*** Danielle's Journal ***

[danielle_ftv]

Hey guys, here is my journal. I am going to try to write a journal entry periodically ... but of course somedays I may be to busy.

If you are planning on sending anything to me, send it to the following address (this is my business mailbox, it's not where I live... also please don't send any perishable items to this mailbox since I only check it once, maybe twice a month):
Danielle Delaunay
3116 S Mill Ave #616
Tempe, AZ, 85282

Also if you are sending any type of clothing here are my sizes

43-34-44 (updated 12/22/20)
Dress- 14
Pants/Jeans/Skirt- 14 or XL
Top- XL
Bras- 36G (UK sizing)
Shoes- 8 1/2 to 9 or 39


Sept 18, 2008
So my mom called me earlier and asked if I could meet a tow truck man tomorrow at 10 in the morning to tow my old car (a Chevy Cavalier.) I will be pretty sad to see it go...but it was definitely falling apart. I remember a few Christmas's ago my mom gave me a choice between a new water pump, or a cd player. Of course I chose the cd player...not really knowing that the water pump is an essential part of the vehicle. So almost everytime I would drive it around it would overheat on me...scaring the bejeezus out of me. I had to retire the car when one day we couldn't get it to start. I ended up having to tow the car back home, and it's been sitting there ever since. It's an old car, but it was still my first car and I really hope the new owner takes good care of it.

I'm also very itchy. I had a photoshoot the other day. There was a house near the photographers house that had stagnant water. Well most people know that stagnant water is breeding grounds for mosquitos...but obviously the next door neighbors didn't. So the photography team and I were all up on the roof taking beautiful sunset pictures, and the whole time I'm getting bit by dozens of mosquitos. The photographers were freaking out, swatting them off me and spraying me with bug spray, but I was like hey it's all in the name of art. Well today I wish I would've been a little smarter because I am COVERED in mosquito bites. They are all over my legs, my butt, and my back. I woke up a few times last night because the itching was so bad.

So other than my car being towed away, and the mosquito bites...nothing else really exciting happened. I drove a friend to another friend's house...but that's not really exciting.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 19, 2008
Right now I am feeling pretty sad. There is a guy who I honestly think is the Devil incarnate. He is evil and trys to spread negativity and hate to everyone around him. He has been emailing Rob, Lia, and I, writing the most evil, spiteful things I've ever heard. I feel horrible for Rob. Rob is by far the best boss I've ever had. He is kindhearted, loving, and giving. He would go to any lengths to please the members of his sites and to help out his friends or family. That is why I feel so bad...because Rob helped this guy out and in return is being treated like crap. Not only that, but anyone who is involved in FTVGirls is also being attacked and harassed on a daily bases. Rob has created beautiful things (the sites, the pictures, etc.) and I don't think people truly appreciate his talent or the amount of work he puts into it. People look at the picture and they think "wow, that's a beautiful girl" but they don't think about the person behind the camera...you know the one who is spending hours creating this beautiful thing for all of us to enjoy. I look at the pictures that Rob takes of me, and I want to cry because they capture that beauty that sometimes I don't see. Rob has made all of his girls into better people, especially me. I wish people weren't so negative and would appreciate the things that they are given. I appreciate this site being made for me...and I appreciate all of you amazing guys who post daily on my site and try to make it into something great. People need to stop looking at what they don't have and start looking at what they do. So if you are that guy that I'm talking about and you are reading this, please take it to heart. Quit being so negative and quit trying to mess up other peoples lives. And oh yeah quit posting personal information about me!

P.S. If you guys could send Rob a little nice message....maybe saying how much you appreciate the sites, etc. I would really appreciate it. He's feeling kind of down and I don't like seeing people that I care about unhapppy.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 20, 2008
So today was a really good day...other than it being hectic. My personal trainer told me yesterday that if I want to lose weight I have to eat 5 to 6 small meals a day, and eat breakfest. Well first off, I normally get up around lunch time, and second (and this is a little weird) if I get enough sleep I won't be hungry for a few hours, but if I don't get enough sleep then I get hungry immediately. Well I got enough sleep last night, so I had to force myself to eat some cream of wheat. The other day I lost my keys so I had to go to Radio Shack and buy a metal detector. I spent an hour combing through thorny trees, ant infested bushes, and rocky terrain...and I still didn't find my keys. Good thing I have a spare one...but unfortunately those keys I lost also had my spare key clicker on it. So I am going to have to reorder a new one, and a new mailbox key (which I know the apartment people are going to give me hell for.) Hopefully the key clicker isn't to expensive...but I think I remember the car salesman tell me that to get a new one would cost me about $150. Hopefully that's not the case. I also tried to stop by a place called Spy Headquarters to get myself some pepper spray, and various other self protection items, but I got there right after they closed. So I will have to stop by there on Monday. I spent $273 on groceries...I'm not sure how I can spend that much on just one person...but I spend about that much everytime. I also edited some more videos with Rob that will be put up on the site in a few days here.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 21, 2008
Today was a very lazy day for me. I built a new modeling portfolio, checked emails and Myspace messages. I also watched three or four Battlestar Galactica episodes. I'm on the last disc of the third season, so after this I will need to actually watch the first and second seasons. Rob got some more hateful fowarded emails from that jerk I was telling you about the other day. It's become amusing, honestly he needs to come up with some new material because I keep hearing the same things over and over again. So other than that nothing really special happened.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 23, 2008
Sorry I didn't write anything yesterday...it was yet again another lazy day so I didn't really have anything to write about. Today I went to Bed, Bath, and Beyond to buy new towels for my bathroom. Well new towels turned into new bathroom sets (toothbrush holder, wastebasket, etc), that turned into new pillows and before I knew it I had spent WAY over my budget. But at least my house will look cute. I bought some of the costume stuff I needed so today I was cliping the fake ivy leaves off the ivy vine. If you didn't know I decided to go as Poison Ivy rather than Princess Leia for Halloween. I'm pretty excited about the costume. It will be completely hand made so I'm hoping that it will turn out well. The past few Halloweens have been hand made costumes and they have all turned out well. This one though will take a long time to make. I'm having a guy make me the latex eye mask that Poison Ivy wore in the movie. Hopefully it isn't to expensive. I bought Rob's costume for him because I knew he would wait until two days before Halloween to actually buy a costume...so he is going as Leonidas from "300"....hahahaha. So yet again I ate a big meal close to bedtime. I need you guys to remind me not to do that, jk I've been told that I shouldn't eat anything big after 6 PM, but I'm so used to eating the most after 8 PM.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 25, 2008
So I just realized that this journal thread is going to get very long in a relatively short time. Rob put my Welcome video on the sneak peek section of FTVGirls...so anyone who is smart enough should be able to actually find the site. Today was seriously busy. A bunch of Halloween stuff that I ordered arrived in the mail including Rob's costume. Later on I'm going to post some pictures of him in the costume...you guys are going to laugh so hard. I got the new remote lock thingy for my car today. It cost $150 and took them an hour to program it, when it really only should've taken them 15 minutes. So tomorrow I have to call the storage place I used to store my stuff at. My exboyfriend and I were storing our stuff together and when we broke up I switched the unit into his name...well about six months ago I checked my credit report and found out that I was delinquet on payments and they had sent it over to a collections agency. Unfortunantely I shreded all of the papers because this happened like more than a year and a half ago (I normally only keep stuff for a year.) So hopefully they still have the paperwork, but I'm thinking that since they are putting this on my credit report and not the ex's that they don't have it. So hopefully I can get this all taken care of. On Monday I'm getting a dent taken out of my car. I'm so excited because the dent has been on my car for about eight months now... courtesy of stupid ex-boyfriends...and you see why I'm single. So hopefully my car door doesn't get kicked again, because I don't want to have to shell out money for something I didn't do.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 27, 2008
Sorry that I haven't been posting very much. Rob and I are trying to get everything ready before October 1. On October 1st the site will be put on the member's part of FTV, and a few weeks after that the site will be put on the non-members part of FTV, my Myspace, and a few other places. So there will be two times that we see a huge influx of people. So the other day I went to Las Vegas. I honestly hate going there because I hate flying...and flying when I'm only going to be someplace for a few hours is tortoure. We did a little shooting there...but not as much as I would've liked because the places we went to were crowded. We did some more shooting yesterday...new updates, yeah. Not sure when those will be on the site...pretty soon I'm think. Today my friend was supposed to shoot for FTV but unfortunately she got cold feet, and decided she needed a few more days to think about if she wants to shoot or not. Hopefully she does, she really cute and is perfect FTV material. That guy that I was telling you about a week ago, struck again. He is making horrible accusations and slandering my name. I just replied back to him and pretty much told him that he is the laughingstock of the adult industry and nobody believes him. A restraining order will be coming soon because I'm tired of him. If I did get a restraining order does that mean he can't post stuff about me?

[danielle_ftv]

Sept 29, 2008
Yeah, so happy...the dent got fixed out of my car. I'm so excited...there is a slight wavy pattern where he hammered the dent out but it still looks a million times better. Now I just have to get a car wash and Shout out a few small stains in the car and it will look like new. Maybe I will even do a little candid shoot with it. Today was a workout day, but unfortunately I just wasn't in the mood so I was a little bitchy. Hopefully my trainer didn't take it personally. It actually went by pretty quick. I also just got the images from a shoot I did about two weeks ago. I can not wait for you guys to see them. A photographer named Robert Donahue took the pictures and they are absolutely amazing. Plus I don't particularly care for the photo sets I have up in the contributed photo section (except for Wildman Glamour's wedding dress set). I've changed so much since those shoots that honestly I'm kind of embarassed by them. I'm about 15 pounds heavier and was just starting out in modeling so I wasn't posing my body in an attractive way. But it's amazing to see the transformation I've gone through since then...and I'm at least happy that I can share the transformation with you.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct 1, 2008
So today my site went live....yeah. We'll have to see how long it takes to get up to 500 members. My assist shoot with Jamee goes up tomorrow. Don't really know what you guys will think about that update. Rob didn't particularly care for it because he said that she didn't have any personality. But she was cute! I was told last night that my welcome video was downloaded 8,500 times. I was like wtf....my sites been visited by that many people? That's a lot of people considering my site wasn't being advertised. I was supposed to do a shoot today...but the photographer ended up cancelling on me at the very last minute (I hate that!) And the funny thing is he wasn't even the one that cancelled...he had his "assistant" cancel for him. Don't think I'll be working with him anymore. It sucks because I actually cancelled my personal training session so I could do a shoot with him. But whatever.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct 3, 2008
Today was an incredibly busy day. I got my first fan package from Laranger...it was a homemade cookbook with tons of recipes. Thank you so much, I can't wait to make those cookies. I got my hair dyed. It is quite a bit lighter than usual...so it's taking me a while to get used to. I hadn't seen my mom in a couple weeks so I went to her work to have lunch with her. She was pretty surprised about the hair. She told me that it's more towards my natural hair color (which she hasn't seen in 7 years.) I went out to dinner with Rob and his friends...and oh yeah we got in an accident due to some girl driving on the wrong side of the road. His Lamborghini is completely trashed. But at least nobody got hurt. It took about two hours to get everything taken care of (the police stuff and insurance stuff). That is the third accident I've been in (one was a small rear-ending, another was a hit and run, and this one was a head on collision.) After we had gotten everything taken care of I went with my friends to a Scottsdale club. It was my first time ever going to a club, so I was kind of nervous...but I had a lot of fun. I got to hang out in the dj booth (which is like the most coveted spot in the whole club) so that was pretty exciting. Ferry Corsten was playing....he was totally awesome. Definitely a great first time for me.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct 7, 2008
So I haven't written a journal update in awhile but that's because nothing exciting has happened. My personal trainer and I decided to step up my training from three days a week to four days a week. I had a session yesterday, it was definitely pretty intense. I was also supposed to go today but I had a photoshoot that started really early so I had to cancel the session. The photoshoot was freaking awesome. My whole body (including face and hair) got painted in silver paint and the male model that I was modeling with got painted gold. Unfortuantely the paint was pretty icky...it was made out of vegetable oil and silver paint powder so it was really slimy and it kept on having to be reapplied. But I got some really good images from it and I will probably be putting it on the site when I get the images. This week is going to be pretty busy for photoshoots, but that's okay because more photoshoots means more content for the site...yeah.

PS Listening to the presidential debate. Can anyone tell me when the presidential voting day for Arizona is? Unfortunately I don't know.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct 12, 2008
So the past few days have been pretty much the same as every other day. I had my second tattoo removal session the other day. I had to go in 30 minutes early so they could put numbing cream on me, but it didn't seem to work really well. I was supposed to go to a photoshoot that night but I completely forgot that I had to wear gauze over the tattoos for awhile. I went out to a club on Friday night and got to see DJ Irene...totally cool. On Saturday night I went to this bar/club in Scottsdale that's modeled after something from the "old west". They had a mechanical bull there, which I ended up riding....in a short black dress. I actually had to go and buy underwear because I wasn't wearing any and I didn't want everyone seeing me naked down there. I was so nervous, but it was awesome. I ended up riding it for the full 20 seconds, and then they had me go back up on it a second time. I ended up falling off after 10 seconds or so the second time. My friends were telling me that my boobs were so close to falling out of the dress...that's why they got me up there again, to get my boobs to fall out HAHAHA. One of my friend's friends videotaped it on their camera but unfortunately I don't know how to get a hold of them. So next time I will have to bring my little video camera and have someone record it.

PS Captnjack sent me a very nice card...thank you Captnjack.

PSS I have bruises all over my legs from the bull....oh well, it was all in the name of fun :)

[danielle_ftv]

Oct 21, 2008
Wow...it's been a pretty long time since I've done a journal entry. I've been kept pretty busy with the modeling, the website, chatting with fans, and other stuff. I just got back from Hawaii where we finished a three day shoot (that's why I wasn't able to respond to any of your pm's or threads.) We got some really good stuff...but definitely not as much as I wanted. That's okay though, I'm sure I will be going back again soon. It's awesome how laid back people are there. I mean there was a ton of people that saw me either partially naked or fully naked and they all kind of shrugged it off. Of course though, I was pretty nervous about doing the public nudity stuff....but I get used to it after a while and it becomes kind of fun. I also ended up getting covered in mosquito bites (again!) I got a slight tan, but I'm sure that will fade super quick...which I'm perfectly fine with. I wasn't supposed to be in the sun anyways (because of the tattoo removals) but most of the time the tattoos were covered. My Halloween party is in 10 days and I haven't even started on my costume yet. I'm kind of freaking out because I'm really cutting it close. I just got images from a photoshoot that I did a long while back and some candid images from my Germany/Austria/Switzerland vacation last year....so those should be up pretty soon. I haven't gotten the silver body paint images yet, but I'm sure those will be coming soon. I called my insurance company the other day (because I needed to renew my insurance) and at first I was told that it was going to cost $1,650 for 6 months...but when I called them this last time they only quoted me $670. So hopefully I will be getting the $670 and not the $1,650 rate. I can't wait until I turn 25 because I'm sick of paying these super expensive rates....though somebody told me that I should go on my mom's insurance and that if I do, it should lower my rates dramatically. I will have to bring that up to my mom tomorrow. So I'm pretty tired, hopefully I won't be jetlagged tomorrow cause I have a lot of pm's to answer ;)

PS The bruises from the bull are still on my legs. I had to get Dermablend leg and body cover to hide them as much as possible....though I think the sales lady gave me the wrong shade.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 26, 2008
So it's been a kind of busy week. With the Halloween party only 5 days away I'm kind of stressing out trying to get everything taken care of. Of course hardly anyone has RSVPed....yes, please wait until one day before to tell me you will be here. I just started really making my costume. I originally bought this auburn wig (not realizing that I look like crap in wigs) so I had to go out and buy two new wigs, red spray hair paint, and this red temporary hair dye because I wasn't sure which was going to look the best. I just sprayed a little bit of the red hairspray in my hair and it actually looks pretty good. I just made my Facebook fan group (http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=25632661195) welcome video and I now have over 100 fans/members on it (my Myspace page (http://www.myspace.com/danielle_ftv) has over 800 friends...yeah). I recently built a Chickipedia (http://www.chickipedia.com/danielle-ftv/) page (it's like Wikipedia, except for chicks?). I had a photoshoot in Tucson the other day...a two hour drive. It was fun, definitely a lot different than I'm used to. The outfits were very fetishy (leather waist cincher, rubber top, band girl outfit, etc.) The other photoshoot I did was in Wickenburg in this old mine. The photographer was using this really weird, old camera (a pinhole camera I think). Well you have to stand really still for about a minute so that the film can get exposed...I almost passed out like three times from standing in one position for to long. I don't think I will be doing that again. Tomorrow I have a meeting with another photographer whom I will be shooting with on Wed. It's kind of an interesting site that I will be shooting for...it's called www.hotforwealth.com and it's all about financial stuff. I guess that I will be giving a little "lecture" about a few topics and slowly stripping to my bra and panties by the end. I'm also pretty excited because I'm going to the Arizona State Fair sometime this week. I haven't been in a few years, so it will be fun to ride all the rides and eat funnel cakes (yummy!)

PS Here is a picture from the Hawaii (http://www.danielleftv.com/hawaii.jpg) shoot.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 02, 2008
So just now I realized that there is a section under "What's Going On" on the main forum page that has "today's birthdays." Wow...that took me awhile to figure that out. Hmm...but unfortunately I can't make people a birthday video log unless they post their birthdays on here (BIRTHDAY LIST (http://danielleftv.com/forum/showthread.php?t=39)). So I finally get a week to relax and take care of stuff that had to be put off for awhile. I think I'm going to take it easy on the photoshoots for the next few weeks. The Halloween party was great. Rob's friend Mike and I had been planning the party for the past month and a half, but it was definitely worth it...though I'm not sure I will be doing it again. I would much rather be a guest than a hostess (to much rushing around, trying to greet everyone, and make sure nobody spills anything.) We had an awesome dj, great food, great drinks, a beer pong table, fire dancers, a salom shot ice block, and Lia :D. My costume was a pain in the butt to make (ended up taking eight or nine hours to make) but it was quite awesome in the end...though it's kind of falling apart since I superglued all the leaves on. I will be doing a professional photoshoot in the costume (though I won't be spray painting my hair red again, since my head is still slightly stained from it.) Rob wore the "300" king costume, but the armor was made for someone 6'3" (while he is only 5'7") so it was really clunky. My shoot with www.hotforwealth.com should be put up today or tomorrow. I'm pretty excited to see it. You guys should check it out...it's completely free.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 4, 2008
Today was my first time voting in a presidential election. I was so excited and got kinda teary eyed as I was filling out the ballot. So many people (Americans) take for granted the fact that we get to choose who leads this country. Voting is an American responsibility to our forefathers and to the people who died trying to create a Democratic country. I just checked the news on the internet and Obama has won. It is an amazing thing that I am alive to see an African American as president...now we just need a woman as president. This country is changing and hopefully for the better. I'm happy that people are finally standing up and demanding change...enough stupid presidents. We need somebody who is going to get us out of this financial crisis and who is going to put this country back to the way it should be.

PS I'm thinking about making a video log for Obama...but I'm sure he won't see it ;)

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 05, 2008
Okay so I haven't eaten yet and I'm kind of in a bad mood, so I probably shouldn't be writing this right now but what the hell. I'm sick of people contacting me telling me I should change this or that about myself. You say I'm beautiful and bs like that...but then you ask me to put my nose stud back in or put my fake nails back on. If you don't like the way I look get off my site. I don't appreciate people contacting me asking for a personal video. If people haven't noticed already I make the video logs for people who A) ask me a question (whether it be on the question thread or through PMing), B) who are having a birthday or C) have done something nice for me out of the kindness of their hearts (not expecting anything in return.) So when I have people asking for a video log because they are "looking at my site to much and can't work" or reasons like that...it just completely amazes me. I am taking the message option off of my Myspace because I'm sick of guys contacting me asking if I like "black ****" or if I want to "hook up" with them. Sometimes people just seem so disrespectful to me.

So anyways I apologize if I have offended anybody...I just had a few things to "get off my chest".

PS I guess I can't take the message option off...so I wrote a little note on my profile saying "don't message me...I won't answer". Wonder how many people are going to listen to that?

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 9, 2008
Yeah...I'm so happy. I finally answered everyones P.M.'s and visitor messages. I felt so bad because I hadn't answered them for a few days...but I just haven't had a lot of time lately. Today we finished shooting for Playboy TV. I think the show is called "E-Rotic" but I'm really not sure. I was only supposed to shoot for one day (Saturday) but the other girl (Brea Bennett) got sick at the very last minute. So I also got to shoot today. The hostess of the show was HOT...good gawd do I want to do girl/girl with her (on or off camera ;) ). The days were long, and there were a lot of retakes, but I think it's going to be really awesome in the end. It's kind of funny though...they did about four hours which is going to condensed into 15 minutes. Hopefully Lia and I will get plenty of "facetime". I'm trying to set up a shoot with a local magazine called Playtime. I just contacted a photographer that shoots with them, so hopefully he/they will like my pictures and accept me. I also got to shoot with Brynn Tyler (OMG, she is freaking fantastic). So there will be an update coming up soon featuring her and I doing some very naughty things. I posted on my Myspace that I was no longer answering messages...seems like people have gotten the point because I didn't have AS many messages as I normally do...though now I just have to worry about the Facebook profile (but I also wrote on there that I wasn't answering messages.) If they really want to talk to me they can contact me on here like you fine gentlemen (and women) do.

PS I will be out of state (for my sister's baby shower) from the 15 to the 22. Honestly I'm not sure if my sister has internet, so I don't know if I will be able to get on here or not (to check messages and reply to threads.) I will figure it out and tell you guys if she does or not.

PSS I think Lia is contemplating shooting for www.hotforwealth.com (the site that I shot for recently) so everyone needs to encourage her to shoot with them, so we can see her lecture us and strip.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 24, 2008
Your PM box is 94% full.
WOW...I just realized that I haven't done a journal entry since the 9th. But I was also gone for seven days and recruiperating yesterday. So there's my excuse. BTW...thanks Ugo, Geolarson, and CaptnJack for the wonderful gifts you sent me. It's much appreciated.
So I just got back from Texas yesterday. I refuse, refuse, refuse to do a drive like that again....16 freaking hours. And unfortunately I wasn't driving a "scenic" route. My gawd I've never seen so much desolate land. Fortunately for me, my friend Kristy (from the candid videos) went with me so I didn't have to drive the whole time. It was fun hanging out with my sister. We played a lot of Rock Band, ate quiet a bit of junk food, swam in the pool a little bit (before it got too cold), tried to tan (yet again before it got too cold.) I ended up going to the tanning salon to darken up just a little for my shoots but ended up getting burnt after my second session. So instead of tanning in the booth I decided to do the Mystic Tan. It actually looks pretty good on me so I think I will be doing it every so often (or every five days, which is what they say to do.)
My sisters boobs are big...which is really weird because she's always been a B cup. She is supposed to give birth in mid-January. Unfortunately her husband is supposed to go back to Iraq for a 15 month tour the day that she gives birth, so they are thinking about inducing her. She is supposed to come over here to Arizona to live with my mom while he is gone...not sure how well that's going to work out.
My mom is supposed to get married again. She is marrying a recently retired Royal Air Force gent from England. He is living here on a fiance visa and some other visa...so they have to get married within six months or something like that. That's why I say "I'm not sure how well that's going to work out." My mom, step-dad to be, and my sister are going to be under A LOT of stress with a newborn, my sister's husband in Iraq, and a wedding to plan. At least my sis can come stay with me when mom and her fiance need some time alone.
So other than family drama, nothing much is going on. Just trying to get more stuff for the premium area and trying to figure out my expenses and what to get people for Christmas. I also need to start planning for school...it's coming up here pretty soon. I'm trying to take a little break from shooting with other photographers (at least until I get enough content for my site.) The HotForWealth people are thinking about reshooting all the girls because I guess that nobody can understand the lady (the voice in the background) and so can't learn anything.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 25, 2008
So I'm getting a lot of people asking what I want for Christmas...so here is a list.

Giftcards from

Windsor Store (my favorite clothing store right now.)
Kindle - Amazon
Target
Bed, Bath, and Beyond
Guess
Victoria's Secret
Fredericks of Hollywood
Bebe
Macy's


I love chocolate and food but please remember I'm on a diet.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 26, 2008
Just got finished working out. I can now lift 10-12 pounds compared to the 4-6 pounds when I first started. I can also do 50 pound pull downs compared to the 25 that I first started off with. My arms feel floppy, my calves are tight...but I feel great. My laptop has been acting screwy lately. About 6 times now a window has popped up that states "windows something or other has found and quaratined a harmful virus/whatever." So I think I may have a virus on my computer that A) screws up my mouse B)freezes things and C)other things I have yet to figure out. I need to take it to the Geek Squad anyways because I burned out my dvd drive...and so can't play WoW anymore. Ok....so my keyboard is also acting funny too...kind of freezing on me and skipping the buttons that I press. Hmmm...anybody know what's wrong with my computer?

Also congrats to Lia, Rob, and Alison for being nominated for an AVN award. I really hope Lia wins...because the other girls who she's up against really don't hold a candle to her (I think that's the right saying).

PS My fellow Americans...eat lot's of turkey tomorrow (or if you are a vegan/vegetarian) eat lots of foturkey. Gobble, gobble, baby!!!

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 27, 2008
Happy turkey day, everyone. BTW, anybody know what svdhost.exe is? It keeps on trying to install itself on my computer but my computer keeps blocking it.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 28, 2008
Okay...just did a scan on my computer last night...here's a new one Worm:Win32/Pushbot.gen.

Technology is just not my thing.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 29, 2008
So I just made a list of dreams of mine. Let's see how many I can acheive.


To be on the cover of Playboy magazine
To be in Playboy Special Editions magazines
To be a Penthouse Pet and eventually Penthouse Pet of the Year
To be in Maxim magazine
To be in Stuff magazine
To be in FHM magazine
To win an AVN award
To win an XBIZ award
To be in music videos
To have Playboy tv do a segment on me and my website


So I've realized that I need all of you guy's help. You have to bug Playboy, Penthouse, Maxim, etc. to feature me in their magazines.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 02, 2008
I'm tired... it's 1:16 AM...but I haven't answered my messages or visitor messages on here. Have about 20 right now...will answer in the morning (more like the afternoon) when I wake up. Tomorrow (today) I am going out to lunch with "the girls"...how exciting. Haven't seen a couple of them in a while now so it should be pretty cool to catch up on things. On Sunday I walked 4 1/2 miles...my thighs were as hard as rocks yesterday morning. I'm almost at my goal weight of 125 pounds. I would also like to be a 38-25-36 (or 37)...the perfect hourglass figure in my opinion...with big boobs :D My mom has been bugging me to make a few doctors appointments. The thing is I hate going to the doctor. Most of the time you wait for a long time, have nasty things done to you (ie blood drawn) and then get told that nothing is wrong with you. I just really don't want to waste my time and then be told they can't do anything for me. Plus it seems like I always have illnesses that are incredibly rare or that the doctors have never heard of (then I have to wait another hour while they look it up on the internet). I'm supposed to be buying my nephew's nursery set...but the set that I'm looking at on Babys-r-Us is out of stock. Hopefully it will be back in stock before my sister gets down here.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 6, 2008
Hey everyone. The internet connection at my house and at both FTV houses seems to be kinda screwy lately. I've been trying to upload new video logs and it's taking TWO HOURS for three small one minute clips to upload. So hopefully the internet will be better later, and the videos will be completely uploaded. Yesterday (which was actually Thursday, the day before yesterday) I had my fourth tattoo removal...this time even more painful than the times before. I go in about thirty minutes early to have numbing cream put on the area that's going to be lasered, but for some reason it sometimes doesn't work as well as normal. I also ended up freezing a small part of my stomach (and I mean literally freezing!) If you watched the candid video of my first tattoo removal you might have noticed a tube device that the technician was holding over the area getting lasered. Well that hose emits incredibly cold air so it can numb the area. Well I was holding the tube while she was lasering my front tattoo and she noticed that I had frozen my skin. At first I was freaked out, and especially when I touched it and it was rough, almost callus feeling. We ended up laughing about it (because it was just so weird) but now I'm in not so much of a laughing mood (well maybe a little bit). The area that was frozen is now burned (won't scar or anything) and it is a little uncomfortable feeling. Yesterday I did two shoots for my premium area. I'm really excited about the launching of the premium area, though I still have a lot of questions and concerns about the site and the whole webcam thing. My brother comes into town this month (haven't seen him since June or July). And my future step brother is also coming into town (flying all the way from England!) This will be his first time in America, so I have to show him a very good time here. I will probably end up taking them to David and Busters (an arcade type place) and hopefully I can get Rob to give them a ride in the Bugatti or SLR.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 08, 2008
Yes, yes, yes...we finally got the members area completed enough to send off to CCBill (the billing company that will be handling my website). How exciting...in about two weeks or so (hopefully by Christmas) the premium are will be launched. You guys are going to love it...it looks amazing and there are quite a few changes we put on the site.

BTW, congrats to Lia who just got her first forum devoted exclusively to her. It's called Lia's Lounge and you can find it here (http://danielleftv.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?f=5).

PS Rob got the funniest email today about me. Yet another person complaining that "Danielle is on the site too much"...don't know how many times we have to explain it to people. My parts in the shoots are very small unless the girl is into girls...then yeah I'm in the shoot a little bit more than usual. Plus I am only on ONCE A MONTH. Now December has been a little different in that I have appeared quiet a few times...but that really isn't my fault. Some of the shoots just got moved around to different dates and before anyone knew it I was appearing in more than one shoot. So anyways, yep another complainer...but you want to hear the funniest part??? The guy actually had the audacity to accuse me of taking advantage of the girls and only being in the shoots to get "sexual gratification".....okay, I'm not denying it, but no that is not the only reason that I am in those shoot. Anyways I am sick of trying to explain it to people...let them think what they want to think.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 11, 2008
So I decided that for now on if people want a birthday video log...they have to have at least five postings. I've realized that there a quiet a few people who posted their birthdays on the "birthday thread" but that's the only post that they make...that's complete b.s. I'll save the b-day video logs for my forum members who really deserve it!

Another thing I would like to know is why there are only 189 "active" members on the board but 414 members? That's more than half the people that signed up that aren't actively posting on the forums. Post people, post!

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 12, 2008
Just registered for school today. Tried to sign up for my classes but was told that I needed to get the placement test scores from my the college I had formerly went to. So I left the school and started heading over to my old school to get the scores. I called the testing department and was told that I could get the test results from any of the testing departments (meaning I was about to drive 20 minutes for nothing.) Anyways so I went to the testing dept. in my new school and was told that they had purged my test results since they were taken more than two years ago. Bah...so now I have to take all the placement tests AGAIN....and unfortunately I also have to take the math placement test, which I am not good at, at all. Some of the classes I am planning on taking is a Forensic Pathology course, an Intro to Algebra course, an Intro to Chemistry and Intro to Chemistry lab, a Middle Eastern dance class (belly dancing!), a Intro French class, and a self defense class. Fairly big load but I'm up for it.

I also got this huge package in the mail from TexasDrake. I opened it and pulled out this very large, very beautiful statue of a girl. Well also inside the box was wings that fit into her back...but they were broken...and I mean seriously broken. Damn people...don't seem to know what "fragile" means. I tried gluing the wings back together, but unfortunately the wings are so large and heavy that the glue just does not hold. But it's the girl statue is still beautiful and will be placed in my living room.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec 16, 2008
So yesterday I went to my college to take the placement tests. I aced the reading and writing part. I actually did so well on the reading part that I'm exempt from it...not sure what that means, but cool! But I completely and utterly failed the math part. I only got a 27 on it. Gawd, that is horrible...but I guess I just have to think that well I haven't done math in over two years. So I will most likely be going into the basic math class. Kind of pathetic considering I graduated valedictorian but what can I expect. I've gone to college twice since I graduated in 2005 and neither times did I take a math class...I've been letting my brain rot! So unfortunately this screwed up my whole class schedule that I had written out. So instead of taking Chemistry I will be taking Geology which doesn't require Intro to Algebra (which I will be taking next semester). Another one of the problems that came with going to school in January/spring semester...the Maui trip. I was supposed to go with Rob to a week long Maui trip to build up content for the site. But while reading the school catalog I found out that you can not miss the first day of class otherwise the teacher will/can drop you. Well fortunately while doing my schedule last night I figured out that I would only be missing one first class (for Middle Eastern dance). So I'm going to see if the teacher will let me miss it and not drop me. Of course I will also be missing all my other classes but it's only the second class and I will try to give them a doctor's note (from Rob :D .) I need to go to the tanning salon today to do the Mystic tan. Tommorow I'm supposed to shoot a Christmas update, so I want to look slightly tanner than my normally pale self. I just recently realized I love cottage cheese!

PS YYYYEEEESSSS....Another X-Men movie is coming out...so excited!

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 17, 2008
December 17, 2008 a day that will go down in history...the day Danielle FTV launched. Haha, jk...but not really. I've gotten 16 signups already and it's only been like 8 hours. My computer is so screwed up right now...some of the keys are not working correctly when I press them so I have to type really slow and have to keep on backspacing. Hopefully my computer fixes itself by tomorrow so I can answer all my P.M.'s.

PS Thanks to all you guys who signed up...mucho appreciated. The money I get from this site goes to the Danielle Goes to College and Gets Her Tattoos Removed Foundation. The DGtCaGHTR foundation would like to thank you for your support.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 20, 2008
Muahahahaha....I got my first "don't sell yourself, find God" email/message. It's quiet amusing because the guy who sent it to me is a preachers son and was telling me that he has seen my stuff on the internet. Why on Earth is someone ssssoooooo religious that he can preach to me looking at porn....a little hypocritical, I think. I am religious, I believe in a higher power...I don't need people telling me not to "sell myself to the porn industry" because God doesn't like that. Whatever you say dude! I've also been getting quiet a few messages on Myspace from females that want me to have a threesome with their boyfriend...I don't think so. It's a really nice offer and all, but really! I've written on my profile that I don't read the messages (even though I do, I just don't answer them) but still people are either really stupid, or just freaking persistent as hell. I wonder if people actually do end up hooking up with other people through Myspace? Personally I find that kind of creepy, especially since anybody can make a fake profile with fake pictures. I just signed up for my classes the other day. I will be pretty busy Monday through Thursday, but at least I don't have to wake up too early. I am taking Intro to Geology with a lab, Basic Arithmetic (what a joke...I graduated valedictorian and I'm taking basic arithmetic???), Middle Eastern Dance (belly dancing), Forensic Science: Death Investigation, Elementary Italian, and Self Defense. I guess the only good thing about taking basic arithmetic is that I'm pretty much starting over from the beginning, so the next classes should be a lot easier. I've already looked at the Forensic Science book and let me tell you...it's morbid...but I love it! Italian class should be hard but fun, and I will be able to talk to my Italian fans! So I got a new computer for Christmas from FTV. It's amazing! I have to upload all my games onto this new computer. It's really cool....it has a remote control for DVD play, Bluetooth connection (kind of random) and an awesome webcam system.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 21, 2008
So I did the craziest thing EVER last night. Check it out. VIDEO (http://www.danielleftv.com/forumvideo/d074.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 24, 2008
Merry Christmas Eve everyone. I've just realized that this forum has some really stupid rules. Like when you are trying to post it has to be more than 10 "characters" or you can't put more than 5 emoticons in your post...and this is the one that gets me, you can't PM someone more than 5,000 characters. I've had to go back and erase sentences because I've gone over the 5,000 character rule. So anyways, yesterday I met my little step brother to be, for the first time. He is ssssooooo cute. He's nine years old, has the cutest English accent, and is incredibly proper. It's amazing how much well mannered other countries are compared to America. At least we have the south were people are generally very polite. It is his first time in America so I am taking him (and my brother) to an arcade place named Dave and Busters. I take my brother there every year he comes down...it's become a little tradition for us. My little step brother also expressed an interest in the Bugatti Veyron so I'm going harass Rob to give both of my brother's a ride. It will be nice for him to get some pictures around the Bugatti and the SLR to show of too his school buddies. We decorated a Christmas tree last night. Not sure why mom decided to do it so last minute. None of the guys seemed particularly interested...they would've rathered gone outside and started fires in the fire pit. My mom has 100's of decorations, so it took a pretty long time to put all of them on. My brother and I were looking at the tree after we had decorated it and decided it was way too over decorated. But my mom says you can never have too many decorations :rolleyes: The place where we got the tree was right next to a Petsmart...btw if you didn't know Petsmart is the WORST place for me to go into. I can't ever seem to walk out without buying a new pet. Well right now I don't have any pets so I've been going through pet withdraws. My mom forbade me from going into Petsmart because she knew that I would've ended up buying a pet. Last night I also went out. We were supposed to go to this bar in Scottsdale. And for the first time ever, I was denied. Yep...they did not let me in. Not that I really cared because they were playing sucky music anyways. So we went to a different club were they almost didn't let me in either. So freaking stupid. I'm really not there to drink (though I will sometimes) I just wanted to hang out with my friends. Plus I've been bored like crazy the past few days, and finally wanted to do something at least kind of fun. The people in the club were kinda weird though. If you've ever been to a Scottsdale nightclub you will know what I mean. All the girls look identical and all the guys wear the same clothing and have weird hairdos that look like they take 2 hours to style. Plus they were playing really odd music. I requested "Billy Jean" but the dj didn't play it for me...jerk :p

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 29, 2008
I just realized how much I hate I-tunes. They have a DRM (digital rights management) which SUCKS. Especially since I've spent over $150 on music. Now I know why people say to put it on a cd. Not sure though if you can burn the Itune songs to a cd, then put it back on a different computer. Hopefully you can because there are a few songs that I burned to discs (before my disc drive fried.) What also sucks is that for some reason (maybe because of the DRM thing) I can't upload any of the new music onto my I-Pod. I-tunes is completely screwy and they are theives! Another thing I just noticed is that I cannot use the resoration program for my computer....because my disc drive is broken! Oh duh....that took me a while to figure out. I'm so paranoid about my new computer; I've been doing mulitple daily virus scans. And (you guys will be so proud of me)...I haven't been going to the sleazy porn sites :D So hopefully if I don't ever use the tube sites (YouTube) I won't get a virus. I'm hoping to get the other computer fixed up so I can have a computer for both my house and the FTV house (since I spend so much time there.) I'm going to be pretty busy this month. I have quite a few shoots set up...one being in Tucson (which I promised myself I wouldn't do again after the fiasco with the arrogant photog). I'm also hoping to hook up with a few of the FTV models that Rob is shooting this month. Lia and I are supposed to shoot tomorrow at her friends home. We need to convince Lia to hook up with me (on camera of course.) I've been fantasizing about her (seriously!) I hope she doesn't actually read this, because I'm sure she will find it creepy to the extreme. I guess there are quite a few members who have sent me Christmas presents...but I have still yet to get them due to the slow postal service. I've already done a Christmas present video log, but I will do another one when I get the rest of the presents.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 30, 2008
I'm determined to become a Fleshlight Girl...but I'm going to need some help from you guys. Go to this link (http://support.fleshlight.com/index.php?_m=tickets&_a=submit) and email the Fleshlight people about making me a Fleshlight Girl...it would be mucho appreciated.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 31, 2008
Happy New Years everyone. I just ate way too much and need to go to sleep because I have a really early photoshoot tomorrow. BTW, the photoshoot today was awesome. I'm trying to get the photographer to allow me to put the pictures on the contributing section.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 04, 2009
Rob just made fun of me because I said that I would lick a girl's butthole...but only if it is clean and shaven and if she gets off on that. So I finally got to log on and answer all my P.M.'s and post on the threads. I've been super busy lately...now I know what it's going to be like when I start school. I did two photoshoots...was supposed to do three but my alarm didn't go off. I'm sure you guys are going to really enjoy them. I also did another shoot for my site today. Rob was supposed to shoot these two sisters from Quebec, but they flaked out. Unfortunately I was also supposed to assist those shoots (behind the scenes) and if they were into girls we might have done a shoot for my site. How hot would that have been? A three girl update. I've never had a threesome with two girls. To bad they flaked too, because this oppurtunity just does not come around very often. But they probably partied to hard last night and decided not to go. Anyways it was super cold and cloudy today, so the shoot we did is probably going to look a little blah. Rob said that I looked like a little goth girl...which was not the look I was going for (I thought I looked sophisticated!)

My New Years was pretty tame. I could've gone to a party but decided not to because I was scared that I wouldn't get in (like what happened the other night.) Oh well...next New Years is going to be awesome! I'm pretty bummed because AVN Awards and Internext is this month, but I wasn't invited by anyone, and Rob doesn't like that type of stuff (I really don't want to go by myself). So instead of going and meeting my fellow workers, I'm going to be at home, planning for next year. Maybe next year I will pay a few hot girls to be my friends and go with me to the shows :D.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 10, 2009
Okay I am really confused right now....I know it is somebody's birthday, but when I went to double check that it was their birthday I couldn't find any post about it. So is it anybody's birthday today?

Yesterday I got to assist an FTV shoot (behind the scenes). The girl was super tall, the second tallest FTV girl that I've assisted. She was cute too...so we also did some stuff for my site. I'm sure you guys are going to enjoy her. I also did video of the photoshoot (and took a few pictures) and Rob commented on how steady I was with the camera, and how I got all the right angles. Being told that by a pro like him, is an amazing compliment (though I'll try not to let it go to my head ;) ). I was also supposed to do a photoshoot with this one photographer, but he was driving in from San Diego, and got pulled over doing 110 mph, while talking to me about the shoot. So he ended up being pretty late...and we didn't start shooting until 7:30 at night. His photography style is very interesting because he is very, very meticulous about the lighting (it took an hour alone to get the lights set up just right.) But I'm sure I'm going to get some great pictures out of it...definitely different from what I have already. I'm pretty excited because I get a break from shooting for a week (which I really need, because I have a bunch of appointments to go to.)

My post on Alexa Loren's thread seems to have stirred up some trouble. Here's the thing...I'm not archenemies with her. We weren't fighting over some guy and there was no professional jealousy. I offered my friendship to her and she rudely (very rudely) turned it down. Despite what everyone thinks, I have a really hard time making friends. I have two female friends...one of them who I think is completely using me, the other...well we never hang out or do the things "friends" do together. So when I make myself vulnerable and offer my friendship to someone just to have them throw it back in my face, and laugh at me...it really hurts me. I think it was completely rude of Rob to make that post. He was there, he saw what happened, he knows about my "lack of female friends"....and then he makes a post like that.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 13, 2009
I'm not feeling very well right now, and actually had to cancel my workout session because of it :(. There are a bunch of evil mosquitos in my house and I can't figure out how there are getting in, for the life of me. I have probably about 12 mosquito bites on me (it's making me wonder if I have West Nile virus, and that's why I don't feel good.) I've realized that this forum is really wacky. Everytime I go onto the forum it doesn't show the new "unread" threads (the title is normally bold when it is unread), so I'm stuck going through every post to see if there is something new on it.

On a happier note, my sister is supposed to be going to the doctor's tomorrow and my mom thinks that they are probably going to induce her. She is due this Friday, but will probably give birth earlier. Her husband, unfortunately, has already been deployed back to Iraq...though he wasn't supposed to leave until after my sister gave birth.

I start school in a week. I'm pretty psyched. I've already contacted all of my teachers and introduced myself. It finally seems like my life is "falling into place."

One of my fantasies came true yesterday....I got to fool around with an Angelina Jolie look-a-like. I was in absolute heaven! She is an FTV girl, so you guys will be able to see her (by herself) pretty soon here. I'm sure you guys are going to love her, just as much as I did :D.

I got my hair cut and dyed today (trying to get it lighter...more towards my natural hair color.) It looks pretty good...but then it always looks good after you have them style it. Friday I have another photoshoot. Not sure what time it is, but hopefully it isn't too early, seeing as though I don't function well when I wake up early (case in point...today.) I had to go to my orthodontist (got chastised for not wearing my retainer.) For some reason, I decided it was a good idea to schedule the appointment for 8 in the morning. Now I know to a lot of people that this is a "normal" time to be awake, but for me...well it really isn't. I tried leaving voicemails and couldn't form sentences together. I almost feel asleep at the hair dryer when getting my hair done. And I almost got into an accident (though not by my fault...obviously the other person had to wake up early also ;).) Luckily for me, I really don't have to get up that early that often....though (yet again another smart move on my part) I've scheduled more appointments in the early morning. One of them I think I will have to get my blood drawn, so it should be pretty interesting seeing me driving around, sleep deprived with blood lose.

I decided that for the birthday video logs, I will start saying the actual birth dates (like May 29), that way if someone decides to lie about their birthday, then it won't be a "correct" birthday video log and will totally mess up people's diabolical plans. Personally I don't like liars and I don't really care for impatient people (though I do get impatient sometimes). It just amuses me that as soon as people see the birthday video logs, they decide that they need one immediately, so they have to lie to me about their birthdate. So not necessary people.

Tomorrow I am meeting one of my members.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 18, 2008
Good lord, I have been super busy lately. But finally I get a day "off"...so I plan on reading, taking baths, and eating junk food. I was taking a look at some of the other single girl sites out there and (not to be rude or anything) but I don't understand how girls think it's cute to act dumb. I saw several sites where the girl was acting super slutty and/or trashy and personally that does not turn me on at all...but FTV Rob says I'm used to "FTV ways"...in other words, the girls don't demean themselves. So maybe it's just me, but I love girls that are fun, and carefree, and have tons of personality...like Zeba :D Talking about Zeba, she actually returned for her second FTV "return" shoot. I got to pick her up and drop her off at the airport and do a little video of it (with out Rob helping me.) So we'll see what he thinks about my video skills when I don't have anyone guiding me. Anyhow, so assisting her shoot was an absolute blast. She is so full of energy (though we were all getting pretty tired, and our energy levels at the end were completely depleted.) I even got to "take advantage" of her a.k.a. fool around a bit. So I get to mark another thing off my kinky "to do list" (though I'm not telling you what we did ;) ).

So my sister finally had her child. His name is Carter, and he is super cute! He looks very similar to my sister (which I guess is a good thing since she is the cuter one out of the parents :p .) Rob told me not to do anymore birthday video logs, so to all of you who's birthdays are coming up, I apologize. I got to meet one of my members, for the first time. We ended up going out to dinenr at this really nice restaraunt. And he also got me a bottle of port wine. He was very much the gentleman, and was very courteous (and no we didn't do anything, for those of you who are having naughty thoughts.) Now maybe you guys will be less afraid to approach me in public ;) I start school on Tuesday. I'm pretty excited about it. My personal trainer is also pretty excited because two of the classes I am taking, he considers "cardio"....he has been bugging me to do more cardio. So now I will be working out about five times a week.

I'm thinking about doing a two week to a month long trip around the country, when school ends, in May. I would like to visit my different members around the US and go to some of the places I've always wanted to visit (like Washington DC.) I think it would be an awesome way to get some great updates, including candids. I guess my only problem would be that I would need Rob to go with me (so he could do film and photo) but getting him away from FTV will be incredibly difficult. So I may end up just having to hire a videographer/photographer to travel with me everywhere....maybe Zeba, since she does photo/video for other adult sites.

In a week I will be taking off for Maui. It's pretty exciting and I'm super thrilled about shooting, but it's definitely not a vacation. I will most likely be shooting with other photographers while I am there. Also if I have any members that live or are going to travel to Maui during the 26th to the 30th, I would love to meet you.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 23, 2008
So I've been pretty stressed lately (and it seems like most of the people in my life aren't making it any better.) I just started school this last week, which was great, but getting back into the swing of things is kind of difficult. I'm already making new friends in my classes, which is really exciting for me, considering how difficult it is for me to make friends.

I haven't checked my private messages in about five days but I already have over 35 P.M's. Now I love getting private messages from everyone, but I don't like getting five private messages from the same person....in two days. Please realize that I am super, super busy (and will be getting even busier since it seems like I will be taking over the website editing) and I don't have enough time to read and answer ten different messages from the same person. Sorry if that sounded rude at all.

My teachers and classes seem pretty fun. My self defense class is very difficult, mainly because I don't learn athletic/dance stuff very well when I am in a group setting (much better one on one.) So for awhile during the class I was getting very frustrated, and was thinking about dropping out. But I asked the instructor if they have tutors and he actually told me that he does private lessons. So I think that if I go that route, and hire him to instruct me, then the self defense class will go a lot easier for me. Same goes with the Italian class...it looks like I will probably end up having to get a tutor for that class also. I've realized that online classes are some of the hardest classes you can take. I don't think I'm very good at time management sometimes (though I'm working on it)....so trying to carve out time for online courses is really difficult.

