. What does it say in here? [Shake your Booty plays] Oh, it’s a music one. It says “Take your *** downtown and party” That’s cute. He also got me an Amazon gift card, which I already used. I bought Love Bug … What did I get for her for that? Maybe the doggy steps, or the doggy doorbell. I think I got the doggy doorbell with that.

Then he … somebody got me this. I feel so bad. I’m not exactly sure who bought it for me. I’m really spacey. Actually there is three things that I do not know who bought for me, because I threw the package away, and I feel absolutely terrible. There is a printer, a t-shirt, like Pink t-shirt, and a juicer. So, if you guys know who it is that got that for me, please step forward and tell me, so I can do the video log for that. I feel incredibly terrible. I guess it was just that the place was probably a mess, because I got tons of packaging here. Just tell me who you are. I feel bad!

And then Geezer got me a card, thanking me for letting him assist my shoot. It says “Thanks! That was the nicest thing that ever happened to me … that didn’t involve extreme nudity.” And then it says “But wait, it did involve extreme nudity.” That’s really cute, I like that. And then he also added a little … what the heck do you call these things? I don’t know, like memory drives? It has all the pictures in it that he took from the shoot. That will be cool to look at. And then he also got me chocolates. Candy, yummy, very yummy, which had actually melted, because Rob didn’t realize that it was chocolate, so he kept it in his car one day, and his also melted, too. But I still ate some of mine. I was “I’m not letting that go to waste.” It’s good, it’s tasty.

And then Geezer also got me, which I’ve already done a video log for this, Geezer also got me a 100$ gift card to Bath & Body Works, so I want to show you guys what I got for that.

I got Eucalyptus Spearmint sugar scrub, which this is my favorite scent form Bath & Body Works. It’s absolutely good. And since I don’t have gotten a scrub in a long time, I thought it would be nice to do it myself. And then I got two bottles Warm Vanilla Sugar Antibacterial Hand Gel and a little carrying thing. The other one is in my purse. This is my second favorite scent. It’s Warm Vanilla Sugar. That’s really my only two … well, no, that’s not true, but that is my two favorite scents from there. The other one I got is the Home Fragrance Oil in Eucalyptus Spearmint. That goes in … oil burners? God, I’m just like … Sorry guys, I just woke up, so my brain is not quite thinking right. And then I also got Home Fragrance refills, wallflowers is what it’s called, Eucalyptus Spearmint, yet again. I love these things, so my house always smells like eucalyptus spearmint. That’s perfect. Then I got shampoo and conditioner in Eucalyptus Spearmint, so I shall smell from head to toe like eucalyptus spearmint. Or I can smell like Warm Vanilla Sugar from head … Not so much to tell. Oh, wait, I did. I got shower gel in Warm Vanilla Sugar, so I can smell like it from head to toe. And I got Warm Vanilla Sugar bubble bath, because you guys know how much I love to take baths, like four of them a day – which is kind of OCD, I think. It’s kind of bad. And then the last thing I got was Sleep Pillow Mist in Lavender Vanilla, which is kind of a favorite scent, but not so much. I love it, though. This is good. It’s supposed to help you sleep, awesome.

So I got quite a lot of stuff from there for only 100$. I thought that was kind of exciting. I was looking online, looking at retail-me-not and tried to find deals and stuff. That was quite shopping-savvy of me.

Anyways, I also got stuff from Victoria Secret from the cards that Geezer and T-bone Thomas got me, but I think those are in the washing machine right now. One of them I have already worn for the 4th of July shoot, so I shall show you what I got for these cards in the video log that I go when I figure out who bought me the juicer and the printer and the Pink t-shirt. I’m not telling what the Pink t-shirt says yet, because I want to surprise you guys.

But anyways, so, all my stuff, it’s awesome. Thank you guys, I appreciate it. And please tell me who you are, who bought me the juicer, printer and t-shirt.

Bye!

Where’s the stop button?"

D187, 06-05-10: To everyone
 

"Hey guys

Ok, I just did a video log showing everybody what I got recently, but I realized there is a whole bunch of other stuff that I didn’t show you off. One of them is this hat, I actually bought this myself. I thought it’s hilarious, it says “I love Orc porn” which I guess I would. I think I’d like orc porn, I’ve never seen it. I like cartoon porn.

Another thing that I got was … I actually got these with either Geezer’s or T-bone Thomas’ Victoria Secret gift card. Good, one in green, one in pink and one in black. These are just super, super comfortable. I had already a blue one, so I decided to buy a black one, green one and pink one. Except that I think the pink one is kind of see-through, I don’t know. That might be for a good shoot.

I also bought panties, even though I don’t wear them, this one, it’s very cute. It’s like pink sheeta print. That goes with the pink shirt. That will make for a cute update. And then this plain black lacey thong, very cute. Generally, if I’m going to wear underwear, it’s like this, lacey plain black. And I bought, I thought this is so pretty, I love this color, it’s purple. It has sparkly sequines on it. And then another plain black one. That’s my favorite … uh, my second favorite type of underwear. And red ones, so cute, and then I got striped ones, because they were having a sale. These look really tiny, holy crap. This one is just as big as my head. Oh my gosh, I don’t know if I’m going to fit into these. I think she said that they ran small, so I think that … oh, wow, yeah. I don’t know if that’s going to fit.

I also got, let’s see, this red lacey – I don’t know what the hell you call that, negligee? – that I wore for my 4th of July update. It came with this underwear, but for whatever reason the underwear never turned to fit me. That part always reaches out to the middle of my back, so I had to buy other underwear, for which I bought blue ones, navy blue. I don’t exactly like this style, but I decided to do something a little different. I haven’t washed this and it has my juice on it, so I shall keep it like that and sell it to one of you guys. And I also bought this that I haven’t washed. I was in Vegas, a cover up. I was originally to wear this for my 4th of July update, but when I tried it on, it didn’t look all that flattering. It wasn’t exactly what I was looking for.

And then my mom’s other gift for my birthday was pink flip-flops, which she’s been given me flip-flops from the same company for the past two years now. But I love them. They’re so comfortable and they’re really cute, and they always come with a saying. This one says “I’m not a princess, I’m the Queen.” I think that’s cute. And they come with a little crown on it, too. I love that. It looks like the tiara that I wore during my birthday.

And then I got this for my computer that Rob gave me for my birthday … and Christmas gift. It’s actually over there right now. I’m sure you guys will see it at some point when I’m making my video logs.

Oh my god, I’m forgetting other stuff, too. Damn. Ok, I’ll pause the camera and come right back.

[cut]

And we’re back.

So that I’ll tell you, too: Anoree got me flowers for my birthday, but they’re kind of wilted and stuff. But they’re really pretty, I really like them. They came in a beautiful vase, which of course I shall keep. I think that it’s actually growing mold around them, because I haven’t refilled the water yet. It’s kind of nasty.

So, ok, I bought these prints just to go around my house, and I maybe want a couple more, but I thought these are beautiful. Of course they’re fairy prints. This one is called Cinnamon and it has little sayings on them, like the fairies, they travel and say, and this one is: “Finally the fairies found their voice and the planet is ready to be heard.” This is really pretty. This one is actually going to stay in this room. This is like the “Fairy Room.” And this one is Lavender, of course you know that this one will probably go in my – I wonder if you can even see that. It’s sparkly because I haven’t taken of the… it’s shiny because I haven’t taken off the plastic yet – that’s probably going into my room. And then she also had these fairy prints that I completely fell in love with. I don’t know where this will go, but this one says “Live from an amazing Story” which I loved to read, so I thought that was perfect. This one almost made me cry when I read it. I was like “Oh my god, this is beautiful” I’m going to put it someplace in my room, so when I wake up every day I can read it. It says “I’ve finally found myself to be Someone to care for… I’ve been set Free.” So, I, oh … it’s a beautiful saying. That really like touches me. Whoa, I’m getting all emotional now. And then they also added a – oh my god, I can’t even think of it right now, bookmarker? Oh my gosh, wow. – which actually has a piece of crystal on it, so I thought that is kind of cool. It says “The Fairy Declaration: I follow my own fairy path, I dance my own fairy dance, I color my light beautiful, I fly on my own fairy wings, I’m happy to be my magical me.” I thought that was really cool. It’s a nice affirmation to repeat to yourself when you’re not feeling all too happy about things that have been going on.