So anyways I have a lot of errands to run, P.M.'s to check/answer, and homework to do. Got to go :D

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 28, 2009
We are in Maui and the weather SUCKS! We were supposed to shoot the "volcano" shoot that both Lia and Alison did when they were here, but it won't stop raining. Yesterday it also rained so we ended up doing a rain shoot, which I think is going to turn out really well. I had a next door neighbor that actually walked out on his balcony (which is in perfect view of mine) while I was completely naked. I had to scurry back inside (not sure if he saw or not though...how embarassing.) Then as soon as I was ready to start shooting again, a hotel worker passed by me (while I was naked) on his little golf cart. At least we got the rest of the shoot done without anybody else spying me...or else if they did I didn't notice.

So the internet connection sucks here. Rob was complaining non-stop for awhile there about it, but I think he is kind of happy now since he doesn't have to check emails for about a week (kind of gives him a small break.) The food is so freaking expensive here...actually everything is incredibly expensive here. I ordered a smoothie last night ($8) thinking it was going to be fairly large....what a joke! The smoothie was about half the size of a normal glass and I didn't even get to drink it. For some reason it ended up bursting in my hand (no I didn't get cut.) But I'm still managing to eat all right, just not drinking as much as I normally do, since drinks are 4 times what they normally cost.

We've already done three updates/shoots. One here at the hotel (it was kind of a random shoot, not really planned.) Another was the rain one, and the other was at the beach. It was so funny though...when we got there we were scoping out the location and the people around us, and there was this couple who were completely naked, just laying around sunbathing and swimming. Talk about being comfortable with public nudity. I mean, it was not a nude beach! and there were people walking around everywhere. I guess it made me feel a little more comfortable being naked (but not much.) Funny thing is I think people would've stared more at a naked woman and man, but not really, everyone just kind of took it in stride. Now when I got naked, boy was I getting stares...and I think a few laughs (but that was from these two larger females.)

So tomorrow, we will most likely be doing the volcano shoot. I'm hoping to do four more shoots before we have to leave on Saturday (including the two volcano shoots.) I'm also hoping to do a few candid videos. I feel kind of stupid, because I was planning on editing a lot of the stuff while I was here, but I completely forgot my USB cables for the cameras. The birds here are very pretty, but kind of aggressive. They kept on stealing peoples food when the people would walk away from the table. Some of the birds would even steal food when there were people sitting right at the table. My sister should be arriving in Phoenix either before I get back or a few days after. It should be quiet interesting because she is driving down with my grandpa and grandma, so my mom's house is going to be super full for a week. But it should be nice having my grandma around. My mom wants me to take her on a "girls day out" type of thing, so I will probably take her to get manis/pedis and lunch.

I've realized why I don't like going someplace and paying for my nails to get done. I got my nails done on Saturday, and they are already chipping and looking like crap. I can't stand when people don't do a good job, and especially when you are paying good money for it. My first webcam session will be this week on Friday at noon (12 PM) Arizona time (which is actually 9 AM Maui time.) Hope this doesn't confuse anyone.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 01, 2009
So I just got back from Hawaii last night and just wanted to recount my trip there. Unfortunately we only managed to get four video updates and 5 photo updates due to many different reasons. Two days it rained (one of the days we took advantage of it and did a rain shoot...though I feel like I could've done a better job of it.) Wednesday we were supposed to go to the Haleakala crater, but that was one of the days it rained. Well we ended up going on Thursday, but when we actually got to the top we couldn't actually see the crater because of the intense amount of fog and clouds covering it. Another one of those shoots that I wished I would've done "better" on. Didn't get a masturbation scene at the very top like I wanted to because it was freezing cold and I was in short shorts and a t-shirt, plus there was WAY too many people walking around. So anyways the next day we were hoping to get in two more shoots (video and photo)....but the video camera was dead :eek: and neither one of us brought a charger with us. So we ended up doing a photo shoot, but yet again for some reason people started appearing left and right just as we started shooting. The photoshoot was still beautiful though and I'm very happy with it...I just wish we could've gotten more stuff. So anyways, I didn't get my malasadas unfortunately....and on the airplane ride home I was stuck next to a very rude lady who kept on elbowing me and "accidently" spilled her drink all over me. But anyways I'm going to quit complaining now...life is great (except for those Cardinals.)

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 07, 2009
Not much going on lately. Just the same old routine...try to fit in the website, with school, and modeling. I've taken over the running of my site, and am editing all of my stuff. I'm almost done editing all the Hawaii stuff (thank Gawd.) My sister is finally here in AZ. She drove down with my grandma and grandpa, and the little baby. BTW, my nephew is the cutest kid on Earth. Plus he doesn't cry! Or at least I haven't really heard him cry. He actually kind of reminds me of me. He makes funny sounds, weird faces, and squirms around quiet a bit. I took my grandma out on Friday to the Desert Botanical Garden. They had a Chihuly exhibit, which my mom thought would be interesting for my grandma to see. They had Chihuly glass sculpture/bowl things in the gift shop that were selling for $6,100...who buys glass pieces for that much money? I can only imagine buying that, then accidently breaking it :eek:. I guess the most expensive nick-nack in my house would have to be my Gemini statue made by Royal Copenhagen...which I just found out I paid twice the price for. I ended up dropping my Italian class. I figure I'm going to do the Rosetta Stone program for whatever language I plan on taking next and then I will be completely proficient in the language and won't have to worry about failing the class. Either that or test out of the language completely (which would be a lot easier.) Tomorrow I have a photoshoot...my first ever pin-up shoot which I am super excited about. Plus there will be a make-up artist and a hairstylist there, which is awesome since I do not know how to do "pin-up" makeup or hair styles.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 12, 2009
Yes, yes, yes. I am so happy. I had two tests today in my geology lecture and geology lab. I just got the score back from my geology lab and I got a 92% (the average was 85%....so I got above average). I was completely freaking out about these tests (still kind of freaking out about the lecture test though, since I haven't gotten the score yet.) I ended up studying two days before the test, and also had my personal trainer help me study during our session yesterday night. I didn't study as much as I should've for the geology lecture test...thank gawd we are allowed to drop our lowest score for tests, because I'm thinking it is going to end up being my lowest. Most of the kids in my class said that the test was actually pretty hard. A lot of the questions on the test were about things that the teacher said we wouldn't need to memorize (trickster!) As long as I get above a 75% I will be happy (though I would prefer to get a 90% or above.) I have one more test next week for my math class. I'm actually doing pretty good in that class. It's so funny how you forget everything, then as soon as you start doing it again/learning it again....it all comes back to you. I'm sure I will end up getting a high score on that test. Tomorrow I will be doing my St Patricks and Easter shoot for my website...yes I know it's a little early...but I would prefer to get it done sooner. I'm pretty pysched about it because I bought special toys and special costumes for the shoots, so it should look pretty awesome. Yesterday I had my third webcam show. Surprisingly enough the audio was working! It was a little weird because I had my music playing on my laptop and all of a sudden I heard this peircing echo noise. So I guess I can't play music on my laptop when the webcam is rolling. It was also kind of weird that I couldn't hear myself speak. So I wasn't exactly sure if what I sounded like and if the audio was working correctly. It's a little awkward talking to myself/the computer....I wasn't sure (and still am not sure) if I should just answer questions on the computer or speak the answers. So we have a few more bugs to fix, and then we should be perfect on the webcam. Not sure when they are going to start archiving my shows (I've already done three...so they better get it done soon.) I still have yet to find a doctor that can do tattoo excision. That doesn't seem to be a common thing anymore since they've made the tattoo lasers. I'm hoping to find a doctor sometime in the beginning of next month so I can get it done during Spring Break.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 17, 2009
I just got my test score back for my Geology lecture...I passed! I only got a 79%, but thankfully we can drop our lowest score at the end of the semester. The teacher was chewing us out because almost everyone got the "what is plate tectonics" question wrong. Actually half the class didn't pass the test, and the highest score was a 91%, so I guess I did pretty good all in all. I noticed that the questions I missed were of topics from the week of school I missed back in January (Maui trip/shoot.) But hopefully I won't be missing school anymore...actually I can't miss school anymore because I "will be dropped from classes if I have more than 3 absences." I ended up dropping my self defense class...it was just kicking my ***. Especially doing that, my belly dance class twice a week and working out with my personal trainer three times a week. Just couldn't do it. Plus a lot of the exercises/joint manipulations were killing my elbow. So now I'm taking about five classes (geo, geo lab, math, belly dancing, and forensic pathology.) The forensic pathology class is pretty fun....it's self paced so I could potentially finish the class next month if I wanted to. Some of the pictures the teacher shows us in the Powerpoint presentations are pretty gruesome...but it doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would. I have yet to do the autopsy. The teacher said he does it once a month, so hopefully I will get invited before school ends. Unfortunately the problem with going to school is that I rarely have time to hang out with my friends. I actually haven't hung out with my friends in over a month. I can tell that they think I'm neglecting them...but they are all older and have been through college, so they have to understand what I'm going through. At least I'm getting to hang out with my sister and family more. I just met my future step dad's mother and sister. They are pretty nice...not as stuffy as I thought they were going to be. I was pretty quiet around them (because I'm fairly shy around new people) so hopefully they don't think I was being rude. I've finally finished editing all of my stuff for the site. FTV Rob had a HUGE pile-up of stuff that had to be edited. All in all we have 11 professional videos, 11 professional photo sets, 1 candid photo set, and 15 contributing sets. I guess it's nice that everything is edited...but now I don't know what to do with myself. I was doing the editing in my free time (it's actually fairly relaxing and pretty fun as long as I didn't over write stuff or delete important pictures :D.)

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 21, 2009
I am never drinking again...will go into details later when my stomach decides to stop giving me problems.

9:26 PM
Okay so my stomach is feeling a lot better. Thanks to all my understanding members who told me that they would understand about me missing my webcam show...but I promise I will always try to make it to the webcam shows. The only reason that I wouldn't be able to make it is if I'm in the hospital or if a family member is in the hospital (or if my laptop is stolen, knock on wood.) The webcam show went great...ended up lasting over two hours! The time totally flew (though Rob is a little upset about me "spoiling" members). It's understandable though...today was not normal at all (webcam shows generally last about half an hour.) I just had a lot to talk about.

Anyways, my friends want me to go out with them again tonight....don't think that's going to happen, and if it does I will definitely not be drinking. Yesterday was the first night in about two months that I actually got to go out to the clubs and party. Well, I've sworn off alcohol (at least until I can forget about this incident.) Ended up drinking way too many gin and tonics (especially since I haven't really drank any alcoholic beverages for a long while.) It was fun though. I needed a night to relax and forget about everything.

A couple days ago I came across a post on this adult forum I frequent. It was a weird post from someone commenting on anothe post that told people to "avoid site at all costs." I couldn't figure out where the original post was posted on (at one point I thought it was on my site, but it wasn't fortunately.) Anyhow, I finally found the post (POST (http://board.freeones.com/showthread.php?t=262756)) and boy was I freaking upset when I read it. All I can think is that it's either that FTV hater Eddie Coates or my ex-fiance or his skanky girlfriend. I mean why the hell would someone make a comment like "Danielle doesn't give a **** about her fans"? If anybody who had any brains actually came to this site (or even read my posts on the adult board) they would see how untrue these statements are. I'm still upset about it. I put so much of myself into this website. I try to be nice to everyone (and have apologized to people about things I've said) and to have someone lie about something that means so much to me makes me so freaking angry (and Rob to!) All I can figure is it's either a competitor or someone I personally know that doesn't like me. What also sucks is that the comment is written in my "website review comments" section. There is only one other comment on that board (thankfully it's a positive comment.) But what the heck is going to happen when somebody is thinking about joining my site and reads that post and notices that there is only one other positive comment? It definitely does not look good on me at all. Evil people!

I'm trying to figure out what to do about my "across the US" trip when school ends. I've been talking to Rob about it and unfortunately don't think he would be able to go with me for a month long trip across the US (plus I think we would kill each other after spending that much time together.) And now that I've finally been thinking about it, I'm not sure how I would be able to drive that much. I think I may end up flying to a few different states for about a week, hiring a photographer/videographer (though of course the content won't be as good as Rob's) and driving around the state (and to other states if they are close by.)

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 22, 2009
BAH....NEED TO GET LAID!!!! I finally caved and bought a 3-day membership to a cartoon porn site and have been masturbating furiously for the past hour now. I've gone looking for other sites...realized that I love goth girls and goth porn. I found a hot gothic/horror porn site that has this amazing hot chick that I really want to fool around with.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 24, 2009
I refuse to go to school anymore (jk). Somebody (not sure who out of the dozens of kid in my classes) got me sick. Today everyone was coughing and sneezing (oh wait...that would be me :D) and making everyone else who isn't sick, sick. My friend called and told me she has been sick for the past five days now....blah, I guess I have at least another three days of being sick. I got invited to go bowling on Wenesday. I'm so pysched. That's going to be my second (or so) time hanging out with new friends from school. Plus I haven't bowled in forever. I'm sure they plan on drinking, but I will definitely not be drinking since I have school the next morning and that's always terrible having to do anything when you are hungover and sleep deprived. I'm going to Portland, Oregon next month for a photoshoot. That's my second ever out of state photoshoot (my first ever going by myself.) The photographer's really cool (he's the one that did Alison's Studio Colors, Total Hotness Sporty Style, Public Nudity in Portland 1 and 2, among several other.)

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 4, 2009
So I finally caved and built a Facebook page. Personally I don't like either Myspace or Facebook but I guess it's a good way to "network"...though that would also require me to answer messages (which I don't.) You can find my Facebook by looking up Danielle FTV. I built two...one for FTVGirls and one just for me. And there is also a "Danielle Lover's" fan group on there. I need more friends, so request me people. Yesterday FTV Rob finally caved and let me borrow the GTR. It was so freaking cool! I got to pick up all my friends and they were super impressed (mission accomplished!). We ended up going to a movie and out to eat at The Yardhouse...sucks because I'm not 21 yet and so couldn't drink their awesome beer. We ended up seeing "He's Just Not That Into You" which was like really depressing since I am so like the character "Gigi" in that movie. When I fall for a guy I totally end up sitting around my phone, waiting for his phone call. I end up checking out their Facebook and Myspace profiles and read and look at everything that they put on it. I guess it's kind of stalkerish...but I've always had a "problem" of falling for guys way to quickly and really hard. It's nice though because that movie kind of made me feel a little more "normal"...like my whole Facebook stalking isn't so unusual. Anyhow I have my midterm exam for my forensic pathology class this weekend, my midterm for math next week, and midterm for my Geo lab tomorrow...boy am I freaking out right now. Also you should check out this interview (http://www.girlnextdoormag.com/issues/2009march/danielle-ftv-interview.php) with www.girlnextdoormag.com. I'm on the cover! Not sure why they didn't review my site though (they reviewed FTVGirls instead).

2:49 PM
Yeesssssssss....I just took my online forensic pathology midterm and got an A. So I am averaging an A- in the class right now...so happy.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 6, 2009
So just did my workout. I've been pretty good this week about working out...went all three days that I scheduled. Wednesday I ended up going bowling with friends from school. Wonder if that's going to become a weekly thing for me? Probably shouldn't have gone out bowling considering I had my mid-term in Geo lab, Thursday morning...but actually now that I think about it, it probably is a good thing, since I did not know at all that we had a test on Thursday. I really don't think I did as good as I should've....actually I think I probably failed the test. My teacher wasn't joking when she told us that the tests weren't going to be any easier than the first one...but she should've at least told us that they were going to be impossible :D. Most of the kids in my class also thought that the test was super hard. Looks like I will be taking the final (you can drop your lowest test grade and if you are okay with all your test grades then you don't have to do the final.) Anyways I should get the results back by Tuesday. Tonight my friends want me to hang out with them but honestly I really just want to stay in and read my book. I haven't really had any time to myself (and I have a butt load of P.M.'s to answer) and the last thing I want is to be hung over tomorrow. I finally caved and bought a television. It's a 37 inch Toshiba plasma tv. I also got a X-Box 360 and RockBand. Honestly though I'm kind of regretting buying all that...it cost over $1,200! I never knew tv's were so freaking expensive. I was tempted to take everything back, but I know at some point I will need to buy a tv...so I will probably end up keeping it. Now putting it all together is going to be a pain in the butt for sure.

My mom planned a get together tomorrow night for my sister and nephew. Unfortunately my mom also wants me to attend. There are two reasons why I don't really want to go A) it's near P.I.R. so an hour away from me and B) my sister and I aren't really on good terms right now. I ended up inviting my sister to eat with FTV Rob and a model he was shooting. Well anyways Rob started doing an interview with the model, asking the normal questions "when was your first orgasm", etc. Well for some reason my sister ended up flipping out and started ranting about "disrespect" and B.S. like that...in front of the model and my boss! I was so P.O.ed. I mean I understand that she wasn't comfortable, but that doesn't mean that she had to make a freaking scene in front of a bunch of people and make my boss and the model uncomfortable. Plus it's kind of disrespectful to me considering this is my job...getting naked in public, masturbation and talking about it. I thought she was okay with it....but not so much now. The funniest thing is she was talking about how they were "disrespecting" her child (my nephew was also there)...but hello he's 7 WEEKS OLD! As far as I know, no 7 week old child can understand English and when they see boobs they think "yummy...food." Plus I mean come on...it seems kind of hypocritical to me that she's 20 years old, got married to someone she knew for only a few months, and is now a mother. Not only that but she's definitely done some unsavory thing in the past that would make porn look like bible school (wonder if that made any sense.) I just absolutely hate people like that...that can do some of the worst things and then think porn and the people who are willing in it are disgusting. So yeah...that's why I really don't want to hang out with my sister. I'm sure we will make it up...but she really needs to A) become less socially retarded B) realize there are right times and wrong times to express your opinions and C) realize that people aren't always going to do stuff that you agree with...and you should be okay with that.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 14, 2009
So it seems like I'm finally getting into a semi-routine...though I still need to work on my time management. Wenesday I ended up going bowling again with my friends after my workout (though I didn't bowl, just ate some cheesy nachos!) I failed my Geology mid-term miserably. Ended up getting a 44% :eek: FREAKING TERRIBLE! I've never gotten a 44% on anything. The messed up thing is that the class average was a 53%. The teacher was P.O.ed and gave us the "smack down". She told us that, that was the lowest class average in the seven years she's been teaching. Good thing that we can at least drop our lowest test score. But I will be studying hardcore for the next two tests. I also ended up missing my belly dancing class on Wenesday because I was so freaking tired. Later found out that, that was the ONE class that I didn't want to miss since we were going over the mid-term dance material. So hopefully my friends will help me study what they went over that day. Mid-terms for my Geology lab is after Spring Break...which sucks because I'm pretty much going to veg out for the next week and studying during break is not my idea of fun. Talking about Spring Break it actually looks like I will be doing something. My friends and I are going on a trip to Rocky Point, Mexico. I'm pretty excited since this will be my first time ever going somewhere/doing something for Spring Break. My friends were kind of freaking out though because I guess parts of Mexico are having problems with drug cartels, kidnapping, etc. But what they didn't seem to realize is that the way the media is talking about it makes it seem like ALL of Mexico is having these issues which is not the case. So anyways I'm going to have fun, and hopefully the internet access will be fast enough so I can update the site. I ended up going out last night. Funny thing is, I can always tell when I'm going to have issues getting into a club...kind of like a sixth sense. Anyhow, so my friends and I ended up going to our usual club (the one I've been to at least eight times.) And for the first time at this club I got questioned hardcore about my I.D. What's your last name? How do you spell it? How old are you? When's you birthday? etc. I'm surprised I wasn't asked what my astrological symbol was (which I do know, along with the condo I "live in", and what's around the condo :D....talk about paranoia.) But anyways I was let in at the end (thank gawd.) Didn't really end up drinking, just had one gin and tonic. The music sucked, so a friend and I bailed out and ended up getting some greasy pizza at this pizza joint next door. They must make GREAT money with all the drunk kids coming in after hours. Honestly I just can't wait until I turn 21. Two more months. Nobody tells you that the last 2 months are complete hell! My friends and I are talking about going to Vegas the first week of June. So excited!

P.S. You know what I don't get??? Single site girls that have journals and always have to mention something sexual in their entries (ie "we were driving down to such and such and all of a sudden I got the urge to blow him in the car.") Like whatever foo girls. Is that how you talk to your friends? Puh-lease. I don't understand why these girls can't keep it real.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 20, 2009
So I'm back from Rocky Point. It was awesome...definitely a great place to go for your first Spring Break. There wasn't as many people vacationing there as I thought there was going to be. I was talking to a few people who regularly go there and they were commenting on that and saying it's really due to the media hype about Mexico being unsafe (which BTW is complete BS for Rocky Point...I actually felt quiet safe there.) Our hotel was super nice...especially for the price I was paying. The first night we didn't really do anything, just hung around the hotel and drank. We ended up going to this bar called Baja Cantina. I guess it was the "happening hot spot" there. I've never seen so many girls getting naked! I'm not going to lie...I was also right up there in the VIP with them flashing my boobs around. But I'm pretty used to nudity, so it's not unusual for me. What was funny was that later on I was talking to some of my male friends about me flashing myself. They were telling me that if their girlfriends were to do the same thing they would be upset. It definitely got me to thinking though, because I'm so used to nudity and have been even before I started in this industry. It always confuses me when people get upset by it...but then I have to realize that not everybody thinks the way I do. It was also funny thinking about how okay I am with nudity when it's on my own "terms" rather than when I'm shooting. I get really nervous sometimes when I'm doing public nudity shoots, but get me in front of a bunch of people and I will normally take off my clothes (and without any alcohol in me.) Gawd that probably made me sound really slutty (which I'm not) I just find it completely ridiculous how people can be all Godly and prude, but when they start drinking or go somewhere for vacation they "slut it up" and sleep with a dozen different people, and do other crazy things like that. I just don't get it. But anyways...didn't really do anything for St. Patty's day. Just hung out around the beach and drank beers all day (BTW I'm swearing off drinking again...or at least until this weekend.) The drive back to Arizona was complete hell. We ended up waiting for THREE HOURS at the border. And they really need to make a better system because what ended up happening was that the police split the one line into two lines (by this point we had been waiting for about 45 minutes while everyone else who was zooming by us for the second line had just got there.) Well anyways the line merges further down...so all those people who just got there were able to get through the border within 30 minutes to an hour while we were stuck behind them for three hours. I was so freaking p!ssed off...plus I almost ran out of gas and was just able to cross the border and get gas before my car died on me (thank gawd...that would have been embarassing.) But other than that it was a fun trip for sure. My friends and I are thinking about doing a Vegas trip right after my 21st birthday...that should be pretty exciting! I don't have that much longer to wait. Next month is the Phoenix Forum (April 2nd to the 4th)...I'm super pysched about it. Unfortunately Rob is supposed to be gone for his Bugatti trip at that same time so I won't be able to get any professional video/photo updates there. Next week I have two more mid-term tests...which by the way I think is completely screwed up. I mean why couldn't they schedule it for before Spring Break...who wants to study during their Spring Break? April is going to be a sucky month for me. Not only do I have taxes that are due, but my car insurance is due and I have to renew my car registration. I already did the car registration and got a personalized license plate!

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 25, 2009
So I did it! I finally talked to my mom about what I do for a living. Funny thing is she already knew (found out about a week ago.) I guess she was just waiting for me to tell her about it. I guess that my step father to be was looking up Rob's cars and found out about the whole "219" thing, which lead to him finding out about FTV, where he found me. I'm pretty surprised that my sister didn't tell my mom (which I honestly thought she was going to do.) It's cool though because now I feel like me and my sis have more trust for each other. Anyways so the whole reason that the site was brought up was because my mom and I were talking about the "familial nudity fiasco" and I was explaining to my mom that I would be super uncomfortable if she ever saw nude pictures of me. Well she straight out told me that she already had and that got me to thinking...where? Because my modeling portfolio has an option that I always turn on that doesn't show the nude pictures (anything 18+) to non-members. Well I'm at least glad that it's out in the open now. I just wanted to wait until things calmed down a little. Especially since my brother in law got into town and is staying with my mom until April 5 or so and then my little brother is supposed to be coming down from DC at the beginning of April too. So I know my mom is pretty stressed out and the last thing I want is for her to get even more stressed out about this. My mom took everything pretty calmly. I explained to her how this job has changed me, and how for the first time in my life I am truly happy. I'm finally in control of my life...I'm going to school, have an amazing job, get to talk to people that really like me, am finally going to school and actually know what I want to do this time. And on top of that I actually have friends! And they invite me places! I'm not going to lie...my mom was upset. She ended up crying at the end of our conversation, but I don't think it was really the job that upset her I think it's just the fact that for the first time in both of our lives I'm starting to drift away from her. I'm going to make it a priority to call her at least twice a week just to chat and to visit her at least once a week for lunch or dinner. I never meant to drift away from her...I guess things just got in the way. I wonder what my mom's fiance thinks about my job? Now I'm going to be super uncomfortable around him...how freaking awkward!

I'm pretty happy about my grades so far. I thought I was going to be failing my Geology lecture course since I failed that one test miserably. But I guess I'm actually making a B- in it...which is awesome since I am planning on doing as much extra credit as possible which can raise my grade up by one letter. I am also making an A- in my Forensic Pathology class, math, and my Geology lab class. I'm not really sure what I'm making in my belly dancing class though. I'm probably not doing that well since I'm missed four classes which lowers my grade to like a C or something like that. But fortunately I can make up two of the classes which will raise up my score.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 30, 2009
I've realized that lately (actually for like the past two months) I haven't been on here as much as I used to. And I've definitely been slacking on answering private messages from everyone. I just wanted to apologize to you all for that. I'm still trying to figure out how to juggle school, work, friends, and family and it's pretty freaking difficult. I will try to do better about answering P.M.'s. So I didn't end up going to Portland. Thursday I started feeling under the weather and it just progressed, so I ended up having to cancel on Friday. I felt pretty bad because I know that a lot of photographers think that the girl is just flaking out on them when they cancel with such a short notice. So anyways I'm going to try to reschedule the shoot for next month. I'm pretty psyched because the Phoenix Forum is this week (Thursday to Saturday). This will be my first adult convention. Unfortunately Rob will only be able to go with me one day since he has to go to Germany for the Bugatti "253 drive". So looks like I will be latching myself onto Lia (which hopefully she doesn't mind :).) My lease for my apartment is going up in mid-May and I'm trying to figure out whether or not I want to move and get a bigger house or if I should just stay (I hate moving!). It looks like it will be a little more expensive to get a house...but it would be bigger. If I do end up moving I definitely want a place that is located close to my school and to Rob's house.

[danielle_ftv]

April 3, 2009
So this week has been the week of bad luck for me. First off I couldn't really do anything for my webcam show because of "womanly" issues. Then I started to get this weird vein "popping" issue on Tuesday night and could barely sleep because of it. I ended up telling my mom about it and she told me that I needed to go to the E.R. to get it checked out because it might be a blood clot. So I went there by myself (I hate being in hospitals by myself) and waited three hours to be told that I am perfectly healthy and there is nothing wrong with me. This is turn made me kind of upset because now I'm thinking "gawd I am such a hypochondriac." So the doctor ended up calling my mom to explain to her that everything is okay with me and that I am healthy...which was a huge relief to me because maybe now she will finally stop trying to get me to see all these doctors. So because of going to the E.R. I missed my first class of the day (belly dancing) and I've already gotten too many absences in that class. The next class was math...which we ended up having a test in, that I did not study for at all. So I'm sure I failed that. Yesterday the Phoenix Forum started. I was pretty excited until I actually got there and got a yellow wrist band which states that I am under 21. Somebody was able to get me a orange wrist band though...so that was pretty cool. The Phoenix Forum was fun until about 6 PM when I started getting a headache...which turned into a migraine at about 8ish. I went out to dinner with Lia and her friends but had to leave because I was feeling completely terrible. Well all last night was spent in a fever with a pounding migraine, and then I started "sicking up". I was hoping that with enough sleep it would go away but I guess not. As I'm writing this the headache is coming back and I'm still feverish. I hope I didn't get sun stroke or something. Wouldn't be surprised though since I barely get in the sun. So I'm supposed to do three days of this. I don't even want to go today to be honest. But not only am I "representing" for my site and FTV...Tate (our photographer/videographer in training) is supposed to be there doing practice shoots on me. I'm not sure what to do since I've been planning this with him for awhile now and the last thing I want is for him to think I'm flaking out on him. Plus I don't want him to have to shoot Lia because I'm sure Lia wants to have fun and plus I'm sure she won't be staying the whole time. Besides that the Phoenix Forum was fun...though not really my cup of tea. I don't do well in large crowds and especially large crowds where I don't really know anyone. I've realized I am not a social butterfly like Lia. I can't go up to random people and introduce myself and make conversation. Most of the time I don't know what to say...which get's me all flustered because then I think they think I'm being standoffish when in reality I'm just a shy person when I don't know somebody. So anyways I'm starting to feel even worse now and I need to contact Lia and Tate and tell them it's a big possibility I may not be showing up today (at least until I feel better.)

P.S. I was hoping to answer the P.M.'s that have been stacking up for the past four days but I'm not sure I'm even up to that.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 07, 2009
So I think I'm getting sick again. It sucks because it seems like every journal posting for the past month and a half has been about me getting sick. Thankfully it's just a little sore throat...hopefully it won't turn into anything too bad. The Phoenix Forum actually turned out to be a lot of fun. I ended up going back Friday around 5ish and stayed until...well about 5 the next morning. I got to meet a lot of really cool people. I think I'm less shy during the nighttime for some reason. I came back on Saturday around 3. Tate and I were supposed to get some video/photo content at the Forum...but that ended up becoming kind of a nightmare. We did get the content...just not really everything that I wanted. The sun was going down, so we couldn't really continue to shoot. I ended up playing topless dodgeball where if you got hit by the ball you had to take off a piece of clothing...down to your underwear. The first time my team won and I only had to take off my skirt and shirt. The second time we ended up losing and I had to take off everything (I'm blaming it on the fact that we were facing the sun and couldn't see anything.) They had a "strip club" inside the hotel (really it was just a room that they had put a stripper pole in). I got a little crazy and ended up dancing on the pole two times. It was a lot of fun though. Most of the girls were doing that anyways. Most of Sunday was spent recuperating. My brother is in town this week (his school has a very late Spring Break)....need to visit him before he has to go back to DC.

BTW...I noticed that I missed Sundays webcam show. The only reason I figured that out is because my scheduler alarm went off on Monday telling me that I had a webcam show at 7. Well, I'm at school at 7 so I figured that I had accidently set the calendar for Monday not Sunday. Sorry about that you guys.

You can find pics of the Phoenix Forum on here (http://fubarwebmasters.com/events.php?id=157&PHPSESSID=7184fa2967f5e8758ca019c0ebfe12a5) and some of me on here (http://radiodentata.com/MEgallery/events/2009-phoenix-forum/). On the FUBAR site look under "The Forum" (http://fubarwebmasters.com/galleries.php?id=1084), "Desert Splash, Poolside Bash" (http://fubarwebmasters.com/galleries.php?id=1099), and "Webmaster Dodgeball (Day 2)" (http://fubarwebmasters.com/galleries.php?id=1101) to find pictures of me.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 18, 2009
Wow it's been a LONG time since I've written on here. Not much has really happened though. I went to my first rave last Saturday. It was so freaking cool. Funny thing is it was right next to where Rob was racing the Bugatti. They had three different stages but my friends and I really only stayed at the first two. They definitely were playing a pretty eclectic mix of music considering raves generally only play electronica. BTW, I finally caved and signed up for Twitter (http://www.twitter.com/danielleftv). What's pretty cool about it is that I can update it from my cell phone...that makes things a million times easier. So if I don't post on here for awhile you guys can always see what I'm doing on Twitter. I already have five followers...yeah! My birthday weekend is going to be insane. I guess that Rob has something planned for me and I'm planning a trip to Vegas May 31st - June 2nd with one group of friends. I know that one of the other group of friends will want to go to Myst at some point (that's where they do all their birthday celebrations.) I never liked the fact that my birthday was at the end of the school year because nobody would ever show up to my birthday parties because they would be on vacation somewhere else. But now I think it's cool because I don't have to worry about being hungover/sleep deprived/etc. and having to going to school. It's so weird...I was going through a bunch of papers on my desk and found my electric bill. When I pay a bill online I always write the confirmation number on it so that I know I've paid it. Well the bill didn't have any conf. number on it and it was due 10 days ago! I'm surprised they haven't turned off my electricity. This is the first time I've ever done that so I'm kicking myself over it.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 19, 2009
I just took this really interesting quiz online (http://www.chemistry.com/whyhimwhyher/). It said that I am a "negotiator" personality type with "explorer" being my secondary personality type. I thought it was very interesting because at the bottom they had words that "negotiators" unconsciously use to describe themselves including empathetic, reader, passionate, and real which are all words that I've used to describe myself. This is what it said about me relating to others:

"You dislike conflict. You seek "win-win" solutions. You are good at sharing power and ideas. And you are a master at the art of intimacy-building deep and exciting relationships with others. Nevertheless, you often enjoy solitude or intense interactions with just one individual or a few close friends. And you particularly enjoy people who like to play with abstract theories and ideas, provide insights, search for symbolic meanings in life and relationships and have a broad interest in the world."

I definitely do dislike conflict. And I am really good at sharing ideas and power. That is 100% me.

This is what they said about my personality type in general:

"You see the big picture. You easily take the broad, long view of almost any topic. You are comfortable juggling myriad facts. You tend to synthesize material easily and think in webs of factors, not straight lines. You are imaginative and enjoy ideas.

You are also socially savvy. You are good at both talking and listening. And you generally read people's faces, body postures and tone of voice accurately, so you often intuitively understand what people want and need.

You are also highly compassionate. You care deeply about others. So you are inclined to make personal sacrifices to be a supportive friend and colleague. And you are idealistic and altruistic; you like to work to improve the world.

And you have an adventurous side; you enjoy new ideas and novel experiences and you want to share these with an enthusiastic partner. But you are particularly fond of people who are direct, decisive, focused and tough-minded, people who complement your more flexible, agreeable and affable style."

I do think I am a pretty compassionate person (sometimes to the point where it gets me in trouble.) Not so sure about the "socially savvy" part. I'm a great listener but I don't think I'm all that great of a "talker".


10:05 PM
OMG...OMG...OMG. I just found a site that looks identical to mine...how funny. I guess people like my website design. And guess who's site it is......Renna of FTV. LOLOLOLOL. Freaking awesome!

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 23, 2009
Freaking Model Mayhem! YOU SUCK! Freaking conformists (raging and ranting here). Somebody made a fuss about my portfolio on Model Mayhem (a modeling portfolio/networking site) and low and behold I get removed. What really gets me though is that they listed a bunch of things they wanted taken off my profile and it included.....the "Middle Men" movie that I was an extra in. Since when does a mainstream movie count as anything ADULT. Motherf@ckers. I am so freaking mad. I put so much effort into that darn profile and they didn't even give me the chance to take down what "offended" them. Stupid Puritans...you wouldn't have to deal with this crap anywhere else in the world.

Other than that I'm doing great. Celtic Woman tonight...whoo-hoo. Plus I have an event filled weekend (I think...my friends need to get back to me on that.) I guess my friends and I will be going to a rave on Friday night, then Saturday we will be having a bbq (that's if we get enough sleep.) Next week I have a test in Geology lab. I think I should do well enough on it.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 30, 2009
Hey everyone...I changed the webcam show from this Sunday to Monday at 3 PM and changed the webcam show on May 15th to 3 PM too because I'm supposed to go to a birthday dinner for my step dad to be.

So I finally put in my two months vacancy notice for my apartment. Now I just have to figure out exactly what it is that I'm going to do about my living situation. I would really like to have room mates since I've never really had room mates before. Today was my Geology lab final so now I am completely done with that class...yeah! I just checked my grades online and it looks like I made a B in that class. That's good but I would rather it have been an A (looks better for med school admission.) Last weekend was a lot of fun. I ended up going to my first desert rave. It was way out in the freaking desert (like 45 minutes away) and we ended up getting lost like three times. It was so funny too because at about two in the morning the rave ended up getting busted by the cops. Everybody was freaking out, running to their cars and driving like maniacs (not that it really would have helped at all since there was only one way out.) My friends threw a bbq on Saturday, which was nice...gave us some time to relax...though I ended up drinking way too much and passed out really early. Sunday we went to Lake Pleasant and rode around on a friend's boat. The guy who owned it ended up getting plastered and was throwing up the whole ride back. This weekend should be interesting too. My friends and I are all doing the lake thing again on Sunday. The rest of the weekend we will probably end up relaxing (I hope.)

[danielle_ftv]

May 13, 2009
So school is finally done...yippee! Now I can finally start making those appointments I've been putting off for the past few months (dentist, tattoo removal, eye check up, etc.) Lately I've gotten a few requests for personal videos. Unfortunately I'm not able to do personal videos/photosets because FTVRob (the photographer/videographer) is too busy to do shooting for anything other than the sites. Of course I can always use the small camera and shoot it myself but it won't be as high quality and won't have the angles that a professional shoot would have. Also I've been getting requests for autographed pictures which I would be perfectly happy to do. Just send me the photo you want autographed, what you want me to put on it, and a postmarked envelope with the address you want it sent to. I was looking on the Ritz Camera website and it looks like 8x12 pictures cost about $3.99 each. I'm assuming a photo envelope costs around $1.50 and I have no idea how much shipping is. Anyways I'm changing my mailing address because I never get the mail from the P.O. box. You can send things to:

Danielle FTV
7631 N 20th St
Phoenix, AZ 85020

that way I actually get them. I've had a few people sending me P.M.'s asking me if I am okay. Let me assure you I am perfectly fine...thank you for the concern :D. If anything were to happen to me Rob would tell you within a day. If I'm not answering P.M.'s or haven't been on the board in awhile it's probably just because I'm hanging out with my friends or my internet connection isn't working (which happens 90% of the time.) Need to remember to call Cox and have them fix it before I actually move out of my place. Yet again one of my profiles got deleted. Facebook decided to delete the FTV Facebook page and Danielle FTV Facebook page I created. I'm through with putting so much of my freaking time and energy into creating these darn profiles and having them be deleted just because of some conservative a-hole. So far my Model Mayhem profile and both Facebook profiles have been deleted. Now I will be super pi$$ed off if Myspace deletes my Myspace page (not that they have any reason to.)

My 21st birthday is 17 days away...so excited. Right now my sister and I are both 20 years old...thankfully she's matured a little and doesn't use that against me when I tell her to do something (though she still does try to boss me around.) I will probably be attending EDC in LA in late June. Most likely I will only be going to the Friday concert (it's two days...Friday and Saturday) so Saturday will be free. If any of you are in the LA area and would like to meet me on Saturday, June 27th please contact me through P.M. and hopefully I will be able to meet some of my members/fans.

[danielle_ftv]

May 24, 2009
Five more days until my 21st birthday. It's so weird that I'm finally going to be legal....I mean I've been waiting for this for so freaking long. Now I can finally get rid of my friend's I.D. (though my friends still want me to use it until it get's taken away from me...for some reason they find that thought highly amusing). I think one of the biggest advantages to being 21 is that I can finally start to achieve those goals that I listed a few months back (winning awards, etc.) I've been thinking about it and really...I couldn't have done anything about those goals until now (or at least May 29th). You see to win any awards or become a Fleshlight Girl or get into magazines I need to get my name out there. But to do that I need to be able to attend the functions that everyone else is attending and my problem was (or is until my birthday) that all those functions normally include alcohol and so you have to be 21 to attend. I figure what I've been doing up until now has been good enough...but I am definitely going to kick up the self promotion and networking a few notches (well a lot of notches.) I've also been thinking about putting up 24/7 live cams in my apartment (maybe in the living room and my bedroom). I will probably end up doing a "test run" just to see how popular it is and what everyone's opinion of it is. BTW, my internet finally got fixed though it is still kind of screwy. I would like to do one of my webcam shows at my apartment but knowing my luck the internet would turn off on me right in the middle of me masturbating. I just bought a bunch of new toys...two of them were back ordered. Just got one of the back ordered toys yesterday and the other one should arrive sometime this week. I also bought my 4th of July shooting costume and a special toy for it. I also went a little overboard and bought my toys for my Thanksgiving shoot, Christmas shoot, and Easter shoot 2010. I need to do a candid video or video log showing you guys all my new toys. I also need to do a candid video showing you guys my new CHINCHILLAS! They are so freaking cute. I went all the way down past Tucson to a Chinchilla breeder to get them. They are brothers, named Gratch (from the Sword of Truth series) and Taquito (my sister came up with that one.) It's funny because my sister and mom always end up renaming my animals so I just ended up calling my sister to have her name them and she came up with Taquito for one of them (I guess she was eating Taquitos at the time) and a few other names for the other one (Rufus, Ottis, and other weird names that didn't strike me as "right".) Gratch is definitely the more adventurous of the two. I can't really tell them apart yet...I usually figure the first one that comes out to investigate has to be Gratch. Taquito is still getting used to me...he's kind of shy. I ended up doing a bunch of research on Chinchilla's and found out that the cage that the breeder made for them is way too small. So I ended up buying a 60 inch high cage (so 5 feet high). It's about 3 feet long and 2 1/2 feet "deep". So that should be plenty of jumping room for them. I also found out that everything in their cage should be non-plastic...so I'm having custom wooden shelving and houses built for them. I also have to buy them metal feeders for their pellets and hay. They seem to be doing okay right now but I really don't like them being in such a small cage. My family came over the other night after my birthday dinner (the first time they've ever seen my place...though I've lived here for over a year now.) My mom kept on bothering me to take the chinchilla's out but I read that you aren't supposed to take them out of the cage until they are completely tamed. Supposedly this is going to take a few weeks...but they both already take food out of my hands and Gratch has climbed onto my hand before (but I think he was just trying to get out of the cage.) This week is going to be pretty busy for me. I have to get my hair and nails done on Thursday (and I hate getting my nails done...they never do it exactly the way I want it done.) On Friday I'm getting waxed (yeah! what a great b-day present.) And either Thursday or Friday I need to go get Mystic tanned. Friday my friends are supposed to take me out...I guess they plan on getting me drunk, which honestly I'm not really looking foward to. Sunday we leave for Vegas. I'm so excited because I rented a limo to pick us up from the airport. They are supposed to have roses for all the ladies. I also got a two bedroom penthouse suite at the Bellagio with a connecting room (since there is supposed to be about 6 people going.) On Sunday we have a party bus (with stripper poles!) that's going to drive us around and drop us off at random bars/clubs. On Monday we are probably going to go see Anthony Cools, this hypnotist and I'm going to try to talk my friends into going up on stage with me to get hypnotised. I don't plan on gambling because personally I hate losing money and don't want to ruin my trip because we get kicked out of a casino for me throwing a hissy fit (though I'm sure my friends would find that highly amusing.)

BTW...I just want to apologize to everyone about not answering P.M.'s. I'm a procrastinator like crazy...and definitely need to fix that. I figure it would probably be easiest if I answer P.M.'s every other day and put it in my scheduler in my phone so it reminds me to do them. I really irritate myself sometimes when I put off stuff for so long. Not quiet sure why I do it, because in the end I always feel bad and lazy.

I'm taking these diet pills that are really...um...interesting. I've lost about 6 pounds in 10 days being on them. They do have some interesting side effects though. Like sometimes I feel slightly out of breath. You also lose your appetite like crazy and have to force yourself to eat. Your body temperature runs kind of high too. Also you get fairly jittery. My focus isn't spectular on it (though I can manage.) My mom kind of freaked out on me when I told her I was taking them. It's not like I plan on taking them for a super long time. I just want to lose 12-14 more pounds. I understand that I look great now...but I would really like to be at my goal weight. I just think I will feel a lot better about myself if I am. I figure by the end of 2009 I should be at my perfect body weight with great muscle tone, my tattoos should almost be completely faded and my teeth will be fixed. I would like to also get laser hair removal down there...but that would hurt like a biatch!

[danielle_ftv]

May 26, 2009
Hey guys...remember that whole e-Rotic Playboy tv show? Well I'm really interested in having them do a segment on my website but I need people to email and "suggest" it. I would be super appreciative if anyone could email Playboy TV and tell them about my site.

Here is the email address...

eRotic@PlayboyTV.com

[danielle_ftv]

May 27, 2009
How exciting!!! Tate Hemlock (FTVGirls photographer/videographer in training) just put up a new website. You guys should check it out. There are even some pictures from the Phoenix Forum 2009.

www.tatehemlock.com

6:06 PM
Damn I guess I "let the cat out of the bag" (I think that's what you guys say.) So I recently found out that I can squirt. I was having a little fun one night (well actually a lot of fun...went on for 3 hours) and for some reason got it into my head that I was going to squirt that night. Well I've researched squirting quiet a bit and watched Geezer's video that he sent "Nina Hartley's Guide to Female Ejaculation"....so I did exactly what they said and ended up squirting. I was kind of freaked out to tell you the truth (but uber excited) so I went in my bathroom and grabbed my "helping hand" toy and this other purple penis dildo and tried to squirt again. Ended up doing it two more times that night. Two nights after I tried it again...though with a video camera so that I could see exactly what was going on down there. Ended up squirting three times....did a smell test, taste test and color test (squirted in the white bathtub for the color test) and came to the conclusion that it really was me squirting. Tried it again the night after and was able to do it again...but for some reason got super paranoid that it was urine not squirt so ended up researching for about five hours. I came to find out that you squirt out of your "pee hole"...it can be different colors (including clear and light yellow...I guess it depends on how much you've squirted)...it's similar to a peeing feeling, and it can have a "pungent" odor. I guess that nobody's squirt liquid is exactly the same. Somebody may squirt completely clear liquid that has a slight odor and that doesn't come out as forcefully and somebody may have yellowish liquid that has no odor that gushes out. I realized that I can't really squirt without something in me...unlike Leslie who can start squirting then take out whatever object she is using and still be squirting. I still have yet to learn about my "squirt timing". My "forcefullness" differs. Like if I've been masturbating a lot I think it's fairly forcefull....but it really kind of differs from one squirt to the next.

I'm still trying to get comfortable with this. In a way this is almost like peeing and personally that is something that is...intimate in a way and not something that I do in front of people. So it may take me a little while to get used to the idea that I can squirt and to do it on camera (in front of Rob...OMG how weird!).

[danielle_ftv]

June 5, 2009
Cancelled the webcam show today. Still sick from Vegas. Will be on here later to answer P.M.'s, threads, and write in my journal about the whole Vegas trip. Going to sleep a little now.

[danielle_ftv]

CONTINUATION

I absolutely love that hotel and the service was awesome (and we weren't even staying there!) I definitely think I will be staying at the Wynn or Encore next time. We had way too many problems with the Bellagio's service. The DVD player didn't work correctly so we called someone to come fix it. Well two phone calls and 2 hours later it finally got fixed. Ashley also tried buying a Gatorade out of the vending machine on our floor but I guess it was all sold out. Well I guess there was a sign on the vending machine to call the front desk if there were any problems. Ashley called and they told her that they would send a Gatorade up. Well yet again, another 3 calls and 1 1/2 later she finally gets the Gatorade at double the price of what the vending machine cost. My friend ended up b!tching at the VIP front desk people and we were able to get a $150 food credit and another $200 off the room.

The club XS was amazing. They had super cute go-go dancers in sparkly dresses and the club was HUGE! It was open to the pool so we all laid on these beds that were in the actual pool. As we were walking around this random girl grabbed my hand and started steering me towards this VIP table. I guess her job is to "provide" or get cute girls for VIP tables so they look cooler or something. So that's where my friends and I spent the rest of the night. We ended up leaving around 1ish and went to a sex shop (I guess Dallas wanted a toy.) I suggested a Grrlztoy bullet vibe that I really like but was too drunk to actually locate it so she ended up buying a bullet vibe that she already owns.

At about 11 AM Dallas wakes me up saying that our plane got cancelled. WTF!!! For whatever reason they decided to cancel our flight, so we had to change around our flight time (instead of 6 PM we did a 5 PM flight) and we had to change around our limo pickup. Thankfully there really wasn't any trouble changing everything around. My birthday Vegas trip was awesome. Everyone was commenting on how there was no way they would be able to top it (I definitely think I can.) I just realized that I have been rambling on and on. Not only that but I'm sure if I actually went through and read what I wrote half of it wouldn't make sense. I'm feeling a little funky right now....kind of foggy. Friday night was pretty sweet. My friends and I started off at this hole in the wall bar were I got to order my first cider being legal then we went to American Junkie (this preppy club/bar in old town Scottsdale.) It was fun, though not exactly my type of club, plus there was absolutely no room to sit down unless you had a table. Saturday night I went to the Persian Room and ate way too much like I normally do there.