Anyways, like I said, I only have three more gifts to show you guys, I just have to figure out who bought them for me.

Alright, Bye"

D188, 06-10-10: To birdie
 

"Hey Birdie

I read your questions on the question thread and your first question was: Do I like getting massages?

I absolutely love getting massages. That’s one of my favorite things to do. That and get facials. I love spa days. I was actually … would love to cruise. It’s like mainly for spaing and all inclusive, be kind of expensive, but totally worth it, I think, just get massages all day long, oh my god. And actually it’s funny, because just recently, when I went to San Francisco about two months ago, I did a – god, I can’t even remember how long it was – like two and a half hour, or something crazy like that, like a two and a half hour massage. It was absolutely amazing, a lot of fun. I’m actually doing a massage tomorrow with my sister. It will be a lot of fun, I’m very excited. I just hate getting male masseuses. For whatever reason it makes me kind of uncomfortable. But whenever they ask me if I have a preference for gender, I never tell them that I do want a female, so I always end up with a male. It’s ok, whatever.

Your other question was: What sci-fi and horror movies have I watched, and do I have any favorite ones?

I watched tons of sci-fi, fantasy and horror movies, yah, sci-fi horror movies. I …

[recording aborted]

Hey Birdie

I read your questions on the question thread. You actually had quite a few for me, but then I kind of added them all together. Anyways, your first question was: Do you like getting massages?

I love getting massages. It’s one of my favorite things to do. I love going to the spa in general, it’s fabulous. Actually, tomorrow I will be going to the spa with my sister. I’m quite excited about that. We’re going to get facials, massages, our nails done, and then she’s getting a playboy bikini wax. That’s going to be her first one. How exciting for her. Actually, talking about massages, just recently in San Francisco, a couple of months ago, I got a two and a half hour massage. That was absolutely amazing. I wish there was some place here that did massages for that long, but I don’t really think they are. I want to do a cruise where they’re all about spaing and massages and stuff. I’m sure that would be expensive, but totally worth it in my opinion.

And then your other question was: What sci-fi and horror films have I watched?

A lot? I’m not sure how to answer that, because there’s tons of them that I watched. I started watching them when I was really young, like 6 or 7. I try to think of what’s the last one that I watched. The last one that was memorable that I watched was Paranormal Activity, yeah. That movie creeps me out, seriously. There’s so many times that I’d be sleeping and wake up scared so bad that I’d have to go turn on the light and sleep with the light on. It’s embarrassing, but whatever. It’s a scary movie, it really is.

Your other question was: Do you have any favorite sci-fi / horror movies?

Queen of the Damned, that would be considered like I think both, sci-fi and horror, wait, no, it would be considered horror. So that’s like my favorite.

And then the other question… I’m trying to think if I have any more favorite horror movies. I can’t really think of any right now. See, I don’t watch television all that much, so I’m like… [shrugs her shoulders]

The other question was: What are the first sci-fi / horror movies that I watched?

Oh my god, ok. The first ones that I actually really, really remember – and they still scare me to this day – Aliens and Gremlins. And don’t joke about Gremlins with me. Seriously, I’m terrified of that movie. I think it’s mainly because when I was younger we were watching the movie and I was laying down on the ground, and right during a scary part my daddy tossed a pillow at me and just scared the hell out of me. And ever since then I’ve been terrified of Gremlins. Actually, what’s really funny is that my mom and sister were joking about it the other night, when I was over their house for Father’s Day. And they were being quite mean. They were saying that my dog Love Bug looks like the good Gremlin. I was “Don’t say that! That’s terrible, so mean!”

Anyways, your next question was: What are the most exotic things you have done or eaten?