This week is going to be crazy! My friends are all inviting me to stuff now. I'm supposed to go to Dave and Busters with the Dallas group on Monday, then Tuesday I'm going to dinner with friends. Wednesday I'm supposed to go to old town Scottsdale with another group of friends. Then Thursday the Dallas group and that other group are going to see Paul Van Dyk. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday haven't been planned out yet...but I've already been told either Myst, the W, and random day parties. I really don't think I'm going to be able to keep up with all my friends. Partying is hard and honestly I'm just not all that into it. My friends keep telling me that if I want to meet new people and make new friends that I need to stop holing myself off with my chinchillas and books. I will be putting up the pictures of my 21st bday celebration as soon as I can get them all from my friends...so maybe sometime next week.

[danielle_ftv]

June 7, 2009
So I finally feel up to doing computer stuff (P.M.'s, emails, etc.) I guess I must have caught something on the airplane ride back to Phoenix. Personally I think it's swine flu...jk. But it's definitely lasted a long enough time. Some of the people who came with me to Vegas also have it. Anyways, let me tell you guys about my birthday and Vegas. On my birthday I went to T. Cook's for dinner, then out with my friends to "The Vig" (a sassy restaraunt/bar next to my gym...they always steal my parking spots.) After that we went to Bourbon Street, a 21 and older strip club that my friends like to go to. We had to wait outside for about 20 minutes until they could find seats for us, while they let everyone else inside. We ended up sitting in the back of the club where you could barely see anything. The girls were so-so...way too fake for my taste. I think there was probably about 15 girls working there that night and I only thought 3 of them were attractive. I ended up getting 4 dances from 2 of the girls (my third time ever getting a lap dance.) There was a guy that got to go onstage and get dances from about 6 girls at once. I wanted to do that but my friends ended up talking me out of it saying that there would be a better club in Vegas with less rules where I could get a stage dance.

Anyways the next day (Saturday) I pretty much spent answering P.M.'s and fooling around. Ended up taking a nap at 8 PM (my friends thought this was highly amusing) then finally got packed and over at my friends house at 10 PM. The next day we woke up at 8...our flight leaving at 10. I don't know who's idea it was to head out at 9. Both Dallas and I wanted to stop for McDonalds on the way to the airport, but thankfully I suggested waiting until we got to the airport. Our friend also wanted to park in long term parking because of the cost (long term would only be $30 or so, short term was $75) but I told them that I would pay for the short term parking. It's a good thing that we parked in short term because we wouldn't have made our plane. We had bags to check in and only about 50 minutes before our flight took off and the South West line was LONG. We were able to check in the luggage 30 minutes till but were told that there was a possibility that it was too late and the baggage would be put on the next flight. I was pretty irritated by then from having waken up a lot earlier than what I'm used to and not having eaten anything, plus if our baggage was late then the limo service I hired would also have to be pushed back (if it were even possible.)

Anyways the luggage did arrive. I had hired a Cadillac Escalade limo and all the girls got a rose. They also had 2 bottles of champagne that we somehow ended up polishing off by the time we got to the Bellagio. We made a pit stop at a liquor store...my first time going into a liquor store I think. I was on a mission to get port wine but they didn't have any. I ended up doing some candid video during the flight and in the limo and liquor store. I was planning on doing more but the camera charge went out. We arrived at the Bellagio at noonish and got to check in at the VIP check in room. Only one of the rooms was ready (the connecting room to the penthouse 2 bedroom suite.) We were told that the penthouse would be ready at 3 so we decided to go eat and gamble a little. Since we were "VIP" we also got a pass to get in the front of the line for the buffet and cafe (who knew that you would need a front line pass for a buffet?) I think people were definitely irritated that we got to go up to the front of the line so easy...some guys behind us made a comment about it. The buffet was freaking awesome! I tried California sushi rolls (I think that's what they are called) and boy were they yummy. I don't really like sushi or fish but for some reason I was feeling really adventurous. I also tried smoked salmon and that was also freaking delicious. Enough with the food talk...it's making me hungry. I did gamble a little bit...ended up playing roulette with $30 and when I lost that I was done. Gambling is definitely not for me. I cannot stand losing money, I would much rather spend it on something I can keep or on an experience (though I guess gambling is an experience in a way.) Dallas ended up spending $300 on gambling, and she didn't win anything....but she love gambling, mostly playing roulette though. We all ended up crashing out in the smaller room until about 5 PM. By this time we were all p!ssed that the penthouse wasn't ready for us (I mean they had said 3 originally). It was so funny though we called them and they told us the room was ready, but when we looked in the hallway we could see the housecleaners still cleaning the room. Finally we were able to get into the room...it was definitely worth the money. The view was awesome...though honestly I think it would have been totally cool to have a view of the fountains, but that's okay.

Dallas and I went to the MAC store to get our makeup done and I ended spending the gift card she gave me and $50 extra on makeup I really didn't need. My makeup looked AWESOME! Definitely completely different from what I normally do. They did a smoky purple eye on me with super long fake eyelashes. We had to hurry back to the hotel to get ready for the party bus that was going to pick us up at 9. Of course girls being girls...Dallas and Keley were both a tad bit late. The party bus was so cool. It had all sorts of different lights, 2 stripper poles, and a fog machine in it. The windows were pretty darkly tinted so you could barely see inside. It was funny watching people's expression as they would see these girls dancing around. Our first stop was Margaritaville. They gave me a tequila birthday shot. We got an awesome picture of me doing it....I look like I'm going to puke :D but it definitely did not taste good at all. After that we went to Coyote Ugly were I ended up going onstage and got another birthday shot. I'm a light weight for sure...so by the time we left Coyote Ugly I was kind of slurring my words and stumbling around. My friend bought a pretzel and I've got to say that was the best freaking pretzel I have ever tasted.

We drove around some more since we really didn't know where we wanted to go. The driver ended up stopping at the famous "welcome to Vegas" sign which I thought was an absolute brilliant idea. We then went to "old town" Vegas...or maybe it was "downtown" Vegas...by this time I really wasn't paying attention to anything other than Dallas/Keley/Ashley's boobs and the stripper pole. We stopped by this hole in the wall bar then walked around for a bit. I found this awesome magazine showing women that you can hire. I was totally down for it, but somehow changed my mind and decided that I wanted to go to a very lenient strip club. I'm very indecisive when I'm drinking so sometime on the way to the strip club I decided that we needed to go back to the hotel to drop off the alcohol we had brought with us. Only half of the group went up to the room so Dallas, Ashley and I were left in the bus. I remember dancing around while replaying the song "Poker Face" over and over again. People kept on peering into the bus as they would walk by. I invited them all in, but I guess they weren't interested.

The last stop of the night was Drei's (supposedly the best after hours club in Vegas). We got there at about 1ish in the morning but I guess it wasn't open until 1:30 or something. We ended up walking around a bit until 1:30 then went back to Drei's...well it wasn't opening until 2. Drei's didn't end up opening until 2:15ish I think. The owner was nice enough to give us free shots and....bottled water! I guess that bottled water there costs like $8 a bottle. I met a guy who works at Cirque Du Soleil Mystique. I could just tell by looking at him that he was a Cirque guy. There was also this funny guy that kept putting a glass in the middle of the dance floor and would proceed to dance around it in a little Greek/Russian dance. Then another girl started dancing around it too and would sit there and shake her finger "no" at it. It was by far one of the weirdest things I've ever seen. We didn't get back to the hotel until about 5 in the morning.

The next day I don't think any of us were really up for anything but we ended up waking up fairly early (at least for me it was early). Everyone decided that we needed to venture out to find breakfest...personally I would've much rather ordered in. We went to this Denny's like diner that ended up costing more than what it would've cost to do in room dining...plus the food wasn't all that great. I ended up crashing out again before my friends finally pulled me out of my bed at about 1 PM I think (I honestly don't remember the times very well). We went to a cute little cafe in the Bellagio were I got a antipasto plate for $20. Ashley and her boyfriend had to leave that day because they had to work on Tuesday. We all ended up going back to the room and crashed out for another few hours. I had wanted to go see this hypnotist Anthony Cools, but somehow we ended up getting sidetracked and missed his show (I think we might have slept through it.) That night we went to XS at the Encore.

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[danielle_ftv]

June 22, 2009
I really think I may have some sort of immuno-deficiency disorder. Ever since my Vegas trip I have been sick. First it was some sort of nasal infection that caused me to caugh up my lungs for a couple weeks. Then last Thursday I got really sick...throwing up, not able to sit up without feeling nauseous. I even started throwing up blood! I ended up sleeping through my webcam show and woke up at about 8ish on Friday and was finally able to get something in my stomach and keep it down. Next week I have several doctor's appointments so hopefully we can figure out exactly what's going on with me. I just don't want to have my blood drawn, which I know is going to end up happening. But I guess I'm not the only one sick...my nephew recently was admitted to the hospital. My sister was in Texas for a couple weeks and on the day she was supposed to head home my nephew started getting sick and had a fever. My sis took him to the hospital and they ended up admitting him to PICU (pediatric intensive care unit.) I guess they were monitoring his heart and he also ended up having some sort of infection. I hope to God that I didn't end up passing anything to him. Not sure what is happening now since I can't seem to get a hold of my sister or mom. I'm a little freaked out right now because I've been trying to get ahold of my mom for more than a day now and haven't been able to reach her on either her cell phone or work phone. I guess I'll give it till the end of today before I go over to her house and see if she's okay.

I tried extending my lease on my current apartment a couple weeks ago, but I guess after I put in my two months notice to vacate that somebody snatched my apartment up. Luckily I was able to make a deal with the apartment people....I will be moving into a two bedroom apartment for the price of a one bedroom. The only problem is that A)it's on the first floor and I can't stand noisy neighbors/loud stompers and B)that I actually have to move all of my crap into the new apartment. I still have yet to book the movers....I've called them and emailed them but we seem to be playing phone tag. The 25th is going to be super hectic. I have the movers coming to move, cable/electric/gas people coming to turn things on, and carpet cleaners coming hopefully after the movers. Trying to organize all of this is pretty difficult. And unfortunately it all has to be done on the 25th since the 26th to the 28th is EDC.

EDC (Electric Daisy Carnival) should be a lot of fun...though it's going to be a long weekend. I guess it starts at 4 PM and ends at 2 AM on Friday and on Saturday it goes from 4 PM to 4 AM. My friend is talking about going at 4 PM on Friday but unforunately there is no reentry when you enter and personally it doesn't sound like fun to stay there for 10 hours straight. The girls are all planning on dressing up. I bought a fairy costume for Friday night (Dallas is going to wear a Mardi Gras outfit) and on Saturday night I'm wearing a 20's flapper costume while Dallas is going as a sexy mobster. I guess the only thing that is going to suck about going to EDC will be the drive. One of my friends didn't have enough money to pay for a plane ticket so instead of letting her be bored driving by herself I told her that I would drive with her. It's a fairly long drive...about 6 hours I think, so we will probably have to wake up fairly early (or at least early for me.)

One of my members was supposed to visit me from out of the country. He had the flight booked, hotel booked and everything set up. He made it fine into the country...but unfortunately was stopped by US customs. I guess that they were suspicious of him coming to America to visit me....they ended up sending him back! I understand that we are just trying to keep bad people out, but personally I find some of the security measures we put in place completely idiotic. Hopefully I don't get in trouble in writing this. I just think it's funny that we are kicking people out that are going to end up spending well needed money here...I mean hello, aren't we in a serious financial deficit?

Oh yeah...I forgot to tell everyone what Rob is giving me for a birthday/Christmas gift...he's going to pay to get my teeth fixed! I'm so excited about it. Unfortunately it will be kind of expensive (that's why I never really was able to have it done.) I'm going to get implants (and no, not the boob ones), my teeth shaped and my teeth whitened. I really cannot wait to see the final product.

Also one of my birthday gifts was a BIRTHDAY VIDEO LOG (http://www.danielleftv.com/daniellebirthday.wmv) made by Grande351, Geolarson 2, Lia, Geezer, Missy and Tigger, Anoree, and Rob. I wanted to wait to put it up until I got permission from everyone on it that it was okay to post it. It is by far one of the best birthday gifts I could have ever gotten...I totally started tearing up when I watched it. Thank you guys....you are the best fans/members/friends a girl could ever have.

[danielle_ftv]

June 23, 2009
So my mom is okay and wasn't abducted by aliens or anything. I finally got ahold of her yesterday night. My nephew is out of the hospital now. I guess he had RSV and some other virus but is doing fine now. My sister and him should be coming back from Texas sometime this week. My brother is coming in on Saturday from DC for a few weeks. Should be nice to see him again. Today I need to get my nails done, get boxes for packing, call the moving people and set up a time with them, and get my costumes/packages for EDC from the apartment office. Freaking out a little bit right now. I hate moving and personally I feel like it is way too stressfull.

[danielle_ftv]

June 30, 2009
Um...yeah. I think I just saw my chinchillas humping each other. I hope to gawd that crazy chinchilla lady didn't give me a female and male. I've been listening to the same song over and over again (about 13 times so far.) I tend to do that a lot when I'm on the computer.

So EDC was awesome! The drive was horrible. People are seriously scary on the road. Supposedly I also tail gate (I think that's complete b.s. though.) I know I'm a pretty aggressive driver but at least I don't flip people off or anything...I just honk a lot and yell (but with the window up.) I would fit in with New York drivers pretty well I think, if only I wasn't completely freaked out about their driving style. We ended up leaving at about 10:30 Friday morning and got to the Standard hotel in downtown L.A. at 6ish. We had to make quiet a few stops because one of my friends had a dog. Driving around L.A. was a complete nightmare. I had my friend who used to live in L.A. switch off with me and drive us to the hotel and even then I swore I was going to have a heart attack.

We got to EDC at the L.A. colliseum at 8ish. There was a butt load of people there and a bunch of them were dressed up in crazy costumes. Dallas and I went as mobster chicks the first night. I was supposed to wear a 20's flapster outfit...but unfortunately I ordered the costume online and it didn't fit at all and a string ended up breaking off anyways. So another $140 later and I got the mobster costume. Our other friend Kelly went as a sexy school girl. I tried telling my friends that went with me that it was supposed to get down to 64 degrees at night but I don't think they really understood how cold 64 degrees is (especially Dallas who didn't bring anything other than shorts and skirts) so of course they were freezing cold all night long. We had all bought VIP tickets so we got to stay in the seperate VIP section. They had two free photo booths there. Free alcohol and water. Free hooka. Free airbrush tattoos. Free massages and free candy.

Outside the VIP area they had a bunch of free rides (I didn't go on any though...maybe next year.) A few of us got lost from each other and didn't end up back with the group until two hours later. I guess that the cell phone service there was all screwy. Fortunately I had pretty good service but one of my friends didn't get a text message that was sent at 11 PM until 6 AM the next day. We ended up taking off at 1:30 AM. It actually wasn't too difficult to find a cab (a lot easier than I thought it was going to be.) Only problem was traffic was horrible and I was super nauseous. I so didn't want to throw up in the cab and plus I was sitting between two people. We almost made it to the hotel before I ended up puking in my fedora. The next day I found out that I wasn't the only one who ended up getting sick.

The next day I ended up only getting about 6 hours of sleep...if that. Most of my friends didn't get any sleep at all! Everyone hung out by the pool while I stayed in my room and read a little. Kelly and a few others weren't going the second night of EDC so it was only Dallas, me, and two of our friends. Dallas and I took an hour and a half getting ready (so not my style at all.) I wore this goth fairy costume but ended up leaving off the wings because they would've gotten in the way in the taxi. Dallas was supposed to wear this super skimpy Mardi Gras queen bikini costume but since it was going to get down to 64 degrees again she decided to wear a skimpy pair of shorts and crop top. We got to EDC around 10 PM since traffic was so freaking bad. Our taxi driver scared the hell out of me. My friends were getting irritated because everytime the taxi driver made an illegal move I would comment about it....I would make a total Nazi cop. Supposedly there was over 70,000 people on Saturday night at EDC. I call b.s. and say it was more like 50,000...but it's still a lot.

We meet some more of our friends there and ended up wandering about for an hour before finally getting into VIP. EDC was supposed to go until 4 AM but there was no way I would be able to function for the drive later on that day if I stayed up that late. We had lost one of our friends and could not get a hold of him at all. A few of us ended up leaving around 3ish anyways and I finally got to bed around 4. For whatever reason I ended up waking up at 9 and since checkout was at noon stayed up, read, and got ready. The friend that we couldn't get ahold of did end up making back to the hotel okay. I guess that he also got super sick and ended up throwing up all over some cop's shoes.

I would hate to have been a cop for EDC...actually I feel super bad for the cleaners that have to clean up afterwards. I swear I ended up seeing twenty people puking. One girl ended up passing out in VIP for over an hour and had to have the paramedics get her. I guess the only good thing about being a cleaner is all the crap you find. My friend found a $600 phone on the ground (but he did end up returning it to it's owner.) I know at one point about $50 dropped out of my top but luckily my friends saw it.

The friend that we lost also had a girl with him. I guess that they knew each other and he found her bawling her eyes out somewhere. Her friends had left her at EDC and she had no money and no phone charge left to get a hold of them. The next day she was finally able to get a hold of them...but they had left L.A. for Phoenix! That seriously upset me because she was only 19 years old and had absolutely no way of getting home. I ended up offering her a ride back with us. I'm just thankful that we found her and not some pervert. Kelly was supposed to meet us at the hotel before noon so that we could take off in time. I ended up calling her around 11:30 just to have her tell me that she was with her family about to have lunch and that she would be back at the hotel around 3. My friends were definitely a little irritated. I offered to pick her up but I guess that she was an hour out of the way and it would've added two hours onto our already long a$$ drive. Luckily she was able to have her mom buy her a plane ticket home. I was super tired and the last thing I wanted (or could even manage) to do was drive home. One of our friends ended up driving the whole way back which I thought was really cool...but then again they were the most sober/awake out of all of us. We ended up having to go back to the hotel because the girl forgot her phone in my friends room. We got back to Phoenix at 7:30ish. We had to stop a few times because one of our friends had to be sick.

It took me until today to recover from EDC. It's funny too because Dallas and that whole group are already talking about going to the Scottsdale clubs on Wednesday...then partying in Scottsdale on Saturday for 4th of July. Plus I know they are going to want to party on Friday night. It's way too expensive to party like they do (and I make way more money then any of them.) Plus I feel like I'm going to ruin my body and looks with all the partying and staying up late (though I always make sure I get enough sleep.)

I'm almost finished unpacking. I need to get a bookcase, a nightstand, two lamps, and a full or queen size bed at some point. It'll be nice to have an extra room for guests to stay in. I thought the kitchen looked pretty small and that all my dishes wouldn't fit in it, but surprisingly they all do and I have a little room left over. My chinchilla's seem to really like the new place...at least they aren't really peeing all over the wall like they used to. Some of the houses and shelves that are supposed to go into their new cage is ready to be shipped. I just have to pay the chinchilla supply cage through PayPal and PayPal is giving me trouble right now. I guess that my credit card that I use is not through the right account or something like that. What a headache! I will probably end up just writing a check...but I have to order checks first. I can't really tell if the internet here is better or not. It was going kind wacky earlier today. I'm going to have Cox come out and check to make sure it's okay. The last thing I need is a repeat of last week's webcam show and unfortunately I can't use the FTV houses because Rob is in Hawaii. I got an upgrade in internet service so hopefully that will help out. I also have cable now. I have something called On Demand where you can order porn! It's amazing.

I need to get a hold of that tattoo removal place. I'm probably out of sessions by now. I've called them before but they were supposed to call back and never did. I also need to get my car checked out to make sure that long trip didn't do any damage. I'm kind of a hypochondriac when it comes to my car.

[danielle_ftv]

July 6, 2009
I'm not going to lie...4th of July kind of sucked for me this year. Dallas and some of her work buddies were hanging out at the Mondrion pool all day and invited me to join them. Personally not exactly my idea of fun. Plus I knew that if I was out drinking from noon till 8 PM I would be completely sick and probably have a sun stroke (which tends to happen if I spend more than 5 minutes in the sun.) So I declined and planned on meeting up with them for dinner at 8. Couldn't get ahold of Dallas until 7:30 PM and finally got to the hotel at 8:15ish. Couldn't find the room (The lobby/valet parking is in a complete seperate area from the hotel rooms) and Dallas couldn't seem to give me a straight answer on where she was located. Finally got to Dallas's room where we waited for 20 minutes while everyone tried to figure out what where stuff was, where we were going to go, etc. I was a little irritated because everyone was telling me that they wanted to go to the Pussycat Lounge...I guess they got a table and bottle service at a discount...but Dallas and I had already made plans to go to Saddle Ranch for dinner a few days before.

So anyways I hop into a with two of my friends that I had brought and just head over to Saddle Ranch since I was being told that nobody wanted to go there, blah blah blah. Luckily Dallas didn't ditch me and did end up showing up with three of her friends while the rest of the group went to PCL (where I guess they thought we were heading.) Saddle Ranch has the best dessert menu ever (well after Cheesecake Factory that is.) They have a $20 cotton candy, chocolate chip cookie and sundae dessert (and no I didn't get that.) Dallas's date/friend ended up riding the mechanical bull (the same one I rode in my short black cocktail dress last year) like 20 times and ended up tearing his thumb open. Everywhere in Scottsdale was pretty dead...I guess that everyone was too tired from day partying to venture out to old town. I got a chocolate chip cookie in one of those griddle pan things with vanilla ice cream on top (good gawd I'm getting hungry.) For whatever reason they ended up bringing out a three foot high cotton candy for us too. Dallas's date was so sh!t faced that we played a joke on him and told him that it was my 21st birthday that day (probably a mistake since he started telling everyone it was my birthday and kept trying to get me free drinks.)

We ended up at American Junkie (a "hip" Scottsdale bar/club where all the preppies/guppies seem to congregate.) The only thing I really like about the place is that they actually have food and they actually have a drink menu (I never know what to order since I just turned 21, so I always rely on my friends to suggest drinks.) I ended up ordering a mojito which was pretty tasty I must admit. Honestly it was pretty lame. On one side we have Dallas being thoroughly embarassed my her date and on the other side we have one of my guy friends and his current fling having relationship "issues". She's completely hammered and is what my guy friend calls a "sloppy drunk" (which pretty much means she's going around kissing everyone, flirting with random guys, confessing her undying love to my guy friend, and crap like that.) He's irritated because this is the second time that she's pulled this on him. So he goes off and starts flirting with Dallas's friends that she brought one of whom is a "95.5%" (in her words) lesbian. I told him this but supposedly he thinks he can "turn" any girl. Mmmmk then.

Dallas ended up leaving at some point without informing any of us (which definitely freaked me out since I had assumed babysitter status.) I guess she was so embarassed by her date that she just left with him to go back to the hotel. The guy friend ended up also leaving with his date and Dallas's friends also without telling me. All in all it just wasn't that much fun. I would've much rather have hung out with my mom and brother (we always do 4th of July at my mom's friends house who lives out near Phoenix International Raceway...they have an awesome view of the fireworks.) I really only got to see one firework and that was while walking to Dallas's hotel room. I guess they were shooting off the fireworks almost directly over the hotel. Kind of freaked everyone out...almost everyone thought someone was shooting a gun outside (pretty laughable in old town Scottsdale.) But it was pretty loud though...the valet guy freaked out and almost hit the floor when one of the fireworks went off :D.

I'm supposed to do dinner with the family on Thursday. Still not sure when my sister is supposed to come back from Texas. Hopefully soon because I actually kind of miss her. Probably not going to do anything this weekend. I really need a weekend to relax and just have some "me" time.

BTW...I finally fixed the 4th of July zip file. Not exactly sure what happened. Ended up having to completely redo the zip file and upload it (which didn't take as long as I thought it was going to.) Need to call Cox and have them help me do/fix the wireless router. I followed all the directions they gave me but it still screwed up on me (and honestly I would really like to be able to move my laptop around my place.)

[danielle_ftv]

July 7, 2009
Just got back from the new Wet N' Wild water park. It was pretty fun and I even got a slight tan! Probably going to take my brother there sometime while he's in town. I had to move the webcam show on Thursday to Friday because I have to take my brother to a doctor's appointment. For whatever reason my mom loves to schedule all my brothers doctors appointments while he is in town instead of letting his dad do it.

[danielle_ftv]

July 13, 2009
Yet again I have to move the webcam show. It's now on Monday July 13th at 4:00 PM. I just feel like complete crap and I'm starting to wonder if maybe I might be allergic to my chinchilla's and that's why I've been constatly sick for the past two months. Honestly I really don't know. I read that you are more likely to be allergic to the dust and hay that the chinchilla's need. Of course it could also be that weird nasal infection that I got after my birthday that I someone contracted again. I guess I really will have to go to the doctor's and figure out what the heck is wrong with me. And I might as well get an allergy panel done like I also said I would.

My mom and brother decided to take an impromptu trip to Texas today. It's weird because that is totally unlike my mom to up and leave like that with no planning.

[danielle_ftv]

July 15, 2009
So I guess I have bronchitis. The doctor gave me a prescription for an inhaler, antibiotics, and cough syrup with Codeine in it for when I need to sleep. Hopefully I can get better soon. Other than that nothing much is happening. Dallas invited me out tonight to a invite only party in old town Scottsdale. Don't really want to go but I haven't seen Dallas in a while so I probably should go.

[danielle_ftv]

July 21, 2009
Stupid computer completely deleted my first journal entry I wrote when I was trying to do a spell check. Anyways...so my internet should be completely fixed now. The internet guy did some computer magic and made my wireless router work...I am now typing this as I'm laying in bed...naked!:D...that's hardly unusual considering I'm almost always naked. I'm listening to some awesome Renaissance music while my eyes keep going cross eyed. I've realized that I'm probably going blind (and damn quick at that.) If it's not one problem it's another. I can't figure out if my glasses are helping me or making it worse. Looks like I will have to schedule my annual eye exam for next week. My step-father-to-be is back in town from England...and he even brought my little step-brother-to-be. I will probably take him and my brother to Dave and Buster's or maybe even the new Wet n' Wild here.

My mom wants to do a whole family dinner together this week. It will be nice to see my sister and little nephew after so long. I've realized that reading is a seriously expensive hobby (unless you have awesome fans that send you book store gift cards ;).) I got my library card renewed about two months back but borrowed books from the library once. For whatever reason I just like owning the books even though I don't read a book more than once and usually tend to donate them to the library after I've collected too many. Reading my journal posts I've realized that I am seriously random sometimes. I'm sure it's kind of confusing sometimes when I start talking about one thing then just jump to another topic all of a sudden...but you guys have probably gotten used to it by now.

I really need to remember to ask my mom about the family reunion at dinner this week (I should really probably just call her since I probably won't remember to ask until Thursday night.) I got a folder envelope from a family member in Texas and I thought it was about the reunion but it was only a huge list of everyone's information. Not sure what I'm going to do about the adult conventions. I really would like for one of my friends to come with me (I hate flying by myself) but every seems to be broke! My friend Dallas is getting her boobs done (for whatever reason she is insecure about them even though I think she is freaking hot and doesn't need them). She's telling me that she needs to save up $14,000...$8,000 for the boobs and the rest for spending money...for a month! I was like what!!! $6,000 spending money for a month....really? She lives rent free! She's too funny.

I bought a bunch of new cute bra and undie sets. I've realized that almost every bra that I own has been worn for a shoot so I needed to change things up a bit. Also there is a very big chance that I will be going to New York in the next few months. One of my friends has an apartment there and I have another friend that travels there like once a month, so I will probably go with her on her next trip. Cool, my spell check works now. It just told me that I spelled the word "undie" wrong...uh whatever.

[danielle_ftv]

July 31, 2009
So I had a shoot today for my website. Only got one candid video, one pro video, and two pro photosets (definitely not as much as I would have liked to have gotten.) A photographer/videographer who has shot content for FTVGirls "assisted" the shoot today. He was pretty cool and took some great photos of me. It's 9 PM and I'm not sure if I'm going out or not. Dallas hasn't called me yet so I'm assuming it will probably be a no. Wenesday night we did a girls night out. Ended up going to Pearl for sushi. That was kind of my first time eating sushi and my first time ever drinking sake bombs. I don't really care for sake...tastes a little too funny to me. And I definitely do not care for it being warm (which Dallas and the rest of them prefer.) I ended up drinking way too much that night (four sake bombs, a "porn star" martini, and two and a half red bull/vodkas.) Both Dallas and I spent all night when we got home being sick though I don't think it was from drinking too much...it was probably from the sushi.

Last Friday I went to Axis/Radius with the whole Dallas group. Dallas's room mate Mike had friends in town from California, so we ended up partying all night long. I didn't get any sleep that night (neither did Dallas.) Saturday we had to go to the Mondrian hotel for a pool party. It was pretty fun considering how tired I was and how much I dislike being in the sun. Didn't end up drinking at all that day because I knew I would be seriously sick if I was drinking and in the sun. Saturday night we had to go to Axis/Radius again for our friend Kelley's birthday party. I was completely exhausted by this point but didn't want to not attend her birthday since she had attended mine. We lost both Dallas and Kelley for like an hour. The rest of the group wanted to leave without them but I told them we couldn't because I had their purses which had their cell phones and money in it. We finally found them after awhile...I guess that some pervy old guy dragged them up to the VIP and wouldn't let Kelley go. So I finally ended up getting to sleep around 2ish in the morning. I got a call around 3:30 from Dallas telling me to come to some club for afterhours. Yeah right!

Sunday I'm supposed to go to the Salt River for tubing with the Dallas group. The last time I did that was when I was 18 and I ended up coming home completely sick from the sun and heat and with terrible sunburns all over my body. I definitely need to buy water shoes because last time my flip flops fell off and got lost so I had to have a guy carry me around so I wouldn't burn my feet on the 200 degree rocks. I'm already stocking up on 70 SPF sunscreen so hopefully I won't get sunburned. School starts pretty soon here. I'm excited but not at the same time. I'm going to miss not really having any responsibilities but then it will be nice to actually keep busy during the week. I'm planning a trip out to LA for Nocturnal festival in late September and for Monster Madness in late October. Should be pretty exciting. I'm also thinking about taking a trip to San Diego sometime this month. I told Dallas that's what I would do for her birthday present. It will be nice just to get away from this damn heat.

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 8, 2009
So I am doing a vote/poll on hiring Sarah Blake for the girl/girl shoot with me. I figure this is probably the only way to get Rob to hire her back. I have a busy couple months ahead of me. I'm going to San Diego next week the 13th to the 16th (my present for Dallas's birthday.) We are staying at the Hardrock hotel. I've never stayed at a Hardrock before so hopefully it's nice. The only sucky thing is that we have to leave super early on Sunday since Dallas has some spa thing with her mom at 11 AM.

The 4th to 7th of September we are going to LA for our friend's birthday. It's a long weekend for us since Labor Day is on Monday. I guess we are staying at the Roosevelt Hotel there (the one that is haunted.) Our friend said that there is always a celebrity or two there so maybe I will end up seeing Stuart Townsend or somebody equally hot. The 25th to 27th of September we are all going to San Bernadino for Nocturnal Festival. I think we are staying at this super cute resort called the Mission Inn. Dallas wants to dress up so I think we are going to do some type of "nocturnal/dream" theme. Probably something like fairy tale princesses or fairies.

The 2nd to the 4th of October we are going to Big Bear, CA for Oktoberfest. I suggested that all the girls dress up in beer garden girl costumes. The 30th of October to 1st of November we are going to LA for Monster Massive. I think we are staying at the Roosevelt again (that is if we like it when we go in September.) Dallas's birthday is this week. Tomorrow I guess we are either going to Creme or American Junkie and then she wants to do some pool party on Sunday. I do not plan on drinking at all on Sunday since I tend to get sick when I'm in the heat/sun and drinking. Monday we have to go shopping for clothes for San Diego. I need to get new dresses since I've worn pretty much every dress out several times. Wednesday I'm probably going to get my hair done since it's been a few months now. I have about three inches of roots showing (not that it looks bad.)

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 12, 2009
Dangit...I was looking foward to testing out the 24 hour webcam show (though in reality it was only going to be 16 hours this time.) I asked Chris (Lagwagon) if everything would be okay if I did it and he told me that the servers would "tank". I was pretty excited about doing this....hopefully I can figure out a way to make it work. I guess the good thing about this is that now I can try to find wireless cameras to put around my home for when I can do the 24 hour webcam show. That way I won't have to carry my computer around with me everywhere. So the webcam show is switched to noon tomorrow.

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 17, 2009
OMG...I'm so pissed. I totally just spent an hour (well not that long) writing in my journal about my San Diego trip and somehow pressed a button that completely erased everything. Grrr....fine...I'm going to take a break, eat something and do this tomorrow. F'ing irritating!

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 18, 2009
Okay so take two.

San Diego was awesome. Dallas and I are talking about moving there in a year (once we can save up enough money.) It was just so chill and we had an absolute blast. Thursday day was spent rushing around trying to get everything sorted out at the last minute. What really sucked is that my phone went completely psycho on me and for about an hour I was getting no service (until Dallas worked some magic on it by rubbing it on her boobs and taking out the battery.) We got to the airport pretty early (about two hours ahead of time) and went to Chile's for food and margaritas (I love being 21!) Dallas and I had the brilliant idea to buy a porn mag (Hustler) and sit between some random guy on the plane and pass it between us. Waiting in line to board the plane I saw a girl who looked exactly like Lia but I figured it most likely wasn't her (she was wearing really big sunglasses.) The flight there wasn't too bad. We sat next to an older gentlemen who kept taking peeks at the Hustler. Dallas kept on insisting that he take a look at it (freaking hilarious!)

When we landed and got our baggage I saw the Lia look-a-like again. Surprise, surprise...she was Lia. I guess all her friends were hanging out in San Diego and at the Hard Rock hotel clubs (called 207 I think.) We ended up taking a cab ride to the hotel together. Our room at the Hard Rock was pretty standard. The Hard Rock is definitely the place to stay if you are into clubbing and the nightlife. The hotel had two clubs (Float and 207)...we ended up at Float the first night. There was some promo event going on called Night School for Girls by Hypnotiq which was great since they were offering free drinks. Dallas and I realized pretty darn quick that San Diego nightclub drinks are expensive. For two drinks we paid $28 compared to the $16 in Scottsdale. We saw one of the guys from the band LMFAO. He was pretty busy so unfortunately we weren't able to get a picture with him. We ended up crashing out pretty late (and pretty drunk). I remember being in a half sleep and hearing some people outside singing at the top of their lungs for like an hour. Not only that but it seemed like they were singing the same chorus over and over again. People were yelling at them to shut up...pretty amusing! Not only were people singing and yelling for hours but I kept on hearing this weird bell every five minutes or so. I couldn't for the life of me figure out what it was...it kind of sounded like a fire alarm. I thought about getting up and making sure there wasn't a fire in the hotel but couldn't stand the thought of actually getting out of bed. I later found out that it was the trolley/train bell and not someone constantly pulling the fire alarms.

We woke up pretty late the next day and ended up walking around the gas lamp district. We ate at this cute Mexican restaurant and then walked around some more. I think altogether we walked about 4 or 5 miles (I still have blisters on my feet from that walk.) We went down to the pier where I saw my dream boat. It's called the "Star of India" and it looks like a big *** pirate ship. I've decided that when I win the lottery I will buy that boat (or something similar) and use it as a party boat. I will also have my crew dress in full pirate regalia. They have a lot of cute little restaurants in San Diego. There was this one place called The Spaghetti Factory that smelled so good that I definitely have to go to next time. That night we ended up at Float again. We stayed there for a few hours before venturing down to 207. It was fun but they weren't playing the best music ever (mostly hip hop.)

For whatever reason Dallas and I got it into our heads that we had to go to a sex shop. We walked around the gas lamp district looking for one but everything seemed to be closed. We ended up going back to the hotel and asked a guy at the MaryJane café if he could find one for us that was open. I'm sure that was probably one of the weirdest requests he had gotten in a long time. He ended up finding one for us. We ended up buying a flogger, vibrator, a truth and dare game, some massage oil, and my porn video. It was pretty weird watching the video since I had never seen it before. Pretty much the whole time I was critiquing myself. There was some funny *** bloopers on the DVD which we also watched. I ended up crashing out while Dallas continued watching the porn.

Saturday we went to Pacific Beach and ate at this seaside resturaunt. They had the best mojitos ever! I think we actually ended up ordering a lot of food (stuffed mushrooms, baked brie, quesadillas, tacos, grilled artichokes.) I always lose 5 - 10 pounds when I'm partying with Dallas and the group. The seem to barely eat during the weekends. That night we were planning on only going out for a few hours (our flight was at 8:15 the next morning so we needed to wake up at 6:15.) I knew that we were going to end up staying out really late. We decided to venture out from the hotel clubs and ended up going to Sidebar. It's a pretty sweet club, kind of reminds me of the Pussycat Lounge in Scottsdale. They had pictures of naked body parts all over the walls and the stamps that they put on our wrists to get in said "sex" which I thought was pretty original. We stayed out until about 1:30 in the morning before deciding to go home. Dallas was too drunk to walk and my feet hurt so we ended up taking one of those little bike cab things which I told Dallas would be expensive. I think it ended up costing us $20 or something like that to go like half a mile. Dallas was irritated but I thought it was pretty amusing. We had to pack our stuff and straighten up the room so we didn't get to bed until 3ish or so.

Dallas was pretty sick the next morning. Surprisingly enough I didn't feel that bad (just sleep deprived.) Unfortunately Dallas wouldn't be able to sleep when she got home because she was supposed to go with her mom to get a massage, facial, and do lunch. The cab ride home was a nightmare. I'm not sure how Dallas was able to keep from throwing up but she did. The cab driver did not like us at all I'm sure.

So next month is the Hollywood Roosevelt for our friend's birthday. Dallas and I are going up on Thursday and leaving on Monday. I think we may drive....but honestly that's such a long sucky drive and I hate driving in LA (LA drivers scare the hell out of me.) At the end of September is Nocturnal festival. We go there on Friday and stay until Sunday. Dallas and I are talking about dressing up for it. I think we may end up doing a cat and mouse theme, Alice in Wonderland, or 70's theme. On Friday my mom is getting married. I'm super excited for her. This is her third time getting married...and you gotta figure, third times the charm! School is starting pretty soon here (Monday the 24.) I'm taking ridiculous classes this semester (mostly because I still have to work up to a high level math class before I can take science classes.) I'm taking fencing, acting, and cello lessons. I would've signed up for a humanities course but Dallas and I waited until the last minute to do our schedule, sign up for classes, etc.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 15, 2009
LOLOLOLOL...Chinchilli Day (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jf89N1_uz_A#watch-main-area)...freaking hillarious!

[danielle_ftv]

Oops...forgot to post this on Friday.

Sept. 18, 2009
It's been awhile since I've written a journal update. Not sure why it's taken me so long to do one. I'm sitting here at the airport drinking a yummy Bloody Mary. I tend to stick with a few different drinks (Bloody Mary, Mojito, and vodka/red bull) since I haven't been drinking for long and don't really know exactly what I like to drink. I never used to like Bloody Mary's (or Mojito's for that matter) but for whatever reason I've started drinking them and really liking them.

Things have been pretty much the same lately. Just been traveling a lot...going to San Diego and Los Angeles almost every weekend for the past month. Labor Day weekend was pretty exciting. I stayed at the Hollywood Roosevelt hotel with some of my friends. They were throwing LA's biggest pool party there on Labor Day. I got to see a lot of famous people including some guy from "90210", Khloe and Kim Kardashian, and quiet a few other celebrities that I recognized but don't remember the names of. We ended up going to some club called XV or something like that. It was amazing! Unfortunately it was a bottle service only night so we ended up having to spend $1000 to get in, but it was definitely worth it.

I got a lot of great pictures from the past few weekend's adventures so I will have to post them pretty soon here (though I still have the EDC pictures to post.) Next weekend is Nocturnal festival in San Bernadino. All the girls are dressing up as the Alice in Wonderland characters (Dallas is a chesire cat, Megan is the queen of hearts, and I'm Alice.) My costume is pretty funky looking. I've got a bright sky blue wig, furry gogo boot covers, striped knee high socks, and furry white wrist bracelets. It's pretty...interesting looking but it will definitely fit with the whole theme/vibe.

I was so p!ssed the other day. I went on to my World of Warcraft account to play (I haven't played in quiet awhile now) and for whatever reason they permenately disabled my account. So the character that I have been working with for the past 3 years now is completely gone to me...grrrr! I sent an email to the W.o.W support people asking why it got disabled and got an email back but haven't yet really read through it.

BTW my parents finally got married. It was a really small wedding but everyone seemed very happy (my sister and step dad started crying a little.) The wedding dinner was held at the Compass Room (I think that's what it was called.) It was actually pretty cool since it was located at the top of a tall tower and rotated around so that you could see all of Phoenix. The wedding cake was reallly pretty. It had an old French saying written all around it with beautiful calla lilies on top.

I've picked out my Halloween costume. I'm going as a vampire/demon (minus any fangs.) I found black leather pants for...get this...$7.00! I can't believe what a steal that was especially since I was planning on buying leather pants online for $160. I still have to get a black leather corset and black leather arm guards. Dallas is also going as a goth vampire/demon but her costume is a lot skimpier than mine. I think we are going to Monster Massive in LA for Halloween but there is a possibility we may stay in town and go to the local Halloween parties (like the one held at the Wrigley Mansion.)

I signed up for a Model Mayhem account again. Hopefully this time I won't get banned again. It will be nice getting back into modeling with other photographers again though I don't have all that much time to do it since I'm traveling almost every weekend. I've already gotten a lot of people asking me about modeling for their websites but I'm really not interested in modeling for another paysite (doesn't seem all that smart to me.)

BTW...thank you so much Anoree for the beautiful tribute video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwDf3mYj9H0) you made me.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 23, 2009
Grrr...I have been trying to fix the webcam archive page for about 30 minutes now but for whatever reason whatever I'm doing isn't working. Guess I'll have to get Rob to do it. Hopefully I didn't mess something up when I was screwing around with the pages. I spent about three hours creating a list of the questions that have been asked on the question thread (that's not even counting the questions that are on other parts of the site.) It kind of irritated me because I started noticing how questions would get repeatedly get asked over and over again. So I figure by taking all the time that I took to make that list at least people will be courteous enough to refer to it before asking a question.

I seriously need to get my phone fixed. For some reason when I try to text message someone the phone turns off and turns back on really quick. Sometimes it will even lose service and then I have to turn it off and on several times and/or take the battery out a few times to get it to work again. I don't even think I've had my phone all that long and it's already screwed up.

BTW...if any of you were thinking about seeing The Final Destination....DON'T. It was the most horrible movie I've ever seen. Several people ended up walking out in the middle of it. I wanted to but I was with a group of friends and didn't want to leave them. I've never seen such bad acting, with bad computer graphics/animation/whatever it's called and such a bad script. I almost feel sorry for the actors who played in that movie. I doubt they will ever get a real acting job after that.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 1, 2009
Okay so I am seriously, SERIOUSLY freaking out right now. I have found my first scorpion in my house. Oh yeah and to top it off...it's a bark scorpion...one of the deadliest scorpions in the US (and I know this because I've been researching scorpions for the past hour now.) Luckily it got stuck in some tape that I used to tape up my fairy lights above my patio door. Unfortunately I'm too scared to remove it. I am really considering moving, especially since Tempe (the city I live in) is supposed to be an area where scorpions are more prevalent. Not only that but I also live right next to a mountain AND an empty field where I'm sure millions of little scorpions live. I definitely will have to have an exterminator come out (I'm sure the apartment people will take care of this). I already have a cricket problem and have noticed other little creepy crawlys creeping around my house. The apartment people obviously didn't do a very good job of sealing the spaces around the doors. At least my poor chinchillas didn't get stung. I would've be so freaking mad if that had happened.

On a better note I finally got my phone fixed. For the past two weeks now it's been turning off and on rapidly whenever I try to text, call someone, check my text, or pretty much use any button on my phone. The funny thing is, is that it only needed a software update! It caused me all that trouble because of a software update....how weird.

Not sure I'm going to be able to get out of my computer desk chair. I'm super freaked out about walking barefoot right now.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 14, 2009
Kind of tired...no actually I'm really tired, but for some reason I'm keeping myself awake right now. Feels like I've been neglecting my website lately so I want to apologize to everyone about that. Anoree brought up a great suggestion to me. He suggested that I post my webcam show times and my travel dates/times on the calendar so you guys kind of know what's going on with me. I've realized that I am just a tad bit weird (actually I'm very weird but whatever.) When I am writing posts on the forum and I put one of the smiley icons in the post I tend to make the face that the smiley icon is making (hopefully this makes sense.) Like when I'm putting the big green grin face in my post I make this cheesy smile and the same goes with the rest of the smiley icons. But then I've noticed that I do the same thing when I'm reading. Like when one of the characters starts laughing for some reason I start laughing to. Kind of weird! Anyhoo I'm going to crash out. Have a workout session with my trainer tomorrow at 1 so I definitely need to sleep. I will write another journal entry tomorrow and tell ya'll about the last month.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 15, 2009
Thanks everyone who joined me at my webcam show today. I had a lot of fun getting off twice :D. So let's see...what's been going on in my life. Well regarding my scorpion problem...I ended up finding another scorpion (this one being WAY bigger than the last one.) I had a full on panic attack and ended up calling all my friends and my family, crying, asking them what to do. I finally ended up putting a casserole dish underneath it and hit it (though missed the first time) with the biggest boots I could find (the Alice boots I wore for my Halloween update). It landed in the glass dish and I covered it with a glass margarita glass and left it there. I called the apartment people to have them spray down the place...they finally did it on Tuesday (apparently that's when the exterminator people come out.) Hopefully I won't find anymore scorpions in my home since I can't sleep when I do find them (I ended up waking up and searching the house pretty much every hour after I found the two scorpions and did this for a few days.)

I got my Halloween costume in the mail today. I'm going as a warrior/gladiator girl. It's a very sexy costume. You guys will be able to see it later on when I post the candid pictures for Halloween. Still not sure where or what I will be doing for Halloween. I originally was going to go to Monster Massive with my friends but decided not to. I'm honestly getting a little tired of going out and drinking and all that. I rarely drink and/or party but it's already getting old (and I haven't been 21 all that long now.) I'm probably going to end up hanging out with another group of my friends in LA, Hollywood, or San Diego.

The Nocturnal festival was a lot of fun. For whatever reason we decided to walk from our hotel to the festival (it was only a mile away)...but all the girls were wearing really tall not so comfortable boots. As usual it was absolutely packed. Getting our tickets from will call was a complete hassle. They had an awesome buffet set out for people who had VIP tickets. I probably shouldn't have eaten anything though because as usual I ended up getting really sick at the end of the night (even though I wasn't drinking.) Probably a combination of the food, too much dancing, and not drinking enough water. A few of us ended up wanting to go on the swing ride that they had. The line to get on it was completely disorganized though...we were all packed in like sardines. I ended up freaking out (had another panic attack because I'm pretty claustrophobic) and had to leave the line (which was super difficult to do.)

For Oktoberfest a group of us ended up renting a cabin in Big Bear, California. It was pretty awesome. The drive up there was kind of scary, lot's of windy small roads. The cabin was really cool. There were seven or eight room so we were able to get about 13 people in there. We ended up going luging which I had never done before. Getting into the Oktoberfest festival was a pain in the butt. We hadn't bought tickets ahead of time so we had to wait in line for like an hour, hour and a half. Personally I didn't have all that much fun at the festival. I'm not really into huge gatherings where everyone is trying to get as drunk as possible. My friend Dallas ended up getting hammered and kept stealing stuff from people (a beer stein, a plate of food, and she also tried taking some hat.) It was pretty amusing though. We ended up stopping at a grocery store on the way back to the cabin. There was this weird younger guy who came up to me and told me that I was beautiful and he didn't care that I had a boyfriend (which I don't.) He was pretty funny though. I went to the check out line and he ran after me and started complimenting me again and then asked if I was high or drunk (um no!). I bought some creme puffs which Dallas stole from me. I ended up getting them back in the car, but she got mad because I wouldn't give her one (they were frozen.) She accused me of lying when I told her that they were frozen so I ended up just giving them to her so that she would see that I wasn't lying about that. Drunk people are so funny especially when you are sober! Every time I would make something to eat somebody would end up having to take bites of it.

I recently got my car fixed (oil change, alignment, brake cleaning, etc.). I noticed that occasionally when I brake the car starts vibrating. Earlier today I noticed that the brakes aren't working as well as the used to. It's weird because if there were something wrong with my brakes I assume that the car service people would've said something about it. I'm assuming that they messed something up when they did the brake cleaning so unfortunately I'm going to have to take the car back in to get fixed.

I also recently got a speeding ticket on the way to San Diego (my first time doing a long drive like that by myself.) Unfortunately I was doing criminal speeding but thankfully the cop was nice enough to give me a ticket for civil traffic. I have to take traffic school but thankfully I can do it on line (which I will be doing tomorrow.) What sucks is that there are a lot of things you have to do on top of the 4 hour on line class. I have to send them a copy of my ticket, fill out and send in some form, and for the final exam I have to have someone notarize a fax and give me a code to take the test on line. Fortunately my mom notary certified so she's going to help me out with that.

BTW for those people who are fans of hair down there areas...I have two video and photo updates for ya'll. I also have two fetishy updates coming up here pretty soon. Also for anyone who has tried emailing me through the FTVGirls email it's unfortunately not working (I accidently froze it somehow and ended up having to complete reset it and don't have the information to log back in.) It should be back up pretty soon here but I'm not sure if I'm going to get the emails that everyones sent or not.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 29, 2009
Yeah...just finished my private messages...I'm getting pretty good about answering them in a more timely manner now. Tomorrow I am getting eyelash extensions! I'm super excited about it. I've never had them done so it should be interesting to see the final result. This weekend I will be in San Diego and Hollywood. I guess my friends and I are doing the House of Blues for Halloween night. I also just received my Thanksgiving update costume. It's pretty cute and I'm sure you guys will like it. I can't wait to do the video...you guys are going to love the toy I'm using for it (it's hillarious!).

BTW I bought a bunch of new toys the other day. I am super excited to get them. I also ended up buying a couple floggers from extremerestraints.com and an electronic paddle (don't know why I got that...I just thought it would be cool to have/try.) Now I just need to find someone who is into BDSM. It's pretty cool because this site/industry has definitely made me more sexual. I've explored a lot more since I got into this business and have found some fetishes that I like. I definitely knew that I liked it rough (biting, hair pulling) but I didn't realize how rough I actually liked it until Dallas used my whips on me. I always loved watching the Kink.com trailers and would always be super turned on by them. I probably should have realized that I was into BDSM when I bought my first flogger and crop three years ago (I bought it mainly to just have in my collection). I think I take the whole sexual pain to an extreme. I'm not sure what it is about sexual pain...it almost like a release for me. Like the only thing you think about is the pain. I guess my mind is so active that being able to focus on one thing is really amazing to me. I think another reason I like it so much is because it puts another person in charge for awhile. I always get really turned on thinking about being dominated by someone. It's funny because in my fantasy BDSM scenario a hot guy would chain my arms up and whip me and try to I guess subdue me but I would fight against it. In the end I would end up submissive though. This is probably kind of weird for some of ya'll but hey what's this site for if I can't explore my fantasies.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 4, 2009
So today was a fairly productive day for me. I dropped off my books at the library (the second month in a row were I won't be incurring late fees.) I got a tasty smoothie from Robeks and went and got my nails done for my shoot on Friday. I also got waxed. I'm still kind of swollen from the waxing and boy was it painful this time around. Tomorrow I will be getting my hair done, so I have to leave right after my webcam show. I need to get my hairdresser to make my hair as blonde as possible. It seems like the past two times I've gone in it's been a little darker than how I want it. I'm really excited about the shoot on Friday. I will be doing my Thanksgiving shoot (the video will be up around the 10th.) I also got a request to do a shoot in ballet flats so I will end up doing that too.

Halloween was okay btw. My costume ended up looking pretty hot on me...it would've looked hotter if I weren't so damn sick! Dallas ended up getting me sick when we carved pumpkins at her place but it didn't really hit me until last Thursday/Friday. I had the worst sore throat ever! It was sooo painful to swallow and my saliva glands seemed to be working overtime so trying to sleep was a complete nightmare. I'm still feeling it a little bit, but it's definitely getting better. I ended up not drinking any alcohol that night but did have like 6 glasses of orange juice. I think maybe the burger and fries I had earlier or all the acid in the orange juice made me even sicker because we had to pull over like two times for me to throw up. I was super embarassed because when we were in traffic driving back to Pasadena from the House of Blues I ended up throwing up out the window on the highway, which ended up splattering all over my friends car (ewww!).

Traffic was a nightmare. A normally 20 minute drive to the House of Blues ended up taking us like an hour and a half there and an hour and a half back. The House of Blues was....okay...not exactly what I expected and not really my scene. There were a TON of foreign people there who must have been pre-partying because they were super pushy and rude. The music was weird to say the least. They were playing a different mix but it seemed like a lot of the music was Mardi Gras style music or music from a bar in the French quarter of New Orleans. I didn't really see an spectacular costumes except for this one girl that had a Marie Antoinette costume which of all things was holding her head in the costumes arms. It was pretty cool! I saw two other females wearing my costume...but not to sound conceited or anything but I think I rocked it the best.

This weekend I have friends coming in from out of town. We are probably going to head to a Brazilian steakhouse that I've been wanting to go to for awhile and then Saturday we will probably be doing the Arizona State Fair. BTW my sister just got a divorce on Monday....and she's getting married again on Saturday! WTF!!! I'm not even going to ask or comment.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 18, 2009
Whoo-hoo...I can finally get into my Windows email account. I wasn't able to get into that for like two months. I had over 350 emails waiting for me, but most of them were Twitter and Adam & Eve notices. I had to wake up fairly early this morning to drop off my step-dad and little nephew at the airport. My dad is flying with my nephew to Florida so that he can go live with my sister and new husband. My mom was all sad last night because he was leaving. I'm assuming the next time we will end up seeing them will be at the family reunion next year in July or August (though hopefully for my mother's sake they visit sooner.)

I went to a Cardinals game last Sunday. Honestly, I've realized that sporting events really aren't for me. I really only go for the food. They had turkey legs there which I was super excited about. I don't care for being surrounded by tens of thousands of people and especially drunk ones at that. Dallas was all gung ho about going early and tail gating (though we didn't know anyone that was tail gating.) She got it into her head that we would walk around and ask random people if we could eat their food and drink their alcohol (though I wasn't drinking since I was designated driver...a role I actually enjoy playing nowadays.) I think the Cardinals ended up winning. We left a couple minutes before the end of the game to beat traffic.

This weekend I am going to San Diego and the first weekend of next month I will be going to Las Vegas for Dallas's cousin's bachlorette party (though we won't be joining them.) We will be staying at the Venetian and have tickets to go see Anthony Cools hypnotist show and some men's show at Sapphire's Gentlemen's club. I'm pretty sure Dallas is going to end up getting us into some trouble there, she's already demanding that I gamble with her (I hate gambling.)

I have two shoots for my website coming up here pretty soon. We will be doing a Sunday shoot so all you public nudity fans should be happy. The next shoot is the second Friday of December. I'm thinking that we might end up shooting in the castle house that Rob is able to shoot in. Sophia (a model that will appear on FTVGirls in May of next year) just shot there last weekend. I also got to shoot with her, though it's all softcore stuff (but in public!)

I am seriously craving the Persian Room right now. Maybe I will talk Dallas into going with me tonight before we go to Creme to see Deepdish.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 29, 2009
I am sooo tired right now. I seriously didn't get to sleep until 3ish and probably would've been up later if I didn't take a sleeping aid. I was going crazy last night looking for art to hang up on my walls so that when I do my candid video of my home my walls don't look so bare. I found some beautiful nude fairy prints. I definitely think that nude fairies will give my room a sexier atmosphere (though the only person who sees it is Dallas.) I also found these hot S and M silhouette prints...but I'm not sure I would want my mom to see those hanging on my walls. In my guest bedroom I'm probably going to get body part prints (like the silhouette of a back or a sexy fine art print of breasts.) Again though it would be weird to have my mom see those. Anyhow I've got to get moving. I'm shooting today and have to be at the FTV house at 1. I'm also meeting T-Bone Thomas, which is pretty exciting. My second member meeting! I will write a longer journal entry later today or tomorrow.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 01, 2009
Yeah it's almost Christmas time! I absolutely love Christmas season. It's great seeing all the Christmas lights and listening to Christmas music though it does get kind of old after awhile. I like the old Christmas carols...I really don't care for carols that are redone by stars today (like Mariah Carey, etc.) There is this one house near the big FTV house that does this crazy light setup. My family and I visit it almost every year. I pointed it out to FTVRob yesterday...he was definitely impressed!

My Thanksgiving dinner/lunch was great. My mom made a ton of food...and also made me a whole casserole dish of sweet potatoe casserole (which I haven't eaten any of yet.) My step-dad is so funny. He called me Thanksgiving morning asking me what a centerpiece was. Apparently he was going to make one himself by gluing some random herbs and flowers together but my mom made him actually go to the store and pick something up instead. Too bad my sister wasn't there to join us (she's living in Florida now.) It's always amusing with her there (though it's definitely not amusing to my mom) because she always ends up causing drama for some various reason.

My friends and I are going to Florida (South Beach I think) for the Miami music conference in March (the 25th to 29th) 2010. I should have some free time if any of my members/fans in Florida would like to meet up with me and maybe do lunch or something. I just met T-Bone Thomas on Sunday. He is super nice and was very helpful during my shoot. He even brought postcards for me to sign for my members/fans that wanted one. I signed some extra postcards just in case some of you wanted one but didn't email T-Bone in time. He also brought me chocolates (a lot of them have an alcoholic filling in them :D), two bikini's, a Victoria's Secret gift card, and a bra and panty set. I was laughing because the bra is size 36DD (which I totally am not) so hopefully I can take it back and exchange it for a 36D. Also CaptnJack bought me a giftcard to Borders for Christmas. Anoree also bought me a wireless forecast station. I will make a video log of all of these so you guys can see them.

For New Years the whole group is going to San Diego which I am pretty excited about. Dallas and I have already been looking at dresses to wear for New Years Eve. We are going with a silver and white theme...which isn't the easiest to shop for. I found this one dress online that I really like, but am kind of scared about buying it because I'm not sure how it will look on me. I will probably end up having to get it altered.

My one year anniversary for the site is coming up here pretty soon. I count the day that the premium area opened as being the day my site opened....that was December 16. It's awesome how much the site has changed and grown since then. I am quite proud of it.

Is it legal to have meerkats? I saw meerkats at the San Diego zoo a couple weeks back and now I am completely obsessed about getting one. Plus they eat...scorpions! I guess that is a treat for them. How perfect is that? I think they are sooo cute and I'm sure they would totally get along with my chinchillas. Plus then I can have something to cuddle with when I sleep (my chinchillas are not cuddleable at all.)

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 11, 2009
LOL...I was just checking out my candid videos (I just put a new one up) and saw the "No AVN for Danielle" video. In the description it talks about how I'm going to hire friends so I have somebody to go with me to the AVN awards. Well lucky for me I don't have to hire anybody this time. Dallas is going with me to the AVN awards in January 2010. This will be here third time going, so she'll know what we need to do and where we need to be. The only bad thing about going is that I am going to have to buy two new dresses (well I don't necessarily have to...but I kind of want to) for the awards ceremony and after parties. I may end up wearing my New Years dress (http://www.danielleftv.com/newyearsdress.jpg)for the after party, but I'm not sure if it would be the right type of dress to wear. I'm definitely going to buy a long, semi-formal dress for the awards ceremony. I have about seven dresses picked out online, but I may end up going to Macy's or Windsor to buy a dress so that I can actually try it on and see how it looks. I definitely am going to have to have the new years dress altered since I know it's going to be too big around the waist and hip area. That what kind of sucks about having big boobs...finding dresses that fits all of me perfectly is a pain in the butt. Anyhoo...so if any of y'all would like to meet me in Vegas then private message me and we shall set something up.

One reason why you should join my site if you haven't already...I did my first SQUIRT ON VIDEO! It was only on the web cam show...but hey, I'm working my way up to the professional video. Heck maybe I'll do a candid squirting scene (though I know it won't be as great as a professional video.) I was so happy when I finally did it. It was almost like I jumped over a weird sexual hurdle in my head. It took me kind of long but I was very determined to do it. I've realized that I actually have to orgasm clitorally first before I can squirt penetration wise. The weird thing about that though is that it really only pertains to when I'm masturbating. When I'm having sex and I'm in the right position (usually with my hips raised or girl on top) then I definitely feel like I can squirt.

BTW, I absolutely HATE my upstairs neighbors. I think they moved in a couple weeks ago and they have been driving me absolutely insane. They have this devil child that must be two years old (you know..."terrible twos") that will not stop stomping, crying, yelling, etc. I hate working in my guest bedroom where my desk and computer is because I think his room is right above it. It almost sounds like he's kicking the walls and jumping off of things non-stop. I've complained at the front office already, but I don't know if they've said anything to them or forgot about it. I don't want to go up there and complain because I absolutely hate confrontation of any kind. I just hope to gawd that they aren't staying more than half a year. I've been living here in this apartment for more than half a year now (and in this apartment facility for more than a year and a half) and the last thing I want to do is have to move because of some bratty devil child.

Vegas this past weekend was great! It was really nice to be able to hang out with just Dallas by herself. She is dating my best guy friend for about five months now and they have been getting really serious, so they have both been hanging out with each other like all the time. We ended up going to Vegas for her cousins bachelorette party, but for whatever reason the bachelorette ended up bringing her fiancé to Vegas with her (so unfortunately we weren't able to bring her really anywhere with us.) The first night we went to see the Anthony Cools hypnotist show. I was planning on volunteering myself to get hypnotized but we ended up getting to the show like 20 minutes late (and lost our VIP seats because of it.) It was absolutely hysterical and I would have loved to have been up there getting hypnotized. Anthony hypnotized the people on the stage to think that they were orangutans and then told them that they were horny and had to hump people's legs in the audience. It was pretty funny until I ended up being one of the audience members being humped. The lady that was humping me had these sequins pants on (and unfortunately I was wearing a dress). The sequins ended up scratching up my legs really bad. Luckily though it healed in time for my shoot today. After the Anthony Cools show we walked back towards our hotel (bad, bad idea.) It was freezing cold and there was a bunch of weirdos that kept on making lewd comments and gestures to me. I nearly b!tch slapped someone because of it. Some dumb broad even called me a hooker (or something like that)...but whatever...she was only jealous because I am WAY better looking than she will ever be. We ended up at Tao nightclub in the VIP section with these cool guys from England. I ended up drinking way too much that night and had alcohol poisoning the next few days.

Saturday day I slept most of the day. Dallas and I were supposed to go out to lunch/dinner with her family (I was super excited to finally meet her family) but there was no way that I could have made it even out of the room. That night we went to a male revue show which was pretty awesome. I've been to a male strip club here in Phoenix, but the guys here were definitely not as good looking as the guys in Vegas. Dallas and I ended up going back to the hotel and watched TV for the rest of the night instead of going back out since we both felt icky (plus Dallas didn't get any sleep in like 48 hours.) Sunday morning we met up with some of our friends who were also in Vegas at some restaurant in the Palms hotel (where we will be staying for the AVN awards.) The flight back was kind of scary. There was some crazy turbulence going on and I ended up scaring the hell out of Dallas when she was sleeping and grabbed her for comfort.

If you guys haven't noticed I've been making some changes to the site. I changed some of the pictures on the "welcome" page and am thinking about changing some other pictures on other parts of the site (though I'm pretty happy with how everything looks right now.) It's so cool that FTVRob taught me how to do all this computer/website stuff. Apparently he thinks that I have enough knowledge to create a website if I wanted too (though it wouldn't even compare to any site Rob creates.) I will be putting in more video formats in the new year (either 1000kb/s or 3000kb/s). I'm not sure if I will go through all the old videos and do the same to them (actually thinking about it I probably will since I'm always doing random stuff like that when I'm bored.) I have been trying to fix the web cam archive page, but for whatever reason it's decided not to cooperate whatsoever. I will probably have to get FTVChris to fix it for me.

My shoot today went very well, though we only got one video and photo update. Thankfully it's my Christmas update so that she be put up on the site pretty soon here. I will be shooting my New Years update and probably a secretary update on December 23rd. BTW my nephew took his first step the other day. My mom was so excited though I could tell that she was also a little upset that she couldn't be there. Apparently my sister and her new husband are doing very well together still...hopefully that lasts.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 11, 2009
I forgot to remind you all. I'm competing in the Miss Freeones contest (http://missfreeones.com/)and I would absolutely love to win this. I think that you can vote everyday for as many girls as you want (but don't quote me on that.) Anyhoo...it's free to register (and that's all you have to do to vote.) The voting starts January 1st and I think it goes on for three months. Here is the forum thread (http://board.freeones.com/showthread.php?t=349551) if you guys want to read about it (or post on there how much you want me to win :D.)

This contest isn't so much about the money for me (honestly I would say no to the money if I could have a guaranteed win.) This is my chance for my first industry contest win (well other than being the most popular model on FTVGirls for 2008). I am super competitive and will do whatever it takes to win this contest. So anyways, I appreciate your support and wish me luck.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 15, 2009
Um, wow. Just checked out the latest FTVGirls vote and weirdly enough brunettes are preferred over blondes. Makes me wonder if I should go darker again. Though the likelyhood of that happening is not very high. I've paid WAY too much money to get my hair to this color (black is the hardest color to dye.) My mom definitely thinks I should dye my hair darker though (but then again this is the same woman who convinced me to cut almost all my hair off.)

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 15, 2009
I'm done with my promo video (http://www.danielleftv.com/promovid.wmv)for the Miss Freeones contest. Check it out and tell me what you guys think. See how much effort I put into this...shows you how much I want to win this contest :D.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 22, 2009
I must admit, sometimes I have a pretty kinky life. Last Friday my friend was throwing a Christmas house party. I ended up shopping with my other friend Andrew for an "elephant exchange". The stuff I got for the gifts was super random and pretty amusing. In one gift bag I put sake, lobster pate, a plastic cup with an asian boy character on it, a piece of cheese and some other random things. In another gift bag I put this weird spinning pig pen, summer sausage, a small bottle of champagne, a small bongo, and other weird things. I was pretty much just walking around the store and picking up the most random stuff I could find, the whole time laughing like a maniac, imagining peoples expressions when the saw what their gift bag contained. I ended up getting the game 1,000 Drinking Games (which unfortunately I already owned.)

Everyone had to dress in Christmas gear. I didn't realize that all the girls were going to be wearing super sexy Christmas outfits so I ended up buying this outfit.

http://www.danielleftv.com/xmas09.jpg

I wanted to be one of the craziest dressed people there so I bought cute flannel pj shorts, knee high socks with fur on the top, slipper with little gnomes on them, a gnome sleeping t-shirt, and Hello Kitty earmuffs. I was pretty much the only person there not wearing red (though I thought blue was the new Christmas red ;).) I also ended up buying a bottle of champage and this huge "pimp cup" (which was just a huge thick gobblet.) I was planning on buying a huge martini glass or a funky shaped wine decanter to carry my champagne in but then I decided against it when I thought of how likely it was to spill it.

I would say during the whole party there was probably only 20 people there (which is great for a house party...and especially if everyone is fairly close.) I was worried about the cops getting called for a noise violation but the party went on until 7 AM (and probably later than that, but that's when I left) and we had no problems with cops. Jessica and Keley decorated the house beautifully and even baked cookies and cupcakes. Everything started off really well...we played F@ck the Dealer with like 12 people (which is kind of difficult especially if most of you are drunk and have never played before.)

Towards about 11 half the party left, and we were left with the "fun, adventurous, don't give a cr@p about anything" group. Things got pretty...well frisky after that. I'll admit by that time I was pretty um, not sober (but I won't use that as an excuse since I can be sober as heck and still want to get into a girls pants.) The party ended up turning into a regular girls only orgy. I ended up messing around with four girls (yeah for me!) and got two of them off (yeah for me again!) There were some guys there but they pretty much just sat back and watched (and gave us hand and foot massages when we demanded it.)

I always love hanging out with groups like that. My friends are very carefree and don't really judge. With them you can get naked and start making out with all the girls and instead of getting weirded out (like a lot of people would do) they just jump right in. I'm going to try to get the naughty pics from Keley (I'm not sure if Linsdey took some or not.) If I can get them I will most definitely post them in my candid pic section so you guys can see what "went down".

[danielle_ftv]

January 04, 2010
So I'm pretty sick right now (and have been since New Years eve day). I will write about my New Years experience tomorrow when I am hopefully feeling better.

[danielle_ftv]

January 07, 2010
I just got finished reading and posting on the forum and read on the question thread a question about losing my virginity. I don't know if I told this to you guys before (or if I even should now since some people may find it kind of icky) but I actually didn't lose my virginity to a guy...I mean technically I didn't. When I was 13 I was severly anemic and had to go to the hospital because I was losing so much blood. The doctors had to put this medical device way up inside of me down there and that's what I lost my virginity on. I remember being so messed up from blood loss and from the medication they were pumping into me that I told my mom in front of a bunch of doctors and nurses that I "hoped that wasn't what sex felt like" lol. I remember her blushing so bad from that. So anyways, yep...my first time was with a medical device. At least I got the pain done with then and didn't have to deal with it on my 15th birthday when I had real sex.

Thursday morning I woke up with a sore throat. I have a theory that whenever I get super excited about something I start getting sick (it happened for New Years and it's happened during many other holidays and fun events.) All my friends had arrived at the hotel before me (I ended up having to change my flight to an earlier time so that way I would have enough time to hang out, eat dinner, and get ready.) I definitely think that my group was the biggest in the whole hotel. My group are total rockstars! I ended up getting to sleep before anyone else and that was at like 4 in the morning. One of our friends who is also a local dj here in Phoenix was spinning at the Resolutions party (the party on New Years day) so a couple of my friends ended up staying up until 9:30 in the morning to see him. There was no hot water New Years day so everyone got like 50% of their rooms, which was really sweet since I had booked two rooms.

I didn't end up going to the Resolutions party since I was super sick (coughing, sneezing, running nose, etc.) That weekend was also pretty uneventful since I didn't feel like doing anything other than laying around watching tv. I watched more tv that weekend than I've done in a very long time. I ended up seeing that movie Paranormal Activity (not a good movie to see when you live alone.) This week has been pretty busy for me. Yesterday Dallas and I went to Chandler Fashion Square (one of my fave malls since they have a Windsor Store there) to get our AVN dresses. I ended up getting my dress at Windsor and it was the first dress I tried on. It's super sexy. It's all black, fitted down to my knees and then flares out mermaid style. The straps are rhinestones, so I got these sexy dangly rhinestone earrings and a rhinestone bracelet to match. After the mall we went and got our nails done. I left my jacket there and need to remember to pick it up. Will probably do that tomorrow, but then that also would require me to drive all the way over there.

I also got airbrushed tanned last night, so sleeping last night was not the most comfortable thing in the world. The liquid they spray on you is kind of weird smelling (not bad, just different.) The one thing I hate about it is how sticky it makes you feel. I have a bad enough time with humidity (which thank gawd I don't have to deal with in Arizona.) I ran out of books yesterday so had to run to a bookstore to grab more books to read. I hate being out after I've gotten the tan done. It's super dark before you wash off the bronzer so I'm sure I looked pretty funny. I noticed nobody would really look me in the eye (or maybe that was just me being too embarassed to look anybody in the eyes.) Dallas wanted me to go out last night with the group but I decided to stay in since I wasn't feeling well and didn't want to get even worse (which unfortunately seems to be happening.)

Today I got my eyelash extensions put on. The lady that does the eyelash extensions made a video showing people how to take care of the eyelashes....guess who's the eyelash model...me! I want to post the video but the last thing I want is to cause trouble for the eyelash lady because she has an adult model on her website. I was supposed to get my hair done today (which I need really, really bad right now) but unfortunately my guy had to cancel on me. Fortunately I can get it done before school starts but unfortunately I can't get it done before my shoot next Tuesday. I just bought my Valentines day costume and they shoot "item(s)" that I will be using. It's definitely going to be a very...fetishy shoot, I'm sure not all of you are going to like it, but whatever, it's going to be fun for me. I will be putting up my hardcore video on the site in the next couple of days. Get ready for it everyone. Actually I probably will need to do another hardcore video this next shoot day.

Did I tell you guys that I signed up for school? I'm taking math, English (freaking lame...I thought I tested out of English but apparently you can't test out of English), fencing (hopefully they don't cancel this class again), and philosophy of sexuality. I wanted to take this other sex class but I would've had to wake up super early (like at 9 or something crazy like that) and I've vowed to never take classes were I have to wake up before 10 AM. I just wish they offered classes I am interested in at night instead of in the morning.

So this weekend is the AVN awards. I'm so excited....I just wish I wasn't sick. I'm hoping that I can get better tonight and tomorrow. There are a few girls there that I am hoping to meet up with (April O'Neil is one.) Who knows...maybe I'll see some of you guys who are planning on going, there also.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 12, 2010
So I just got done with a hardcore hour of cardio. I'm really psyching myself up to start eating healthier and get in better shape. I have calculatted that by April 27th I should be in perfect shape. I went pretty crazy last week shopping for food. I bought a bunch of fish, fruits, veggies, yogurt, and chicken. The only problem is...well I don't really cook. All the meat I've bought is sitting in the freezer (heck, some of the stuff I've bought has been sitting in there for like four months now). I bought a bunch of ziplock containers so I can cook a bunch of stuff at once and just store it in the fridge. Lately I've just been snacking on yogurt, fruits and veggies since I'm too lazy to cook. I actually need to get more yogurt since I've almost eaten all of it.

So the AVN Awards were a ton of fun. I was still sick going there but for whatever reason as soon as I got a drink in me at the airport I started feeling a lot better. When we got to the Vegas airport Dallas and I ended up doing an oxygen bar "treatment". I'm not sure if it actually helped, but the massage they gave me was AWESOME. The first night was a ton of fun. Dallas and I went to Sapphires Gentlemen's club and spent a bunch of money (as usual). Then went to the Venetian to meet up with some friends and from there we went to this bar/club (I think it was Lavo). What's really funny is that for the first time I had somebody recognize me in public and actually come up and introduce themselves. What's even funnier is that it was Sara Peachez (another website girl)! We ended up hanging out with her group and decided to go to Drai's. When we got down to the taxi line to go to Drai's I remembered that I needed to get cash so Dallas and I had to go back upstairs to the ATM. Well when we came back everyone was gone. We thought that they had already left for Drai's so we went ahead and took a cab over there. About 30 minutes later the group showed up. Apparently they thought that we were going to the restroom and decided that they needed to go to the restroom to and then ended up searching for us in the Venetian for heading to Drai's. So that night I barely got an of sleep (about 3 hours).

We didn't do much the next day since we had a hair appointment at 6. Dallas and I were kind of irritated after finding out how much our hair cost us ($102!) I liked my hair...but not really. Honestly I wish I had gotten a hairdo that was down or at least half up and half down instead of all up. I was super worried about the dress I was planning on wearing because I thought it was going to be too formal. I ended up trying on my purple dress (you guys have seen me in it before) but Dallas talked me into wearing the dress I had bought for the awards. Neither of us could figure out if we were supposed to walk the red carpet or not but fortunately Dallas got ahold of our friend Kevin from Hexed Media and he told us to walk it. We walked around quiet a bit trying to find were it was supposed to be and finally found it hidden in this weird exit location. Walking the red carpet was....nerve wrecking to say the least. I was so freaking nervous that pretty much the whole time I held Dallas hand and rushed us from one spot to another without really taking my time for pictures. Next time I do anything like this is I am going to A) wear my hair down B) probably get a drink of alcohol in me to calm down C) practice posing better and D) get talent seats. FTVChris ended up getting Dallas and I seats in the fan section and not the talent section so unfortunately I wasn't able to really hang out or talk to any porn stars.

I hate to say this but one of the things that irritated me the most was that people were taking more pictures of Dallas than they were of me. I mean come on...I'm the porn star here. If I was in her place I would have been shoving me foward and would've been telling people to take pictures of me and not her. But you know what...I figured it out...it's because she's skinny. People are drawn to skinny girls and putting me next to her, well I'm a giant next to her. Big boobs rock, but tiny girls always win unfortunately. As much as people say that they like the way I look and they prefer women like me, most people prefer skinnier girls (especially in this business.) If I plan on going anywhere in this business then I need to get in rockin' shape. That's one of the reasons why I'm working out and trying to get in shape more.

The awards ceremony was a ton of fun to watch. Belladonna did this really hot dance with her dance troupe. Baby Bash also did a routine and there were these really cool (and hot) circus performers doing acrobatics all over the stage. We actually met Baby Bash's band when we were walking from the Palm's Place towers to the casino. I was laughing because at the beginning of the show the announcer was telling the crowd to do different things ("now everyone clap", "now everyone laugh" etc.) At first I couldn't figure out why the hell they were doing that then I realized that the AVN's are supposed to air on HBO or some channel like that and apparently that's how they do the "reaction shots". I wonder if that's how it is at the Grammy's, Oscars, etc.

Watching the awards definitely made me want to get...deeper (that's the only word I can think of right now) in this business. I want to win a bunch of awards and have people yell and cheer for me when my name is called out. Sasha Grey got the Jenna Jameson Crossover Star of the Year award. I absolutely want to win that award. I remember seeing Jenna Jameson and several other pornstars on different advertisements (and for things that aren't even adult related). That's what I want to do! It just sucks because I feel like I don't really have any way of accomplishing these things. First off I have no idea were to begin. I don't know who to contact and what to do. It sucks having all these dreams but having no idea how to make them a reality.

After the awards we went to a friends bungalow party before heading to the nightclub Rain where Paul Oakenfold was doing his Perfecto tour. It was actually pretty sweet hearing him live after hearing him on XM radio all this time. We ended up going to Moon because I thought April O'Neil was going to be there (I was hoping to meet up with her sometime during that weekend but that didn't happen.) We all went to Drai's (I think this was around 4ish or so) but went back to the hotel because the line was super long to get in. Dallas ended up going back to the room to crash out but I was doing it rockstar style and partied until about 6ish with my friends before finally deciding I was far to delirious to be up any longer.

So my sister is in town this week for my nephews first birthday. My mom wants the girls to go out to get manis/pedis and to do dinner and a movie. Fortunately you don't really have to talk during manis/pedis and movies but dinner is going to be a hassle. My sister and I can only seem to get along for about an hour before we are at each others throats. Maybe if I ply her with alcohol she will be nicer to me :D (though my mom would not appreciate that one bit.) School starts next week. I'm excited...but not. It's going to suck having to get back into the swing of things and not have days were I can just lounge around and do absolutely nothing (though I will have Friday, Saturdays, and Sundays to do that.) I'm going to be pretty busy March and April. The Phoenix Forum is April 8th - 10th (right during school). And in March I'm going to the Miami Winter Music Conference the 25th to the 29th and at some point will be doing a shoot in Hawaii with FTVRob. My next shoot is on Wednesday the 20th. I will be doing my Valentine's day shoot, probably another hardcore shoot, and I'm not sure what else.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 26, 2010
Okay what a bad time for the website to start screwing up on me. For whatever reason I can't seem to upload HTML pages onto the website...and unfortunately Rob is in Hawaii for a dental conference and won't be back until Friday or Saturday.

BTW I am totally dropping my philosophy of sexuality class. I am just not into philosophy at all. The whole time it just felt like we were talking ourselves around in circles. I guess I'm a very black and white person. I like things to be...definite. Other than that class, all my other classes have been going really well. I love my English class. The teacher is awesome and the past two classes I've had a blast in. My math class is...interesting. The teacher is this really cool hippy like man that loves Google.

My fencing class is going to be fun, but it's also going to be pretty difficult too. I only have that class once a week but it's for like two hours. Yesterday during the fencing class we were learning advances, retreats, and lunges. For whatever reason I was having a difficult time doing the lunges. First off I kept my arms pretty straight ahead of me to begin with so he would say "extend" and my arm would already be extended. Then he would say "lunge" and I would lunge but my front foot wouldn't step foward some of the time. Another one of my problems is that I naturally seem to drag my feet during the movements so it would kind of mess me up on my retreats. We are using the foil (one of the three swords you use in fencing). The teacher showed us all the swords and told us about each of them. Personally I think I would be better at the sabre which they use with cutting/slashing type motions.

This weekend I am going to Big Bear to go snowboarding. I think I will probably take a lesson the first day (since I'm only been snowboarding once when I was like 15 years old.) As usual I started feeling sick last night (I really do get sick everytime something exciting happens to me.) It's only a sore throat though so I think I can kick it before Big Bear.

[danielle_ftv]

February 08, 2010
Dallas threw a Superbowl party at her house yesterday. We figured we would have about 30 people there but I think only 15-20 people showed up (which was a good thing since there really isn't all that much room at her place.) We made jello shots (which I ended up doing way too many of) and jungle juice (which was really nasty!). All the girls were routing for the Saints (I picked them because they are from my home state). Personally I don't really like football and really don't like watching the games, but it's always fun hanging out with the group.

I didn't get much sleep Saturday night so Sunday was kind of...spacey for me. I ended up going out to eat at Postinos (I love their food and they have awesome bruschetta). From there we went to Sanctum which is this weird gothic club in a weird part of Phoenix. I was actually pretty entertained while there. They were playing industrial music and a lot of 80's Depeche Mode type music. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't what we all were looking for. We ended up leaving and went to Bar Smith. The music was even worse there. Apparently they were playing what my friend likes to call "old school house" like something you hear clubs in San Fransisco playing. I just thought it was crappy music. From there we went to this German restaurant, The Black Mills, which turns into a nightclub on Fridays and Saturdays. It's actually pretty freaking random! The music there was good most of the time. The first DJ sucked big time. From TBM we went to Cin Cin in oldtown Scottsdale where we stayed for about 20 minutes before going to an after-afterparty at the Optima (these really sweet and expensive condos in Scottsdale). I didn't get to sleep until about 7 in the morning. I was actually pretty surprised because Dallas wanted me over at her place at 11 AM (I didn't get up until 1). I was totally expecting her to be p!ssed off at me for not being on time (but the game wasn't even until 4:30 anyways...so it really didn't matter.)

Friday night a few of us went to Revolver (this new club that opened in oldtown Scottsdale.) I liked the club itself, but the music was pretty iffy. From there we went to American Junkie where I met up with Aaron, Lia and her group. We took off at about 1 and went to ***** Cat Lounge where my friend works as a promoter (though I didn't see him that night.) I actually got home at a pretty decent time that night...though I didn't get to sleep until about 4ish.

Snowboarding the weekend before last was awesome. Thursday night we went to this club in Hollywood. I wasn't really sure about going to a club especially since we were supposed to be on our way by like 7 or some crazy early time like that. Of course we didn't actually take off at that time since we didn't get back home until 4 or 5 in the morning. I ended up drinking way too much that night. At one point I was trying to show one of my friends a picture of Dallas' new boobs on my cell phone when I realized that I didn't have my cell phone anymore. We spent like an hour searching for my phone before realizing that it was gone. I was so upset....my phone is pretty much my lifeline to the world (along with my car and computer). But of course like an idiot I found it later on in my jacket pocket.

On the drive up to Big Bear I only had a panic attack once (good for me!) We ended up snowboarding all three days we stayed up there. The first day (Friday) we actually did night snowboarding which I was kind of worried about. It was my second time ever snowboarding so I was worried about doing it in the dark. I actually did a pretty good job (at least that's what my friends told me.) I only had three drinks that whole weekend (while the rest of my friends proceeded to get hammered). I realized that alcohol, snowboarding, and I don't mix very well. Saturday I had two bloody Mary's and was feeling pretty cocky and decided to go down one of the more advanced runs (I blame this all on my friend Megan though since she's the one who told me about it in the first place.) Never again will I do that. I ended up landing on my tailbone so many times that I thought a broke it. I also landed on my arm and wrist quite a few times. I was very angry by the time I got to the bottom that I pretty much quit for the day.

The next day I did pretty much the same thing (went up a more advanced trail). That was a huge mistake. I spent most of the time on my butt since my legs were in such tremendous pain (BTW three days back to back of snowboarding when you are only going for your second time....in five years, is not a good idea.) All in all I did have a great time. The trip back down the mountain took like more than two hours vs. the 25-30 minutes it normally takes. I plan on buying my own snowboard. I want to get a custom one that says "Danielle" on the bottom with "Love as Thou Wilt" underneath. On the top I want to have a picture of me between the bindings with fairy wings photoshopped on (my friends find this hillarious). I want the whole board to be purple, black, and silver.

This weekend I am throwing a Valentine's party at my friend Ryan's house. I've already spent over $250 (just on decorations and candy) for this party so it had better be a blast. I was kind of irritated at my friends because Ryan and I decided to throw the party on Friday the 12th (I had a shoot on Sunday the 14th which I then had to move to Friday the 12th). But apparently Ryan was drunk and didn't even remember us talking about throwing a party in the first place. So he was pretty surprised when I sent him a Facebook event invite to a Valentine's party at his place on a night when he already had something planned. So we ended up moving the party to Saturday the 13th, but then of course I get b!tched at because that day didn't work for certain people (I'm not going to be planning any more events because this always seems to happen.) It sucks because there are quite a few people who aren't going to be in town that day/weekend, so it will probably end up being a smaller party. I'm pretty excited because one of the local DJ's will be playing at the party after he gets done mixing at whatever club he's working that night. I just hope that the cops don't get called for a noise complaint. We didn't get in trouble last time for the Christmas party but you never know.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 10, 2010
Just got done making a few changes to the site. I put the links to all my social networking sites on the "About Me" page. I also added a new pic and some more info on the page. On the main page (the second page after the 18+ warning page) I changed the pictures on top and I changed the pictures on the "My Photo" part of the page. Need to process my Valentine's video into the 1,000kb/s version for tomorrow then I can go to sleep.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 24, 2010
I'm a little irritated right now. Not only do I have to deal with people complaining but there seems to be a lot of drama with my group right now. I feel like I'm in high school again. I hang out with people older than me yet I feel like I'm the oldest in the group. Whatever! I need to clean my house, go to the library, and get food. Will write more later if I'm in a better mood.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 08, 2010
Things seem to be going a lot better for me. I have a ton of trips planned for the next few months. This weekend I will be going to San Francisco with some friends (I'm hoping to meet some of my fans also...though sorry about giving you guys such short notice.) I'm very excited because on Friday I will be getting a 1 hour and 45 minute massage. I've never had a massage that's lasted that long. My friend was telling me about this museum that has a happy hour bar on Thursdays which I definitely hope we will attend (another thing I've never done...drink in a museum.) On Saturday I will be going to Napa with the group and we will be doing a wine tasting. The last time I did winetasting was in Germany on the Rhein river and it also included a Rhein River boat tour. BTW boats, the sun, and alcohol do not mix well with me. I ended up getting a mix of alcohol poisoning and sun sickness and ended up sick and bedridden for at least 24 hours. Unfortunately I get motion sickness (though it hits me at random times) and the drive from Napa to San Francisco is like an hour long so hopefully I don't end up getting sick this time.

In two weeks I will be going to Miami for the Winter Music Conference....pretty much just an excuse to party 24/7 for 4 days straight. If any of you are going here is the party itenerary:
Thursday night - Karu and Y
Friday day - Surfcomber
Friday night - Nocturnal
Saturday day - don't have any plans...hopefully I will be able to meet some members during this time
Saturday night - Karu and Y
Sunday day - Surfcomber
Sunday night - Bed

Next month I will be attending the Coachella festival. I finally booked a house... I was freaking out for a while there because all the houses were rented out, but thankfully there was a cancellation. The house is going to be packed. We have 10 people going and what kind of sucks is that there are only 2 bathrooms. I'm probably going to have someone rent a van so that we can all drive together from the house to the festival and back rather than take 2 or 3 cars. Also another minus is that we can only have 3 cars parked at the house and I don't think everyone will be driving up from Phoenix at the same time (so we can't all carpool.) I will most likely end up driving there with 4 or 5 people. I'm hoping that I can actually have fun this time (I ended up putting down the security deposit on the Big Bear Oktoberfest cabin and ended up freaking out half the time because I was worried about stuff breaking or people making a mess...definitely did not have all that great of a time.)

I'm already planning out my birthday celebration since I have to give everyone a heads up so they can put in their request for time off. This year there will be a lot more people attending it. I plan on having the celebration in Vegas again. I'm thinking about staying at the HardRock hotel since it seems to be well priced and it's also where the Rehab Sunday pool party is located. Thankfully by staying at the hotel you get tickets into Rehab (which is awesome since tickets can cost $50 for women and up to $150 for men.) I will probably want to see a show there...maybe the Anthony Cools show like Dallas and I did last time we were in Vegas (though we are definitely going to be on time this time and I definitely want to volunteer myself to be hypnotized.) I am also getting a party bus like I did last year and will be getting a stretch limo to pick us up and drop us off at the airport (it's actually a great price and we get champagne and roses for the ladies.) I was thinking about getting a table at XS but with up to 15 people going the price was going to be at least $3,000 which I am not okay paying. I might also get a table at Drai's afterhours club for Friday and Saturday night since the lines can get very long to get in...but A)I don't want to spend a ton of money (still need to figure out a price for that) and B)my friends and I will probably be completely drunk by then and will not need more bottles of alcohol.

So the Valentine's night party was fun. The house looked awesome with all the decorations I got. Jesica got these naughty balloons that said things like "blow me" and "f@ck me". Dallas and Rob F (not boss Rob) didn't attend the party which sucked (but they had a romantic weekend in Temecula winetasting.) The only thing that kind of sucked was that there was quite a bit a drama. Mike and Megan ended up breaking up like twice. Jesica wasn't in the best of moods (I think she wasn't feeling very peachy though.) Keley ended up flirting with one of my friends dates (though to be fair he was also flirting hardcore and was making some very inappropriate suggestions and comments to her.) Also Lindsay was accusing Keley of trying to make out with Andrew who Lindsay was with that night (I think we found out that this wasn't true.) Overall I think we had over 30 people at the party. One of the local DJ's, Michael James also played at the party which was really awesome. I told Ryan (the person who's house we were throwing the party at) to tell the neighbors that we were throwing a party but apparently he didn't listen to me. We ended up getting 3 noise complaints before the cops got called at like 6 in the morning. I ended up leaving pretty soon after that.

BTW I got this hair streaking stuff in hot pink for the Valentine's party that was supposed to be temporary but my hairdresser showed me this one splotch in my hair that is still bright pink. Thankfully it isn't a spot that you can really see and right now it's actually covered by dark blue hair (which was actually supposed to be purple...not the first time my hairdresser has messed up on the color.) And before you guys all freak out, my whole head is not blue...the only party that is blue is a little bit of the hair underneath (kind of like FTVGirls Christine 2007.) I'm sure FTVRob is going to completely freak out when he sees it but I'm only planning on keeping my hair this blue color for like a month or two before bleaching it back to blonde. Actually the blonde color I have right now is almost my natural hair color. It's going to take a few times though before all the blue is out. It will go from dark blue to a medium shade of blue then to a light sky blue and then hopefully back to the blonde color. Sometimes I'm just super spontaneous (I totally wasn't planning on dying my hair a crazy color...I ended up deciding that when I got to the salon.) At least it's something temporary rather than sometime permanent like a tattoo.

The weekend before last weekend I attended the Renassaince Faire and the Phoenix Open. This was the third year that I went to the Pleasure Feast at the Renn Faire. I invited a bunch of people with me but everyone ended up flaking except for one of my friends (I was not too happy about that.) I wasn't too excited about going to the Phoenix Open but it actually ended up being a lot of fun. I thought the 16th hole was hillarious. BTW if you've never attended the Phoenix Open or watched it on tv, apparently it's supposed to be the rowdiest golf tournament out there. It's pretty much just an excuse to dress up in the craziest golf outfits (picture bright neon plaid outfits) and drink a ton of beer. I didn't drink too much though I had an allergic reaction to some weeds or pollen or something and ended up breaking out in hives. My friend gave me some Benadryl and I didn't realize until after I took it that you really aren't supposed to mix Benadryl and alcohol (though the effects of it were pretty funny.) So the 16th hole has stadium type seating around it. It's a pretty short hole so the golfers don't spend too much time there (which they probably don't want to do anyways since the crowd there is so loud.) If the golfers don't hit the ball on the green they get booed. At one point we all started doing the wave. It would go all the way around until the corporate seating area then it would stop (they go booed big time for that....it got to the point were we would boo them before the wave even got to their section.) We did this for like ten minutes...it was awesome! We ended up at this tent (the Tilted Kilt tent), watching the Canada vs. US Olympics hockey game....which I found a lot more interesting.

I also went to a hockey game last Thursday. That was my second or third hockey game I've attended. It was the Coyotes vs. Avalanche. I've got to say it was probably the most exciting game I've ever attended. They were tied up until the very end of the game with less than 30 seconds left before they scored a goal. I'm not all that into sports but when something like that happens it draws you into the game.

School is going well. Spring Break is coming up here really soon. Dallas wanted to do a girls trip to Mexico but since I have two trips already planned for this month I didn't really want to squeeze in another.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 15, 2010
Today I shot two sets for my site. I did my Easter set (I think it turned out beautifully). It was shot in the pink room for those of y'all that are pink room fans. The other set was a public nudity set that I am quite proud of (I really do seem to be getting over my public nudity...shyness.) I was hoping to get one other set done but FTVRob had a lot of editing to do and has been shooting a lot lately so I didn't want to stress him out too much having to shoot me. Fortunately since I live close to him it isn't too hard to schedule shoots. He wanted to shoot me in the airplane hangar that he shot Lia 19 in (The Jetset Lifestyle and The Largest Photo Studio sets) but that was on Thursday when I had already left for San Francisco. It's a bummer too since I really loved that set of her and wanted to shoot there. It isn't often that we get a chance to shoot in locations like that so we definitely have to take advantage of it when we can.

San Francisco was fantastic. The flight there was "delayed" so my friends and I went to get something to eat. Thank gawd I checked the time when I did and got us out of there because the flight ended up actually being on time and everyone had boarded the plane. Unfortunately I wasn't able to sit with my friends since we boarded so late. I don't really like flying (though I'm not as scared of it as I used to be.) I wasn't feeling too good (actually I felt really bad...super nauseous) since I had drank the night before (and I didn't even have that much...only three glasses of champagne and some random shot Dallas got for us.) Being a lightweight sucks sometimes.

Thursday was pretty chill....we didn't do much that day and later ended up going out to eat at this Mexican restaurant (I love sangrias!). The "Nightlife" event at the California Academy of Sciences was a ton of fun. Unfortunately we didn't get there until pretty late and ended up only having an hour and a half to explore the museum. They had this live exhibit where you could watch a taxidermist stuffing an animal. A ground squirrel, mouse, and bird was being stuffed. I thought the mice were pretty funny because the museum had put little accessories on them like an neck ruff. It was also interesting to see because not only did you see the skin being stuffed but the rest of the animal's bodies where there too. It's not as bloody as I thought it would be. They had this interactive exhibit showing you how much carbon output you have. Unfortunately mine is very high with all the traveling I do.

On Friday I had my hour and forty-five minute long massage. It was absolutely fabulous. But instead of saying that I have no preference for a masseuse I should probably say that I prefer a woman (though I've noticed that when I get an attractive female masseuse then I end up thinking about happy endings and not the massage itself.) Trying to get back to my hotel was a pain. You would expect the guy at the front of Hilton hotel (not sure what they are called....they're the ones who open your door as you drive up and they also normally whistle the taxis over) to be more helpful and find a taxi for you, but nooo. I pretty much had to fend for myself. Since I live in Arizona and am not sure on how to hail taxis in a big city I just stood on the sidewalk like an idiot for like ten minutes just waving at all the cars. Finally this nice Chinese cabdriver took pity on me and dangerously cut off several cars to pick me up and whisk me off to my hotel. That night my friends and I went out to eat at this one wine bar/restaurant called First Crush. They had a fabulous wine menu (though I had the champagne flight) but the food way...eh. After that we went to this old timey bar called Rick House. They had the best drink ever called a Pleasant Evening. It tasted like Fresca and you really couldn't taste the alcohol in it (the best drinks are the ones were you can't taste alcohol...I hate the taste of alcohol.) We ended the night at Ruby Skye where Sasha was playing. There is a huge difference between the Phoenix nightlife and SF nightlife. In Phoenix people get super dressed up. In SF I saw a lot of girls dressed very casually and no makeup (that would not fly in AZ.) I think that the music was even different from what they would play in AZ. The club was okay....a lot older than the clubs in Scottsdale and honestly it was kind of stinky (had a weird smelly gym smell to it.)