The most exotic thing that I’ve eaten would have to be devis breast, and that was in – haha, breast, … my cheesy sense of humor coming out – that was in Germany. I try to remember what hotel it was. It was a beautiful, beautiful hotel. But we did this crazy seven course meal and just tons of food. First the food that came out was really small, and we were like “Really? How are we supposed to get full on this?” and then we realized that it actually turned to be a lot of food at the end. But I had one bite of it and – not my type of thing at all. That was really rare the way that they cooked it. I didn’t like it. What else? I had escargot, but I wouldn’t really consider that exotic or anything. I ate that actually – I wouldn’t say often, but when I have the chance to eat it, I always get it. Actually last week on Thursday I had escargot. That was quite tasty, if I may say so myself.

Let’s see, most exotic things that I’ve done: Horseback riding in the ocean and the rain in Jamaica, although it wasn’t supposed to be raining. But it was actually quite exotic to me. I had a lot of fun. And then, I try to think what else, driving along this road, it’s called the “Romantic Road” in Germany. It’s just a road that there’s a bunch of small little medieval towns that are along the way. It was a lot of fun, very beautiful, seeing all the old towns and the walls that were still surround it and stuff like that. It was awesome. I don’t know if that would be considered exotic, but I consider it exotic enough. I don’t know. I’ve done a lot of exciting stuff that I wouldn’t necessarily consider exotic stuff. You’ll have to ask me that question in a couple of years, and I’m sure that will change.

Let’s see … and I think that’s actually your last question. Uh, lots of questions, lots of questions answered.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye

Oh, noticed the pink hair? Isn’t that crazy? Actually Vanilla Deville did that for me at Steve Lightspeed’s house. How awesome is that? I was like “Yeah, sweet!” I’ve had magenta hair, and I’ve had blue hair, and I’ve had black hair, and I’ve had purple hair, and I’ve had every color hair that you could think of, and I thought pink hair would be fun. It’s not permanent, by the way, so it will be gone in a couple of weeks.

Anyways, Bye"

D189, 06-15-10: To e83
 

"Hey e83

I read your questions on the question thread. I have tried doing this video log four or five times now, so hopefully this is the last time that I have to do it. Hopefully I don’t make any more mistakes, my phone doesn’t go off or lord knows what. But anyways, your first question was: Of all the updates that you’ve done for your website and for FTV, which one was the most difficult to complete and which one was the easiest?

Well, I’m only going to answer for my website, because, honestly, it’s been a long time since I shot for FTV and I really can’t remember. Well, I can, but I find all the answers for my website and not FTV. So, the hardest ones, ok: The Valentine’s Day update for this year, both the photo and video images, the Luscious Love and Happy Hearts updates, that was really difficult to complete, because it just did take a really long time. I had the speculum in me pretty much the whole time, so after a while I got kind of uncomfortable. A couple of times I couldn’t even open it up. I had to get Rob to open it up for me, which is always kind of awkward. The fact that I had to turn over and get into weird positions, it wasn’t comfortable. But I think it turned out really hot, personally. And I still have those glass marbles, the glass heart marbles, so maybe I will be selling them. I’ve been thinking about selling them and then giving the money to charity. That may be a kind of nice thing to do. Kind of weird, but kind of nice, I hope they don’t ask where the money came from. Let’s see, the other hard update that I did – the banana stuffing update, actually. That was kind of difficult. I mean it was kind of just physically hard, because I had to keep myself up in this weird, crunched type position, because I was on this small outdoor patio table that wasn’t big enough to hold all of me. So it was a really awkward position to be in for longer than ten minutes. Let’s see, what else, what else … oh, the other hardest update was the Infamous Ten and – what was that one called – A Girl’s Prerogative, that was very, very, very hard for me to do. I actually found out during that shoot that I’m allergic to silicone. I used a silicone lube and it was quite painful, very painful. Hence why the finish was just me, shaving. Kind of lame, but, hell, I would have done it if I weren’t completely in pain.

But the easiest update was actually the update that I shot right after that, which was the Splash & Squirt, it was the garden hose shoot. Boy, that felt amazing. It felt so good after all the burning pain that the silicone allergy causes, oh my gosh. Yeah, I know it felt awesome. Afterwards I was very … I was like “Huh, just go, do something else, I just want to keep that garden hose in me all day long.” You know, honestly, there aren’t really any hard shoots per se, just some of them are physically demanding or, I don’t know, the hardest ones are where I get sore and hurting down there or whatever. I mean getting naked in public is mentally hard, but definitely I wouldn’t compare that to the Big Ten toy shoot or any of those shoots. Most of the shoots are very easy, I must say. It’s always good. Rob makes it very easy.