Saturday we went to this awesome little tea house called Crown and Crumpet (I absolutely love tea houses....English afternoon tea is the best and I would do it everyday if I lived near a tea house.) From there we went to Fisherman's Wharf and Pier 39 where I did a ton of shopping. We had lunch at some pizza joint about 10 minutes away (we met some of my friend's friends there) and then went back to Pier 39. I was pretty exhausted at the end of the day and ended up crashing out really early until Sunday morning.

On Sunday we went to Chinatown and had dim sum. I love the concept of dim sum (food trolleys being carted around and being able to pick and choose what you would like to eat), but I wasn't too fond of the food. I also did a lot of shopping there. I bought a whole Chinese costume to wear for a shoot. I bought a cheongsam in black with butterflies all over it and black floral shoes to go with it. I'm not going to tell you guys what I bought to use for the shoot...but you guys will like it for sure. The only problem with the dress is that one of the buttons won't stay closed, but it's around the bust area so it's understandable. I'll definitely have to take it to a seamstress to have that fixed before I shoot in it. I also bought this adorable little Chinese outfit and this hilarious dragon hat for my little nephew. I hope to gawd the outfit fits since I really am not sure what size he wears (I got him a size 1).

I absolutely love traveling, but it's tiring for sure. Dallas wanted us to go to Vegas or Mexico for Spring Break (which is this week) but honestly two trips a month is more than enough for me. Besides I will be in Vegas next month and the month after. Tomorrow I am going to see "Alice in Wonderland" in 3D. This will be my second 3D movie ever....the last one I went to see was when I was like 11 or 12. I found out that the apartment above me is a corporate apartment. If you don't know what a corporate apartment is, it's pretty much an alternative to a long-term hotel stay. Unfortunately for me that means that I can potentially have a new neighbor every month. I've already had a stomper and a devil child (a child that makes an incredible amount of noise at all hours of the day/night with parents that don't seem to know what a nuisance their child is to the rest of society.) I think there is a possibility I may have another devil child neighbor....I pray that it's not so.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 18, 2010
Okay so last time I wrote a journal entry was before Miami Winter Music Conference, The Phoenix Forum and Coachella. So I'll start off telling you guys about WMC.

I've never been to Miami before, so it was great visiting a new city. The service there is absolutely horrible (especially for the prices you pay). I stayed at the National hotel (there was 3 people staying with me in this tiny room.) The first day (Thursday) we got to the hotel around 4ish and walked around the streets, shopping and stuff. We stopped by this cute restaurant for food and sangrias (I love sangria). We saw Biz Markie (I think that's how you spell his name). I had no idea who he was until my friends pointed him out to me and sang the songs that he sang. Dallas and I both got pictures with him. That night we went to Karu and Y to see Above and Beyond (and a ton of other DJ's). I can't believe how huge that club was...by far one of the biggest clubs I've ever been in. We didn't get back to the hotel until pretty late (this seemed to happen quite a bit during the trip.) The next day we went to the Surfcomber pool party. It was pouring rain outside which was a bummer at first but then became very amusing for me (watching girls in 5 inch heels running around trying not to get wet is hilarious!) We met this super nice couple from Ohio there and ended up hanging out with them the whole pool party. Later on the group went to Nocturnal (this was my friends birthday so I wanted to make it a lot of fun for him.) I didn't stay too long there because I was feeling super sleep deprived (I only got a couple hours of sleep Wednesday night because I was so excited...so I was really running low by then.) Saturday day we stayed at the hotel for their pool party which was a ton of fun....totally chill. Dallas and I walked around the beach for a bit and took some pictures (we both decided it would be terrible to be in Miami and not visit the beach/ocean once.) Saturday night was Karu and Y again. That night I didn't get back to the hotel until like 5 in the morning. Finding a taxi to take us back to the hotel was a pain in the butt. We found a taxi that was trying to get $50 for taking us to the hotel. I was okay with that but my friends got mad at the taxi driver for trying to rip us off. I ended up getting pretty sick that night (sleep deprivation plus being in the sun all day, drinking will do that to me.) Sunday I ended up staying in the hotel all day. I was supposed to go to the Surfcomber pool party again but ended up giving my extra tickets to my friends. Sunday night we were supposed to go to Bed where some of the local DJ's from Phoenix were going to be spinning. I'm sad that I missed it but I definitely did not feel up to it at all. We left on Monday....honestly I was pretty happy to be getting home. I think two days of partying is my max for sure.

The Phoenix Forum was at the beginning of this month. I was super excited about it (I had a ton of fun last year there.) The first day was awesome. Dallas was able to get a ticket through one of the guys that visits the club she dances at (it normally costs around $275 for a ticket and you have to be in the industry to get one.) I ended up doing a shoot there. The shoot turned out really well in my opinion. I did get an airbrush tan the day before so I do look super tan (and maybe a little orange in some of the pics). It was a super public shoot, possibly the most public shoot I've done so far. I was pretty nervous about doing public nudity around everyone but it was pretty chill and nobody really bothered us. I was supposed to shoot a second time but FTVRob didn't want to be at the forum any longer so we ended up stopping at one shoot. Dallas and I ended up hanging out at the pool with some of our friends who are in the industry for a couple hours before getting something to eat and leaving to get ready for the night. I had to drop Dallas off at her place since I picked her up and she decided not to go out again (I guess she wanted to see her boyfriend). I ended up going back for about 30 minutes but left because I started getting sick (you see a pattern here....I get in the sun and I get sick.) I felt terrible the next day too so I didn't end up going the rest of the time which I kind of regret but at there is always next year. I didn't do the topless dodge ball tournament because I didn't feel like I was in good enough shape for it this time.
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Coachella in Indio, California was amazing. I have never been to a real concert before (I don't really count seeing DJ's perform as a concert) so seeing bands play live was an awesome experience for me. We saw David Guetta, Deadmau5, Muse, Kaskade, Dirty South, Bass Nectar, Tiesto and a couple other bands there (mostly DJ's though...hehe.) The house that we stayed in was gorgeous. It was about 25 minutes away from the concert but that was perfectly fine with me since I was worried that we weren't going to be able to get a place to stay in the first place. I started looking for rental homes pretty late and apparently everything sells out really quick. The tickets for Coachella sold out and so one of my friends wasn't able to go and the other one had to sneak in the first day. This was by far the most chill music trip I've ever taken. I had maybe one drink the whole weekend and ended up getting plenty of sleep. The festival music started at like 11 AM and lasted until 1 AM but there was no way that I was going to the festival before 4 PM. The first day we ended up getting there at about 7 (Dallas made us take the wrong exit and we got stuck in traffic for like an hour at least.) The second day we got there around 5ish, which was pretty tiring. My one friend Erik ended up taking off, doing his own thing. Apparently he snuck into the VIP area and saw Beyonce, Jay Z, Pink and a couple other celebrities. Dallas and I both got pictures with the famous burlesque dancer Dita Von Tease. I thought I had booked the house only until Sunday but when I went through my emails I realized that I actually had it until Monday (the "check out" time was ridiculously early too....like 10 AM!) Dallas and her boyfriend ended up leaving on Sunday since he had to work on Monday. I didn't end up going to the festival on Sunday which I should have. Apparently my two guy friends ended up sneaking into the VIP area again and met a ton of celebrities. They met Jay Z and Beyonce, one of the guys from Hot Tub Time Machine, the guy from Crank, Paris Hilton, Tommy Lee, and a bunch of other celebs. I was totally jealous when they got back to the house and told me about it!
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I just recently got a new puppy. Her name is Love Bug. She's about 16 weeks old and a Papillon (I had a Papillon before...they are the best small dog breed ever!) I named her Love Bug because she is a super cuddler. She follows me around everywhere and sleeps about as much as I do. I was thinking about doing a residential boarding training program for her but when I really started thinking about it I realized that I want to be part of her training (plus some of the programs last like 3 months.) She's been doing amazing so far....potty training has been relatively easy. The only problem we have is that she hates her crate and when I take a bath or shower. She absolutely flips out when I take a bath/shower even though she can see me the whole time. It's been a pain since I love taking long baths and take like 3 a day sometimes. The chinchillas and her get a long very well. Actually they don't really pay attention to each other which is probably a good thing. The chinchillas cage is off the ground so Love Bug probably can't even really see them.
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School is going to end really soon here. We have about two weeks left which I'm really excited about. This summer is going to be full of trips (as usual). For my 22nd birthday we will be going to Vegas again. We are all staying at the Hard Rock so that we can get passes to Rehab on Sunday. Saturday night we are going to have a party bus for 4 hours and then we will end the night at Rain in the Palms where Paul Oakenfold plays. Like last year I will have a stretch limo pick us up and drop us off at the airport. I would like to go to the Anthony Cools show again because I really want to be hypnotized but I'm not sure how we will be feeling on Sunday night after all the partying we will be doing during the day. This weekend my friend is throwing his first pool party. This will be the start to the summer. I want to try making sangria for the party...that will be my first time making an alcoholic drink (well actually it's my second time...but I don't want to even remember my first time...jello shots that were the consistency of gel candles.)

[danielle_ftv]

May 14, 2010
Continued....
My glasses are ready so I will probably be picking them up tomorrow. I will for sure shoot in them on the 21st when I have my shoot day. I will also be doing my birthday shoot since I didn't get to shoot it on the 10th like I thought I would (I ended up studying for my finals instead.) If you didn't know, school is over...yippee! I checked my class scores....and I ACED my classes. Still a third year freshman though lol.

Picture of the cat that I want to steal from the vet...and no I won't steal it!
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[danielle_ftv]

May 14, 2010
Don't you like when I'm bored...I take pictures!
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My 22nd birthday is coming up so soon here. Honestly I'm not all that excited about it. I was going to celebrate it during Memorial day weekend but my friends were all like "Nooo! Las Vegas will be so expensive then. Let's go to Lake Havasu instead". Of course my friends being the flaky friends they are completely bailed out on Lake Havasu. What really irritates me is that I had planned on going to LV Friday through Sunday but then my friends were like "Nooo! If we are doing Rehab on Sunday then we don't want to have to leave early, all drunk to get to the airport on time." Well of course out of the 9 people that are going half of them are staying Friday through Sunday instead of Saturday through Monday. I can kind of understand though since Dallas has to go to school (she is in real estate school right now) and her boyfriend has work. I was hoping that everyone would stay at the Hardrock hotel (where I'm staying) but apparently nobody is staying there. It should be interesting to see how we coordinate everything. As long as everyone is on time to get on the party bus on Saturday then I will be happy. I was trying to get everyone to stay at the Hardrock because you get free passes to Rehab and the passes can get kind of expensive (like $50 for women and up to $150 for men.) But whatever, it's their money. I have to cancel the limo though since nobody is staying in the hotel with me (it would be kind of stupid to have only one or two people in a Cadillac Escalade stretch limo.) But then again, that saves me money to spend on random nick-nacks (did I spell that right?).

I really want to put Love Bug in this residential doggie boot camp. I thought it would be cool to train her myself....it would give us a chance to bond, but to be perfectly honest I'm way too much of a pushover to train her. She's totally gotten into the habit of begging for food...and of course I give it to her (though I would probably give it to her even if she was trained...I just don't want her to beg.) Plus I think she has wicked seperation anxiety. She's pooed in her kennel quite a few times even if I take her out right before I put her in. I assume that's because she's freaking out without me around. AND everytime I take her out of the kennel when I get back she completely freaks out on me. The doggie boot camp is pretty expensive (like $1,900 or something) and it lasts like 4 weeks but I think it could totally be worth it. The only things I would be concerned about is the other dogs around her and how they train her. I want the trainer to understand that when LB comes home that she will only be in her kennel when I have to leave (and that's not very often.) I don't want to have to put her in her kennel all the time. I would also want the trainer to train her to ring a doggie doorbell to go outside and potty. That would be so helpful to me. I've looked up the boot camp and they seem to be really good. I've found no complaints on them so far and the website gives a lot of info about what they do. I really want to get a cat for LB to have as a companion (though the cat has to be friendly to the chinchillas too.) I would love a cat that is super cuddly and very friendly like my old cat Idaho. I love this cat that I saw at the vet...she would've been perfect for me (picture in "continued" part of message).

EDC (Electric Daisy Carnival) is next month. This will be the second time I'm attending it. My friends kind of irritated me with the hotel situation here too. I was planning on staying at the Bonaventure Westin but my friend Mike was like "Nooo! Let's stay someplace cheaper and closer." So I started looking into it and we decided on staying at an Economy Inn or something similar. Well apparently it's the same distance away as the Bonaventure AND most of my friends aren't staying there...they are staying at the Bonaventure! So aggravating! The group this year going there is going to be huge. Dallas and I are wearing costumes like we did last time. One of the nights we are going as video game characters. I'm going as Yuna from Final Fantasy and I think Dallas is doing the Mario Brother's princess. The other night we are going as a cat and mouse. I am trying to get some of the guys to wear t-shirts that say "Cheese" or "Catnip" on it (I thought this was hillarious!). I actually need to get those t-shirts made pretty soon here.

My sister's 21st birthday was last weekend. We are Irish twins BTW. Irish twins are siblings that are the same age for a short period of time. We went to Romano's Macaroni Grill for dinner and Em started off with two fruity martinis while I had one sangria since I was going to be DD (designated driver.) We went back to my mom's place so everyone could get ready. My dad, Em's boyfriend, Em and I were the only one's who went (though that's the way Emily wanted it.) Nobody really knew where they wanted to go so I kind of forced everyone to go to American Junkie in old town Scottsdale. I payed for everyone's drinks there which ended up costing quite a bit. Emily had like 5 shots in the 30 minutes that we were there including a 3 Wise Men shot (I heard this shot was quite nasty but get's you really drunk.) We then went to this country bar in Cave Creek which was like 45 minutes away from old town. It was pretty interesting. I pretty much just sat by myself, drinking my Coke and eating peanuts while they all played pool. Emily was pretty drunk by this point (I think she had another 5 more shots there....her theme song that night was that song "Shots"..."shot, shot, shot, shot, shot...".) When the bar started clearing out we went to another country bar (this was at about 1 or 1:15...the bars here close at 2.) Everyone continued getting drunk. Emily and I had the best heart to heart conversation about our past and us not being able to show how much we love each other and things like that. I'm sure it was pretty funny to watch...two girls that don't look like they belong in a bar like that (though Em looked like she belonged there more than I did), holding hands, crying. I've got to admit I don't enjoy being around drunk people but being around my sister, her boyfriend, and dad was pretty amusing. The drive home was interesting to say the least. Emily kept shaking her booty right in front of my face while was trying to drive. We had to stop on the side of the road because all of them needed to pee. I thought it was hillarious how they were all lined up peeing (though I was kind of worried about a cop seeing and giving them a ticket for public indecency...though I'm sure my sister would've tried to talk him/her out of it since it was her birthday.) What sucks is that I couldn't even go straight home when I dropped them off. I had to pick up one of my friends because he didn't have his vehicle and drive him to his place...though it was only 10 minutes away from my house.

The next day was mother's day. I don't know how hungover everyone was...I'm sure it was pretty bad. We were supposed to do a bbq but mom decided to cancel it and went to the movies instead with dad. I'm going to give her the mother's day gifts I got her (a necklace, a sunflower windchimes, and a bunch of home videos that I had converted to DVD's) on Saturday when I go over to their house for dad's birthday. We are going to Famous Dave's and then going to see some movie (hopefully it's not Bounty Hunter or Date Night since I just saw it, though I know it won't be Iron Man 2 since my mom and dad just saw that.) Actually I just realized that we are going to see Robin Hood which should be pretty cool.

I had to get some cavities filled the other day. I've never had cavities before so it was kind of weird to get this procedure done. I guess the cavities were really deep because they had to drill into the teeth and fill them. I was so freaked out about getting the anesthetic shot. I scheduled the appointment later in the day so I would for sure get enough sleep and I ate a little before the appointment (I try to do these things so I don't pass out when I get stuck with the needle.) It's really weird because I hate needles and always get super faint when I have to get shots or get blood drawn but the thought of doing it to someone else doesn't really freak me out that much. Anyhoo so they had to give me 5 anesthetic shots which I thought was a little much but turned out to be perfect. The drilling wasn't bad at all and didn't really faze me though it was super cold on my teeth. The only thing that sucked was keeping my mouth open really wide the whole time (it took like an hour to do.) There was one point were my jaw started quivering and I couldn't really keep it open. My mouth still kind of hurts. I can keep my mouth open pretty long hehe...but that was a little too long for me. It was weird how much of my face was numb. I couldn't feel myself breathing and my eyes were numb too. When I got home I noticed that I had snot running all down my face. Hopefully that wasn't there for too long. Unfortunately they still have to fill in another spot. That appoinment is in another two weeks I think.

[danielle_ftv]

May 20, 2010
2:30 in the morning. Still up (completely typical of me though.) Just got done editing 2 1/2 candid photo sets. Took me about 3 hours to do. Should probably go to bed soon since I have a busy day tomorrow (got to get my nails done, my tires changed, and LB groomed.)

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[danielle_ftv]

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[danielle_ftv]

May 21, 2010
Hey everyone, I finally made an Amazon wish list. There is some pretty interesting stuff on there.

AMAZON WISH LIST (http://amzn.com/w/3OTDZEP1NI5JD)

[danielle_ftv]

May 21, 2010
Todays shoot went fantastic! I got to meet Geezer (one of my members here) and I got to see T-Bone Thomas again for the second time. They assisted my shoot (and took some pictures during it) and we had a really tasty lunch together with FTVRob. I got an "Earth Goddess" video and picture shoot done (yet again shot in another purple outfit), my 22nd birthday video and picture (I wanted to do my first squirt scene but it didn't happen...also didn't get as much pictures as I normally do for this shoot ) and a dressy, public resort video shoot (didn't get as much video footage as I normally do for this shoot.) But all in all today went great.

Here are some pics from today
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[danielle_ftv]

May 25, 2010

4 DAYS TILL MY 22ND BIRTHDAY!

Some of you were requesting pictures of me in my glasses so here they are.
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This one was taken a few days ago.
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[danielle_ftv]

May 27, 2010
I forgot to show you this site (http://www.totalpackers.com/2010/04/03/like-the-green-bay-packers-we-*******-rule/) that I was on. If you are a Packers fan then you should LOVE it!

[danielle_ftv]

June 1, 2010
My dog seriously just took a poo on my book right during my webcam schedule. Guess she doesn't like the Kings and Queens of England and Scotland.

[danielle_ftv]

June 3, 2010
Listening to Sneaker Pimps "6 Underground" by far one of the sexiest songs on Earth.

Honestly it's kind of depressing going through my website statistics on CCBill. I get thoroughly p!ssed when I see the chargeback numbers (a big F U to people who do that....I hope you burn in hell!) and especially when people cancel from my website and list the reason as "unsatisfied". What the heck are you unsatisfied about? Everything that is in the members area is listed in the non-members area. You pretty much see everything you are going to get before even entering the members area. I've covered pretty much everything that I can...and plan on covering a lot more in the future. I probably shouldn't be telling people how much this affects me (not that it really does all that much...just when I go on CCBill and I've only recently gotten a logon for the site.) I'm tempted to go through every single account and contact them and ask why they put down that they are unsatisfied (though that could take a pretty long time.) I always get a kick out of when people list their cancellation reason as "minor used card" (I have about 13 of those so far this year)....that's pretty sneaky! Glad to see that I'm popular with the under 18 crowd ;). Looking at the statistics it looks like the Americans seem to be the shadiest people. They are the ones who are getting refunds and doing other shady stuff. SHAME ON YOU! I completely understand listing "fraud" on the cancellation reason...actually I've had my card stolen and used only to join up on various porn sites (I got a kick out of that after I had gotten over the fact that someone stole the info in the first place.)

Today was a pretty busy day for me. I got my nails done, my eyebrows waxed, and my eyelashes done. I also got a smoothie (same kind as usual....passionfruit cove...kind of craving one right now) and went to Best Buy to buy the little tapes for the little video cameras but they were completely sold out so I bought a purple memory stick, a new charger for my camera, and some speakers for the computer Robbie Robhead gave me for my birthday/Christmas present. I was so tempted to buy a Flip Ultra HD camcorder (it's the perfect size to carry around in your purse for a random candid video) but since I'm trying to be less frivolous and financially responsible this year I decided it wouldn't be the best thing to do (though it would be tax deductible!) I was supposed to get airbrushed tanned but was so tired when I got home that I ended up taking a nap instead.

Since I am a total hypochondriac I know think I have hypersomnia....or maybe I have narcolepsy. Either way I tend to sleep at least 10-12 hours at night and then still want to nap during the day. I have an annual physical coming up so I will have to ask my doctor about that. I assume that I will have to do a sleep study at a sleep clinic, but how do you test for hypersomnia? I mean I assume that they will let you sleep as long as you want (I hope they do at least otherwise I will be grouchy as heck when they wake me up), but do they also keep you there like 24 hours to see how long you sleep?

[danielle_ftv]

June 11, 2010
Should I call/text him or not? I met this Englishman in Vegas last weekend at the Rehab pool party. I was totally not expecting to hook up at all in Vegas since I'm not into one night stands and generally don't like meeting people in a club type atmosphere. But we got along really well. The funny thing is I was the one to approach him (which is highly unusual for me). I was hanging out around his area for like an hour with my friends before I found an excuse to say hi. He was digging around in his man purse and I thought he was looking for suntan lotion (he has that super white English skin that seems to burn really easy) so I did a total ninja move and whipped out my lotion asking him if he needed any (apparently he was looking for a camera...not suntan lotion.) He's very funny and doesn't take any crap from me (which is a good thing since I need a guy that can "dish it" right back to me....Dallas says that we both like guys that have a teensie bit of a$$holish quality to them...I would disagree and say that I just like it when a guy can stand up to me and take charge like a real man should.) He's also very charming and has fabulous manners. We ended up spending Sunday and Monday together and I extended my trip to Tuesday so that I could spend an extra day with him. I feel so stupid because the last night I ended up crying a bit in front of him. I just get attached so easy and tend to fall in love really quick (not that I'm saying I'm in love with him or anything.) The thing is I can really only be with one person at a time. When I'm given my "heart/emotions" to someone the thought of being with anyone else is just so unappealing an that's what is happening right now. Dallas thinks I'm crazy and that I should look for someone else (especially since he lives in London) but I really can't. He knows about my website and is totally cool with it (I showed him a few of the videos). We talked about him visiting and I told him that since I work from home I could visit pretty much anytime. I know there is a weird unspoken rule about not calling or texting for three days, but I find that completely ridiculous. Dallas doesn't think I should call or text and that I should wait for him to do it first. I've added him on Facebook (actually I did that Sunday night) and he hasn't yet accepted my friendship request. Grr....I really want to cry right now. I'm so tired of all the mind games and B.S. that comes with relationships. Last night while reading a book I almost started crying because the main characters relationship seemed so perfect to me...something I definitely want and seem to have been looking for, for so long now. I seem to always have people tell me to enjoy being single and young but honestly I was never one to really like being single.

So anyways, Vegas was a lot of fun. The plane ride there was really easy. I ended up riding with Mike (Dallas' room mate) since everyone else was already in Vegas. The only people who went was Mike, Dallas, Dallas' boyfriend, Nikko, and Dave. I totally forgot my phone in Arizona and was supposed to meet up with one of my members at the Pink Taco a couple hours after I landed but wasn't able to since I couldn't figure out where he was. I ended up hanging around the Rehab pool where Pink Taco is hoping that maybe the member would recognize me. It was pretty freaking hot there and I was already pretty irritated because the Rehab pool people wouldn't let me bring my video camera with me into the pool area so I had to check it. My room also wasn't ready until a couple hours later (but that was okay since they upgraded my room.) What also sucks is that the room rate I got (I ended up getting a 20% discount when I called in to change the room dates) didn't include passes to Rehab so I really didn't save any money at all. The hotel room was very spacious which I was very happy about. At about 6 o'clock Dallas and I went to the Mac cosmetics store to get our makeup done. They were already super busy when we got there and when we tried to talk to someone about setting up a makeup makeover time the lady turned away and started helping these other girls. We were in a huge rush because the party bus was supposed to be at our hotel at 8 and it would take about an hour to get the makeup done and an hour to get ready, so we ended up complaining to the manager and she got us in about 10 minutes later which was so cool of her. The makeup job they did on me was absolutely gorgeous.

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We did end up being late to get on the party bus but that was because of Rob F (Dallas' bf), Dave, and Nikko. We had the party bus for 4 hours so we drove around Las Vegas the whole time. We went back to the hotel to pick up some of our friends who live in Vegas....which Mike was all happy about since that meant he wasn't girlless anymore. The girls that we picked up were pretty interesting. One of them ended up getting completely trashed and kept on offering to lick my ***** (which I would've gladly accepted if Dave, Nikko, and Rob F weren't on the bus.) Her friend and her also got completely naked and started traumatizing Nikko which made her boyfriend Dave mad. Mean while me being the completely sober one I go over and try to diffuse the situation. We ended off our night at Rain which was also another fiasco. Mike ended up disappearing with the two girls from Vegas...we later found out that he had an all night threesome with them. We met our LA friends Scott and a girlfriend and David who was there for the poker tournament. Scott was supposed to get us into Rain but apparently we weren't on the list (which he had been told we were) so we had to wait in another line for about 45 minutes while the group tried to figure out what to do. We were able to make it in because Scott finally talked to the right person and got us passes in. Rain was a ton of fun but the group ended up splitting up so I ended up spending most of the night with David. I met some guy and girl from Vancouver. They were a ton of fun and we went to Drai's afterhours club with them at about 2:30.

I only got about 3 or 4 hours of sleep on Saturday night so I was kind of iffy about going to Rehab and having to sit in the sun all day but I am so glad I did. Mike's old ex had a table near the Englishman I was writing about earlier so that's how I ended up around him. I really didn't drink much that day since I didn't want to get sun stroke (and alcohol tends to bring it on quicker.) Dallas was all excited because there was several times that the Rehab t.v. show cameras were on her. We ended up staying all day (I stayed even longer because I was hanging out with the Brit.) Dallas and Rob left because Rob had to catch a flight in a couple hours since he had to be at work the next day. That night Dallas, Mike and I met up with the Brit's group who had a table at Vanity. I loved the set up of the club but the music was terrible. None of my group really listens to rap or hip hop and that was really all they were playing. We didn't stay there too long...maybe until 3 or so then we all went back to my room and crashed out for the night. Monday we went to the Rio buffet. I absolutely love that buffet but the only reason I really go there is for crab legs and they weren't serving them at that time. Dallas and Mike ended up taking off for the airport while I went with my Brit to his hotel were we ended up crashing out again until later on that night. We didn't really do much that night since none of them wanted to get so drunk that they would be hungover on the 10 hour flight the next day. We ate at Outback (btw the sangrias there are pretty good), rode on the New York, New York roller coaster (my Brit didn't because he is scared of heights), then him and I went back to the hotel room while the rest of them went to the hotel bar. Tuesday day was spent walking around the Caesar's Forum shops. I didn't know this but apparently England doesn't have Victoria's Secret, so one of the guys was buying a bunch of body spray from there for his girlfriend (who he also met in Vegas the year before...she lived in Canada and moved to England to be with him and they've been together for 9 months now).

Leaving my Brit sucked big time. I'm really not sure if we will ever talk again. I really hope so because I really, really like him and can definitely see myself with him (and yes I know I've only known him for a few days...but so what....I believe in love at first sight and soul mates.) I have a bunch of presents from you guys that I have to do a video log for. I got a printer from someone but I think FTVRob accidentally took the gift tag off of it because I can not figure out who it's from. The other day I went out to eat at the Persian Room (one of my favorite restaurants) with FTVRob then we watched about 4 hours of Heroes. Yesterday was pretty busy for me. Dallas came over and we worked out together. We also went to the mall for books on juicing diets, Victoria's Secret clothing (which I really didn't need), and random stuff for my house. We also went to Petsmart were I almost adopted a kitten. Thank gawd I talked myself out of it because I don't even have all the necessary items for a cat yet.

I have a shoot this Sunday. I will be doing my 4th of July update and a shoot with Love Bug. I bought some very cute clothes for the both of us to wear during the shoot.

[danielle_ftv]

June 11, 2010
7:47 PM
Okay so the Brit finally texted me back. But the thing is I texted him at like 3:33 and he didn't get back to me until 7:29 (so 2:29 AM his time.) We sent a total of 7 messages to each other (4 from me) and his last text was that he just woke up for a glass of water and was going back to sleep. What the hell! Like seriously, I'm trying to figure out A)why he took so long to text me back, B)why he didn't contact me like a couple days ago and C)why it seems like he's being distant. I mean of course it could be that he spent 10 days in Vegas and 20 hours traveling between countries. He told me the reason he didn't add me on Facebook is because he rarely goes on there but that he would add me next time he's on there. I really think I'm reading way into all of this and I hate it! This is why I don't date because trying to figure out what the other person thinks and feels about you is way too difficult. I figure that obviously he wants to keep in touch with me still because he did get back to my text. I am not liking this at all. I don't feel like going out at all tonight but Dallas really thinks I should (but then again this is the same girl that thinks I should be taking pictures with tons of guys so that when the Brit does accept my FB request he will see how popular I am with the guys.)

[danielle_ftv]

June 14, 2010
Okay so I think I'm going to have to give up on the Brit. I realize that it's really only been like a week since we've seen each other and he may not like talking or texting on phones. What gets me is that when I went on his Facebook page to see if he finally added me I saw that he changed his profile picture and didn't add me. Now it takes a lot longer to change your profile picture than it does to press the "accept" button and add someone as your friend. I'm thinking he may have a girlfriend or he isn't that interested in me (which I can't believe since I got a text message from him saying that he "missed a certain someone" which I assume is me.) If he has a girlfriend I am going to be so p!ssed because he told me he didn't and I am not okay at all being the "other person". I don't like cheaters and I don't like being unknowingly involved in cheating. I just don't know what to do. Part of me wants to call or text him or even message him on Facebook and ask him what's going on. I really probably should give it up but then again I'm not a quitter at all and I had an amazing time with him and thought that things could work out even though we live thousands of miles away from each other. What I don't understand is how I'm not completely jaded at guys considering how much I get lied to. Honestly I should become a private detective because I ALWAYS find out about people lying to me. I wonder what the Brit would think if he read these journal entries about him. Personally I would be flattered but knowing my luck he would probably think I'm crazy.

So the shoot yesterday went very well. Love Bug was a total superstar. We started off doing the shoot with her at this office building park that totally reminded me of Texas. LB had a blast running around, smelling things. The next shoot was a sexy dressy shoot in the pink dress and white heels that I wore for my birthday celebration in the party bus in Vegas. We ended up getting caught by this one employee there. He was really nice about it, even apologized and said he wasn't looking as he was walking to the restroom. When he came out though he suggested that we leave which we did after taking a few more pictures. FTVRob and I went out to eat at this one restaurant Blanco's with some of Rob's friends. I will never eat there again...the service was incredibly slow and it took us an hour and a half to order, get our food, eat it and go. Though we did shoot a little bit in the restaurant so that kind of made up for it. After that we went back to the FTV house and shot my 4th of July shoot.

[danielle_ftv]

July 13, 2010
I just banned my first forum member ever. I will absolutely not put up with racist remarks. People make me so mad sometimes. I don't understand why people would take their time to go on a website just to make racist remarks. I realize that everyone has their own beliefs and I respect that but there is a point were you are taking it too freaking far.

End rant...so right now I am totally enjoying my life. I'm in San Diego still. Not sure when I will be leaving to go back home, probably sometime this week. I still have yet to do a photoshoot so I've been hanging out with friends and working/editing. I also went to a bonsai class on Sunday morning. Tomorrow night I will be attending some business class on copyrighting. Should be interesting. I also attended a Rotary ceremony with my friend. I'm definitely interested in joining Rotary now and since I have enough free time for it I think it would be great to do so. I've only had a couple issues being here. One is that it's so loud here. My friends play music like all day/night long (at least they play good Electronic music which I totally love.) Also the next door neighbors are super loud and you can hear like everything they say. It's kind of weird for me since I'm so used to being by myself and the apartments that I live in are incredibly quiet. The other issue is the heat and humidity in the house. The apartment my friends live in is super old and has no air conditioning. I keep my apartment at about 65 degrees all the time so it's been kind of hard dealing with the heat. But when I get outside it's absolutely fabulous. I love how cold it is here....especially since it's summer.

I am not looking foward to the drive back home (it's a terribly boring 5 1/2 hour drive through the blandest desert landscape ever!) I ended up driving instead of flying because A) I needed my car to get around and B) I wanted LB with me but wasn't ready to fly with her yet. Plus I can stay how ever long I want to without having to constantly change my flight.

LB is doing fantastic here now. At first she was super skittish (she still kind of is.) She kept peeing and pooing in my friends house but hasn't done it for a couple days now which I am very happy about. Apparently my friends thought my dog was way older than 6 months. They told me that I treat her like an adult dog and not a puppy. But the books that I read stated that she should be trained by now hence why I treat her like she's older. I really want to take her to a doggie park so she can play with some other dogs. There is also a doggie beach park here too which I would absolutely love to see her play in. She's never been in the water so it should be interesting to see how she reacts to it.

EDC (Electric Daisy Carnival in LA) was absolutely fantastic this year. Definitely better than last year. Like last year we got VIP tickets (the only way to go since VIP is 21+ and the rest of the festival isn't). VIP was pretty cool but it definitely wasn't as awesome as last year. Last year they has photo booths, a hookah booth, a massage booth, an airbrush tattoo booth, and people walking around with candy. This year they cleared everything out and just put in a lot of seating areas (which is very much needed when you are running around in 6 inch moon boots.) Another one of the minuses is the bathroom set up for the females. They have tons of bathrooms for guys but only two trailer bathrooms for the girls. The dj's were amazing. I met some new friends all of whom live in San Diego. Dallas completely forgot her ticket like 10 minutes into the cab ride to EDC so we had to turn around to grab them...I'm surprised at the patience cab drivers have. The first night I dressed up as a mouse (Dallas dressed up as a slutty cat :D.) I got a ton of compliments on my costume which was very surprising since I thought Dallas would be the one getting all the compliments. I always think it's funny when I get VIP tickets since the main draw of VIP is the open bar (only vodka and beer though) and I don't usually drink that much. I got recognized in public by one of my fans too. I was so excited when he told me that he knew who I was. We ended up hanging out a bit and he also got to meet some of my friends. I was totally ready to after party (I think I had one of those 5 hour energy shots beforehand) but none of my friends wanted to since they wanted to be rested for the next night. Trying to get a cab that night was a huge pain. We ended up walking 2 miles and finally found one (though I had to pay $40 for a $10 cab ride...totally worth it though!).

The second day Dallas and I were supposed to get our makeup done by a professional makeup artist. She ended up being an hour and a half late because of traffic (the same traffic we got stuck in the day before.) Dallas is fairly inpatient so she ended up flaking out and decided to do her makeup herself. I loved getting my makeup done. Since we were going as bumblebees I got a black, yellow, and gold makeup makeover done. I got a ton of compliments on this costume too...but that could also be because my costume lit up. I met this really cool guy there who also lives in San Diego (we'll call him D). We ended up hanging out most of the night. My friends left me at EDC and went to Avalon. I was kind of irritated with them since the only person who told me they were all leaving was my friend Monty. It ended up being a good thing though since I got to hang out with D who also drove me back to the hotel (absolutely perfect since I did not want to have to through the whole cab fiasco again.) We also ended up going about 10 feet away from the main stage while Paul Van Dyk was playing. D had those Fukoku vibrating gloves (you might have seen them on one of Lia19's updates). Anyways he used those to get us up to the front of the stage by touching people. I absolutely loved the look on people's faces when we would touch them with the glove. At first they would be all startled like "WTF was that?!" then they would get this look on their face like "OMG more please!"...it was hillarious. They parted like Moses and the red sea. Trying to get to sleep that night was a huge pain. My next door neighbor was after partying and they were playing their music incredibly loud. At first I was like "heck yeah, I could sleep to this" until I realized that I actually can't sleep when there is any type of sound. I had to call security on them twice before they finally turned it off.

The flight back wasn't bad especially since I had Dallas with me. I've been doing a lot better when flying recently but I assumed that would happen since I've been flying a ton (Southwest luvs me!) We had a total pig out day when we got back to my house. I think it's hillarious when Dallas and I have days like that. She was running around my house in a t-shirt and no pants or underwear.

[danielle_ftv]

July 26, 2010
I'm so silly. I'm making a list of male and female talent that I would like to "get with" hehe. Going to make a collage and post it up for you guys in a bit.

2:30 PM
Okay so here are the females that I want to get with

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[danielle_ftv]

Continued...

And here is the male talent I want to get with

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[danielle_ftv]

September 3, 2010
Wow...it's been such a long time since I've written a new journal entry. It's interesting too because honestly it doesn't feel like a long time. Of course I have been traveling a ton like normal and am pretty busy with friends and school. School started about a week ago. I'm taking English and Math this semester (not going to take any more than that since I will be traveling even more than I did last year.) My English class is already making me take a look at the word I'm using incorrectly. It's kind of driving me insane to be honest. I've also noticed that I say certain words way too much like...like lol. One of my goals is to stop cursing and stop saying "like", "um", "uh" (there's other words to that I would like to stop using as much but I can't really think of them right now.)

Love Bug is doing great. She did get in an accident (she fell down the stairs) about two or three weeks ago. It absolutely terrified me. When she fell she just layed there on the ground for about five minutes not moving or anything. I ran over to her, checked her purse, and started giving her mouth to mouth CPR. Driving to the vet was absolutely horrible. I was completely distraught and got lost a couple times. I was also having full blown panic attacks and was hypervenhilating. It would've been so embarassing fainting in front of the vet because of LB's injury. The vet was super cute to which didn't make it any better since I was a complete nutcase. So anyways they did a couple x-rays of LB and told me that she had a "mild to moderate" spinal injury. They gave me some pain pills and anti-inflammatories for her and said that she needed to be on "bed rest" for about a month which is pretty much what she does anyways (she's not to active of a dog and usually just cuddles with me most the day.)

Since the last time I updated my journal I've done two shoots. One was with this really cute younger guy who is training to replace FTVRob as the photographer and videographer for FTVGirls. I like his work but nothing really compares to FTVRob's...and it seems like his pictures aren't as vibrant as Rob's. I think he could do very well if he just continues training. He's also fairly quite....at least he isn't a creeper though. We did two photo/video updates. One of them was at an office building in my black Bebe dress where I did a panty stuffing scene. I ended up making the video of that a candid behind the scenes video. Apparently that was also the newbie photog's first time doing spreads...made it kind of weird for me lol though he was totally cool about it. The other video was at a bank in a white skirt and yellow spaghetti strap shirt. We did a masturbation scene there though I didn't get off and got really p!ssed off about. I ended up throwing the toy and cursing because I was so frustrated. At least I don't fake it.

The last shoot I did was in the end of last month. Renna Ryann (www.RennaRyann.com) our newest FTVCash contract star flew over from Florida. I don't know why but for whatever reason I thought she lived in LA. The flight from Florida to AZ is about 5 hours long and she had to wake up super early but she wasn't as tired as I thought she would be (actually she had more energy than I did.) I picked her up at the airport and we went back to my apartment so she could help me pick out clothes to shoot with (we both wanted to kind of match). The first set we did was in an office building. It was an awesome location and would've been an awesome shoot if it weren't so darn hot outside. Renna loved it...apparently the Florida humidity is way worse than the 105 degree dry heat which I can completely understand having lived in Texas but I was still sweating like crazy. Altogether we got 3 professional video and photo updates shot (the hot, office building one, one in sexy dresses doing oral, and another in casual clothes in the pink room with a cucumber.) We also did a candid video shoot in the big FTV house comparing how deep we could get the famous FTV toys (the Big 10, the FTV Monster, etc.). I know that Renna also did quite a bit of shooting by herself. She ended up staying the night at the FTV house (I offered to let her stay in my guest bedroom but she didn't want to bother me). We had a really nice dinner at the Cheesecake Factory and was going to see a movie but couldn't because of the time. A little bit after I dropped her off she called me asking me how to turn the lights on in the main bedroom. I guess she is kind of scared of the dark so I also ended up getting kind of creeped out too lol.

My San Diego/San Francisco trip in the beginning of August was fun. We didn't stay in SD for to long since we had to be at a friends martial arts tournament in Campbell (about 30 minutes outside of SF). The drive up to SF was pretty long but didn't really seem that way since there was a group of us. The tournament was fun to watch and definitely made me want to start taking self defense classes. I personally would love to take Krav Magaw classes and have looked into it here. Apparently they have about 4 or 5 schools here that teach it. In San Francisco we stayed at the Intercontinental. I got the most awesome room ever. There were floor to ceiling windows around half the room. I got this amazing cheese plate (if I ever see a cheese plate on a menu I have to order it.) One of the cheeses was awfully smelly though and ended up stinking up the room for a night. I thought it was hillarious. We went to this Japanese tapas restaurant. I've had Spanish tapas but never Japanese tapas so I talked my friend into going. I ended up ordering some of the weirdest things on the menu (if only just to say I've tried it). I got chicken hearts, beef tongue, and a couple other really odd dishes. Honestly the best thing I ordered there was the fried cheese :D. The next day we did a massage at Tru Spa (the same spa I went to last time I visited SF...love that place). We got lost getting there like two times. I was absolutely frustrated by the time we got there. We also visited Pier 39 where I got this cool Scottish knife with a blue stone in the hilt. There was also a fairy shop that I didn't get to go into last time I visited the pier but luckily it was open this time.

I got Dallas a few things since it was her birthday (which I ended up missing...though to be honest I really didn't know when she was celebrating it and I had prepaid for the room already so wasn't able to cancel.) I really did feel awful for missing her birthday. She was pretty upset with me for a while and wasn't really talking to me. I ended up making her these awesome Happy Birthday posters and cupcakes to which said "Happy Belated B-Day" (the car ride over to her house ended up smearing the letters so you couldn't read what it said.)Her birthday present is a "couples" massage and facial with me. I've taken my sister and a couple other friends to do massage and facials...they always love it.

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This week has been kind of crazy. I've been in party mode for some reason. I've joked with Dallas that I'm becoming an "Amazon Dallas". She's such a social butterfly and loves to go out so we've been side kicks this whole week. Last Saturday was awesome. We did a girls night out and started at American Junkie. There was only five of us (well four since one of the girls ended up staying at Junkie). After that we went to White House which honestly I didn't really care for. Maybe it was because I wasn't really in the mood to be there....I think it was the music. I don't really care for hip hop (which that club was playing a lot of) so wasn't all that into that club. Plus I was getting highly annoyed at the guys around us. There were these two idiots that kept on taking my fedora off even when I told them to stop. That's a complete no-no...it's like messing with a girls hair when it's all done up but even worse since my hair looked like crap underneath the hat.

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Afterpartying that night was awesome though. We stayed up until the sun rose...and then some. I love going to chill little house parties especially since quite a few of my friends DJ.

Tuesday night we went to Sapporo's for our girlfriend's birthday dinner. I've done tapanaki there about three times and everytime I get such a kick out of watching the chefs prepare the food. Wednesday night Dallas and I went to a couple lingerie stores to find costumes for Nocturnal festival this month in San Bernadino. I'm doing a purple, silver, and black theme. I already bought purple and black leg fluffys and sparkly purple and silver wrist fluffys. I also got purple fishnet hose and black fishnet arm gloves. Wednesday night I bought a really tiny black lacey skirt and some tiny booty shorts to go underneath. I'm probably going to buy a purple corset since I can't seem to find the right shirt for the outfit. And then there are these awesome hair "falls" that I'm going to have made in dark and light purple. I'm going to do my hair like Sailor Moon...overall I think it's going to look fantastic. After we went shopping we went to eat at FEZ which is this gay bar/restaurant in downtown Phoenix. I had the most amazing pesto Caesar salad ever. They even had key lime pie martinis which was really interesting since the only place I've ever seen those was in Salem, Massachusetts when I went there for Halloween in '07 I think it was. After FEZ we went to American Junkie where we ended up staying the rest of the night.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 12, 2010
I am about 90% sure that this will be my costume for this Halloween. I will be going as Queen Anne Boleyn (but with my head.) If I do decide to go as Queen Anne I will have to order the costume within the next few days since it's all custom made and will take about a month to make. I'm pretty excited about it though and think that it will definitely be the most extravagant costume at whatever party I attend. Speaking of Halloween parties...I'm probably going to stay here for Halloween since I will be traveling two of the other weekends in the month of October. I will be going to Big Bear, CA for Oktoberfest again like I did last year with all my friends. The cabin we are renting is even nicer than the one we got last year. It has a jacuzzi in the back which I'm sure we will end up using (though if it's anything like last year it will be super cold.) I will also be attending Monster Massive in LA for the first time ever. I'm trying to get my friends to dress up as Final Fantasy characters since I have the Yuna costume from Final Fantasy 12 (at least I think it's 12.) My friend Andrew is down to do a FF theme and Dallas seems okay with it to as long as I can find something "slutty" for her to wear (and yes she did request her costume be slutty.)

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Love Bug got spayed on Thursday. She is doing very well. She hasn't been messing with her stitches at all which makes me pretty happy though I do keep the Elizabethan collar on her when I'm not at home. She does not seem to like the collar at all though after the first 5 minutes of wearing it she didn't try to take it off.
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I also received my purple/black furry boot covers, fingerless fishnet gloves, furry black choker, and glittery purple/black bracelets for my Nocturnal costume. Instead of buying a shirt like I thought I would have to I found a sexy black almost gothic looking shirt that I've had for years now and have never worn. It will work perfectly though it covers everything in the front (it has a very high neckline...up to my throat). The back is connected by straps so I will have to tighten it somehow...probably with safety pins. Overall it will be a lot "darker" look than I normally go for...but it will work.

The boot covers...there are three colors (light purple, dark purple and black) but the dark purple and black seem to blend together in this picture.
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The fairy wings I got for LB....like mother, like daughter. She loves them to and didn't once try to take them off.
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[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 17, 2010
I wonder if I should start adding the journal entries as an update. I know of a few solo site girls who do that. It might also bring more attention to my journal updates since I am sure there are some members who only go on the forum to just look at the updates listing thread.

Sometimes I hate reading other people's blogs (well hate might be a little too strong of a word.) I went onto a blog today of a very well known porn star. She writes very eloquently...to a point that I almost felt...well dumbed down in a sense. I know I'm a smart girl, no doubt about that. But it's times like that when I realize that there are so many other people who are way smarter than me and for whatever reason that makes me feel incredibly dumb. It not only makes me feel dumb it makes me feel like I couldn't be an author (my back up job to being a doctor.) That especially happens when reading some books. I just think about how unlikely it is that I will ever be able to write as well as they do. I have a hard time expressing myself also. The words and thoughts are in my brain but trying to get them out...well it's incredibly difficult.

I watched some of the dirty cartoon porn that CaptnJack sent me. It's pretty hot stuff (though quite old...it is vintage cartoon porn though.) I also ended up watching a gay sex dvd which I also very much love. Being in a relationship with two very hot bisexual men who only have eyes for me (and of course each other) is my ultimate fantasy. I think that became my fantasy after reading the Anita Blake series by Laurell K Hamilton. I also just read book called Fairyville which was super, super hot. It's the first book I've ever read that had a full on gay sex scene in it with the most delicious descriptions about it. BTW delicious is one of the words that I actually really don't like saying. It kind of creeps me out for some reason.

I hate my upstairs neighbors. I think it's only a couple with their dog. They are just incredibly noisy. For about two days I had to listen to them having the world's loudest sex. The walls in my apartment are pretty thick. I've really never been able to hear my past neighbors, so the fact that I can hear the female screaming her head off during sex definitely shows she is being way too loud. I haven't heard anything tonight thank gawd. I hope that their next door neighbors complained about the noise. The sex noise wouldn't be so bad if they weren't going at it like bunnies. I mean all freaking day and night. Not to mention that they let their stupid dog bark incessantly when I know they are home, they walk around like they weigh a ton, and they play their awful music almost as loud as her bed voice (though to be fair I've only had to listen to their music once.) I figured I would wait it out and see if we have another noisy night before complaining to the apartment managers. Plus to be perfectly honest, it's incredibly uncomfortable hearing someone have sex when you haven't gotten laid in a long time :o.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 18, 2010
Okay so I've started adding journal entries as an update. It took me forever to plug them all in on the update thread. I also calculated that I have about 612 updates including the journal entries and webcam shows. That would mean I've updated my website about 1.2 a day. So for those of you who don't think I update enough...look at the numbers! For a solo site to be updating pretty much once a day is awesome. I have over 35,000 MB of video...and that's only my professional videos. My longest professional video is almost 20 minutes long. I haven't yet figured out how many pictures I have on the site...that would take quite a bit longer since I would have to go through every file and add them up.

By the way, we finally got the webcam issues fixed. Anoree and the tech guy pretty much did that without me (thanks so much Anoree). I'm acing my classes right now. I've been super weird about constantly checking my grades (like they would change overnight or something lol). Things have kind of switched around one me. English is kind of rougher than normal and math is actually going quite easy for me for once in my life. It sucks though because it seems like every week we have some sort of paper due in English. Personally I wouldn't mind just testing out of it but I've stuck with it so far so I think I'll just suffer through the next 12 weeks or so that we have left.

Love Bug is incredibly surprising. Somehow she has learned the command "stay". It's pretty awesome walking out of a room, telling her to "stay", and coming back and her being right where she was when I left...though sometimes she'll move around. But she seems to get the idea that I don't want to her following me around the house sometimes. Now if only I can get her to stop going potty in the house.

I did a spa day with Dallas on Thursday. Her birthday was in August and I told her that I would take her to get a facial and massage. I absolutely love spa days...and it's so much fun when you have someone with you. I've taken about four people on a "couples" spa day so far. The day spa I go to is also amazing. I recently found out about a massage membership they have. You pay $49 a month and you get a free massage. What's great is that if you don't use that months massage it just accumulates. Plus, if you want to get any more massages besides the one you get free it's only $49. Hehe...I feel like a spokesperson right now. I know I'm going to end up spending a lot of time there though.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 21, 2010
My neighbors woke me up with their loud sex. Definitely going to complain tomorrow (well today.) I got my lashes done last night. The lash lady had purple lashes so I got some put in with the normal black ones. They look pretty cool, though you can't really see them unless they are in the sunlight. I went shopping with Dallas yesterday...got a bunch of awesome stuff. I got a new bra and t-shirt from Victoria's Secret. Actually the t-shirts that I get from VS are my favorite shirts ever. I've bought about 5 or 6 of them now in different colors. I also bought this really funky fuzzy hood with bunny ears on it. It's pretty cute and I plan on wearing it when I'm snowboarding. I also got some makeup from Ulta for Nocturnal this weekend and we went to Michael's and got a bunch of beads to make jewelry.

I was pretty bored so I started Googling "Danielle FTV" and found my Alexa stats. It's pretty interesting to read about the "average" person who visits my site. Apparently the age group that is "over represented" is "18-24" and "55-64". Most of them don't have children. Also the education groups that are "over represented" are people that have "no college" or "graduate school". I thought that was pretty interesting. Here are the Alexa stats (http://www.alexa.com/siteinfo/danielleftv.com#) if you want to see them.

Today I need to do my English writing assignment, visit a tailor to get my body measurements for my Halloween costume, order my Halloween costume, update my website (actually I need to edit the video first...not sure why I didn't do that like two months ago when it was shot), do some video logs (super late on those), and renew my lease. I will probably be buying a house when my lease ends next year. I've been thinking about it for a while now and since it's the "best time to buy" (according to my realtor friends) and "I'm wasting money" (also according to my realtor friends) I think it's finally time I take the plunge. I should also probably go grocery shopping since I have absolutely no food in my house. Well I mean I have food but it's not food that I can just take out of the fridge and eat immediately (which I really prefer.)

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 28, 2010
Nocturnal this year was a total bust. It almost makes me not want to go to Monster Massive in LA next month but unfortunately I kind of have to since I told my friends I would and agreed to dress up in my Final Fantasy Yuna Gunner costume that matches one of my friends costumes. So anyways Friday night it took me about 2 to 3 hours to do my homework which is pretty unusual. Thank gawd I didn't end up going out since I wouldn't have gotten my homework done until about 2 in the morning (Dallas invited me out to some fashion show party at a bar but I was not going to go since we had to be up early for the drive out to San Bernadino, CA.) I didn't even end up going to sleep until about 2 anyways since I was super excited...I ended up having to take a sleeping pill. I also woke up because I forgot to grab my ticket for Nocturnal which I grabbed and put on top of my purse. The drive there wasn't all that bad. Dallas and I ended up bickering a little bit but I think that's because we were just tired.

SB was sooo hot. I was not happy at all about going to the festival when it was still sunny outside and 106 degrees. The costume that I bought did not look good on me at all (I'm thinking it was the McDonalds Dallas and I ate that morning for breakfest...the only good thing about waking up early is McDonalds breakfest.) Thank gawd I brought other costumes with me (I brought them with me so my friend Alisha could wear one for the festival though she didn't wear any.) I ended up wearing the black dress that I wore for the second day of EDC last year. My hair was also not cooperating at all. I bought a bunch of Glowbys (they are light strings that you put in your hair) but I only ended up wearing one. My makeup was also not going on right probably because it was about 90 degrees in the hotel room and I kept sweating it off. So really nothing was going right for me at all. I was pretty tempted not to go to the festival at all and I figured that with all the things that were going on it God's way of telling me not to go. Now the real kicker was when I found out that I had left my ticket at home.

Unfortunately I ended up having to pay for a general admission ticket ($80) and then upgrade it to a VIP ticket (another $100) so altogether I ended up spending at least $315 just to get into Nocturnal. The line to get into the festival would have taken us about 1 1/2 to get through but thankfully my friend Rob was eavesdropping on someones conversation and found out that there was a line for out of state id's. At about 11 at night I ended up getting really, really sick. Searching for a taxi to take me back to the hotel was a pain in the butt. I kept on walking up and down the street because I couldn't find one...though I also couldn't see anything. The taxi driver did not know the address to my hotel so I had to call 411 to get the address (thank gawd my phone even worked since generally no calls go through at festivals like that.)

I woke up at about 6 the next morning and rode back with my friends Alisha and Cindy. I'm pretty happy that I woke up that early since Dallas was going with Rob to visit his family and I would have been stuck driving by myself (Alisha and all them ended up leaving around 7:30ish.) I think this is my last year going to Nocturnal. Last year was bad (I had a panic attack in the middle of a line to get on this carnival ride) and this year was almost as bad as last year.

I have dance class today...actually two of them. Today lessons are a Bollywood dance class and a stretching class. BTW, I didn't use any of the dance moves I learned in my private gogo dance lessons at Nocturnal. Honestly though there were some good things about Nocturnal...the music was fantastic! Probably the best I've ever heard.

Love Bug looks so cute right now and smells super good (she was getting kind of stinky since I couldn't bathe her because of her surgery.) I boarded her when I went out of town this last weekend. I absolutely love the place that I board her. They are so great with her. They even take pictures of the dogs playing around during doggie day care. I was kind of sad though because on the ride back home after I picked her up she seemed super depressed...though I did pull her out of day care so she probably just missed her new friends. She perked up though when we actually got home.

Oh and apparently I'm failing my English class. I'm sure it's a mistake though since last time I checked (which was about a week ago) I was making a B+...one point away from an A-. I'm still making an A in my math class though. I'm telling you for whatever reason my brain has switched from liking English and having a really hard time in math to having a really hard time in English and a super easy time in math (though to be honest I really don't have a "hard" time doing English...it's just kind of boring and slow.)

I'm going to try to start answering my private messages every Wednesday. I missed last week just because I was super busy. Remember tomorrow I have a webcam show at 3:00PM.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 30, 2010
So I will be shooting content for my site on Saturday the 2nd. I am going to aim for 2 video and photo sets. I will probably do a dressy shoot in my black and white Bebe dress (that is if I'm able to pull it down to expose my boobs) and I'll probably do a casual shoot in my blue Victoria's Secret lounge pants and orange VS tank top. As soon as I get my Anne Boleyn costume in I will be shooting in that for my Halloween update. I should be getting the dress sometime next week and the jewelry and crown should be here the 3rd week of October. I just recieved the girdle today. It's quite pretty! We will definitely have to find someplace special to shoot in that outfit.

I'm thinking about getting this costume for the Scottsdale Halloween block party on Saturday, October 30th (I'm wearing the Anne Boleyn costume to the Wrigley Mansion Halloween party on Friday the 29th). Unfortunately there is no way I would be able to wear the Anne Boleyn costume to a club in Scottsdale. It's going to be way too crowded and the last thing I need is to have someone spill something on the dress.
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[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 1, 2010
I just put up my 100th professional video. Pretty crazy! It seems like time is just flying by since I've gotten in the industry. I had the strangest dream last night. FTVRob and FTVAaron (the FTVGirls recruiter) was in it and one of my members was in it too but I can't remember exactly who it was (it obviously someone I've either met or seen in pictures/video). Webcam show today at 3PM. Before then I need to get a manicure for tomorrow's shoot. I am also going to answer my private messages today since I forgot to do them until now.

The Thanksgiving update outfit I found is super cute. It even comes with a cute headress. I'm probably going to have Love Bug in part of the shoot to since I found a super cute outfit for her to wear (you guys will definitely get a kick out of it.) At some point I am also going to have to do a home tour shoot...not sure why I've been putting it off all this time. I think I was just waiting until I had absolutely everything I needed in the house (ie pictures, furniture, etc.). Only problem is now I need another bookcase since I have probably over 50 books sitting on the floor in front of the bookcase since there is no room for them.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 5, 2010
I am going to the doctor tomorrow to make sure that I don't have any serious problems going on with my stomach. Sunday morning I started feeling pretty bad. I couldn't keep any food down. Monday I started getting these awful pains in the left upper side of my abdomen. I have a pretty high pain tolerance but this was even a bit much for me to handle. The pains are still going on today. My mom told me that I need to either go to my internal medicine doctor or to urgent care...I would much rather go to my doctor than have to wait forever in urgent care. I really hope it's nothing serious. It sucks though since the appointment is so early in the morning, though I woke up today pretty early because of the stomach pains so I'm sure it will wake me up again pretty early.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 10, 2010
Today was interesting to say the least. I was supposed to shoot with FTVGirls Madeline but lets just say something happened that upset me pretty bad and caused me to not be interested at all in shooting. It sucked to because I spent about 1 1/2 hours having my hair and makeup done for the shoot. I definitely would like to get my hair and makeup done again for my next shoot and am thinking about getting it done for Halloween. Going to get my annual womanly exam done tomorrow and going to get tested for STD's. I'm a big believer in testing every 6 months even if you are in a commited relationship since people tend to stray. I just finished 4 video logs (still have 1 left to finish off the month.) I love it when I don't have to do multiple retakes and when the answers come easy to me (doesn't happen to often though.) The webcam show the other day was interesting. There were only 2 of the usual people there and a bunch of other random members I've never heard of before. They were getting kind of rowdy...definitely not what I'm used to at all. But it turned out pretty well. Ended up orgasming at least 4 times and used an anal toy. I went to the Tilted Kilt bar to watch the Cardinals game with my friends. I'm not all that into football but it's fun hanging out with your friends during a game especially when they are all gung ho about it (their energy ends up rubbing off on you.)

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 27, 2010
Well I was doing really well there updating my journal at least once a week. I guess things have just been pretty busy lately. Last time I updated my journal was on the 10th so since then I've gone to Octoberfest in Big Bear, shot in my Anne Boleyn costume and gone to Monster Massive in LA.

I'm probably not going to be going to Big Bear for Octoberfest again. We had to wake up pretty early to get to Big Bear by 3. The drive up there was scary. We were driving in my friend Mike's huge SUV and I couldn't stop thinking about how the vehicle was going to flip over (especially when we were driving up the mountain). I ended up having a full blown panic attack during the drive. The cabin we stayed in was absolutely gorgeous. Three stories, six bedroom. There was two pianos, a pool table and two jacuzzis. We had 11 people at the cabin this year. The first night was pretty crazy. I ended up drinking a whole bottle of port wine (which has a 20% alcohol content). At some point I was cuddling with a metal rooster (not sure why, but I was very attached to that rooster).

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I was pretty much the first one to pass out both nights. The Octoberfest celebration itself was awesome. I swung for this Burgermeister package which included dinner, a beer, a beer stein (which I left at Dallas' and haven't picked up yet), and a little medalion necklace. They had a little petting zoo with farm animals that I went in. I got to pick up and cuddle the cutest little goat. I also got the girls to get their faces painted. The highlight of the night though was when I went riding on the mechanical bull. I've got to say I did pretty well. I got a video of it which I will put up sometime soon. Not sure how long I stayed on since they didn't have a timer but it was for a pretty long time. I ended up getting off because the rope was breaking open the skin on my finger (I didn't wear a glove). It's still not completely healed. We didn't stay too long at the festival mainly because everyone had been day drinking and were also worn out from the night before. Dallas and I ended up just snuggling together and watched episode after episode of Jersey Shore while everyone else continued partying. The drive home wasn't too much fun. I got in a huge fight (over politics) with my friend Mike's girlfriend Megan (she didn't even know what party Obama belonged to), so I switched places with one of my other friend, Tarna, who was driving with my friend Ryan (apparently they had also been fighting). I was definitely happy to finally get home that night...I missed my books.

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My Anne Boleyn costume looks fantastic. It feels like the fabric on the shoulders is a tad loose but it still looks great. The jewelry (especially the tiara) is definitely my favorite part of the costume. I shot in it last week at FTVChris' place. I haven't yet got the photo/video from Rob so unfortunately that update is late. I'm hoping to get it tomorrow and put it up after I edit it. Wearing it on Saturday is going to be interesting. I think all of my friends are going to a block party in old town Scottsdale and the dress isn't really meant for that type of place. The hoop skirt makes the skirt flare out at least a foot around me. Thankfully it isn't stiff and should be able to fit through anything. I'm just also kind of scared about someone spilling something on me or accidently burning my dress with a cigarette. Some of my friends are talking about taking a trip to Las Vegas either Thursday night or Friday day and coming back on Saturday. I think it will be a ton of fun I just have to be back in time to get my hair and makeup done on Saturday (I'm probably going to have to reschedule my appointment for later in the evening). I bought a Princess Peach/Toadstool costume to go with my friend's Mario and Luigi costume. I'm really excited to get that though I think the skirt is super short. This is going to be Carter's first year trick or treating. He has the most adorable Monsters Inc. costume.

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Monster Massive was soooo much fun and I definitely plan on doing it again next year. I barely got any sleep the night before since I was so excited. I was driving with my friends Alisha, Katie and Andrew (we took Andrew's car and he drove). We were supposed to leave at 9 so we could get to the hotel around 3ish but we didn't leave until 9:30 (and I even showed up at 8:30 so we could leave on time). We were all pretty tired on the drive out there but perked up as soon as we got to the hotel. It was pretty amusing to because everyone (Dallas and Rob, Jaqueline, Adrian, Garrett, and Linsday) also ended up showing up at the exact same time as we did...totally not planned. Alisha was supposed to wear a Rikku costume but her costume didn't come in time so Andrew was the only other person wearing a Final Fantasy costume (Tidus). He looked pretty funny in it too since he has dark hair and wore a bright yellow spiky wig. About 5 or 6 people knew who I was dressed as so that was pretty sweet. Surprisingly I ended up hanging out with Katie and her friends Ben, Rolando, and Ren more than I did the rest of the group (totally unusual since I normally don't venture away from Dallas). I talked to two guys dressed up as Harold and Kumar (from the second movie) about my job and FTVGirls. One of the guys actually just signed up on my forum to which is totally cool. What was great about MM was that there was the perfect amount of people there. It wasn't too crowded like the massives normally are. After MM we drove to Hollywood to hang out at Avalon for afterhours. When we got to the front of the line (a 20 minute wait...I even saw the bouncer get bribed so that they could get in faster, the first time I've ever seen that in real life) we found out it was $30 a person which none of us really wanted to pay so we went back to the boy's hotel room (a really creepy, hostel like hotel) where everyone else met us. Katie and all of us ended up falling asleep (I like a group that likes their sleep) until the rest of the group came to the hotel then Katie and all them took off for some other afterparty while the boys and I just slept. The next day Alisha, Katie, and Andrew were not in the most pleasant mood since they hadn't slept at all. I did not want to drive with a group of people that were grouchy and hadn't slept (which is probably a good thing since apparently Andrew and Alisha were fighting on the way home) so I drove with the boys which was surprisingly fun. We talked pretty much the whole way home and the drive felt way quicker than it normally does.

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Tomorrow night I am going to the second annual pumpkin carving party my group has. This time we are having it at my friend Ryan's house. I kind of want to bring Love Bug since Ryan has a dog...but then again I don't want LB to get into anything (since we are carving the pumpkins on the floor there is going to be pumpkin seeds everywhere). Afterwards we are going to 910 Live. I'm not sure who is playing but they seem to get some pretty awesome dj's to perform. Apparently 910 is the new Cream where my group used to hang out on Wednesday nights to listen to EDM (electronic dance music).

BTW I made a new free picture section for webcam/cell phone pics. First one has been put up. PICTURE SET (http://www.danielleftv.com/webcampics/w001/w001.html).

11:58 AM
One of my grandma's died. This is awful.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 7, 2010
I was talking to my friend about their mourning style the other day. I always thought my mourning style was kind of abnormal. I've had three people that I know die (my dad, my ex-boyfriend, and my grandma). All three times I've mourned the same way. I tend to ignore the fact that someone has died. Well maybe ignore is the wrong word. Death doesn't seem to affect me that much. Maybe it's because I know they are going someplace better. To me death isn't so much the end since I know later on I will be seeing them again. I know that when my mom dies I will have a complete meltdown. I try not to think about death to much because honestly it scares me...to death...pardon the pun :).

The Anne Boleyn costume did not get used this year (well at least for Halloween it didn't). I did go on a trip to Vegas with some of my guy friends (which was a little interesting since I was the only girl there.) We had a ton of fun and the guys were complete gentlemen. We stayed at the Stratosphere (the first and last time I stay there). We got in town at about 11 at night. As soon as we got ready we went out on the town. All of us (at least the people from AZ...we met up with friends from Texas) listen to EDM so we were on a mission to find a club that played EDM. I know that Rain in the Palms plays EDM (at least it did the times I've been there) so we went to the Palms. Unfortunately Rain was closed so we decided to go to Moon. I never noticed that the whole dance floor in Moon is open to the sky. It was pretty amazing. Also they have a whole outside area where you can see all of Las Vegas. The club was awesome...hardly any people there, but the music was awful (they were playing rap and hip/hop...and not even hip/hop that I will listen to). After Moon the group went to Drai's for after hours. After about an hour in Drai's my friend and I took off back for the hotel. The whole next day we slept until it got dark (there really isn't anything to do in Vegas during the day in my opinion). That night we dressed up in our costumes. The guys were supposed to be Mario and Luigi but unfortunately the costume website sent them matching Luigi costumes. I went as Princess Toadstool. I wasn't too happy about my costume since when I bought it I thought it covered my whole midsection. False advertising! The top was sooo small (it made my boobs look huge though). It only came down to my natural waist line (maybe a little below it) so I had a few inches of midsection showing. Honestly I don't really like showing a ton of skin in public...and that was a lot for me. I couldn't wear the petticoat underneath the skirt because then half my butt would show. I also couldn't figure out how to keep the tiara on my head (it was made out of fabric and probably needed to be connected to a headband). I was pretty uncomfortable in the costume to be perfectly honest and wasn't wanting to go out (I also didn't eat that day since I wanted to be as skinny as possible).

The camera pic is pretty blurry
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We went to Tao in the Venetian. I think I've been there once before. I will not go there again. The place was sooo crowded. We stood in line for about 30 minutes just to get in. I was in there for about 5 minutes before I decided to leave. I do not like crowds. I don't like having to squeeze my way through hundreds of people. The only other time I've been that crowded was at Nocturnal '09 when I was waiting in line to get on that mechanical swing ride and I ended up having a panic attack. Luckily one of my guy friends wasn't too thrilled about all the people either so we decided to leave and go back to the hotel where we pigged out on room service and watched movies.

The next day (well night) I was supposed to go to the Ghost Ball at Axis/Radius with my friends but I ended up crashing out at 6PM and didn't wake up until the next day. I was pretty disappointed that I didn't wear my A.B. costume but then again I can always wear it next year. Sunday night I went to my parent's home. We were going to take my little nephew trick or treating (his first time doing that). He looked so cute in his little Monster's Inc. costume. He absolutely hated the hood though. It was my first year handing out candy to the little trick or treaters. I had to make a quick trip to buy more candy too since there were more trick or treaters than my mom originally thought there would be. I had a blast though handing out the candy. I saw the cutest little girl in the cutest costume. She must have been about 2 or 3 with little pigtails and glasses that magnified her eyes (that's probably similar to what my eyes used to look like when I was a little girl wearing glasses). She had on a ladybug outfit with these adorable little shoes that squeaked when she walked.

I can't figure out what time zone Arizona is in right now. I've looked it up and some sites say MST and other sites say it could be MST or PST. DST is annoying! I would hate to actually have to change the clocks for it (one of the many positive of living in AZ...no DST). I have a ton of clocks in the house and I am super anal about them being at the exact right time.

My doctor sucks btw. I think I am going to find a new one. It took forever for the doctor to get back to me and I think she probably would've taken even longer if I hadn't called them to ask about the results. So apparently everything looked fine. All the blood tests came back normal which I am very happy about.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 3, 2010
Sorry that it's taken me so long to write another journal entry. Honestly nothing much has been going on. Thanksgiving was great. I found out that pecan pie is one of the worst holiday foods you can eat...but I love pecan pie so whatever. I was supposed to be over at my parent's house at noon (we were going to eat early) but apparently the turkey didn't thaw all the way so we had to wait until 4 before we ate. Love Bug came with me...I dressed her up in her little turkey costume. We watched some of our home movies from when we were still living in Germany. It was pretty interesting seeing what I was like back then. My sister and brother were adorable! Later on I went to my friend Andrew's house. He had friends over for Thanksgiving (mostly people that don't have family in AZ). A few of us went to this bar/club called Chaser's for their house night. The music was so so, so we only stayed there for an hour and a half or so then went to our friend Tom's house. I didn't end up getting home until 4 in the morning (though thankfully at least I wasn't out until the sun rose...hate that).

Other than Thanksgiving nothing really interesting has been going on. I did a shoot the other weekend with the new photographer. He's getting really good. I loved the pictures he took. We shot three video updates and two photo updates (one of the video and part of one of the photo updates was public). Finals are next week. I'm really going to have buckle down and study hard next week. My grandma gets into town in a couple weeks too. My mom has a bunch of things planned for us to do. We are having a girl's day were we go and get our nails done and go to Postino's (one of my favorite restaraunts). I will be taking my grandma and sister to see the Nutcracker and we will probably eat downtown somewhere. We are also doing a cookie baking night (that is always a lot of fun to do). One of the nights we will be going to Zoolights at the Phoenix Zoo. We've done that pretty much every year since I was 16 or 17. We are also going to go up to Flagstaff (it should be Carter's first time seeing snow) for the weekend. Hopefully I can bring my dog because otherwise I will have to board her and I would love for her to see snow too.

For New Years I will be going to Oregon with a friend. Should be interesting since it will be super cold up there. I haven't told Dallas yet...she will probably be disappointed though honestly we haven't been talking all that much recently and haven't seen each other in a pretty long time. She's getting pretty serious with her boyfriend so she spends most of her time with him. I'm probably not going to do a New Years shoot...honestly I haven't decided yet. If I do I will wear the dress I wore for New Years last year. I wanted to do a retro 50's theme shoot for my Christmas update this year but some of the items I needed were out of stock so I decided to get another dress (that isn't retro...actually it's pretty modern) instead.

Tonight I am going to this rave called Hard Dance Nation. I love hardstyle so it should be a ton of fun. Tomorrow I was thinking about going to the Tempe Festival of Arts. I've never been to it before. Hopefully I can find some more fairy items for my house. Sunday I am going to one of my favorite restaraunts, Fogo de Chao. It's a Brazilian steakhouse. They have some of the best meats on Earth and their salad bar is to die for. I won't be able to eat all day since I will need to come there very hungry (there is sooo much food).

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 8, 2010
If you haven't noticed I had to reschedule the webcam show to next week. Not sure what I was thinking since this is finals week and I need to be studying super hard. Kind of freaked out right now about finals to be honest. I always get like this before tests...were I feel like I haven't prepared myself enough or I feel super busy and/or rushed. I also wish that finals didn't have to be during the month of December when everything seems so hectic anyways.

Quite a few of my friends go to the Conservatory here in Tempe (it's the best school in the country for recording arts). So a couple nights this week I've gotten to hang around the studios there and watch my friends record various things (one night it was electronic music, another night it was a folksy sounding song). It's pretty interesting seeing how they go about recording music. It's a ton of work and honestly seems kind of tedious.

Tonight I do plan on going out just for a while since I haven't really gotten to hang out with all of my friends in what seems like a long time (I haven't seen Dallas in a couple weeks now I think). I'm pretty excited too because one of my favorite dj's (Skrillex) is playing tonight at 910. This will be the first time I've ever seen him live. I think he is pretty new to the electronic scene and his music is incredibly different than most of the electronic music out there. Actually to be honest I can't even really figure out what subgenre he would fit into (something like electro probably).

You guys would be so proud of me. I've been eating super healthy lately and haven't really eaten out too much (though I did cave last night after the recording session and had Waffle House with my friends). My fridge is stocked with healthy, mostly organic food. There is pretty much no starch or sugar in my kitchen. And I've been finally really learning to cook. I bought three awesome cookbooks that teach me how to cook low cal, low fat meals and snacks. I also planned out my weeks meals in advanced (that is something my mom does too). It's fun cooking meals...surprisingly I haven't really messed anything up. The cleanup afterwards is a pain in the butt especially since I seem to have to get every dish dirty. My one concern though is that with all the food that is in the fridge (mostly produce) I think that it will probably go bad before I can eat it all. Unfortunately the produce that I am buying is pretty expensive since it is all organic.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 12, 2010
Well the laptop that I normally use for...well everything is completely screwed up. It won't stop freezing on me about 5 to 10 minutes after it's been turned on. I am going to hire a computer repair person to come over and fix both laptops and somehow make it so I can use the internet on the pc. I am also going to try to have all of my editing programs put on all the computers just in case something happens. If I can get pretty much all my website content off my laptop and onto the pc I will be very happy since it seems to slow it down so much. That way I can use this laptop (the old laptop) as my gaming laptop (that's what it was bought for), the newer laptop will be used for school and whatever else I would need it for other than editing and the pc will be used for editing. Honestly though I would be absolutely thrilled if we could get this all figured out and fixed by Tuesday at the latest since I A) can't update the website since all my content is on the other laptop and B) can't really use the webcam (I have a webcam show on Wednesday) since I don't have access to the webcam page on here. I definitely need the person to do on site computer repair since I absolutely do not trust anyone around my computers. I've heard horror stories about computer repair people going into your computers and looking at things on there.

I babysat my nephew yesterday night while my parent's went out to Glendale for a "night on the town". It's been so long since they have had a chance to relax and enjoy themselves so I was totally happy to take care of baby Carter (he was an absolute doll and watched a bunch of episodes of Arrested Developement with me...one of my new...and only favorite shows). I also went to Dave and Buster's. It was a ton of fun as usual. The past two times I've gone I've donated the points I've won to go towards gifts to Phoenix Children's Hospital (it's normally the smartest thing to do since I do not need stuffed animals or random little toys).

I need to go to Whole Foods and pick up some steaks for the next few days since I am going on a protein and veggie 3 or 4 day diet. My face has started breaking out a tad bit (most people laugh when I say it's breaking out because breaking out to me is like one tiny pimple) so I'm going to try cutting out sugars for a bit to see if that helps.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 13, 2011
If any of you have had problems with the v107 videos ("Lost and Found Orgasms Pt.2") I just fixed it. I forgot to rename the video file names after I uploaded them.

So it's been a long time since I've updated my journal. I just got back from my vacation in Puerto Vallarta. I'm itchy from all the darn mosquito bites I got there (I put on some anti itch creme which seems to help a little bit) and I am sunburned (though the sunburn is turning into a tan on my arms). I got to fly private (one of my girlfriends is dating some guy that is super wealthy). It was soooo cool being in the cockpit. I got to sit up there for most of the way there. I'm surprised how comfortable I was flying on a small plane (normally I freak out on planes). I think I wasn't so scared because I could see everything that was going on. The pilot did a couple tricks with the plane that freaked my girlfriends out (I thought it was hillarious!). We got lost pretty much every time we went outside. The villa we stayed at was absolutely stunning. It had five bedrooms and 5 1/2 bathrooms. I picked the bedroom that had purple pillows. The view from my room was stunning (actually the view from every room was stunning). We were on a mountain so you could see the ocean for miles and miles and we also had jungle views. The house came with a maid, a cook, and some guy that helped out with pretty much everything (he brought us drinks, helped us make reservations, etc.). The first day we got there we didn't really do too much. My friend Lyn was obsessed with going into the hot tub but unfortunately it didn't get hot the whole time. One night Lyn decided she was going to fill it up with hot, boiling water...which didn't work at all but was incredibly funny to watch. The second day we were there we had masseuses come over to the villa. I got a facial, a body scrub and a 90 minute hot stone massage. I was worried that I would smell like the body scrub that I got which smelled like cleaning products but thankfully it washed right off. The third day we went on an atv tour through the city and mountains. I didn't think to bring a bandana and sunglasses so I kept getting sand and dirt in my eyes and on my face. We stopped at this little bar that was right in the middle of the jungle. Since there was no one there Lyn and I went skinny dipping in this river. Lyn is so funny...we asked how cold the water was and she told us that it was pretty comfortable...liar! I got in there and froze my butt off. Of course later on I found out it was a mountain fed river. A ton of people ended up showing up 5 minutes after we got out and got dressed. We then rode over to a zipline tour. I've been ziplining before but didn't this one required a lot more hiking than the last one I did in Jamaica. Lyn even went upside down on the last zipline. We left on Wednesday (though we wanted to stay an extra day...we couldn't since the pilot had to be somewhere on Thursday). I would love to visit Puerto Vallarta again though I would do a lot more activities if I did. Apparently Lyn and Theresa travel a lot...they were talking about going to the Virgin Islands next. Hopefully they do it when I don't have school.

I just looked at the pictures from the last shoot that I did (last Saturday). They are awesome. I am incredibly happy with how they turned out and I think you guys will love the updates. They were all done in public. I did a school girl shoot in a park/school were I did a stocking stuffing. I also did a sexy dress masturbation shoot at an office building. The other shoot I did was a white dress shoot in glasses and knee high boots. That one was a dildo play scene.

Christmas was pretty hectic. My grandma (my mom's mom) came in from Texas for a couple weeks. My mom had something planned for us to do pretty much every night that she was there. At first I was pretty excited about grandma being here but after a couple of days traveling back and forth and spending hours with my family I was kind of over it. I got some cool presents Christmas day. My dad got me my favorite gift...this beautiful snow globe with a fairy inside it. The next day we all went to Flagstaff for a couple days. I brought Love Bug with me. I wasn't too sure how she was going to do in the snow but she was awesome...just jumped right into it and was prancing around. We didn't do too much in Flagstaff...the second day my dad, my sister and I went snowboarding. I bought my sister a super cute boarding outfit while we were up there. I did surprisingly well. The only time I fell down was when I got off the ski lift and when I purposely fell down. My dad was awesome! Apparently he hadn't boarded in like 5 years but he totally looked like a pro. My sister didn't do too well. It was her first time boarding...she's moving up to Alaska next month so she said she is going to try learning up there.

I left for Oregon on Wednesday the 29th (pretty much the day after we got back to Phoenix). My friends told me to bring warm clothes but I must have been tired when I packed because none of the clothes I brought were super warm. I remember looking around the baggage claim and seeing everyone dressed in dark, warm jackets and scarves (that should've been my first clue that I wasn't dressed appropriately for the weather). I on the other hand was wearing my light blue VS lounge pants with my orange VS tank top with a thin white jacket over it...yeah I was cold! We went to downtown Portland to get something to eat but before we ate I had us stop by Macy's so I could get a scarf, hat, and gloves. At the restaraunt I tried duck which I didn't care for at all since it tasted slightly gamey (I hate gamey tasting meats). I actually stayed in Corvallis which is about an hour and a half from Portland. We stayed in my friends family friends home (it reminded me of the homes in Winona, TX where I used to live). We didn't do too much while we were there, mainly just walked around (the town and the college campus). They drink a ton of coffee up there so we ended up doing the same. Apparently caffeine doesn't affect me like it used to since I didn't get wired on it and was able to fall asleep pretty easy on it. We didn't have anything planned for New Years eve (I didn't even bring a dress to wear for that night). The night before we decided to go to downtown Portland since my friend's friend was DJing at some club/bar. The hotel we stayed at was right on the river and not too far from downtown where we spent most of our time. Since we didn't have anything to wear for that evening we went to Macy's again. We didn't end up getting anything since I couldn't find anything that I liked (which was a good thing in the end since none of my friends friends were dressed up). There is a big difference between the clubs in Scottsdale and the club/bar in Portland we went to. It was interesting to see how none of the people were super dressed up. I guess appearances don't matter all that much there (at least compared to stuck up Scottsdale). It seemed like most of the people there went to the club/bar just to have fun...not so much to pick up on chicks/guys. The music they were playing was pretty iffy. They were playing a lot of rap, hip/hop, and top 40's. Some of it was okay. Every once in a while they would play some EDM (electronic dance music). I guess EDM isn't too big in Portland since almost every time they would play it everyone would kind of stop dancing (while I on the other hand would get up and start dancing). The town the next day was completely dead so we didn't get to do too much. I could totally see myself living there. I enjoy the rain and cloudy weather so that wouldn't be a problem (though it was sunny pretty much the whole time I was there).

School starts on Tuesday. I'm not too excited about it. My schedule isn't too bad though...I only have school noon to 4, Monday to Thursday. Today is my nephews birthday. I have to run to Toys R' Us and buy him his gift. I really don't want to have to drive all the way out to my parent's house. I've been traveling so much that really all I want to do is just lay around and sleep (though at this point I've probably already caught up on sleep).

9:32 PM
My two year anniversary for the website passed (sometime in December). Thinking about how things have progressed and how much the site has grown is astonishing to me. For all of you who have been with me since the beginning and all of you have recently joined...thank you.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 25, 2011
I am trying to find a home to rent for my friends and I for Coachella. People must rent the homes way in advance because everything is completely booked. We had this same problem last year but luckily were able to get a home because someone backed out. I think we are going to have a lot more people going this year. I've had at least 6 of my friends saying that they are going to attend. The lineup for Coachella is awesome. I would like to see Sasha, Afrojack (this is a must see for me), Sander Kleinenburg, Skrillex (another must see), Paul Van Dyk, Fedde Le Grande, Laidback Luke, Chuckie, and Duran Duran. Most of the bands/dj's I want to see will most likely be in the same tent so luckily we won't have to wander around everywhere to see the dj's we want to see. I'm not sure how we are going to manage seeing the bands on Friday since we are most likely going to be driving up there on Friday. I think we are probably going to leave on Sunday too so we probably won't be going to Coachella that day.

I visited Austin this weekend. I had a pretty good time though I didn't do much. As usual I brought the wrong clothes with me so I was pretty cold throughout the weekend. Saturday night we went to 6th street to this bar called Seven Red. I've never really seen a bar like it before. I didn't particularly care for the music but watching the bands perform was highly entertaining.

School is going well. I love my English class and my history class seems like it should be pretty easy. The teacher mainly lectures the whole time and I think the only homework we have is just reading chapters out of the book. I dropped my math and psychology class. I will be taking those two classes next semester. I plan on taking the CLEP exam on a few different courses that way I can get some more credits for this semester.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 31, 2011
F'ing spammers! I hate spammers. I mean seriously way to waste your life you stupid spammers. I just had to ban a bunch of people and delete a bunch of threads because they were all spam(mers). Lameness. Going to Best Buy to exchange my headset since it's not wireless and then need to go grocery shopping since I have absolutely no food in my house and have been eating out all last week. I also need to buy my Valentine's lingerie and toy for my Vday update.

I'm sorry for missing my webcam show too. I don't know what the heck I was thinking since I scheduled it during one of my classes.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 8th, 2010
One of my fans sent me this link (http://damnyouautocorrect.com/5122/15-most-popular-autocorrects-from-january-2011/). I recently got a new phone (HTC Evo 4G...stupid to have a 4G phone when we don't even have a 4G network in AZ yet) which I absolutely love...but the word autocorrect is a pain in the butt. I also don't really like how the pictures come out on the phone...the flash on it is incredibly bright.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 25, 2011
Good Lord I slept a lot last night (went to sleep at 9pm and woke up at 10am). I think I needed it though since I haven't caught up on sleep in forever (mostly because of my Vegas trip).

So Vegas was a lot of fun. I drove up with two of my friends on Friday. We were supposed to leave at 10am but didn't end up leaving until 11am. I had to drop off LB at my mom's house so that was another 45 minutes slightly out of the way. We got stuck in 2 1/2 hour stand still traffic on the I-93 because of an accident. My phone didn't work so I couldn't even play on the internet or anything. We were surprisingly patient during that 2 1/2 hours. My friends and I stayed at the Tropicana. The room wasn't too bad....it was actually quite spacious. The only thing I didn't like was that it got incredibly humid in the room occasionally. I don't know if it's a common thing for hotels to do now but if you have more than two people staying in a room they charge you more money. I really don't understand that since we stayed in a room that could fit 4 people. My friend Jessica had a promoter friend that she thought was going to "hook us up" for a couple clubs. We started off at this one lounge club called Blush. It wasn't too bad to be honest. The only thing I didn't like was the music. We thought that there was going to be a hosted bar (free alcohol) but apparently that was only for girls and didn't start until 11pm (we ordered a drink 4 minutes before and didn't find out about the 11pm rule so ended up having to pay $30). I really wasn't in the mood to drink so I only had a glass of champagne. We left Blush and went to this one club called Surrender. Jessica and I got in free but our friend Ryan had to pay a $40 cover fee which again irritated them since they thought that the promoter was going to "hook us up". It was pretty much a waste of $40 since we only stayed there for about 10 minutes. I loved the club though. They had a bunch of gogo dancers and it was very spacious. I was pretty surprised about how many girls were in the clubs. Usually the guy to girl ratio is like 70:30 but it was almost 50:50 everywhere we went. We met up with some of our friends at Tao (I hate that club). Again we really only stayed there for about 10 or 15 minutes. I was irritated as heck because it was so crowded (that's the main reason I don't like that place). My friend Jessica almost got in a fight with some girl that started pushing her for no reason. As we were walking out some random guy grabbed my butt. At that point I was so irritated that I was ready to slap him but fortunately for him he took off and I couldn't find him.

Jessica was sick the whole morning and part of the afternoon since she drank so much the night before. We didn't really do much besides eat and hang out with Dallas and her boyfriend Rob. We took a short nap because we knew that some of our more energetic friends were going to be coming in soon and that we probably wouldn't get any sleep until we got home the next day. There was a huge group of my friends going to the Marquee to see Above and Beyond. Our friend told us we had to get there at 8:30 at the latest so we could actually get in. Luckily we did get in and didn't even have to wait in line since we had bought our tickets pre sale. My friend Rob wasn't in a good mood at all because one of the door men made him buy new shoes that cost $280 (he was wearing nice white shoes that would've been perfectly fine in any other club...we just think the door man was being mean). The drinks were incredibly expensive. Dallas bought two double drinks that cost $55. I didn't want to drink at all since I didn't want to be hung over the next day driving back to Phoenix. Everyone was irritated because they were playing top 40's and hip/hop (though mainly hip/hop) right before a trance concert. The club was completely crowded. I really do think that they were way over capacity...it was actually kind of scary how crowded it was. Above and Beyond didn't even get on until 1:30...they were supposed to start at 1pm. I ended up leaving at about 3 since I wasn't in the mood to deal with pushy people anymore (plus I needed to get sleep since I was driving home). The Cosmopolitan where the Marquee is at is a beautiful hotel. I definitely need to stay there sometime. Most of my friends "out partied" Vegas. Apparently they stayed out till all the after hours clubs were closed.

The drive home wasn't bad at all. Jessica, Ryan, and Austin slept almost the whole way home. I almost fell asleep on the road a few times. I didn't want to have anyone else drive since A) it's my car and I don't really trust other people driving my car and B) they were all sleep deprived.

Valentine's day was really nice this year. A whole group of us had a pot luck at my friend Andrew's house. I brought chicken alfredo and an apple cobbler. It was a very laid back Valentine's day which I actually really enjoyed.

Spring break is coming up here pretty soon. Some of my friends are going to Lake Havasu for it. I'm not a big fan of hanging out on boats all day in the sun but it will be something different so I will most likely go. I need to start getting out in the sun a bit before Havasu so I can get used to it and hopefully not get sun stroke and/or bad sunburns like I normally do. I've never been to Havasu but everyone says it's a lot of fun.

I just bought a gym membership to LA Fitness yesterday. I've been eating healthier too. I want to get in pretty good shape by my 23rd birthday in May. I think I can do it if I go on a diet that consists of mainly protein and veggies. My friend who is a personal trainer is going to help me out with that. He told me I need to start doing 30 minutes of cardio right when I wake up and then eating right after that. I also need to start eating smaller meals 4 or 5 times a day. I normally stop eating at about 9pm so I don't really have a problem with that. He told me I need to be doing cardio about 5 or 6 times a week (preferably 6) and then weights 3 or 4 times a week. Weights are pretty easy for me and I don't mind doing it at all...it's cardio that I have a problem with. I have really bad exercise induced asthma and that really affects me doing cardio. I have an inhaler and that seems to help a bit. But to be honest it could also be my fault since when I do cardio I really push my limits.

Love Bug's 1st birthday was last month on the 18th. I feel bad that I forgot about it...I probably would've made her a doggie cake or something. I realized today that I've been in the adult industry for 3 years now. My first porn shoot was up on the internet in March 2008. It amazes me how time just flies by without you noticing. It also feels like as I get older time passes by even quicker. I am incredibly scared of getting older. I used to be the baby of the group but my friend Jessica recently came into the group and took that title from me :D (she's only 21). I want to experience as much as I possibly can before I get to old or before I don't have time because of school. I have friends that are in their 40's and 50's and still go out to the clubs but I figure I probably won't be able to do things like that since I will be too busy with work. Plus by that time I hope I will be married and have children.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 15, 2011
Nothing much has been going on. It's spring break right now which I am really happy about. I don't really have any plans. I was supposed to go to Beyond Wonderland in San Bernadino, CA but decided not to. I am editing my videos and photos from my last shoot on Saturday the 12th. That shoot was actually pretty crazy. The locations we shot at were beautiful but we almost got caught many, many times...I'm actually pretty surprised nobody called the cops on us.

Last Saturday I had a two hour "session" in this BDSM dungeon in Phoenix. It was absolutely amazing. I got to explore a whole different side of me. The dom used a whole bunch of BDSM toys on me including a violet wand (loved it), a posture collar (I actually loved not being able to see what was going on), and a suspension bar (I didn't go all the way off my feet, just on my tip toes). Unfortunately the dom used the whip so much on my lower back that one of my lower back dermal peircings flew off. I just got that fixed yesterday (it was incredibly painful since skin had grown over the anchor). I definitely plan on going to the dungeon more (probably about twice a month since it is kind of pricey).

I also found new male talent to use. We are going to discuss it more on Thursday I think. I don't think he has any experience shooting so I'm not sure how that is going to work. I was thinking about that this morning actually. Getting the video will be a lot easier than getting the photos (honestly I will probably only get enough photos to make the video cover page). I will have to borrow FTVRob's photo camera and just use a small HD video camera for the video.

This year has definitely been a year of improvement for me. Recently I've been working out a lot more (pretty much everyday actually). I've been eating healthier too. I've been waking up earlier and haven't been sleeping as much as I normally do. I've also noticed that I've been distancing myself from people that I think have a negative influence in my life. Saturday I am supposed to go to this sweat lodge for some ceremony. I'm not exactly sure what it is or how it works so I will have to write about it after I've done it.

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 25, 2010
Last Saturday night I attended a sweat lodge ceremony. My mom was all freaked out about it and tried talking me out of it (and even had my sister try talking me out of it too). I didn't really have any expectations of it and really didn't know what was going to happen. My friend who I went with didn't really tell me too much about it. I was kind of irritated too because when I went through the orientation I found out that I was going to have to speak out loud in front of everyone (that is a pretty hard thing for me to do...I hate public speaking and get incredibly nervous and shy around new people). It turned out pretty well. I now know what hot yoga feels like after having been in the steaming, hot sweat lodge with 20 other people. I'm not sure if it is something I am going to do again. I told my friend Theresa about it and she was thinking about doing it also (if she goes then I will probably go with her so she at least has someone there that she knows).

Other than that things have been pretty chill. I haven't been going out too much. Pretty much the only times I've gone out were when I was meeting up with friends to go eat. I'm kind of over the whole clubbing/partying scene....though I have had the urge to go dancing for the past week now.

Sunday I will be shooting a hardcore scene for the site. I'm kind of nervous about it because the male talent is going to be shooting it. Unfortunately he doesn't have any experience shooting so I have absolutely no idea how it is going to turn out. I am thinking I will probably make it a candid video update for a couple reasons (one being that we don't have a professional camera so we can't take pictures for the coverpage). I think that as long as the video isn't shaky and the lighting isn't too dark I will be happy.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 2, 2011
I am so not happy right now. My internet service has been completely screwy lately. I had a webcam show today and the video kept freezing numerous times. I also had to reupload the hardcore video about 4 times before it finally completely uploaded. I just don't understand it. I am supposed to have the highest speeds available and for the money I pay I shouldn't have to deal with these issues. There was a lot of new people who watched the webcam show today. I am hoping that they don't think that the faulty webcam show today was typical of all the webcam shows.

Tonight I am going to my friend Laila's birthday dinner and then we will be going to the Marquee to see Wolfgang Gartner. I haven't seen a lot of my friends in quite a while so it will be nice to see them all. I don't plan on making it a long night since I have plans tomorrow.

Last night was fun. I had girl's night with a different group of my friends (not the typical group I hang out with...though I notice myself hanging out with my friend Theresa quite a bit more lately). We had dinner at Theresa's house. She made an amazing cheesecake pie. She invited a psychic over that did a psychic reading on most of us. A lot of the stuff the psychic said was pretty true for me. It was a good experience. Not sure if I plan on doing it again. I've already had my palm read, a handwriting analysis, and a tarot card reading so this is another fun thing that I get to cross off my "to do" list.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 15, 2011
Last night was great. I attended another sweat lodge ceremony. This one was very small (only 5 people including myself). I was definitely a lot more comfortable this time. I was incredibly happy with myself at the end. I felt like I really stuck with it and for the first time I didn't have that hard of a time speaking in front of people. I would definitely attend another sweat lodge ceremony if there are less than 10 people there.

I am incredibly excited about tomorrow night. I scheduled another two hour BDSM session at the dungeon. I am very interested to see how it will go this time and what will be different. I bought this new book called "Screw the Roses, Send Me the Thorns". It's all about BDSM...the lifestyle, the culture, the pyschology behind it. It goes over what it means to be a dom and what it means to be a sub. It also goes over all the BDSM terms and instruments (floggers, bondage devices, etc.). Apparently I am what the BDSM world would consider a "brat". According to the book a brat is "A bottom who enjoys struggling against control or challenging the top...some brats are "testing" their dominate, others have the desire to be "conquered and tamed"." I think it definitely describes me and what I was acting during the last session. I think the description "the desire to be conquered and tamed" is a very apt description for me.

My friend Theresa and I are attending this spiritual retreat in Sedona next month. I think it will be very good for the both of us and I am hoping that it helps us to learn more about ourselves and what we want from life.

[danielle_ftv]

May 11, 2011
Sorry that it's been so long since I've wrote a journal entry. School's over....yeah. My sister's 22nd birthday was last Sunday (same day as mother's day). We will be the same age until my birthday on the 29th. My sister love Outback Steakhouse so we went there for her birthday dinner/early mother's day celebration. For her presents I got her Chanel Mademoiselle perfume and tickets to go see some reggae concert. For my mom's mother's day present I got her a gift certificate to one of her favorite hair salons. I actually have to go pick the gift certificate up tomorrow since I wasn't able to get it on Saturday or Sunday. My dad's birthday is this weekend. We plan on going to a bbq joint for his birthday celebration. I got him a gift card to Amazon since I wasn't exactly sure what he wanted.