Your other question was: How did I learn to deep throat?

Personally, I don’t think that I can deep throat, but, hey, if you guys think so, that’s awesome. Honestly, I’m not going to lie, generally I kind of gag when I have a **** shoved down my throat. - That were the dirtiest words that ever came out of my mouth. Not really, but that’s pretty naughty for me to say. - Yah, I’ve been trying to teach myself to deep throat, because apparently you can brush your teeth and move it further and further down your throat and you can train yourself not to gag, which is awesome. But apparently it’s not all that safe. But … deep throating, it’s a blow job. It’s good, the guy should be happy.

Your other question was: You mentioned that you have been to a sex club in the Phoenix area. Would you mind telling us a little more about your visits?

It’s a place called Discretions. I remember going there the first time I went there, I was “Uh, this place is ghetto.” And I suppose places like that have to be in industrial areas. They can’t be in residential areas, so it looked a little ghetto. It’s actually a lot of fun. We went on a non-busy night, so it wasn’t a Friday or Saturday. I can’t remember exactly what day it was. I was very young. I was 18 at the time and I went with a friend. I know I was really, really nervous. I was going in there and just looking around and “Oh my god, everybody is way older. It’s kind of weird.” But I ended up relaxing and I had fun. They had a stripper pole in there, which I got up on and danced around. I remember I met this couple there, that I ended up playing around with, which was a lot of fun. They had a couple of rooms, like private rooms, where we didn’t go into any of them. We actually went into this one cage type thing. They have these theme rooms and then they have this one, it wasn’t really a room, it was like a cage, a huge cage the size of this bedroom, and they had a jungle theme to it, and yeah. I did some pretty dirty things in there. I remember the single guys that ran the club, they were peering through the bars, just yanking off. I was like “Wow, this is kind of awkward. But I’ll all ignore you guys and just pay attention to my woman right here.” No, it was a lot of fun, just fun.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"

D190, 06-20-10: To hohoho
 

"Hey hohoho

Santa Clause – I read your questions on the question thread and your first question was: What would you think about masturbating in front of other people who are talking to you? You said: We would love to see that on video.

You know what? I pretty much already do that in my webcam shows, except they’re not actually talking to me, they’re typing. That’s already pretty distracting. I can masturbate in front of people when they’re talking, but only if they’re talking dirty to me. And even then, honestly, it’s distracting. It just takes me even longer than the longest time I need now to get off. I can still do it, though. Maybe I shall have to do that in a future video.

Your other question was – if I can find it: What was the most risqué situation you had sex or masturbated? What did you feel in that situation and does it turn me on?

The most risqué place / situation that I had sex, it has been in this office building, office complex. It was dark, it was at night time, but we were sitting in this court yard on this bench, having sex, and there was offices right all around us. I was just “Oh my god, hopefully there’s no camera and hopefully there’s nobody walking out and see us doing this.” Honestly, I’ve said it before: I don’t get off on public sex. I don’t get off on public anything. Personally, I don’t want to be caught and branded as a sex offender. There’s nothing that turns me on about that. I’ll do it sometimes, because I know that it does turn on, turn people on, but I don’t get off on that at all. If anything, I mean, it feels good still when you’re having sex in public or masturbating in public, but it’s not going to feel as great as it would if you were in private and you don’t have to worry about having people come across you and catch you.

The other question you asked me was: What do I think about CFNM, clothed female, nude male?

You know what? When you asked me that question, I had to look it up. I was like “What on earth is that?” I looked at some of the porn sites where that’s the whole theme. It’s kind of interesting. It’s weird. What I saw of it, they try to degrade the men. I’m not really into degrading anybody. But you know what? I know I’ve done that before, actually, with ex-boyfriends and stuff, just get dressed up in lingerie and keep it on while having sex. It’s not that they can really have sex with clothes on. I mean they can, but uh… I’ve done it before, it’s fun, but it’s not my fetish. You guys already know what my fetish is, but to each his own.

I hope that answered your questions, ok?

Bye"