I took another "step" on my spiritual journey. A couple weeks ago I attended a healing circle ceremony. It was a pretty long ceremony (I was there from 5:30 to about 11 at night). I didn't do too much other than just sang some healing songs over and over again. It was a good experience but I don't think I will do another healing ceremony again unless it is for someone close to me.

Last Saturday (after shooting and my dinner with the family) I did another two hour BDSM session. This time it was a bit different than the last two sessions. We added a role play element into it. The master was a interrogator and I was a "lady of the court" who had stolen from the king and queen. I rented a 12th or 14th (I researched it but couldn't exactly pinpoint what century it was from) century dress. It was kind of hard to get into character at the beginning....I don't really consider myself an actress. I very much enjoyed it though. It was nice adding something new into my BDSM experiences. The master also did a lot of electric sex toy play. He had used the violet wand on me during the first two sessions and this session not only did he use that but he also added in some other electro sex device (I think it is a Mystim). During this session I was also fully suspended from my wrists (so my whole body was completely off the ground). I didn't care for that too much since I felt like my wrist was slipping out of the restraints. We also did a lot of wax play which I did during the first session but didn't like (I never really realized until that point that I have a fear of hot wax). It was incredibly difficult for me...mainly mentally, because I had to really focus on getting over my fear of hot wax. The whole reason I have a fear of hot wax is because when I was younger I accidentally dropped a whole cup full of incredibly hot melted candle wax all over my face, chest and arm. It scarred my face and I thought the scar would be there for life. Fortunately with a lot of care it went away. I am pretty bruised up right now (mostly on my thighs though). BTW when I do my sessions there is absolutely nothing sexual that happens. It really is only about BDSM. I think for some people it is difficult for them to realize that you can separate sex from BDSM...that they don't go hand in hand.

I really haven't been hanging out with my friends too much lately. I've notice that I've been leaving behind things that I thought had negative influences in my life. I've been spending more time with my friend Theresa (who I am going to the Sedona spiritual retreat not this weekend but next weekend with). It makes me a little sad that I'm not as close to Dallas as I once was. There is actually a possibility that she may not be coming to my birthday dinner celebration which saddens me even more. I just think it is interesting how people change and grow apart from other people they thought would be in their lives forever. I know I can always make more of an effort to spend more time with them but I think I am at a different place in life right now. I will be with them for Electric Daisy Carnival in Las Vegas next month. I still need to buy one of my costumes and make the other costume. One of the nights we are dressing up as the Village People. I will either goes as the biker or cop. The other night we are dressing up as daisies. That is the costume I am going to have to make.

I had to take Love Bug for her yearly vet exam. She had a ton of vaccinations to get done. Luckily she is healthy. The vet did tell me that I need to start brushing her teeth (I was using some teeth cleaning gel on her...but I guess that wasn't working too well). She does have really bad plaque build up in her back teeth...and really bad doggie breath which might be because the plaque.

[danielle_ftv]

Jun. 05, 2011
I finally got my birthday video log done and up on the site. I pretty much just woke up, got out of bed, brushed my hair, and shot it. I like the video logs more when I don't really practice what I am going to say and just talk...it's definitely more candid. I've started wearing my Body Bugg again. I got kind of bad about what I was eating and not exercising but I am getting back into the swing of things. Constantly plugging in what I eat into the Body Bugg system is kind of a pain in the butt so I've just been counting calories during the day and trying to stay within 1200-1300.

I recently attended a drum circle/pipe ceremony. It was very interesting. I love Native American chants and songs. Trying to sing along was pretty hard though since I couldn't figure out exactly what the lyrics were. The sacred sexuality class I am taking is next weekend. I still need to buy some things for it like little gifts to give to who ever we partner up with and a corset for some dress up part of it. I know there are four levels (maybe more) of this sacred sexuality class...I will be on the first level. Depending on how well it goes then I will probably attend more of the classes. This first level though isn't so much about sex with other people...from what I gathered it's more about how you deal with sex and sexuality.

This month is going to be pretty hectic. Not only will I be attending the 3 1/2 day sacred sexuality course but I will also be going to Las Vegas for Electric Daisy Carnival and then the next day after I get back home I will be going to New York City with my best friend Theresa. What's really going to be difficult is that EDC is being held at night...so pretty much as soon as the sun goes down till when the sun goes up. It's really going to screw with my sleep schedule. I am also thinking of taking some other classes this month (though they are only a couple hours rather than a couple days). I found this one class on "transforming your life" that seems incredibly interesting. There is another class called "Understanding Your Spirit Guide" that I am also interested in taking.

Talking about classes, I just signed up for Fall semester courses. I will be taking a math class, and English class, macroeconomics, a mythology class and another class that is supposed to fulfill a social and behavioral sciences course credit. Macroeconomics is kind of a different class than what I would normally take. I was interested in taking it though so that I can understand more about what is going on with the economy right now and so that I can "keep up" with people when they talk about stuff that pertains to it.

My birthday was a lot of fun this year. Instead of traveling somewhere I decided to stay in town and keep everything kind of low key. I stayed at a gorgeous resort for the weekend. Friday night I went out to eat with a friend. Saturday I went to the resorts spa and got a massage and took a "botanical bath". Saturday night I went out to eat with some of my friends that were in town. Unfortunately Dallas and her boyfriend Rob (two of my best friends) were out of town as was Theresa. FTVRob came to dinner with one of his friends. We were the only people that arrived on time. Everyone else showed up way late (like 30 minutes to an hour late). Sunday I had lunch with my family and went to Castles n' Coasters. I was going to go to Wet n' Wild (a water park) but it was soooo packed and I wasn't too interested in standing in lines for hours.

I also saw Thor and Pirates of the Caribbean that weekend. I started researching Thor after the movie and found out that they are making an Avenger's movie with him in it that I am so excited about seeing. Actually what I am incredibly excited about watching is X-Men: First Class. I am a huge X-Men fan. I am also interested in seeing how the girl who plays Mystique does since she is going to be playing the main character in one of my favorite book series (The Hunger Games) that is being made into a movie. I'm not sure how they are going to make that movie the right way. I'm sure they want a PG-13 rating but the way the book was written it would be an R rating (there is an incredibly amount of violence in it especially considering it was published by Scholastic which normally publishes books for children and pre-teens).

Next month I am taking a trip to LA. I am going there for about four days to visit Six Flags: Magic Mountain and then will be going to Raging Waters. I also plan on going to a spa while I am there. I am also going to be taking a "Body Mentoring" class that is all about self esteem and how to love your body. That's supposed to go until September though it's only 6 classes.

I've been having a lot of trouble with my internet lately (though mostly when I am uploading videos and doing webcam shows). I tried uploading the most recent hardcore video for two days...seriously...two days. In the end I had to put it on a memory stick and give it to FTVRob to upload on his computer. Unfortunately he didn't have my user/pass for FTP access and wasn't able to put it exactly where it's supposed to go. I really should call Cox and have them fix whatever is going on or at least figure out what it going on but honestly I keep on putting it off because I'm sure it's going to be a huge hassle and pain in the butt.

The lesbian neighbors upstairs are still driving me nutty. Fortunately I haven't heard them having sex anymore since I put a note on their door telling them that "everyone could hear them having sex and to keep it down". Unfortunately their dog is still a pain in the butt and runs around with heavy feet and barks. I also got woken up this morning with them screaming and fighting. Honestly that relationship just doesn't seem that healthy to me but who am I to judge. My lease ends in November and I definitely plan on moving to a house. I want to live in Tempe and I definitely want a newer house with at least 4 bedrooms (more rooms to shoot in).

The Sedona spiritual retreat I attended a few weeks ago was absolutely amazing. It was very much life changing for me. Since then I've noticed that I've been more positive and haven't been as stressed out. I learned a lot of great things that I am trying to do in my life (like meditating and saying affirmations). It was an intense retreat and I am incredibly thankful that Theresa told me about it and that I went.

Sedona was gorgeous. It was so green and lush where we stayed. When I get married I want to get married at the inn that the retreat was held at (or at least somewhere around there). It was also very peaceful. I actually wouldn't mind moving there if I could live near/on Oak Creek (though it is quite expensive). I didn't bring my laptop with me and it was suggested that we not use our phones so that we could focus on ourselves and what we were there to do. I've never really not had my phone around me so it was a little weird at first but very much helpful since it kept me so present. The day before the end of the retreat we went to a vortex (can't remember which one). A tradition that they do at the end of the retreat is jump into a river. I did it figuring it would be a great way to "purify" me and wash away all the negative things I didn't want to carry around me anymore. It was an amazing experience....but the water was freezing lol!

[danielle_ftv]

Jun. 25, 2011
Shooting content for my site today. One of the scenes/sets will be my 4th of July shoot. I really need to write a journal update...and answer my private/visitor messages. I will do that later tonight.

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I just got home from one of my favorite Tempe restaurants (Tasty Kabob). I love that fact that I have been comfortable enough to eat by myself in a restaurant. So I'm not attending EDC. I bought my tickets, my flight, reserved my hotel room and even bought my costumes but when I thought about it I realized that I really wasn't all that interested in going for multiple reasons. I think the main reason I wanted to go was to hang out with my friends but being in the 95+ degree heat, surrounded by tens of thousands of people (most that are on drugs) did not sound appealing at all. I really do think I am past the whole club/partying stage of my life. I definitely want to get my friends to do fun stuff besides just going to a club. I've been talking to them about going bowling and my friend Jessica mentioned going skating which sounds like a fantastic idea. I haven't been roller skating since I was in my early teens.

I will be heading to NYC with my friend Theresa on Monday. I am quite excited about it. The weather is definitely going to be a lot better than here (at least it will be cooler though I expect it to be humid). Theresa texted me today asking if I wanted to go skydiving which I instantly agreed to. I'm hoping that I can get a video of it so I can put it up on here. Besides the whole skydiving thing we really don't have anything else planned. I think we are just going to play it by ear...which works for me. I'm a bit concerned about the sleeping schedule though. She wakes up super early (like before 8) while I tend to sleep until 11.

I'm editing the videos from today's shoot. We shot two video scenes and two photo sets. One was my 4th of July shoot. We did it at this awesome office building that had a huge fountain in the middle of a courtyard. Of course I had to get completely naked and jump in the fountain since it was so hot. The other scene was a park scene with me sliding down a slide, swinging on swings, and playing with bubbles. I'm most likely going to make it a candid video update since the video was pretty washed out.

The sacred sexuality class that I took was incredibly interesting. We started on a Thursday at about 5 and ended around 11. The schedule was pretty intense to be honest. I'm not used to attending classes from 8:30 in the morning to 11pm or even midnight. We started every day dancing in costumes that we brought. We had to bring costumes that we thought fit the theme of "Lusty Lover" (I brought a short black, lacey lingerie dress), "Adventurous Explorer" (I brought a pirate costume), "Goddess/Priestess" (I brought this sexy, see through Egyptian looking dress), "The Dominant or Submissive" (I bought a black corset and custom made cuffs and collar with white lace and purple flowers), and the "Wild Woman" (I wore tight brown booty shorts with a top made out of feathers). I definitely put a lot of thought and effort into the costume/dressing up part of it. There are 4 levels of this sacred sexuality teachings. I will be taking the 2nd one in November, the 3rd one in December and the 4th one in February. Apparently you have to bring a partner with you to the 3rd and 4th levels since they do involve sex. This level was more about learning who you are as a sexual being. I found out some interesting things about myself (one being that I really can't focus too well when there is too much noise). There were a couple things that happened that made me very uncomfortable but when I really thought about what it was that was making me uncomfortable I found out that it was something to do within myself. I realized that I have a lot of sexual guilt...from things I've done (mostly in the past) and because of things that were done to me (which I really shouldn't feel guilty over). I'm hoping that the other levels will help me get over my guilt and help me get over judgements and certain thoughts I have about sexuality and sex. Overall it was a good experience and I glad that I went through with it.

[danielle_ftv]

July 18, 2011
Facebook has gotten kind of lame. Every day I usually go through all the recent posts...it seems like people update their status with the same thing every day (though one of my friends did put "flamingos are whores" which I thought was a fantastic update). I love summer time and not having to go to school but to be honest it's been kind of boring and repetitive (other than when I am traveling). I tend to do the same thing every day...sleep in, wake up, check FB, the forum, my email, and several other various sites, go read for a bit, eat, read some more, eat, read while eating, then go to sleep...and repeat. I have done a True Blood and Harry Potter marathon. I want to rewatch all the Harry Potter movies before I go see the last movie in theatres. At the end of the month I am going to LA to visit Six Flags and then will be driving to San Dimas to visit Raging Waters. It's funny because I seem to be more afraid of some of the slides in Raging Waters than the roller coasters in Six Flags.

New York City was amazing. It's interesting because I never really cared for NYC but I really started liking it this time around. We stayed with one of Theresa's friends in Nolita (north Little Italy). The apartment we stayed at was very large for NYC. My sleep schedule was completely screwed up while I was there. I usually didn't get to sleep until 3-4 in the morning and then would wake up at 9-10am (which is definitely not enough sleep for me...but I managed quite well on it). Riding the subway was interesting. Luckily we never rode it when it was too crowded (which wouldn't have been a good thing at all). We went to H&M a few times (I got the cutest bras there). I had a panic attack our second visit there because of the crowd (hence why it was a good thing the subways weren't packed...packed subway, panic attack...not a good combo). We visited the farmers market which was amazing. I absolutely love it and very much wish that Phoenix had one like it. They had this fresh chocolate milk that was to die for. There was also quite a few cheese vendors which was fantastic for me since I absolutely love cheese. Sky diving in upstate New York was amazing. I didn't start getting scared until the drive up there. I did a tandem sky dive and my instructor was awesome. I told him just to push us out of the plane. It's interesting because I wasn't so much scared of dying...it was more the thought of jumping out of an airplane that freaked me out so much. It was quite surreal once you've jumped out of the plane. I think my brain kind of shut down a bit because I didn't really remember what happened until later on that night. If you haven't sky dived before I definitely recommend doing it. I actually plan on going to sky diving school and getting my license when it cools down a bit. It's kind of an expensive sport (the schooling alone costs almost $4000).

My grandma (on my mom's side) got married again. She's kind of like Elizabeth Taylor in that she's been married like 5 times. It makes me wonder if my sister is going to be the same way since she is already 22 and has been married twice already. I've been thinking about marriage lately. I definitely plan on getting married...and I know that I only want to do it once. I used to want a large wedding...the whole shebang but recently I've been thinking that when I do get married I would rather just elope. I really want to get married in Sedona (Oak Creek is absolutely stunning and would be perfect for a wedding location). It's silly that I think about this since I don't have anyone to marry lol. But women are like that...we've been planning our perfect weddings since we were little girls.

My photographer/videographer has agreed to shoot my hardcore scenes. We will be shooting this Sunday at a beautiful resort in Phoenix. I'm quite nervous about it. I've done several hardcore scenes in front of people but he's never shot a hardcore scene before. I'm not sure how it's going to go so wish us luck. I am planning on doing my bdsm shoot next month. Again it's going to be very interesting to see how that goes since it will be new for all of us.

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 2, 2011
When did the FTVGirls side of the forum get taken down? I'm interested to see how many people are going to continue posting on the forum now that it's no longer up. I will be uploading the flash version of "Romancing the Mask" today. Hopefully it completely uploads. I never realized how big flv files are. They are twice the size of the 6000kbps video file.

My LA trip was fun. The drive out there wasn't too bad...just kind of long. We got into Valencia at about 8 or 9 at night, went to get something to eat, then went back to the hotel and crashed out. We were up at 10 the next morning (which is pretty early for me to be up during the summer time)...but it was necessary since we had to get to Six Flags early to be able to ride as many rides as possible. I splurged and bought the Platinum Flash Pass (it's a ride reservation system that let's you not have to wait in line for the rides). I ended up also buying "reservations" to ride X2 and the Green Lantern ride. We didn't ride all the rides but did go on X2, Green Lantern, Apocalypse, Colossus, Jet Stream, Ninja, The Riddler and Scream. X2 and the Superman coasters were my favorite rides. The Green Lantern ride was very interesting. It's unlike any roller coaster I've ever been on. We drove from Valencia to our hotel in Industry after we were done with Six Flags. The next day we went to Raging Waters. I hadn't been to a water park in years so it was a lot of fun being able to go on the slides. The lines were pretty long which made us not go on very many of the slides. We ended up leaving the water park around 5:30 since we were meeting up with a friend to have dinner (plus we were pretty tired).

I'm heading to Albuquerque on Friday and will be there till Saturday. I'm meeting up with a friend of mine. There is some sci-fi/horror convention event going on that we might attend. Should be fun.

I hope you guys enjoyed the Romancing the Mask professional video. I think it turned out pretty well considering it was my photographers first time shooting a hardcore scene. I was incredibly nervous about it...more so than both James and my photographer. The resort we shot at was absolutely beautiful. It sucks that we didn't shoot outside but to be honest it was way too hot to do that. Unfortunately for the next few months all my shoots will be indoor shoots. I've found some beautiful locations to shoot at when the weather cools down again. I am also shooting the bdsm scene this month. It's kind of difficult scheduling it because the bdsm scene has to be shot after all the other shoots and my photographer can really only shoot on the weekends, plus we have to work around James' schedule...it's definitely tough to work out.

I'm not sure what to do for the next hardcore video "theme". I suppose that we can shoot the hardcore scene during the bdsm scene (James is going to be the Master for that shoot). We've already shot an only sex video (well...I think there was a bit of a blowjob in it...but it was mainly about sex), a blowjob ending in a facial scene, a cum in mouth scene, a boob job scene, and a sex/bj ending in a cum on **** (well...more like the chest and stomach area lol) scene. It might be cool to do an outdoor sex scene but that would be shot when the weather cools down. I also want to do a foot job scene (ending with James cumming on my feet). And I will also be doing my first anal scene this year.

I'm also thinking about doing a weekly or maybe bi-weekly poll on some random topic pertaining to my site and me. Any topics you guys would like me to cover?

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 13, 2011
I am thinking about buying or leasing a new car. I did some serious research on the best used cars to buy and came up with a short list:

Infiniti (http://www.cars.com/go/search/detail.jsp?tab=summary&recnum=&actLog=&listingId=71188063&paId=409596982&listingRecNum=0&criteria=sf1Dir%3dDESC%26alMdId%3d34103%26mkId%3d2 0019%26stkTyp%3dU%26mdId%3d21153%26mdId%3d38826%26 mdId%3d21151%26mdId%3d21179%26rd%3d30%26crSrtFlds% 3dstkTypId-feedSegId-mkId-mdId-prcId-yrId%26zc%3d85282%26prcId%3d28576%26rn%3d0%26PMmt% 3d1-4-0%26stkTypId%3d28881%26sf2Dir%3dASC%26sf1Nm%3dpric e%26yrId%3d20201%26sf2Nm%3dmiles%26isDealerGroupin g%3dfalse%26rpp%3d50%26feedSegId%3d28705&tracktype=usedcc&pageNumber=&numResultsPerPage=50&largeNumResultsPerPage=0&sortorder=descending&sortfield=PRICE&certifiedOnly=false&&aff=national)
Hyundai Genesis (http://www.cars.com/go/search/detail.jsp?tab=summary&recnum=&actLog=&listingId=70249475&paId=407555294&listingRecNum=2&criteria=sf1Dir%3dDESC%26mkId%3d20064%26stkTyp%3dU %26mdId%3d21221%26rd%3d30%26crSrtFlds%3dstkTypId-feedSegId-mkId-mdId-prcId%26zc%3d85282%26prcId%3d28576%26prcId%3d28575 %26rn%3d0%26PMmt%3d1-1-0%26stkTypId%3d28881%26sf2Dir%3dASC%26sf1Nm%3dpric e%26sf2Nm%3dmiles%26isDealerGrouping%3dfalse%26rpp %3d50%26feedSegId%3d28705&tracktype=usedcc&pageNumber=&numResultsPerPage=50&largeNumResultsPerPage=0&sortorder=descending&sortfield=PRICE&certifiedOnly=false&&aff=national)

They all have pretty good ratings (the Infinity isn't as good as the Genesis). I researched the Chevy Camaro (I was very interested in getting one) but realized that it really isn't the most reliable car and apparently it's not all that comfortable either. I also have to take in account the fact that a coupe will raise my insurance. I'm really not sure if I should lease or buy. Leasing might be a good option since I don't particularly care about owning the car. My worry is that I might go over the allowed mileage. I plan on keeping my little Cobalt though so that way I have no reason to go over the mileage. I've been looking at the Audi A4, Acura TSX, Hyundai Genesis, Infiniti G25, and Lexus IS 250 for leasing. If I don't have to pay for maintenance or repairs then I would definitely choose a car that is fun but that doesn't have as great of ratings as the Hyundai I might buy. There was a Lexus that I was interested in buying but I guess someone has bought it already since the link to it is gone :(

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 29, 2011
So a lot of exciting things have happened recently. I got my new BMW 328i. It's not exactly what I wanted (I was looking for a silver car, with a light interior) but I have totally fallen in love with it. It's so much fun to drive. I do notice myself speeding in it though. It's kind of odd because I'll notice myself going like 80 when it feels like I'm only going 65 or so. I wanted a backup camera but got a backup system that makes a beeping sound when I get too close to things (I just heard it for the first time last night...for a while there I thought that it wasn't on and that I needed to turn it on somehow). I also got these sun screens in the back windows (the rear window sun screen automatically goes up and down). It's incredibly handy to have in Arizona during the summer time especially since the interior is black leather. The monthly payments aren't too much more than what I am paying now which is awesome. I did lease it since I really don't want to own two cars. What I really like (and ended up being a deciding factor for me) was that I don't have to pay for any of the maintenance for the car.

http://www.danielleftv.com/car1.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/car2.jpg

The bdsm shoot on Saturday was...interesting and kind of hard. It was all of our first time doing a bdsm shoot. It was very different from a normal bdsm session. It was incredibly hot in the dungeon (like 90 degrees). I felt awful for James because he was in this thick 18th century costume (and was wearing leather pants and leather boots). After I took my dress off it wasn't all that bad. Finding the costume I wanted to wear was difficult. I very much wanted to wear an 18th century rococo/baroque dress but could not find one (or if I did it didn't fit me). I tried on a bunch of costumes at a costume shop before deciding on this one.

http://www.danielleftv.com/dress.jpg

We shot about an hour of film (which I can hopefully make into 4 scenes) and about 150 pictures that I will be making into 2 photo sets. We did shoot a forced orgasm scene, a blowjob scene and a sex scene. We didn't get an ending on the sex scene because we ran out of time. We played with wax, floggers, canes, paddles, nipple clamps, a Wartenburg pinwheel, ankle and wrist cuffs, a silk scarve, a posture collar and bondage rope. I am planning on putting the first scene up next month. It's going to take a lot longer to edit the video than any other video I've done before. Next time I would like to have a director there. Porche Lynn (the former porn star that owns the dungeon) told me a cool way to shoot it that wouldn't require a director. Instead of having to keep on cutting the scene just shoot one long continuous scene and then edit what you can't or don't want to use. The good thing about doing it that way is that I can actually go into sub mode instead of going in and out of sub mode like I was doing during this shoot. I think it would look more natural that way too. The problem with that is that the whole area would need to be lit for the camera to catch where ever we move to (which wasn't a possibility in the huge dungeon room that we were in).

I haven't been doing well on updating the website or answering my private messages. I haven't had a chance to actually make my video logs for this month yet so that's why you haven't seen any put up on the site. Things have just been kind of crazy with school starting and the two shoots that I did this month. I had a webcam show scheduled for last Friday but was super stressed and felt like I needed a bit of a break (I cancelled everything I had planned and went out to eat, rented some movies and vegged out in front of the tv the rest of the night). It was incredibly relaxing and very much needed. I also didn't add Flash format to the latest video. It was a huge file and wouldn't completely upload, which has been pretty common lately.

I dropped out of a class today so now I am only taking macroeconomics, a math class, and mythology. I absolutely love my mythology class. Understanding the language in macroeconomics is going to be difficult for me. Math is easy right now but that's mainly because we are just doing a review on what we've learned before. I'm sure it will get more difficult but hopefully I don't have too much of a problem with it. I'm actually doing homework for my mythology class and macroeconomics class right now so I should probably get back to it.

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 29, 2011
Continued...

I cut off my head in almost all the pictures because my facial expression wasn't too flattering (I looked slightly irritated in most of the pictures...which is completely understandable since the costume shop was hot as heck and trying on a bunch of costumes is not all that much fun in the heat). BTW James doesn't take all that flattering of pictures.

http://www.danielleftv.com/dress1.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/dress2.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/dress3.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/dress4.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 18, 2011
What to write about...I'm editing and uploading a bunch of scenes/sets right now. I'm late again on a video update but that should (hopefully) be completely uploaded today. I've been thinking about which videos I should add Flash format to. I seem to have issues with uploading Flash videos 14 minutes or longer. So I will probably only create Flash videos for videos that are under 14 minutes.

School is going well...not much to tell you guys about there. I'm heading to Sedona next weekend which I am uber excited about. It will be nice to get out of the heat and enjoy green nature (rather than various shades of brown nature). I don't really have anything planned while I'm up there though I will be getting a massage and wrap done at the resort's spa.

I'm planning a vacation to St Lucia for next year in July. It's cheaper going there during the summer which is perfect since I won't have to take any time off school. It's also fantastic because I will be able to get out of the heat for a week and enjoy tropical weather. I think it's fairly rainy during that time of the year but I enjoy the rain so that isn't really a concern for me. I've been researching various activities I can do while I am there. I would like to go zip lining again. What would be absolutely amazing is if I could find someplace there were I can go sky diving.

Talking about sky diving...I still plan on getting my sky diving license. It's getting cooler now so I think I will start planning on attending the school very soon here though I haven't yet saved up the money for it (it's actually quite expensive). I'm not sure how it's going to work since the school is 1 1/2 away from me (I think it might only be an hour away...I should probably look into that).

I attended this inspirational seminar called Landmark Forum. Unfortunately I didn't go all the days so I think I am going to have to retake it since I didn't take in everything that they were teaching us. I very much enjoyed it though and highly recommend it to everyone who is interested in changing their life and the way they think about things. Next month I will be doing a two week intensive course called Dearmouring. It's all about using your sexual energy to break the "armour" you've built around yourself. I've known people that have done it and they say that it is life changing so I am very interested to see how I will change after it.

I bought my Halloween costume last month. It's being made right now and I am incredibly excited to get it and try it on. I still need to buy a crown and jewelry for it. I'm not even sure where I will be going for Halloween. All of my friends will be in Vegas for Monster Massive which I am really not interested in attending...especially with this kind of costume.

http://www.danielleftv.com/freeones/halloween2011.jpg
http://www.danielleftv.com/freeones/fairywings.jpg

I've been trying to figure out how I'm going to schedule the hardcore shoots. I want to put my 10th hardcore scene with James (my first anal scene) in December. My foot fetish hardcore scene is going up this month. Next month will be a public hardcore scene, the month after that will be my bdsm hardcore scene and then the month after that will be the anal scene. October is actually going to have two hardcore shoots in it. I give Master James a blowjob in the next bdsm scene. Hopefully people don't start getting weird and complain about there being too many b/g scenes next month.

I've had people (well what I think is the same person) complain about James being in too many of the videos. Here's the thing...I'm comfortable with him, we have great chemistry together and he's the only guy that has agreed to shoot with me. Trying to find a new guy from Arizona that I enjoy working with, that knows what to do and can keep it up would be difficult. I'm not going to hire male talent from LA since it would be quite expensive (I would have to fly them here and pay the photographer and male talent for a full day of shooting). On top of that we would probably only get two scenes since I doubt the guy will be able to get off then get hard and be able to get off again in one day of shooting.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 19, 2011
I am shooting with FTVGirls Anne (http://ftvgirls.com/mod2009/anne.html) next month. I haven't done a true hardcore girl/girl shoot in a long time so I am tremendously excited about it. I just sent her this email:

Anne,
I just wanted to say hi and kind of introduce myself before our shoot next month. I'm really excited about it. I've been looking at your pictures and videos from FTVGirls and Dreamgirls and I think we are going to have a lot of fun together. You seem to be pretty comfortable with public nudity which I'm sure Rob loves. Only recently did I start becoming more comfortable doing public nudity/masturbation. It's much easier too when there is someone else that is doing p.n. at the same time as you...kind of eggs you on. I love bdsm. Again I only recently started getting into it. I'm definitely down to use any bdsm tools that you have. I don't use two things though...balls gags and blindfolds. I have fake lashes so putting anything over them is a bad idea. And I have a really weird fear about my teeth breaking so I don't use ball gags. Now panty or any type of fabric gags I am totally down to use. I have some candles specifically made to drip on human bodies so I can bring that (I'm not sure what Rob said about shooting it). I also have a Wartenburg pin wheel, two feather ticklers, a silver ball tickler, clothes pins, nipple clamps, a clit clamp, 3 floggers, and a crop. I have a huge suitcase of toys that I can bring. I have a very high pain thresh hold so you can pretty much do whatever to me. I'm a total sub...haven't really done anything dom yet and to be honest I don't really think that is my type of role.

I bought a bunch of new dresses last month so I am going to save most of them for the shoot. I know that you are a "extreme" girl. I've tried doing extreme things before. I've tried doing fisting on myself a few times and with other girls a few times. I have yet to do it. I'm not sure if I just need someone with very small hands to try it or if I just haven't been comfortable enough. I think Rob wants me to try to do a double fisting on you...do you think I would be able to manage it. I don't want to do something that might hurt you. He did tell me to have my nails short for fisting. I have an allergy to silicone so I try to stay away from any silicone toys or lube (one of the worst shoots ever was the "The Infamous Ten" video on my site...that's the day I found out I was allergic to silicone...not a good time to find that out). I really do like trying to push my boundaries so I don't think I will have a problem trying whatever during our shoot. I'm pretty sure I can do anal extreme stuff. I haven't really tried anything too crazy down there but I've done anal with some large men so I don't think it would be a problem. I do quite a bit of fetishy stuff like panty stuffing, stocking stuffing, glasses stuffing...just weird stuff like that. I get a kick out of it.

To be honest it does take me a while sometimes to get off. I very rarely get off without clitoral stimulation. Generally when I am shooting in a home it will take me 8-12 minutes. When I am shooting outside it will take me 10-15 minutes. If someone else is controlling the toy it might take me 10-15 minutes. It just depends. I've been able to train myself to "go" quicker which is definitely a good thing when you are shooting in public.

Just so you know I am truly bi-sexual. I'm not one of those girls that just says that they are and ends up being a "gay-for-pay" girl. I've never dated a girl but I have been with many girls in my personal life.

Did Rob say where you are staying? And how long are you going to be here? Did Rob say what he was interested in having us shoot?

I'm not sure if you saw your Freeones thread or not. If so here it is: http://board.freeones.com/showthread.php?t=364182 Also here is mine if you are interested: http://board.freeones.com/showthread.php?t=216366&highlight=Danielle+Amateur+Allure

Hopefully none of this stuff was too personal or weird for you. I figured it would be best to kind of get it out of the way a head of time :)


Sincerely,
Danielle

Should I have added anything else in there? I'm pretty sure she's seen my website but I don't know if she's actually been in the members section. I should probably give her a user/pass if she doesn't have on already. I really want to make this an amazing shoot...that's one of the reasons I sent the email above. She's definitely a tiny little thing so I'm sure I'm going to look like an Amazon compared to her...but then again most of the girls I've shot with have been smaller than me.

[danielle_ftv]

Oct. 20, 2011
Lot's of things to write about. The girl/girl shoot yesterday with FTVGirls Anne was fantastic. I am in love with that girl. She is absolutely beautiful and incredibly sweet and a lot of fun to hang out with. I am amazed at how well we clicked. I feel like their was some intense chemistry between the two of us. She has fantastic oral skills. I think I got her off at least four times with my wonderful oral skills :D. We did some pretty extreme stuff. I fisted her (she even rode my fist). I was pretty surprised that she was able to take my fist into her because she's so tiny and my hands are pretty big (it's a family trait). She also fisted me (a deep fist according to FTVGirls Rob) a couple times. We also did a carrot and key lime stuffing competition. I am so excited for the shoot to come out. It's supposed to be the big New Years update so keep an eye out for it. None of the content will be on my website...it will all be up on FTVGirls.

Dearmouring ended on Sunday. It was an intense two weeks but I am incredibly happy that I stuck through it. I feel like it is going to be life changing (they said that we won't really start seeing results until 6 months to a year from now). People have been asking me what it's all about so I will explain it a bit but to be honest you really just have to experience it for yourself. Dearmouring is a process that helps you break away the armour that you have created around yourself for protection as you've gotten older. I think you start creating armour when you are about 2 or so and it just continues being built. You use your energy, breathing, visualizations, vibration, pressure points and many other things to get rid of it. The first day you start off with a purifying sweat lodge (and no it's not like the sweat lodges that have been in the news...it's completely safe and controlled). You also do a sweat lodge on the last day. There were times that I wish I never had heard about it. Sometimes I wanted to leave right in the middle of the teachings or sessions. Other times I never wanted it to end and was absolutely thrilled with myself for how well I was doing.

I'm really digging my pubic hair right now. I keep on playing with it trying to keep it in a perfect triangle shape. I like how porn actresses are starting to allow themselves to have hair down there. I think it's sexy and very womanly. Right now I only have a small triangle since some of my underwear is really small and when I would have a full triangle (all the way to the top of my pubic line) the hair would stick out of the underwear...looked a bit funny. I bought two 6 session laser hair removal packages so I plan on getting my bikini line and underarms lasered.
http://www.danielleftv.com/pubichair.jpg
I also bought 3 more laser tattoo removal for my front belly tattoo. I need to schedule appointments for all these sessions I've bought.

I'm a bit worried about my Halloween costume. I'm going as a fairy princess. I ordered all my costume pieces a head of time so they would have plenty of time to make the pieces but the only thing that has arrived is my crown.
http://www.danielleftv.com/crown.jpg
Fortunately my shoot got pushed back to October 30th otherwise I wouldn't have been able to do my Halloween shoot. I'm going to a haunted house on Sunday with my dad. We did that last year and I had a lot of fun so I'm hoping to make that a tradition.

I've already started Christmas shopping...well more like Christmas present research. I've found gifts for everyone except my mom. I'm giving my sister, brother and step brother money (the best gift for siblings in my opinion). I guess my dad wants a chainsaw so I will be getting him that. My nephew is getting a whole bunch of cool toys. My mom made an Amazon wish list for him recently. I told her I was planning on buying everything from it which I don't think she was too happy about. But I have a budget for everyone and I don't want to spend less on one person and all the items on the wish list come out to exactly the amount I want to spend so my mom is just going to have to be okay with me buying all the items on the wishlist. I found an awesome gift for FTVGirls Rob to which I think he will really like. I won't write what it is on here since I'm not sure if he reads these entries or not.

I have quite a bit of editing I need to get done today. I'm yet again late on an update so I need to get that up ASAP. I also have 3 videos that have not been edited yet. I really need to keep on top of these things.

[danielle_ftv]

Nov. 10, 2011
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j101.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j101.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 07, 2011
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j102.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j102.wmv)

Here is the kitty I mentioned in the video.

http://www.danielleftv.com/sphynxcat.jpg

Love Bug in her pilgrim costume.

http://www.danielleftv.com/lbpilgrim.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 16, 2011
Well I don't think the anal sex video is going to be up today. I went to make the screen shots for the video and found out that the video was completely screwed up (about 6 minutes of it is frozen video). I edited out all the frozen parts of the video but I'm not at all happy with it (there's only about 2-3 minutes of anal sex since I had to edit out all the frozen parts). I'm going to pick up the original files from my photographer so let's pray that it isn't corrupted too. The photographer thinks my computers may not be powerful enough to support editing the videos since we were using a super HD video camera (the first time we've ever used it). If that's the case then I will have to see if FTVRob will let me use his computer to edit the video.

Worse case scenario...if the original files are corrupted then I will put up the short, edited version anyways and will shoot a candid anal scene tonight or tomorrow and put it up ASAP. I'm just really iffy about that because I shot a BDSM fem dom scene on Monday and my back and butt are all bruised up (though it's mostly my butt). If I do shoot it I will have to cover the bruises up with Dermablend...hopefully that will work.

I don't know why I didn't completely edit the video (make the screen shots and the coverpage) until the day it was due. I've never had to deal with something like this before and it really sucks that it had to happen to my big update of the year. I feel like an a$$ too because I've been promoting this update for a while now. I knew we shouldn't have used that camera too. The photographer asked me if I wanted to use the one we had been using or the new HD one that FTVRob uses.

Continued 5:32 PM

I think it's my computer that is the issue. It is playing the files I got from my photographer perfectly fine. It's only when I'm editing it or when the video is processed that I start having problems. Well that sucks. Hopefully he can resend me the videos in something other than super HD.

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 24th, 2011
Click on picture for video journal update.

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j103.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j103.wmv)

I'm getting two kitties now. The breeder offered to give me the girl kitty (she has hair) for free. I'm so excited about getting them in February. I'm really, really hoping that Love Bug and them will get along very well.

http://www.danielleftv.com/girlkitty.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/girlkitty2.jpg

The webcam is being updated right now. When it is done the show should be in a higher resolution and the chat room will look a little different. I'm not sure when the work on it will be completed.

I will be shooting a late Christmas update on the 7th of January. Santa visited me and brought me a lot of naughty things to play with.

http://www.danielleftv.com/lbxmaspj.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 27th, 2011
I've been thinking of names for the kitties. So far I have Titania and Oberon, Isis and Osiris, and Beauty and Beast.

Tomorrow it's off to Flagstaff with the family. I haven't even packed yet so I should probably get on that. I'm going to try to get some candid video of me playing around in the snow and maybe doing some snowboarding.

One of my fans is in the process of finding a horse for me to shoot with. I'm very excited about it. I think it would definitely be worth the extra expense to do a nude shoot on a horse. Obviously it would be outdoors. I will have to start looking at places to shoot. Not sure when we will actually be able to shoot it too since it's pretty cold right now. I might be going down to Tucson to check out the horse in a couple weeks. Let's hope this works out.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 23, 2012
I need some help from you guys. I recently took a look at my review on Rabbit's Reviews (http://www.rabbitsreviews.com/s10022/Danielle-FTV.html). I'm pretty surprised at how low my score (72/100) was...especially comparing my site to the other solo models websites that were rated higher than mine. What's even more surprising is that FTVGirls got rated 75/100. I think that's the lowest rating I've seen for them in any review site. Anyways I'm not concerned about the score I got. What I am concerned about is the absolutely horrible, mean user comments "six" people wrote about me. I truly have never read such hateful comments about me before. I'm fairly positive that the Dave guy has written the same comments about me on Freeones...but Freeones was kind enough to have the comments taken down.

When you fill out the user comments it says to "please include a pro and con about the site". Not one of the users followed that.

I contacted the Rabbit's Review people asking them to take down the comments since they are not productive at all (no pro and con) and instead are just incredibly derogatory. Here's the reply I got:

"This is MIke from Rabbit's Reviews, replying to your email. First, I want to apologize for anything you read on our site that caused you to become upset. While the nature of the business is to put yourself out there, no one likes to see negative feedback that isn't constructive in any way.

While I understand your frustration and disappointment at some of the comments left by readers, our policy is not to delete a comment unless it's spam, racist, or attcks of a personal nature (example: "We live down the road from (model name) and we know she beats her kids..." ).

While the comments left are negative, it is ultimately their opinion. The "pro/con" section is a suggestion to readers, but it isn't mandatory for their comments to be posted.

I would to suggest the best way to counteract that is to get some of your fans to leave comments to drown out those negattive ones left behind. There are also many sponsors and performers that we work with who take to the comments section to defend any accusations made against their site or just to thank those who left more positive comments.

The comments section is for readers and site producers to come together and have a conversation about the site and the review. The intention behind it is to be positive and strengthen our community. Sometimes, those conversations aren't helpful, insigtful or productive. It is unfortunate, but it is an byproduct of the system."

So I will take Mike's advice and ask for you guys to leave some positive comments (pros and cons included) to flood out the negative comments that are currently on there.

BTW...I'm pretty sure I didn't tell people to f@ck off if they didn't like the fact that I was going to do hardcore. If I did I would really appreciate it if someone could tell me so.

I'm not going to lie and say it didn't affect me. It did. I bawled my eyes out when I read the comments. Congrats to the a$$holes who wrote them. I hope they feel some measure of happiness degrading me. I'm sure that their lives are absolutely amazing now that they've told the world how they feel about my site and me.

But then again I have at least six hundred members who say that they like me well enough to be a member of my website. I'm sure that AVN nominated me for an AVN award because they felt bad for my "butter face" or the fact that I look like I have Down's Sydrome (btw I highly doubt the guy who wrote that has Down Sydrome...I've never heard of someone having D.S. being spiteful like that). TheBestPorn must have rated me in their top twenty-five out of 3,098 individual model sites because they felt sorry about my "crap videos".

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 24, 2011
Oh my Lord! I just got a laser tattoo removal session done on my back tattoo. I went to this new place (Delete Tattoo). The doctor who does the procedure is awesome. They have local anesthetic as an add on option which I was thrilled about since the last time I had my back tattoo laser removal session done I had to walk out of the middle of it since it was so painful. The doctor went to inject the anesthetic into my back and sometime during the second injection I passed out. I came to completely and confused and I was shaking like crazy (I thought I was having a seizure but the doctor said I was only shaking a bit). I spent a few minutes recovering and the doctor started the laser removal. Boy, oh, boy does it hurt when there is absolutely no anesthetic on it (I would normally have at least topical anesthetic on the tattoo). She would do five little laser "dots" and stop, let me breathe and start again. I was actually kind of embarrassed at how difficult it was. The doctor was absolutely sweet and completely understanding.

I told my mom and it and she demanded that I make an appointment to see my internal medicine doctor. I actually think that's a pretty good idea since for the past week or so I've had occasions were I've felt really faint. I'm really hoping that nothing is wrong.

I also wanted to say thank you to everyone who has written a user review on me on Rabbit's Reviews. I really appreciate how supportive and loving you guys are. It absolutely made my day to read all the incredibly sweet comments you guys had. I also really appreciate the fact that you guys wrote pros and cons rather than just writing a bunch of positive stuff (nothing wrong with that though :D).

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 27, 2012
I am uploading my hardcore candid video right now. Sorry I'm late on the update.

Check out the progress on my tattoo removal for my front tattoo.

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/tattooremovalfront101.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 5, 2012
Please read this article (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/corban-addison/modern-slavery_b_1214371.html) about modern day slavery. It is incredibly heart breaking. I really don't understand how human beings can be so cruel as to enslave people. You would think that as "civilised" as we say we are that this wouldn't be happening.

Continued 6:11 PM
Check out my interview (http://www.sheneedsit.com/2011/10/danielle-ftv-13-fun-facts.html) on www.SheNeedsIt.com.

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 21, 2012
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j104.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j104.wmv)

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/tattooremovalfront102.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/tattooremovalback101.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 10, 2012
I may be thicker than your average porn starlet...but I really don't care. I have an amazing body...and a body shape almost all women strive for.

40.5 inch butt
http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/101.jpg

40.5 inch bust
http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/102.jpg

30 inch waist
http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/103.jpg

HOURGLASS FIGURE!!!

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 4, 2012
Look at how much lighter the tattoos are compared to the earlier picture.

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/tattooremovalfront103.jpg

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/tattooremovalback102.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 5, 2012
LMFAO...so I was just updating the Update Listings thread with the newest video update. The title of the update is P U S S Y Playdate (there are no spaces in between the letters in the first word btw) but when I would try to spell P U S S Y it would change it ***** Playdate. I think it's hysterical that this is a porn forum yet I can't use the "P" word.

Tomorrow I will be taking my sister to get our nails done. She is in town until the 16th (she's visiting from New Hampshire). I definitely want to spoil her while she is here since I haven't seen her in...over a year I think. On Monday I will be taking my brother and sister to get a two hour massage. My brother was joking around asking if he was going to get a happy ending with it (awkward lol).

I am shooting on Saturday. I have this beautiful brunette wig that I plan on wearing for the whole shoot. I am so incredibly excited to see how the video and pictures turn out from it. I'm not quite sure what I will be shooting. Probably two videos and two photos in public...most likely masturbation scenes. I'm not going to be able to shoot my Easter scene until the 14th since James is busy this weekend. That will also be my hardcore scene for the month.

I recently went to LA with my best friend Theresa. We didn't do too much while we were there...just went shopping (the farmers market there is awesome), went to see The Hunger Games, went to the spa (we got massages and body scrubs), and one night we went out to a club (I think it was called Play House). I took Love Bug with me while Isis stayed at home. Both of them did very well considering it was Love Bug's first time traveling on an airplane and it was Isis' first time being completely alone for an extended period of time. I was a bit aggravated that the airlines charge you to take your pet on the flight ($75 one way) and the pet carrier counts as your carry on. So not only did I have to pay $150 to bring Love Bug with me...I wasn't even allowed an extra carryon. I always bring my laptop with me but had to pack it in my suitcase since I could only bring a "personal item" (my purse). I was incredibly concerned about it getting stolen or broken but fortunately neither happened.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 18, 2012
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j105.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j105.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

May 4, 2012
One of my friends (she's a webmaster) asked me to do a cam show for her site Chaturbate (http://chaturbate.com/affiliates/in/7Bge/sssfZ/?room=danielle_ftv). I will be doing an hour show (at least...depends on tips) on Tuesday, May 8th from 7-8pm. This will probably be the only cam show I do outside of my website...so be sure to check it out. I've been researching cam shows and different ideas on how to make it fun. Since I've never worked for a cam site before I really had/have no idea how the girls make tips. I know some of you have seen cam shows before so if you could give me so helpful tips on how to make...tips lol...I would really appreciate it. I will also need two moderators...so if any of you join the show please tell me if you would be willing to be a mod for me.

One goal I will have in place during the show is to reach 2000 tokens. If I can do that I will extend the show another 30 minutes.

My mom sent me an email today about the Phoenix Comic Con. I've never been to the Comic Con here (actually the only one I've been to was in Albaqurque, NM). I made a list of all the panels and events I would like to attend. It seems like Saturday will be the busiest day for me there. I'm pretty excited about it. My mom is too since she is planning on meeting William Shatner lol.

My tattoo removal appointment went better than it has before. Before it I took 3 ibuprofen (versus the two I normally take) and slathered both tattoos with my numbing cream before covering them with plastic wrap (it helps the cream soak in instead of getting dried up or rubbed off). At one point I did get pretty faint and had to ask the doctor to stop the laser treatment for a couple minutes but fortunately I did not pass out this time. The bruising and blistering was pretty bad compared to before but apparently the doctor used a stronger laser frequency on me. I will be taking pictures of it once the bruising has disappeared.

Continued 8:03 PM...
So I've been thinking about tip goals I want to reach during the webcam show on Chaturbate.

When I reach...
250 tokens I will get topless
500 tokens I will get naked
750 tokens I will do a breast massage
1000 tokens I will do a fashion show (biggest tipper chooses if it's costumes or dresses)
1250 vajayjay and butt spreads
1500 tokens I will do a panty stuffing (biggest tipper between 1000 and 1500 tokens chooses type of panties to stuff)
1750 tokens I will do a masturbation to orgasm
2000 tokens I will do extend my show 30 minutes
2500 tokens I will do another masturbation to orgasm
2750 tokens I will do a dildo ride
3000 tokens I will do anal play (biggest tipper between 1500 and 3000 chooses anal toy)
3250 tokens I will do a triple penetration (two in the vajayjay, one in the butt or three in the vajayjay)
3500 tokens I will do another masturbation to orgasm
4000 tokens I will extend my show 30 minutes
5000 tokens I will attempt to fist myself

[danielle_ftv]

May 8, 2012
Only fifty-five minutes until my feature webcam show on Chaturbate. I'm kind of nervous about it as it will be my first time ever doing a webcam show for another website. Fortunately CK1 and Anoree are going to be my moderators for the show so I know they will take care of things in the chat room. Now I just have to make sure the show is entertaining.

Continued 10:16pm...
The show was a success. I had a blast and made a ton of tips. I had multiple orgasms, did a dildo ride, a stocking stuffing, panty stuffing, boob massage, vajayjay/butt spreads, boobie/booty dance, triple penetration, a cucumber stuffing, a fashion show, and an attempted fist (it was pretty darn close but my hand would not bend all the way in). Thank you Anoree for making the show run so smoothly (and for all the tokens). I also wanted to thank okieviper, shandor19, uberbull, cuffs4u1, alltomuch, thefootluver, johnyleerock, caedus311, lightweight, bustyjules, scrappydlover, vpm4, jonathanphat, stanleyfrank, letmehaveit, hairyman1, planetarygear, fedreal66, dubsaves, huskersaz, dubsaves, lucmee, david_silva, dannychia, kingdinagling504, glbvox, hipster21, bigphil, brwarren123, summertimefunman, diggity366, and seefield3 (hopefully I didn't forget anyone else) for the tokens.

[danielle_ftv]

May 27, 2012
At last...someone out there agrees that I am a real life fairy (http://www.break.com/pictures/fairies-pink-fairy-2330238)!

I will be making a video journal later today.

Continued 9:25pm...
Well I didn't create the video journal entry...but I did make a new Facebook profile. I'm not going to add as many pictures as I was adding last time. I'm also going to be a lot more careful about what I post as I really don't want to get in trouble and have something deleted (which seems to be common for me with social media sites). I'm going to take a nice hot bath and watch some tv before crashing out. I'm quite excited about tomorrow as I will be checking into one of my favorite resorts here in Phoenix and have a wonderful spa day and dinner set up.

[danielle_ftv]

Jun. 01, 2012
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j106.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j106.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

Jun. 07, 2012
Wow...so I guess my laptop is under a viral attack right now. I am not able to access it at all...which means... no updates. I have a computer person coming over on Monday to fix it. Hopefully I haven't lost anything because of it. So annoying!

Tomorrow I am going doing a belated birthday celebration with my parent's. We are going to go out to eat and go see Snow White and the Huntsman afterwards which I am tremendously excited about.

My moving date is set for Tuesday. I barely have anything packed which is kind of worrying me a bit. I know everything will be taken care of...but this really does make me realize how much I hate moving and why I tend to stay in one place for so long.

[danielle_ftv]

Jul. 31, 2012
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j107.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j107.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 10, 2012
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j108.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j108.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 13, 2012
So last night was car was broken into (note to self, always lock the door). My GPS, radar detector (don't ask ;)), Juicy Couture sunglasses (my dad bought me), a huge case of cd's (several of them have tremendous sentimental value to me), and several packages I picked had picked up earlier from my mail box, which included spearmint dog wipes (hope the person has a dog), Clarisonic brush head replacements (guess they are going to have to shell out for the $170 brush) and a present for a friend (that is the one that really sucks).

My girlfriends Theresa and Candice were there to help me through this. Candice brought up something interesting. She told me that maybe it was time to get rid of all that stuff that was keeping me in the past. I thought about that a lot last night while I was wallowing in my grief and self pity for having my stuff stolen for the second time ever. At some point I realized how true Candice's statement was, that this is the Universe telling me to declutter my life and get rid of things that no longer serve me. I'm doing that in my emotional/mental life. Why am I not doing it in my physical life?

I am taking this as a dare from the Universe. It's time for me to start disconnecting from and getting rid of physical things that serve no purpose for me anymore (if it did at all). Goodwill is going to have a field day when they see all the random stuff I am going to be donating to them (Candice and Theresa get first pick though ;)).

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 02, 2012
Click on picture for video journal update

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j109.jpg (http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/j109.wmv)

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 22, 2012
I want to make some changes to my website. The webcam archive page needs to be changed to something more up to date that can play the newest higher definition webcam videos better. I also want to add a category page or search engine on the site so that people can view the updates by what they want to see (ie panty stuffing, hardcore, etc.). I need to add video streaming and .mp4 video format. A "sharing" button (to post on social media sites) would be nice to have as well. There is not mobile version of my website so I will need to have that created. I noticed that Allison Angel's website was newly updated with all these things so I'm hoping that FTVRob has that in store for my website as well. Perhaps you guys will have to ask FTVRob about that as I haven't talked to him in a long while and am not sure if he plans on implementing the same changes to my website. I'm not sure why he wouldn't though since my website is under the "FTV banner".

So this is the first day in a long while were I've had absolutely nothing that needs to get done. I spent the day screwing around on my computer, reading, bathing, playing with Love Bug and Isis and sleeping. That is my idea of a perfect day...well actually that isn't true. My idea of a perfect day would also include sex at some point...maybe multiple times. I should probably include sex that leads to multiple orgasms for me. So that is my perfect day...reading, baths, Love Bug and Isis cuddle time, computer time and multiple orgasms from sex, sex, sex.

To be honest I think I'm a bit sex deprived. The only time I have sex is for work. I only shoot once a month so I think you can understand why I'm sex deprived. Bianca (www.BiancaBane.com...you know her as Hailey on here) and I were in LA this month. She has a guy friend that comes over when we visit LA and of course I always hear them having sex (Bianca can get a bit loud sometimes). I ended up masturbating listening to them have sex (thinking about my crush as well...not going to tell you who it is...you have to guess ;)). At one point I was tempted to join them (unfortunately I wimped out and didn't).

I was in LA twice this month. Once was for a spiritual retreat. We started off in Palm Springs and went to LA once the retreat was done. The second time was for an adult industry Christmas party that LATATA held. Since it was my first industry party in LA I was really wanting to make a good impression. I had new business cards made. I bought about four red dresses (red is an attention grabbing color...and it's a seasonal color), shoes, evening purses and jewelry to match. I had to have Bianca help me pick out which dress to wear since I had brought so many with me. We also both got our hair done (it ended up "falling" 10 minutes after leaving the salon). I did put up makeup on which I didn't care for at all. I've realized that I really prefer being makeup free. I feel that makeup actually diminishes my beauty.

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/105.jpg

As we got there (it was held at a hookah bar that looked like a mix between a bar, club and restaurant) and tried to figure out where the parking was I started feeling incredibly nervous. I had Bianca get into the driver's seat since I was in a panic. We got to the door where several guys were standing. We did get questioned..."who are you here with?", "what agency are you with?", "you know what this party is for, right?" which got me into more of a panic. I ended up texting the woman who invited me to the party to tell her that Bianca and I were outside. We sat in the LA Direct Models section for the whole night. During the party I met Marie McCray, Aaliyah Avatari, Teal Conrad, Raven Rockette, Lilly Banks, and several other people. I did see several male talent (Ben English, Tommy Gunn, Ryan Driller and Xander Corvus) that I've been wanting to have sex with...they are just as hot in person as they are in video. Silly Bianca left her business cards at the hotel. I forgot to even pass my out. Several girls lost their purse. It was a bit amusing watching people wander about trying to locate them. I saw Taylor Wane, Max Hardcore, Dani Daniels but didn't speak to them. I think that Rick Garcia (Twitter @industrybyrick) took several photos that include me in them but I have yet to find them online. At some point Mary McCray and Aaliyah Avatari were making out passionately right beside me. I wanted to join them and I'm sure they wouldn't have minded. Not sure why I didn't.

I am going to be in LA again for New Years Eve. Here is the dress I bought for NYE...

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/104.jpg

I'm heading to Bianca's house tomorrow to go shopping for jewelry to go with my New Years dress. She's also going to help me wrap my Christmas presents. I have three boxes I still need to send out (one of which is going overseas).

Carter is sick with the flu which is awful since I was just with him last night. Bianca, her two kids, my parents, little brother, Carter and I went to Zoo Lights last night. I was giving him kisses and hugs so I was probably exposed to the flu. I don't feel sick and have been taking vitamins that strengthen my immune system so I am praying that I don't get anything. My family and I also went to see The Hobbit. That was the second time I've seen the movie. I have a huge crush on the dwarf prince. I bought quite a few songs from the soundtrack including Misty Mountain. I've listened to that song over 70 times since I bought it (which I think was about a week ago).

I had to buy a new CPU. The CPU FTVRob gave me to use for editing failed. It would freeze about 5 minutes after starting up and I would have to do a hard shut down. The computer guy I used said that it had two harddrives in it and that I would have to replace both of them. He advised against it and suggested I buy a new computer since it would also be a lot faster than the one I was using. I'm pretty happy with the new computer though I do have to learn how to use Windows 8 since I've only used Vista. Pretty soon I am going to have to buy a new laptop. My laptop is running very slow and has frozen once or twice. I was looking at buy a Dell XPS 15 laptop with a solid state drive in it.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 06, 2012
Please nominate me for "Best Boobs Award (http://www.rabbitsreviews.com/rise/nominations.html)". It's been way too long since I've been nominated for an award.

I'm currently editing my content from my shoot yesterday. I'm incredibly happy with how the photos turned out (I haven't watched the videos yet). Anoree suggested I do a bathtub hardcore scene which is one of the scenes/sets I shot. I used Berney as my male talent. He did an amazing job in this scene. The other scene I shot was an extreme anal play video. I used three anal toys that ranged from 6" around to almost 8" around. It's a shorter video but I figured it would be since it was going to be a "show and tell" theme video.

I apologize for constantly rescheduling the webcam shows. I've had to either because I have too much content to edit or because I've been sick. My mom told me I had/have a respiratory flu. Unfortunately it led to me losing my voice (and during New Years at that).

Here are two photos from the party I attended on New Years eve.

http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/106.jpg
http://www.danielleftv.com/journal/107.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 23, 2013
I'm sure at some point I've written what I plan on shooting (ie anal, b/b/g, etc.). I've been thinking about it often recently. I only shoot three "special" scenes a year (last year was a b/g/g scene, an anal scene and my first interracial scene). I would like to shoot another interracial scene this year preferably with a bbc. I will most likely end of shooting another anal sex scene as one of my special updates. I was thinking about making the other special update a b/b/g scene.

I also plan on shooting these updates

B/B/G/G
Anal fisting
Simultaneous vag and anal fisting
Blowbang
IR B/B/G
IR with another girl
DP
DAP
DVP
G/G/G
G/G/G/G
Tranny sex


At some point in the far future I will shoot a gangbang scene. I better start saving my money now for it since it's going to be quite expensive ;). I would love to shoot a scene with two bisexual guys but I imagine that a lot of my members would not be pleased about that. I haven't shot a bdsm scene in a while which I've been wanting to do. I need to find a female dom or a male dom that has the equipment needed for a scene and a facility to shoot in. I know of one female dominatrix that will shoot but she doesn't do g/g...only dom work. I wonder if that would bother members if I shot a bdsm scene that didn't include sex of any sort?

My ultimate goal would be a dvda scene (double vag, double anal). I'm not even sure if it is physically possible. I've been going over positions for it in my head...it doesn't seem like an easy thing to do at all.

The "Shoot with Danielle" contest will start on the first of February and will last until the end of February.

My oral surgery is scheduled for the first of February. I'm leaving on the 6th for New Orleans and will be there until the 13th. On the 14th I leave for NYC and will be back on the 21st. I'm not sure when my second oral surgery will take place. I imagine it will be sometime in the middle of March.

Here are some photos from the AVN red carpet. BTW the guy in the photo is not my boyfriend. He is an industry friend that owns www.hexedmedia.com

http://www.danielleftv.com/picday/101.jpg
http://www.danielleftv.com/picday/102.jpg
http://www.danielleftv.com/picday/103.jpg

[danielle_ftv]

Feb. 28, 2013
This month has been fairly hectic and a bit stressful. At the beginning of the month I had oral surgery for a bone grafting. The surgery went well though I did pass out when the IV was put into me and was incredibly sick after I woke up from surgery (from the anesthesia). Unfortunately I wasn't able to leave the hospital until about 3pm (I had been there since 5:30am). I did feel quite bad for my mother as she had to wait there the whole time. The hospital that I had my surgery in requires you to urinate after you've had surgery before you can leave. I'm sure you can imagine how difficult that is since I could barely keep my eyes open and didn't have anything to drink for over twelve hours (you fast starting at midnight the night before surgery though I started at 9:30pm or so). I was incredibly happy once I finally got home and think I slept for a full 24 hours straight. My brother was kind enough to stay at my home and take care of me while I was recovering. He did a very good job which I was fairly suprised about since a couple times in the past year he has shown that he can be a bit irresponsible. Fortunately I didn't experience any pain other than when I first woke up from surgery (though I've had oral surgery twice before and don't remember being in pain from either of those surgeries). It was a bit uncomfortable at times but I was given a prescription for Vicodin for any pain I experienced. They took bone out of the bottom right side of my jaw so for a while I wasn't able to lay on that side. The swelling was horiffic to say the least. I was tempted to take a photo for future reference but was scared of that photo somehow finding it's way to the internet. My cheeks were ballooned out like a chipmunk as was the area around the bottom of my nose. My top lip was about three times the size it normally is. Needless to say I didn't show my face in public until most of the facial swelling had gone down. I did have to go on a liquid/pureed food diet. I was not told how long I was supposed to stay on that diet so about five days after the surgery I started eating soft foods (chicken and pasta mainly). I got a talking down to from my mom because of that. Apparently I wasn't supposed to eat anything other than liquid and pureed foods for two weeks. I mentioned to her that she had probably told me that when I was drugged up after the surgery and that of course I wouldn't be able to remember anything told to me.

I had two trips planned for this month. Unfortunately both of them had to be cancelled due to the surgery. I was a bit optimistic when planning my oral surgery six days before my trip to New Orleans for Mardi Gras (my brother's 21st birthday present from me). Granted the surgery was supposed to have taken place last month but due to insurance changes it was switched to February. Luckily we were able to switch the flights and hotel room to dates in March. My brother and I talked about it and decided it was probably a good idea anyways to not go during Mardi Gras as everything would be incredibly packed. Two weeks after the surgery I had a follow up appointment so the doctor could see how everything was healing. I did receive some bad news (well it was bad for the time being but good in the long run) that made me end up cancelling my trip to New York City (I was flying out that night). I really disapointed my girlfriend Hailey because of this decision. We were going to NYC for a self growth conference that took place over the weekend. She was tremedously excited because one of our favorite authors Louis Hay was speaking during the convention. I suggested she not miss the opportunity to see her speaking live and just go by herself (which to be fair to her is not that much fun if you are by yourself). Fortunately I was able to switch my tickets for the conference in February to the conference in NYC in October. I also can't help remembering the fact that the conference was supposed to have took place in November but had to be postponed due to the hurricane Sandy.

I did one shoot this month. As I had already shot my solo scenes (two videos and two photo sets) I only had my hardcore scene/photo set to shoot to complete the month's updates. The hardcore scene I put up this month is my 30th hardcore scene ever. I decided to hire professional male talent as all of the male talent I have used on my website have been amateurs. Though is more expensive to hire male talent it is totally worth it in my opinion. The shoot went very well though I'm a bit bummed I wasn't able to use my football pasties since they hadn't arrived by the shoot date. We decided on doing a facial ending. I love having a guy cum on my face (or any other part of my body)...I don't like having that cum in my mouth. I've done two or three cum in mouth scenes and haven't particularly cared for any of them. It's amusing because I have no problem with doing a gangbang, double penetration or even triple penetration (none of which I've actually done before...unfortunately) but when it comes to having a guy cum in my mouth I have to mentally prepare myself for it. I guess this freak has her limitations. I do need to learn to keep my mouth open during facial scenes because it looks a bit silly having my mouth closed while waiting for or receiving a facial. At least I'm not one of those girls who backs away at the last second when receiving a facial.

I'm in the second round of the Miss Freeones (http://miss.freeones.com/danielle-ftv/)contest. You can continue voting for me everyday until the next round (and if I make it to the next round continue voting for me then).

[danielle_ftv]

Mar. 25, 2013
My astrological moon sign description (so true!!!!)

Moon Sign for 29 May 1988 20:25:00 CDT:
Scorpio Degree: 21° 19'
Intense, devoted, purposeful and persevering. Likes everything that is strong and powerful, adores hot water. Hates being exposed or overpowered.

The Moon feels uncomfortable in Scorpio because the intensity and the permanent inner struggle of this sign contradict the Moon's idea of comfortable life. The Moon in Scorpio individuals are often overfilled with difficult, powerful emotions, and it may be difficult for them to recognize that the source of these emotions is inside of themselves. They might paint into dark colours the surrounding world, become bitter, revengeful or aggressive. They might choose to fill their life with conspiracy or select such a lifestyle that they are seldom seen in public.

The limitless energy of Scorpio, when being revealed through lunar functions, makes people insatiable in one or another respect. Some of them can have a passion towards food, others towards sex, or money, or work, or power, or drugs, or anything else. If the Moon in Scorpio individuals have decided to pursue some goal, it can be difficult for them to stop until they hitsome external limits. Such a lifestyle can be rather destructive for their health, and sexual functions and organs might be the most vulnerable.

The Moon in Scorpio folks intuitively understand many things which are secret or hidden. They can make mysterious, deep impression on the other people, as if mesmerizing those of the opposite gender. However, to achieve harmony in their relationships, they need to teach themselves how to most harmlessly unload the disturbing, dark component of their energy, and that's not easy. Sex is the most natural way for them to unwind, and satisfying sexual life is a must for the Lunar Scorpios. Another way to harmonize inner energy which many of them appreciate is to soak in a very hot water - so hot, that most people would consider it intolerable.

These individuals like everything strong, concentrated, saturated, so some amount of good old whisky or cognac can be a healing elixir for them.

The Moon in Scorpio can be a difficult parent. This person can go from one extreme to the other, such as from being extremely generous to being extremely mean. The subconscious aim here is to gain total control over the child's soul, and as a result, a very close and intense relationship might develop between the parent and the child.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 2, 2013
A fan sent me an email telling me about a Blackberry app that I am featured in. While it is incredibly flattering that I am part of the app I do hope that my watermark was not removed from the photos. Unfortunately content stealing is a huge issue in the adult film industry. It's a problem that we will continue dealing with until extreme measures are taken and even then it will still be a problem just not on the scale it is today. I live in a world were people think it's okay to view my content for free (I'm not talking about affiliate sites which send traffic my way which have small galleries and short clips of my videos on their site). They don't think about the fact that I'm losing money when my videos are added to tube sites and torrent sites. I spend quite a bit of money to shoot a scene. Talent has to be paid (and if I'm hiring talent through an agency then I have to pay the agency as well), my photographer has to be paid, new toys, shoes, and clothing have to be bought for every scene. Not to mention that I rent a resort room almost every month to shoot in (using the same location every shoot gets boring to my members).

This month was the first time I hired professional male talent from LA. It cost about twice as much to hire him vs hiring local professional male talent or even amateur talent found from SexyJobs or Craigslist. I have a fairly large list of professional male talent represented through talent agencies so I made the (right) decision to start crossing them off my list. I hired Xander Corvus through an LA talent agency. I've had a crush on him after seeing him online and have spent quite a bit of time cyber stalking him (which I did admit to him). My photographer and I picked him up from the airport (and were late doing so). My photographer and I had been shooting content to cover updates for the month of March and figured two and a half hours would give us enough time to shoot three scenes and three photosets and get to the airport by the time he landed. That didn't turn out to be the case. We were about ten minutes late arriving to the airport and I found out that Xander's flight arrived about ten minutes earlier than expected. We parked on the opposite end of the airport terminal so had to race to the other side. My photographer thought it would be a good idea to meet him at baggage claim so we went down what we thought were the correct escalators only to find out that they didn't lead to the baggage claim floor. My photographer jokingly told me that it would be funny if we saw Xander heading down the escalator to baggage claim as we were stuck on the floor above him. Low and behold right as he was saying that I saw Xander on the escalator. I was suprised when I saw that he had brought a small suitcase with him. No one had told him what the wardrobe situation was so he took it on himself to bring extra clothing with him (which wasn't needed). I was incredibly nervous about meeting Xander. I explained to him that he was the first male talent that I was hiring from an agency. I think he was quite flattered and in his words "turned on" by me being nervous around him. He really was an interesting character. 24 years old and what I would describe as a bad boy/rocker/player. In other words the worst type of guy to fall for. The drive to the hotel where we were shooting was entertaining. A camera was set up to film Xander and I talking. Watching the video from the car conversation was quite amusing and I think that my fans will be amused as well. We discussed blacksmithing, zombies, the AVN and Xbiz award shows....and other topics. The hotel we shot in was absolutely lovely. I was hesitant to shoot in the hotel because it was a casino hotel and I know they have a lot of staff watching what is going on. The room was perfect as far as lighting and space goes. I definitely plan on booking the room again for more of my shoots. The scene itself was absolutely amazing. I mean mind blowing, rock your world, AMAZING! I will admit I think I fell in love (probably lust) with Xander during the scene. I do fall in love incredibly easy. Mind blowing, intimate sex and orgasms are a great way to make me fall in love with a person. I wonder if I will end up falling for more of the male talent I shoot with. What was incredible was that even after the scene wrapped up when Xander and I were showering together we ended up going at it again. I do plan on hiring him again for a shoot but hope that I will be able to spend some time with him outside of "work".

I spent about half the month sick. Right before my trip to New Orleans (I took my brother there for his 21st birthday present) I started coming down with a nasty cold. Unfortunately it lasted the whole time I was in Nola and continued after I got back home. Traveling while you are sick is a huge pain in the butt. I had vertigo the whole half of the trip. I did book three tours for my brother and I to attend (a airboat swamp tour, a vampire tour and a pirate tour). We didn't make it to any of them. A few of the days I ventured outside the hotel (mostly to get food). The oysters in New Orleans were incredible! I've never had such fresh oysters before. I was also on a mission to find a croque madame (one of my favorite foods). Fortunately I was able to find it in a lovely French restaurant. Two of the nights I went out drinking with my brother. I did have a one night stand with a cute Indian man. The sex was lame to be honest. It really reminded me why I don't have one night stands. Though is probably wasn't all that fantastic because I was more interested in hooking up with his friend. I will travel to New Orleans again. I won't be staying in a hotel on Bourbon street though. Talk about loud! There was a jazz band performing and some guy singing Amazing Grace over and over again in the wee hours of the morning right on the street outside the hotel.

I recently blocked a guy on my Twitter for asking me if my brother watched my videos. He had been aggravating me by his bombardment of uber sexual Tweets. I understand that I am naked, masturbating and sometimes having sex on camera but having someone send me Tweets multiple times a day telling me in graphic detail sexual acts he wants to perform on me, not to mention telling me that he loves me and that I am his wife (and sometimes his girlfriend), and that he would get me pregnant can get old incredibly fast. So after reading his Tweet about my brother watching my videos I had finally had enough and blocked him. Surprisingly (not) he created a new Twitter account and followed me again asking me to forgive him. Last month I made a video log discussing how I needed my privacy and how certain things were off limits to my fans. I put so much of my life out there (more than a lot of porn girls do) and it sometimes seems like people just want to push for more. Having fans ask me for photos of my family is just wrong. Having fans ask for my phone number and real name is also not acceptable. Some of them don't understand that I need a part of my life that isn't "exposed" to my fans. I feel like some fans just want to take, take, take. They constantly ask me to post photos on Twitter (I can guarantee you the guys that constantly ask for free photos are not members of my website). They go in uber Tweet mode when they see that I haven't been Tweeting for over 24 hours even when I've told them that I'm on vacation or going into surgery and would be recovering for a while. I've also been getting comments about the male talent I've been using. My first IR (interracial) scene wasn't a "real" IR scene according to one of my fans because the male talent wasn't black enough for him (the male talent was Puerto Rican and African American...and also shorter and smaller in body stature than I was). Last time I recalled interracial includes having sex with any guy that is not of your race. There have also been comments about my male talent being too hairy, their **** not being big enough or not liking that the talent is circumsized. It amazes me that guys are so focused on my male talent when they are supposed to be focused on me. I suppose I shouldn't be complaining about this though. I have fans...some are wonderful, some not so much. There are people who will complain about every little thing they can. At least the complaints aren't about me haha.

I signed up for a website that allows you to create and keep track of your bucket list. It also allows you to view other members bucket lists. I've been wanting to create a bucket list for the longest time. I also created a list of things I had completed already (like traveling to New Zealand and sky diving). Writing out the list of things I've done really made me recognize how lucky I've been. I've been fortunate enough to have the time and money (or boyfriends/friends with money) that allows me to experience amazing some amazing things. I've been having a very fun time creating a list of what I would like to do. I've already contacted businesses about taking cello lessons, taking krav maga lessons and attending a blacksmith workshop (which I will be doing in May).

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 2, 2013
continued...

One of my fans recently got me in contact with Mike Adriano (king of POV anal porn). We were supposed to shoot at the end of March but ultimately rescheduled for May. Originally my plan for the industry was that I was going to shoot with a select group of companies only (for b/g, g/g and solo). That changed to shooting b/g with a select group of companies and then being available for solo scenes with any company. At this point I really have no idea what I would like to do. My ideal situation would be to win the jackpot lottery (don't laugh...it will happen) and shoot with anyone and everyone to my heart's content. Unfortunately until I do win the lottery I can't put myself in a position were I lose website members because of too much content of me floating out there. One of the main reasons people join my website is because you can only find a limited amount of content of me shot with other companies out on the interweb. Women that have their own site and keep absolutely exclusive to it tend to make the most money. I think members also get aggravated because in order for them to have all the content I shoot they would have to join many other sites (if I shoot with other companies). It can end up being costly to collect all of my scenes. I do plan on freelancing and talking to companies about shooting with them and using that content on my site (as well as their site) rather than being paid. I figure if I put a link to their website and keep their watermark on the video and photos that shouldn't be too much of an issue. Unfortunately the company that Mike Adriano works with (EvilAngel) will only distribute exclusive content. Mike and I came to the agreement that we would shoot a scene for EA and the next day shoot a scene for my site. I am incredibly excited about shooting with him. I haven't done a b/g anal scene in seven months. His scenes last anywhere from 50 minutes to an hour and 30 minutes. Depending on how long the scene is I can break it down to two to four scenes. I plan on putting up two of the scenes from the shoot in May (kind of a birthday present from me to my members). I did buy several garter belts to use for the scenes since he told me he had a liking for garter belts and stockings. I need to start anal training so that I can shoot the scenes with ease. I have an anal plug that is 7.34" around that I think will do a terrific job stretching me out. I tempted to ask Mike to measure how many inches around his **** is so that I can make sure whatever toy I use for anal training is large enough. I have an anal speculum a fan bought for me that I will bring with me to the shoot (hopefully we will use it). I've also found some beautiful, extra large decorative butt plugs (http://www.rosebuds.net/fr/rosebuds_big_bud_rose-2-fr-124.aspx) I would love to use during the shoot (they are quite expensive though :( ).

My "Film with a Fan" contest ended. Five people submitted stories to me; unfortunately only three of them were eligible (two weren't members of my site). I was pleasantly surprised how well written and elaborate the stories were. I did decide to let all three eligible submissions win since I was having such a difficult time choosing the winner.

There is a possibility (actually not so much a possibility since I am 98% sure it will happen) that I will be getting braces. I contacted an orthodontist that is part of my cosmetic dentist's team about having my teeth straightened out. We had an initial consultation and afterwards I had extensive x-rays and photos taken of my mouth/teeth. The orthodontist told me that he would be able to put them on the interior (braces on the inside of your teeth rather than on the outside) and that it could take anywhere from eight months to a year before they come off. My biggest concern about having interior braces is what it would feel like for a man when I give him a blowjob. I've researched this topic a bit and have read that the vast majority of the time the braces can't be felt. Some advised that dental wax be used on the upper braces if there was any concern about the braces being felt. That is advice I will be using.

I was in a car accident a few days ago. Interestingly enough a psychic I saw on Saturday the 23rd told me not to use my phone in the car and that if I did I would be in an accident. I listened to her advice for a couple days after it being given. The accident happened because I was reading a text sent from a friend and ran straight through a red light. Witnesses said that I slowed down before the light...I honestly don't know what happened. I did see that the light was red but for some reason my brain did not register it. I remember being in the middle of the road and seeing the other car coming at me in the corner of my eye. I wondered why there was a car coming at me and then registered that the light was red. It was an incredibly terrifying experience and one I hope never to experience again. I was so fortunate that I wasn't hurt (well other than some major bruises, minor burns and abrasions). I'm not sure what happened to the woman in the other car as I never spoke with her nor saw her. The fire fighters told me that she was complaining about her neck and back hurting. I thought that was interesting considering her car was in considerable less damage than mine was (from what I saw only the front right was of the car was damaged). I have no idea what is going on with my vehicle right now. I'm hoping that they can repair it though doubt that they will be able to since the damage was extensive. In the meantime I am driving a cute little Fiat.

[danielle_ftv]

May 1, 2013
I'm editing a video that was supposed to be put up yesterday (the Richie Meets Danielle hardcore video). I decided to use my new desktop computer to edit and process the video. It seems to go way quicker than processing on my laptop. I don't care for the new version of Window's Movie Maker (that is what I use to edit the videos). Watermarking and capturing screen shots on it is tedious and time consuming compared to using the older version of Movie Maker. I've used a screenshot capture program but didn't care for it because the photos would turn out blurry or unflattering.

I had braces put on yesterday. Nobody (except my cosmetic dentist) thought I needed them. I've had braces before (from 16 to 18 or 19) but because I didn't wear the retainer afterwards my teeth shifted out of place. My current braces are on the inside of my teeth on the top and on the outside of my teeth on the bottom. I am not liking having braces on the inside of my teeth and have contacted the orthodontist about having them moved to the outside (and switched with clear brackets). I know that after a week or so you get used to having them inside your teeth but I don't feel like they would be a good fit with my lifestyle (it doesn't help that I can't eat or drink anything right now without my tongue scraping against them). Originally I wanted the top braces on the inside of my teeth because I didn't want them seen during my shoots. I've come to the realization that blow jobs are going to be difficult with them in the position they are in now. I would rather have a year (well 8 months to a year) worth of content with braces in view than not be able to give a quality blow job. I go in tomorrow to have them worked on again. I will be talking to the orthodontist about moving them then. I'm hoping he can do so as soon as possible as I am leaving for LA on the 8th (for the Mike Adriano shoot).

The car situation has turned out better than expected. I bought a new car a week after the accident. It's a black 2013 328i fully loaded with a sports and comfort package. I am in love with it and have been enjoying fiddling around with the gadgets inside of it. I haven't been playing with my phone while driving since the accident. The dealership listed the price of the old car as $32,000 or so. From what I was originally told my insurance was only going to pay out $27,000. Interestingly enough when I checked the status of the claim I saw that they were issuing a check to BMW for the full price. I also received a check from my insurance for $1400. I'm not sure why but I'm not going to question it. I was a bit aggravated that it took over twenty days before BMW sent in the info needed to the insurance company. Part of me wonders if they did that because they wanted the next car payment (which came out on the 18th). I'm tempted to reverse the payment since I wouldn't have been charged if BMW had sent in one piece of paperwork before the 18th. The lady I hit has contacted my insurance to find out about my insurance limits. I received a letter in the mail asking if I would release the info (they have to get your permission before releasing it). I am not willing to release that info as I feel it's just a way for her to get as much money out of this as she can. I did find out that I have to take a traffic survival school course. I was hoping that I could take it online but unfortunately it can only be taken in a classroom. I do remember my driver's ed class being entertaining so I'm hoping this class will be entertaining as well. It's held in Tempe so I imagine most of the students will be around my age.

I attended an industry only convention called The Phoenix Forum. This was my third year attending the convention. Unlike many other industry conventions this convention is for industry people only (no fans allowed). Unlike the previous years I've attended there weren't many models present. I did make friends with a cute model named Carmen who I will be working with at some point (I think as soon as she finishes school for the semester). I didn't realize how many attractive guys there were in the industry until this forum. If I had let the inner slut out I would've banged seven or eight guys during the event. I also met this tiny, American-Asian webmaster that I fell in lust with. She invited me to her room (as did three other people) but sadly enough I did not take her up on her offer (what was I thinking!). I will possibly be attending three industry only conventions this year in Europe so perhaps I will be lucky enough to meet a few of them while there and take advantage of the opportunity I didn't during the forum.

I was invited by an industry friend (who I am hoping will end up more than a friend) to the Scottsdale Culinary Arts Festival. It was my first time attending the festival. We didn't spend that much time there since I am not a fan of the sun. We saw my brother there who was working at one of the restaurant booths (he is a server at some southwestern restaurant).

My hardcore shoot this month was with a handsome gentleman named Richie Calhoun. I hadn't seen too much of his work online so I the days before the shoot was spent Googling him. Picking him up at the airport was entertaining. I had given the agent my phone number to give to Richie. J (my photographer) and I were late (again) getting to the airport to pick the talent up. Fortunately Richie wasn't out of the security area yet so I had time to show J Richie's photo so he would know who to look out for. I told Richie that we would be waiting for him outside of security. I don't think he remembered though because he glanced around really quick before heading to the escalator down to baggage claim. I don't think he realized that he was shooting with me. He seemed surprised (in a good) way when he found out that we would be working together. So far both male talent I've hired from LA have become quite frisky with me before the shoot. I'm wondering if that is common or if the chemistry between the talent and I is just that amazing lol. I definitely plan on hiring Richie again. I'm actually hoping that he will be one of the members in the gangbang I want to shoot with Hardcoregangbangs.com

[danielle_ftv]

Jun. 01, 2013
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[danielle_ftv]

June 29, 2013
For the past couple of days now I feel like I've been running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. I'm heading out to LA on the 30th and won't be back in Phoenix again until late on the 15th. I will also be traveling to Chicago for eXXXotica. July is going to be an incredibly busy month for me as far as traveling goes. It's exciting (I feel like I'm finally being productive) but at the same time trying to get prepared has been quite hectic.

This was my first full month signed up with LA Direct Models. I feel like I've been on their case a lot recently. I've been contacting them quite a bit about my shoots, eXXXotica, and my photos on their site. Originally they had picked photos that I felt didn't showed me off to my best potential (I asked them to pick photos from the past few years). When I asked them to choose different photos they chose photos from 2009 or so (back when I was about 15 pounds lighter, with darker hair and darker tattoos). I wasn't thrilled at all about them using those photos so I made the decision to shoot brand new photos just for the talent site. Problem is half the photos we shot I didn't particularly like. I love how bright the photos are especially compared to most of the other girl's photos on the talent site...I love the way my photographer shoots...so I'm not sure why I'm not happy with the photos we took. It also doesn't help that I had a huge gap in my teeth because of my teeth moving (due to the braces). Fortunately I had that fixed as soon as I was able to.

I was a bit bummed that I didn't get more work while I was in LA at the beginning of the month. Granted I had just signed up with the agency so not a lot of producers knew/know who I am. The first scene I did this month was with Reality Kings for their Big Naturals site. The business location where talent goes to have makeup and wardrobe done was in this industrial area with a lot of buildings. Unfortunately I ended up being a couple minutes late because I couldn't figure out what building they were in. While walking up to the door I saw Gianna Michaels. I was surprised at how small she is. I'm not sure if she's lost weight (that was my first time seeing her in person) or the camera adds pounds but she wasn't as "thick" as I was expecting her to be. There were two other girls in makeup/wardrobe when I arrived. One girl was Kiera Winters. I got a kick out of seeing her there because I have a huge crush on her and actually named an update for her ("Horny for Kiara"). None of us really talked...I think it was too early and we were all preoccupied with our phones or talking to the makeup artists. The wardrobe lady had me try on several bikinis and swimsuits. We ended up going with this sexy black bikini with slinky straps connecting the top and bottom and black Louboutin's (my first time wearing that brand). The shoot location was at some gorgeous home up in the hills overlooking the city. Not only was my male talent (Mick Blue) incredibly hot, so was the P.A., the director/photographer...even the homeowner was attractive. Part of the scene was shot in the pool, the rest was shot on a couch outside. The scene ended up turning out really well in my opinion. I'm not sure when it will be out. I've been told that it usually takes about two months before a scene will be out.

My scene the next day was with Naughty America for their My Girlfriend's Busty Friend site. I didn't realize that the home we were shooting at was in a gated community. As soon as I saw that and that you had to stop at the gate guard station I bailed out and called up my agency to see what I needed to do to get in. Fortunately that was pretty easy to figure out and I didn't have any trouble with the guard. I was first to arrive at the shoot home. The P.A. and director/photographer were a couple minutes behind me. The makeup artist was quite late but that wasn't a huge deal since I had to fill out the model paperwork. Naughty America does script scenes which was a first for me. Finding out that it was a script scene and that I had to learn my lines in a short amount of time really frazzled my nerves. It didn't help when I found out that I was shooting with Johnny Castle (I have a huge crush on him and had him on my "To Do" list). Needless to say I was incredibly nervous around him and couldn't quite gather the nerve to speak to him until we started rehearsing our lines. We did improv the lines quite a bit but I think it turned out to be more authentic than if we had gone straight off the script. I made some mistakes and I think we had to shoot at least 4 takes. Being as it was my first time doing a script scene I wasn't sure what to expect so when I would flub a line I would become really flustered and agitated with myself. At one point during the blowjob portion the director stopped the video and told us that it was boring and that I needed to make some noise. I wasn't exactly sure what sort of noise he expected of me so I proceeded to do the typical porno moan. It was quite different than what I'm used to to say the least. The sex with Johnny was incredible. I think he did end up cumming in my eye. I've always heard that it hurts to have cum in your eye...interestingly enough that wasn't the case with me. I wonder if it's because I wear contacts which partially protects my eyes. After the scene I went to clean up and pack away my wardrobe. Lexi Belle and Dillion Harper were shooting a scene right after mine so they were preparing in the wardrobe/makeup room as well. I didn't chat with either of them but I got a kick out of seeing Lexi in person.

The next day I was supposed to shoot an anal scene for Naughty America with Mr Pete. Unfortunately I wasn't able to get clean enough (if you know what I mean) so the scene had to be cancelled. I was hoping that it could be switched to a normal b/g scene but unfortunately that wasn't to be. I was pretty upset because being brand new to the industry you don't want things like this to happen. I am concerned about what the director (the same person who shot the previous NA scene) thinks about me now.

My next scene wasn't until the following week. It was for Brazzer's Baby Got Boobs site. The director/photographer was totally hot but unfortunately taken. He told me that working with Brazzers would really boost my career and that I will probably be big with Brazzer's fans since I have the look that the viewers like. The shoot took a lot longer than previous shoots (I was there from 9am to about 6 or 7pm). I wasn't bothered by it though my talent agent seemed annoyed. I worked with a hot Latin guy named Clover. Apparently he has only been in the industry for about half a year. He did a spectacular job in my opinion. The scene was another scripted scene. It was incredibly amusing and I think people will get a kick out of the scenario. Craven Moorehead was shooting in the same studio so I was able to briefly introduce myself to him. He's another one that is attractive (that seems to be a theme with people in porn). One of the female actresses shooting for him was Mia Malkova (another girl I have a crush on). What's quite funny is on the form I filled out for Brazzer's one of the questions was who I wanted to work with or who I had a crush on in the industry (I can't remember exactly what question it was). One of the girls I had listed was Mia Malkova. I was quite shy around her (I tend to be shy around people that I lust after) but I did manage to introduce myself.

One of the days I was in LA I went on "go see's" with my agency. One other girl (Laela Price) joined the talent agent and I. For my first time going on "go see's" I was actually quite happy that it was with only one other girl. We went to four or five businesses, passed out our talent sheet (I'm not quite sure if that's what it is called...it's a paper with a photo, stats and what you are available for) and talked with the talent coordinators. I feel like I wasn't as outgoing as I could've been. I do have plans for future "go see's" that I think will make me stand out from the crowd.

I shot with Erotique TV on the last day of my trip. That day did not go the way I planned. The shoot was a live broadcast. My agent specifically told me that I could not cancel or be late. The company wanted me there 45 minutes before the broadcast start time. The shoot location was in downtown LA...I live in Sherman Oaks. I did not realize that it would take at least 45 minutes to get to the shoot location (I only gave myself 30 minutes). So I plugged the address into the GPS and head to the location knowing I was most likely going to be late. I got to the location, parked in a garage (not having any cash on me I had to ask the garage attendant if I could pay him later) and rushed down to find the studio. After about five minutes of looking and talking on the phone with Eric John (the male talent and owner of Erotique TV) I realized that I had entered "east" and not "west" when I plugged in the address. I raced to the parking garage, threw my shoot luggage in the car and raced to the correct address. I again parked in a paid parking lot and asked the parking attendant if I could pay him later. Dude would not let me do that so I had to have Eric come down and pay for the parking. Needless to say I have been carrying cash on me ever since. I felt awful because I'm never late like that. I'm not sure how late we were, but fortunately nobody complained about it. I had only done live webcam shows on my site and one on Chaturbate so being fairly inexperienced (I had only done one b/g live webcam show before) I was a bit nervous. Eric was amazing...the chemistry between us was incredible. There were two parts to the show. I had a 12 minute break in between shows to get dressed. I ended up running late on the second show because I was trying to get my heels strapped on though I think it was worth it (my outfit was so sexy).

[danielle_ftv]

June 29, 2013
continued...

I recently did an interview with Xcitement magazine. They only distribute in Georgia and Florida though I did ask for a box of magazines to give out to my fans. Getting a hold of the lady who did the interview was a bit of a pain. One of our phones was acting screwy so neither one of us could get a hold of the other until over 10 minutes after the interview start time. Fortunately we finally did reach other and ended up having a great conversation. I found out that she ran a porn blog that I've been following for years. The magazine should be out sometime in July.

I am doing my first convention signing (at the LA Direct Models booth) at eXXXotica in Chicago. I am tremendously excited about it and have been planning fun things I can do during it. I shot a solo scene that I burned to dvd and will be selling (along with my worn panties) during the convention. I will also be selling a dvd I was in (Big Breast Amateurs #12 by Homegrown Video). Apparently I will be sharing a room with one of the LA Direct girls. I'm not sure who I will be rooming with but Derek promised me that it would be someone sane.

This month for my hardcore update I hired Johnny Castle to be my male talent. He doesn't seem to be a huge fan of traveling for work so we agreed to shoot two scenes while he was out here. My photographer set up the GoPro camera in his car so we got a good 30 minutes or so of video of Johnny and I chatting. I reserved a room at the same resort Xander Corvus and I had shot in (mainly because the lighting is wonderful and we don't have to lug in bags of lights). The original room that I had booked was a large suite. As soon as we walked in we knew it wasn't going to work because it was so dark inside. There was a lovely patio outside that I decided to have a peek around (to see if we would be able to shoot out there). It would've worked if there weren't wasps flying around. Two of them managed to fly into the room (the boys were able to kill one of them). Knowing that there was a wasp still flying around and seeing how dark the room was we made the decision to downgrade to the same room we had shot in before. Johnny and I shot two scenes for my site (one a cum in mouth scene and the other a creampie scene).

My sister is in town from New Hampshire. I didn't realize that she was coming into town otherwise I would've cleared my schedule a bit. I did end up picking her up from the airport (mainly because I live five minutes away from it while my parent's live 25-30 minutes away from it). Unfortunately that was pretty much the only time I've seen her while she's been here.

I found a place to live in while I am in LA. The cost of renting a place for a couple weeks was becoming pretty pricey. I looked into renting an apartment but even that was more than I was willing to spend. My mother suggested I look into getting a roommate which turned out to be a good suggestion financially. The place I am living at now (for half the month at least) is in Sherman Oaks (a really good area in my opinion). I have my own small bedroom with a private bathroom. The bedroom has French doors that open to a huge backyard. The lady I am living with is an interesting character. She's in her early 50's (I thought she was in her 40's), a former tv actress, off Broadway actress and opera singer. Every so often she will belt out in old 40's music. She's a spiritual person which appeals to me. At first I told her that I was a webmaster. While that isn't a lie it isn't the whole truth. She offered me various work with her company and other companies which made things pretty difficult. A few days after moving in I came clean and told her that I was in the porno business. At first she seemed okay with it telling me while she isn't conservative that she didn't want it brought around her (which I can completely understand and respect). The next day after she had thought about it for a long while she decided to have a discussion with me on how she thinks it's her duty to get me out of the business (even going so far as to start praying for me...right in front of me). She also interrogated me about why I had decided to get into the business and if I enjoyed it or not (she didn't seem to accept the truthful answers I gave her which I found quite annoying). She seems to think that I want to be in mainstream (as a model or actress) though I haven't said anything about wanting to. She even offered to start finding me modeling and acting gigs and told me that she would manage me...for a fee of course. I figure the next time she tries to lecture me on being in the business I will have a discussion with her about the fact that I am an ideal roommate and that my being in porn is what pays the bills.

I recently entered into a dom/sub relationship with Master James (the male talent I used to shoot with). We had a long three hour bdsm session at the den he works at a couple weeks ago. I was incredibly bruised up afterwards and still have some slight bruising from the cane he was using on my thighs. We are planning on doing at least one bdsm session a month. Having to work around both of our schedules (especially my shoot schedule) is going to be difficult but doable. Master James had attended a course on needle play. During the session he wanted to use the needles on me but I had become very faint a few times at the beginning of the session and figured it wouldn't be a good idea to start sticking needles in me. I am going to buy a whole selection of play needles in different sizes so that he can use them on me. While I've been pierced, pierced myself and have been tattooed something about having someone else shove a needle through my skin makes me quite faint feeling.

[danielle_ftv]

Aug. 26, 2013
This month has been a bit stressful for me. Between all the traveling, shooting and everything else in my life I haven't had time to sit down and write down my thoughts and what's been going on in my life. I have emails I haven't answered. The emails I have answered have taken me ages to answer. I haven't updated my website in a while because I don't have all of my editing gear here in LA. My laptop is acting up (time to buy a new laptop). I also need to buy a desktop that I can keep in LA for editing. I had created a video journal entry for July...come to find out I had accidently turned off the audio so I ended up losing that video and parts of the "LA Car Conversations Pt. 2" video.

July was an insanely busy month for me as far as travel goes. I attended the eXXXotica Chicago convention with the LADirectModels group. It was my first convention and I had a blast. I roomed with Sarah Blake (who I've had a crush on for ages). She was the perfect roommate and I hope to room with her again during future trips. I met quite a few of my amazing fans during the convention. One of them brought me some rose body butter which I thought was incredibly kind. I didn't sell out of the exlusive Chicago: eXXXotica dvds like I was hoping I would. That's not too much of an issue though...I will probably end up giving them to fans who buy something for me off my Amazon wishlist. I did make a list of things I would like to bring with me to the next convention (dvd stand, binder for magazines and autograph pics...). I competed in the Miss eXXXotica contest, only for the first night though. It wasn't exactly the way I thought it would be. From what I was told the contestants were all going to go on stage and introduce themselves and tell the audience why they should win the contest (or something like that). The next night we would do some sort of show for the audience and then the winner would be picked. Come to find out they wanted the contestants to go up and "entertain" the crowd for 30 seconds. Needless to say I didn't have any dance moves prepared so I ended up trembling the whole time while shaking my boobs and butt. I can't imagine I looked that sexy. I probably won't be competing in something like that again. There were some buttheads at the convention. They mostly were trying to haggle with me on silly things like the price for a photo with me (the first night I didn't charge people to take a photo with me but learned quickly that it would be a smart decision to do so). I loved the women fans that would come up and introduce themselves. I think I was more flirty with them than with the men. I did meet a special fan (JohnnyCastleFan) who talked with me for a while (she was great company).

During the month of July I did six shoots...two with Jay Sin for Evil Angel. Both of those scenes were g/g anal...and pretty extreme anal scenes to be honest. One of them was an anal strap on scene. I'm lucky I'm not a guy! Trying to thrust like a man is not something I particularly care for. In the other scene I shoved an 18" dildo all the way up my butthole. I was so proud of that accomplishment and plan on buying longer and bigger toys to use anally. I shot for Twistys as well. The photo set from that shoot is currently out (not sure when the video will be out). I did two live b/g sex scene for Erotique and one live solo scene (and two solo picture sets) for CherryPimps. I was flown out to San Francisco to shoot for Kink's Hogtied. I've always wanted to shoot for Kink and was incredibly pleased with my first shoot for them. My scenes for Brazzer's BabyGotBoobs and NaughtyAmerica's MyGirlfriendsBustyFriend came out in July.

[danielle_ftv]

Sept. 13, 2013
I wanted to apologize about the erratic updating schedule. Between traveling back and forth from LA to Phoenix it's been difficult to shoot, edit and update content. I brought my PC with me on this trip and will be editing the content from my last shoot (a b/g scene with Tommy Pistol) and the content from my upcoming shoot on the 28th (all solo scenes). Tommy and I will be shooting again sometime this month with a photographer/videographer that lives in LA. I will probably end up shooting my Halloween updates in early November (possibly in late October). I'm still waiting to order the costume (the guy who custom makes the armor has been incredibly hard to reach).

I also brought my webcam with me so soon I will start doing webcam shows at my new home in LA.

[danielle_ftv]

Apr. 08, 2014
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